(A/N: This chapter is about some of Rogues past and it sort of explains why Kitty has been moody lately. Enjoy!)

-

Chapter: Pain, Hurt, and Guilt.

She's Miss Sunshine.

Miss Prep.

Miss Average teenager.

Miss 'Let's go shopping!'

Miss Cute.

Miss 'Everyone loves you.'

Miss Shallowness.

Miss Grace

Miss Hollow in the heart.

Misstaken for perfection.

Miss 'No one thinks she has something to hide'

She's Miss Kitty Pryde

-
-

At the Xavier Institute....

A girl now lies on a tear-soaked pillow that has hushed her cries of sorrow.

She wipes away her tears and takes out the letter that was given to her earlier that day.

That letter that caused them all.

That letter he gave her.

-

[Kitty,

I can't see you anymore. You have to understand that it wouldn't work out because I can't return those feelings you have for me and we are on two different sides of battle. I don't want to hurt you, so please stay away.]

-

"But you have hurt me." She said silently.

She puts the letter back in the end table by her bed.

Then she covered her face again, betting that she looks horrible and wishes not to look at herself.

She lied there, trying to let it all out.

If all of it was out, then all the ache in her heart would be gone.

That's what she wanted to think.

Despite her being a smart girl, she wasn't too bright when it came to the ways of love.

"You just don't know it, Lance."

Kitty then continued to cry.

-
-

They stood there in the alley and she took a cigarette out of her purse and lit it.

"I didn't know you smoked." Pietro said.

"There's a lot a thangs ya don't know 'bout me."

"Oh, is that so?" he smirked.

"Try me." She blew smoke in his face. "Ah bet that ah know more 'bout ya than ya do me."

"You're on." He grinned "And does this include history?"

"What?"

"Your history. You have a lot. And I know a lot about it."

"Like what?" she raised an eyebrow.

"Mystique is your mother."

"Yer not the only one who knows that."

"Your brother is blue-boy."

"Everyone at the institute knows that."

"I didn't want to have to bring this up, but" he started to bite his bottom lip "do you remember Cody?"

She inhaled much of the cigarette when he asked her this. It surprised her that he knew that. 'I never told anyone about that. Mystique was probably the only one who knew and I don't think she said anything to anyone. So how does he know?!' She inhaled a bit too much, so much that it made her cough.

"You ok?"

She continued coughing.

"Rogue?" asked with much worry.

She was holding her hands to her neck and started coughing harder.

'What do I do? What do I do?' Pietro asked himself, then he looked to the corner where he spotted 'The pizza place is right across the street.' He turned his head back to her "I'll be right back." He reassured her.

Then he sped off. Pietro went in the pizza place and got up to the counter "Ineedadrink!"

"Sir, please wait your turn. There were other customers that were here before you."

"Butthisisanemergency!" he said quickly.

"Sir, please calm down and wait your turn."

Pietro tried to do his best to stay out of trouble, but if this guy wasn't going to help him then he'd just help himself.

Pietro ended up running out with a large Sprite. 'I hope she's ok.' He thought. Then stopped dead in his tracks when he saw someone he was never happy to see.

"Thanks Evan." Rogue said.

'Daniels!' Pietro thought to his annoyance as he hid behind a corner. 'What the hell is he-' that's when he spotted the Gatorade in Rogue's hand. 'Damn you, Daniels. I ended up stealing this Sprite for nothin!' He thought to himself as he took a drink of it.

"It's no problem." Even replied. "What caused you to cough that bad anyway?"

"Uhh... allergies."

"I didn't know you had allergies."

"Uhh...y-yea! So the truth is out!" she fake smiled.

"So what are you allergic to?"

"It's...." she spotted her cigarette on the ground "smoking."

"Oh. Ok." He said unsure. "Well, I'll see you at the institute."

"See ya, Evan!"

She watched him ride off on his skateboard.

"If you're allergic to ciggies, then why are you smoking 'em?" Pietro smirked as he appeared from out of the corner.

"Shut up, Pietro." Rogue said in annoyance. "By the way, where were you?"

Pietro pulled up the Sprite "I guess you don't need this now."

"So ya were worried." She said surprised.

'Her eyes. I've never seen them like that. They look beautif-. What's wrong with me?!' when he finally snapped back into reality, "Well, I didn't want to hear you coughing all day!"

That look in her eyes had disappeared. "Well it wasn't my fault! Ya scared me like that!" then said "And how do you know about Cody? No one knows about him!"

"Someone had to find out, and it had happened to be me." He smirked. "I was party crashing and happened to come across the one you were at."

"Oh. Ah see." She gave him a cold look "So ah guess you have something else to torment me about."

"I told you before that I didn't want to bring it up." He reasoned. "Look, we've all got our little skeletons in our closets and I just happened to know y-"

Rogue cut him off "What about you? What do you have hidin?"

"That's none of your business."

"Well it wasn't your business to know what I did to Cody."

"I know it wasn't my business, but I just happened to be where you were at that moment! The moment you almost killed him."

"Whatever!" she walked away from him. 'I never would have killed him. I never meant to hurt him in the first place.'

"Where are you going?!"

"Ah'm going home!" she answered "Ah don't need to take this!" and she started to walk off again.

"Cody didn't need it either! He didn't need to be put in the hospital because of you!"

She stopped walking. Because it hurt. It hurt so much inside her. She turned around and walked up to him. "It was an accident." A single tear fell down her face. "If ah could, ah'd tell him ah was sorry. Ah'd beg him for forgiveness." She sniffled "But I doubt he'd want to see the creep who hurt him." She walked away from him.

At that moment, all he felt like doing was to take her in his arms and tell her he was sorry, but all he could do was stand there.

He felt something new coming over him.

It was something he had never thought he'd feel again.

And it's name was 'Guilt'.

-
-

"Uhh...Jean, why isn't Rogue with you?"

"She isn't here." Jean said coming out of the school building.

"What!?"

"It seems that she and Pietro decided not to do detention."

"She's with Pietro? Oh this is just great!"

"Scott, calm down. I'm sure she's around here somewhere."

"But she's with Pietro. He's probably going to try to get her to join them and Mystique! How can you stay calm?!"

"Rogue made it clear to us that she was staying with us."

"How clear? Did she make it out in writing?!"

Jean sighed and put her hand on Scott's forehead and relieved his tension.

"I'm sorry, Jean."

She smiled at him "It's all right."

"Ok, all we need to do is have you use your telepathy and tell us where she is."

Jean went on the mind search and found Rogue 'She's hurt. She's crying.'

'Pietro was right. It's all my fault.' Jean picked up what Rogue was thinking.

'What happened?'

'But I never meant to hurt Cody. It was an accident.'

'Who's Cody?' Jean asked herself.

'I'm probably better off dead! I'd be better off that way! At least I wouldn't be able to hurt anybody.'

'Oh my god!' she thought "No! Rogue, don't do it!"

'Jean?'

'Killing yourself will only bring people more pain.'

'Leave me alone! Get out of my head!'

'I'm only trying to help.'

'Well, don't! I can deal with this on my own.'

'But killing yourself won't solve anything.'

'I wasn't actually going to do it. I was only thinking about it, but now I'm rethinking.'

'Rogue, calm down. I'm sure that Cody is ok. Just-'

'How do you know about Cody?'

'I-'

'Just leave me alone!'

Jean stopped with her telepathy.

"Jean?"

She turned her head to see Scott. "Huh? What?"

"Did you find her?"

"No." she lied. 'If she doesn't want my help then that's fine with me.'

"Alright." Scott knew she was lying, but didn't say anything. He knew that if she was in any real trouble then Jean would've told him. 'That means she's probably already back at the institute or she's heading there.' He started his car up. 'Jean, why did you lie?' he looked to the road.

'Jean, why?'

-
-

Rogue was done with her internal conflict with Jean and was on her way back to the institute. On the way there, a car pulled up beside her.

"Need a ride?" a masculine voice asked.

"Ah'm fine walking." Rogue replied sternly.

"It is a long walk."

"Ah could use the exercise." Rogue replied.

"So you're sure you don't want a ride?"

"Scott, if she doesn't want to go then don't force her." Jean said simply without making eye contact with either of them.

Rogue was just as surprised as Scott to hear Jean say that. 'Is she feeling alright?'

"I'm fine, Rogue." Jean replied to Rogue's thoughtful question. "I can't say the same about you, though."

Rogue glared at Jean.

Scott, having no idea what's going on between them, turned his head from Jean to Rogue. "Last chance. Are you sure you don't need a lift?"

Rogue turned her attention back to Scott. "No, Scott. Ah'm fine. Ah'll see you guys at the institute." Then continued walking.

-

(A/N: Yea. Some of you remember who Cody is, right? If ya don't then he was blonde guy in Rogue's first eps. He was the first person she touched with her powers. In the next chapter, it'll tell some stuff about Pietro and there's gonna be some tension between him and Evan[it happens]. And Rogue has a little talk with Kitty. I hope I didn't give away too much about it! Well you know what to do know! Review and tell me what's what you thought about it!)