Chapter 8: Picking up the Pieces
"I hang my head and I advertise
A soul for sale or rent I have no heart, I'm cold inside I have no real intent
Save me, save me, save me I can't face this life alone Save me, save me, save me I'm naked and I'm far from home." - Save Me (Queen - Greatest Hits)
"Captain, we have located the ship," Grruun informed his commander. "It appears to have landed on NMerra. From what I've been able to scan, they are in one of the large forests. The sparse settlements are not anywhere near them. We should be able to approach from an angle that should hide us, if their sensors are back online."
Tuuvu listened intently to his helmsman, despite his desire to rush through things he needed to make sure he knew what he was getting into. Once the explanation was complete, he stated simply, "Do it."
"Aye, sir." Grruun immediately went to work plotting the course to follow his captain's commands.
Tuuvu began to move around the forward cabin checking systems and preparing himself mentally for what lay ahead. Kuuur had been watching his Captain closely since his entrance. At last he decided to try and persuade the man again, "I still think we should not be risking the crew this way."
Pausing for a moment, Tuuvu glanced over at Kuuur harshly, "I need to know he's alright. I thought you understood that." There was a soft snarl to punctuate his displeasure at being questioned again.
"I do understand it," the First Mate replied. Tuuvu turned to fully face his Second-in-command when he noticed a change in his tone. "It's just I keep feeling like our whole world is about to change. Like the direction of our lives is about to be drastically altered, and I'm not sure if it's for the best." The two stared at each other for a long moment and Kuuur realized that Tuuvu had felt the same thing.
Before either of them could speak again, Grruun interrupted, "We're making our final approach, Capt'n."
Distracted with his primary objective, Tuuvu went back to his preparations, "Good." He directed his next command to Kuuur and demanded, "I want a boarding party ready by the time we touch down. You hear me? I want to get in and out of there as quickly as possible."
Simply nodded, Kuuur left the bridge to seek out those to accompany them. Tuuvu finished what he was doing and moved to watch as they approached the planet. All the while, his thoughts drifted to his lost charge and what condition he might be in. He pleaded with his gods and even the Force, that his worrying was all for not. But his parental instincts still feared the worst.
Within a quarter hour the Night's Scream landed in a nearby meadow to the Zenah. Kuuur had completed his task swiftly. And as the ship touched down, Tuuvu, Kuuur, Mrrogh, Dergh, and Naaur headed out into the forest to find their prey. They did not have to look too hard, as they neared the other clearing. Slowly, they crept along toward the damaged craft. As they got closer they could see a few members of the crew working around the mangled engines. With simple hand movements and glances, they set a plan into motion.
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Obser headed back to his work. He had just finished talking with his Captain who hurried inside after the Jedi. His offer to assist them was turned down, but he did not mind. Fen was a good friend and an even wiser Captain, he knew that things would be brought under control quickly, if they were indeed in trouble. As he passed by his fellow crewmates, he told them to continue their work as well.
Once again back at his portal, he started working on the circuitry with a fresh mind. He was still worried about what might be happening inside, but he had to put that aside to finish the monumental task before him. He began fiddling with a panel when he noticed something odd about the wires.
Examining it closer he had a sudden thought, one that sent a small shiver up his spine. When he got over the initial shock, he reached for the comm on his wrist. There were only two working comms available on the entire ship and only because of a back-up power source; the one Nev wore and one that Wuan Jeswick wore. It was deemed necessary that the only working communication devices be given to the head engineers in order to coordinate their efforts on the repairs.
It was the other engineer that Nev wanted to contact, "Hey, Waun. You there?"
A muffled response came over the line before clearing. "What is it Nev? I'm right in the middle of something right now."
Obser really did not want to interrupt the Duros while he was working, but he needed to find out if his assumptions were correct as quickly as possible. "Well, I hope it's something you can put down and work on later."
Heaving a deep sigh, Jeswick conceded. "Give me just a few more seconds and I'll be all ears for you." Nev could hear a few bangs and sparks over the open mic. He smiled when he heard a mumbled curse. "Alright, alright. What is it?"
Instantly, Nev sobered up and concentrated on what he was about to do. He closed his eyes to mentally imagine the inner engineering room for the main systems. "I need you to go into the main control panel for the engines."
Wuan did not hide his disapproval. "What for? I did a quick diagnostic on it about an hour ago. Everything seemed fine."
Nev understood his companion's annoyance. He himself always disliked doing something that was already completed. But this time he wanted something else, "I know, I know. But just humor me. Go into the panel. Are you there yet?" He paused, waiting for a response.
"Hold on." Wuan tried to relax, he knew that his friend would not ask something of him without a good reason. He just hoped this was not some kind of wild goose chase. He already had enough work to do that he was afraid to waste any time. Instead, he decided to listen to his friend and get through this as quickly as possible. "Alright. What do you want me to do now?"
Still picturing everything in his mind, Nev directed, "Right, go over to the left and pull out the third circuit board."
Complying, Wuan pulled out the board announcing, "Got it."
Nev opened his eyes and examined the board in his own hands. Rather than just telling the man what to look for, he wanted to see if it was just his imagination that led him to this. He said, "Now just look at it for a moment. Do you notice something odd?"
Annoyance returned immediately to the bluish-green skinned engineer as he asked angrily, "Are you trying to waste my time?"
"No, Waun, just look at it," Nev pleaded.
"I don't have ti.. Hold on. There's an extra fuse in here." Nev nodded even though he knew the man could not see him but remained quiet while the head engineer looked the board over. "Wait a sec, there's more wires attached than should be. This isn't right. Who built this thing?"
Glad to know he wasn't going crazy, Obser chuckled. "Find out where those wires connect to. I believe it is something between these two station points, but I think it's somewhere on your end. And once you've discovered it, contact me. If my suspicions are correct, I think we are going to need to talk to Fen right away."
Wuan accepted his new task. He was just as curious about this puzzle as his shipmate was. "I'll get right on it, Nev, and I'll keep you posted."
"Thanks, man."
"No problem. Jeswick out."
Nev was relieved that Wuan was able to find the other end to his unearthing, but he was now worried about what it all might lead to. Or rather what questions it might leave unanswered. Sighing he decided to check on the progress of his co-workers while he waited for Jeswick's response. He was about to turn around when the world suddenly went black.
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Qui-Gon held the wrapped form of Obi-Wan close to him. Swiftly he ran through the halls to the medbay of the crippled craft. He knew that his fellow Jedi were right on his heels, but they had lost the Captain. He pushed that to the back of his mind since his main concern was the boy in his arms. The group burst into the small infirmary, startling it's only occupant.
Ja Kohnwei jumped from his desk in response to the intrusion and questioned, "What's the meaning of this?"
Qui-Gon quickly moved to lay the shivering form of Obi-Wan on the nearest medcouch. The young man had passed out earlier right after they learned he was in shock. "Help him," he stated firmly.
The Doctor moved over to the cot and recognized the pirate immediately. "I don't understand. How.?"
"We have no time for explanations, Doctor. Please, you must help him." Qui-Gon pleaded with the man to bypass the normal need for inquiries and just start working immediately.
Understanding the fervor in the baritone, Ja immediately went to work on the young man. His years of expertise as a healer were obvious, because he had prepped and stabilized Obi-Wan before they realized what he'd done. Once he knew that everything was in place, he turned to Qui-Gon. "He'll be alright. Now can you please tell me what's going on?" He noticed that his Captain had come in during his ministrations but now he needed to know why he had helped one of the pirates that had forced them down.
"I think I should begin." Lessik announced before anyone else could respond. "Despite his previous behaviour that landed us here, this young man piloted the ship down when Mort was injured."
The healer glanced back at the youth and then looked at each person that surrounded the small room. Two Jedi Masters, an Apprentice and a young initiate stood waiting. Vexed by this new revelation, he pressed, "Why is he still on board?"
"He stayed behind when his ship broke off," Qui-Gon stated. His fervent gaze bore into the Healer.
Ja understood the meaning behind the stare and went to his cabinets to withdraw a basin and some cloth for bandages. As he retrieved the items he continued, "That doesn't make any sense. If he knew the ship was going down, why would he stay behind?"
"He was injured prior to the explosion, a blaster wound." Adi added.
Qui-Gon jumped in overriding Adi, explaining, "He knew he couldn't make it out, so he stayed. Then he came to the bridge and guided the ship down."
"If he only had a blaster wound, what happened to him? He looks like he's in about the same condition as the this ship." He brought over the basin and cloth to start cleansing and dressing the wounds. Before he could do anything, the Padawan picked up the items and started doing it herself. Slightly taken aback, he simply stood behind watching the Apprentice tend to the rogue.
Lessik replied to his question with a heavy heart. "Mort, Maad and Ain attacked him." The healer nodded slowly knowing how much this must have upset his friend. The Captain had always believed his men to be good people. And now he has discovered that some of them had a darkside. If someone had asked him only a few days before, if his men were capable of such a despicable act, he would have denied it wholeheartedly. But now, with the evidence laying on a medical table, Lessik did not know what to think about his crew.
A soft sniffle could be heard in response to the Captain's words and Kohnwei looked over at the young Jedi initiate. The tiny teal haired girl had been helping the Padawan. She seemed more like an observer than someone who might have been involved in this whole mess. But when she sniffled, Kohnwei knew she had witnessed the ugliness that landed the young man in his ward. He had seen the horrified look of watching an innocent suffer in thousands of others. He remembered those days, when war thrived. Shaking away the memories he stared at the young women. For a moment, the Calamarian paused her task to hug the girl close to her as they shared in their sorrow. Kohnwei could see the tears welling in the large silver eyes as well.
The Medic knew Jedi cared for all living beings. Defending those who could not do so themselves and sacrificing everything for others. He was amazed at how much the Jedi seemed to care for the pirate. Suddenly, realization dawned on the healer, "He was a Jedi, wasn't he?"
The two girls glanced up and hugged each other tighter. Qui-Gon, who was standing on the opposite side as the girls, stretched out a hand to touch the boy's arm. He too, looked toward the healer with a protective glance. Only the stern visage of the woman remained indifferent, but the crew had learned quickly that it was rare that she display any change of emotion, so he was not surprised. Yet by gauging the occupants' reactions, he guessed he was right.
"You are very attentive," the Councilwoman regarded the healer thoughtfully. "It is true he was once a Jedi, but we had thought him dead."
Ja considered this new information for a few minutes. "This is not what you expected, is it?"
"No. We did not think it possible to find him again." Adi replied.
He noticed that the two young Jedi were no longer holding each other and nearing completion. So the Doctor moved back toward his cabinets. Retrieving some Bacta bandages, he came up along side the Knight. The tall man barely made room for him as he came up to the couch and Ja saw that his hand still rested on the rogue's arm. The soft touch seemed to speak that this wayward youth was very important to the Knight.
The young man was still sleeping as Kohnwei applied the bandages to the various cuts and nastier bruises. While he worked he looked the boy over. The light workout tunic was spotted with blood. His soft ginger hair appeared matted from perspiration. The smooth skin on his face made the pirate look like he was a young child, not at all like a vicious criminal. Thinking back to the raid, he realized he never did get a clear look at his face, deftly hidden beneath the copper strands. He just seemed so innocent right now that Ja couldn't imagine why anyone would do him harm. A little more curious now, Ja asked, "So why did Mort do this?"
"He said that Obi-Wan killed his brother." Qui-Gon did not lift his gaze from Obi-Wan this time.
Regarding the man for a moment, Kohnwei could see the regret hidden behind the cerulean portals. Not fully understanding why that emotion was there, the healer ignored it. Instead, he recalled a day months ago when Mort Griven had come to him with the news. Often times, when they were out in space, Kohnwei doubled as a confidant as well as healer. "I remember hearing about Kiiv's death. Is it true?"
Remorsefully, Qui-Gon admitted, "It is possible, but we can not be sure."
Finishing up with the last of the scrapes, Kohnwei thought aloud, "Doesn't sound like something a Jedi would do."
"No, but there is much we have yet to learn since our discovery." Oddly enough, it was not Qui-Gon who responded to the man's outspoken thought, but the Councilor. Kohnwei stared at the woman for a while trying to figure out what exactly that meant. For some reason he believed that it was not meant to imply just the recent event, but something on a much deeper level.
Everyone was so lost in their thoughts that it was surprising to hear a new voice cut through the quiet, "Why didn't you let him finish?" The voice was subdued, rough and painfilled. But the soft seachange eyes gazed up at the tall Knight.
Before anyone else could say anything, Qui-Gon scooped up the youth's hand and knelt down beside him. Tenderly, he said, "You know we could not allow that to happen."
Taking a deep breath despite the protest of his body, Obi-Wan whispered, "I deserved it."
"I do not believe that to be true." The steely determination underlining the compassion of the man's voice.
Even softer than before, the young man admitted, "I wanted it." His gazed turned up to peer at the white ceiling.
"Please, Obi, don't say such things." Bant pleaded with her old friend. It broker her heart to hear such things come from the most precious being to her. The past few hours had been trying for all of them. But his undeterred desire to end his life in such painful ways ripped at her soul.
There was so much that still needed to be said but they never got the chance. Just then the door opened to the small infirmary and a tall man with dark skin and deep red eyes in a grimy overall came rushing in. Immediately he scanned the room and found who he was looking for. Dashing up to his captain he blurted out, "Fen, thank the gods I found you. We have a problem."
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OH MY GOD! o_O I posted the wrong version! I had a revised version of chapter 8 that was slightly different from what I originally typed up. It was so late last night and I was trying to get all the responses added that I didn't bother to check what version I pulled up. I'm so annoyed with myself right now, that I'm going to take myself out back and shoot me! ARGH!!!!! Anyway, here's the revised chapter!
I know this was a bit shorter that I usually do, but please be patient. Well, by like half a page anyway. Sorry for the delay in posting. With the new format, I couldn't log in to post from work. So I had to finagle some time to get it up from home. Thanks again everyone for reading! : D
Ewok Kid - I enjoy writing the sections with Obi and Bant. I look forward to do more. And Tola has become an interesting char for me. I wonder where it might all lead to. Honestly, I have no idea. Qui's always been a bit harder for me. For some reason, he's the hardest char for me to figure out. All the others I have down pat. It kinda irks me. *sigh* oh, well. 'Always in motion the future is." And it's even the same as in fan fic. I can't wait to find out what's in store. : D
Liyanette - LOL, yeah, they weren't very nice. But not always are things as they seem. I'm not a very good suspense writer so please forgive me. But I will do my best. ; )
JCslilangel1425 - Yeah, I think that's where he's going to right now. At least at this moment in time he is having trouble looking beyond now and giving up on everything else. I don't think any of us could deny having the same problems. Think about all the teenagers that commit suicide. (not that Obi is necessarily suicidal) They cannot seem to look past the temporary problems and find a permanent solution. But we all go through these ups and downs at times, some have a harder time than others to over come them. His life has been twisted back around on itself not once but twice. And in only a five year span. Most people take years to recover from even just one event going wrong. He just needs time. Let's hope he gets some. As for Qui, he has to determine what his motivation is and if it's truly what the Force wants, or mere coincidence. Well, thank you very much! *blush* I'm overjoyed that you loved this chapter. I hope to continually gain your approval. I have so much more planned, that I'm itching with anticipation to get it written and posted. And now I've set my sites higher, I want to be a Cliffie Goddess! : D
Artemicion - "You beat up Obi, You bastards!" Uh, sorry, couldn't help it. If you want I could loan you one of our lightsabers to beat up Griven and crew. ; ) Thank you! : D I hope you like what's coming up.
lighted eagle - Again, I'm sorry for the delay. Well, I don't think I'll be finding the answer to that question out for a very long time. This story has a long, long way to go before this "chapter" is even done. I feel like I'm still at the very beginning of an epic journey. I just hope you're all willing to join me. I might try to break it up just a little so it's not incredibly cumbersome. But Even when we get to where I want to 'end' this 'section' of Obi's life, I have more ready and waiting to be written out. Thanks for reading. :D
Ciria - As always, I look forward to reading your thoughts. And you give me so much. :D Thank you. Yes, I in a sense. It was also more or less to try and help me. I have always struggled with Qui's char. For some reason I just can't get into his head. Maybe because my own personal emotions and outlook is so similar to Obi's that I'm just as confused when it comes to the Jedi Knight. *sigh* Let's hope I'll get him better as the story progresses. You will realize that this is AU, and I will use it to my advantage. In the JA books, there was a time when Qui and Tahl were possibly going to 'get together.' Since the events of Bandomeer ended up so differently, I believe in the ripple effect. Because Qui needed someone to ease his conscious he would eventually turn to Tahl. As such, their choices and journey would be different. In this timeline, they ended up getting closer and accepting their love for each other. But Qui was still missing a part of him. And he and Tahl know it. Obi has to fill his heart and take over the place that Xanatos was in. Well, I hope you liked what I did in this chap. I know it's still some set up, but what I have planned I hope you will really, really enjoy. Yes, Tola was a little spy, but I'm glad she was. It's truly funny, when I originally began this fic, I wasn't really planning on developing some of these 'minor' characters, but little by little I have gotten into their history and really worked out who they were. I still don't know exactly where they will end up, but it will be fun find out. Yes, I must admit I am enjoying playing the part of the Force, but even I don't know exactly what comes next, so even I get curious with what the 'Force' has planned. Well, I wanted Griven to say something short and to the point and that's what I came up with. So that's the second line I really liked out of this story. The first being, "If it's justice you want, take it." I am pretty sure Obi did kill the guy, but we'll have to wait to find out for sure. And I'm glad you thought the song fit. I sometimes wonder if they make sense for what I have planned. I know I think they do, but that's just me. Thanks again! :D I always appreciate it.
Heidi M - Thanks. :D Sorry you didn't have a lot of time. But I appreciate you giving me a quick note. ;)
Meggie - I know, I think it's the healer in Bant that drives her to protect her friends. And AHHH!!!!! I'm sorry I'm late. It wasn't entirely my fault. FF.N did this new update thing and I couldn't update from work. So It took me a bit before I could get this chap posted!! Please, please, please don't releease the dogs!! *runs behind Obi for cover*
Culf - No, not looks alone, but I can't deny that Ewan didn't boost my interest quite a bit. I have to admit, Ewan is an exceptional actor, and I pity the fact that Lucas does not use him to the best of his ability. Instead, Ewan's performance as Obi-Wan sometimes feels stale, in comparison to his characters in most of his other films. And if you're having a rough time dealing with Renton vs. Obi then I suggest you DON'T watch 'Velvet Goldmine.' I happen to like the diversity that Ewan does when he takes on these various roles. I look forward to seeing his up coming movies. But for some reason, I don't really have an issue watching one char to another. I think it's like watching Harrison Ford in SW and then Indy. They have similarities but they are really different. I know it's somewhere in the back of my mind that they are one and the same, but I don't really think about it when I'm watching. Still, I love the char of Obi because I relate to him so well. In so many ways, I feel akin to his spirit. I guess I wish I could have found Obi on earth, although my husband is a wonderful man. And I can't imagine life without him, but still I wonder.
grab-ur-lightsaber - That's ok, I don't like Qui much either. He always seemed to me so eager to pick up and deal with all these other beings, but when it came to Obi, he just gave him enough to survive. Maybe that's why I can't get in his head, because I can't understand how anyone could treat Obi so differentially. OH, and I understand completely. I was already considering that, and when I first read your review, I took it as confirmation. I hope you liked what I had instead. But don't think it's all over, because it wouldn't be a proper Obi story if he didn't have to struggle. ;) Honestly, I love the passion I have in most of the chars. I think it's what makes them more real to us. Most of us have some kind of drive to push us along our path. I thought it would be great to bring that into the SW Universe. I should be posting another chap to "Catch me" soon. Cross your fingers and thanks for all the support. : D
Melissa Jooty - Thank you very much! I have enjoyed exploring this possibility to it's fullest extent. And it's nice to see Qui experiencing the guilt he so willing placed on Obi so many times. And I have a lot in mind for that meeting. I just we can all last until then. Thanks again for reading. : D
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Shan - Thanks again for all your help. I have some more to show you, but I don't know if I should yet. I'll e-mail you and ask you about it. I do enjoy a good cliffie. And I know it's hooked me on more than one occasion. I guess it's only fair I use it on others. And you're still too kind. I am trying to keep up my schedule, as long as FF.N decides to cooperate with me that is. I don't know how much more I'll put our lovely Obi through right now, but I'll see what I can do. ;) And don't worry about anything. We all have our own thoughts and ideas. That's what makes us all unique. I think it would be very boring it we didn't challenge each other all the time. And good luck yourself, with 'Going Home'! Talk to you later. ;D
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"I hang my head and I advertise
A soul for sale or rent I have no heart, I'm cold inside I have no real intent
Save me, save me, save me I can't face this life alone Save me, save me, save me I'm naked and I'm far from home." - Save Me (Queen - Greatest Hits)
"Captain, we have located the ship," Grruun informed his commander. "It appears to have landed on NMerra. From what I've been able to scan, they are in one of the large forests. The sparse settlements are not anywhere near them. We should be able to approach from an angle that should hide us, if their sensors are back online."
Tuuvu listened intently to his helmsman, despite his desire to rush through things he needed to make sure he knew what he was getting into. Once the explanation was complete, he stated simply, "Do it."
"Aye, sir." Grruun immediately went to work plotting the course to follow his captain's commands.
Tuuvu began to move around the forward cabin checking systems and preparing himself mentally for what lay ahead. Kuuur had been watching his Captain closely since his entrance. At last he decided to try and persuade the man again, "I still think we should not be risking the crew this way."
Pausing for a moment, Tuuvu glanced over at Kuuur harshly, "I need to know he's alright. I thought you understood that." There was a soft snarl to punctuate his displeasure at being questioned again.
"I do understand it," the First Mate replied. Tuuvu turned to fully face his Second-in-command when he noticed a change in his tone. "It's just I keep feeling like our whole world is about to change. Like the direction of our lives is about to be drastically altered, and I'm not sure if it's for the best." The two stared at each other for a long moment and Kuuur realized that Tuuvu had felt the same thing.
Before either of them could speak again, Grruun interrupted, "We're making our final approach, Capt'n."
Distracted with his primary objective, Tuuvu went back to his preparations, "Good." He directed his next command to Kuuur and demanded, "I want a boarding party ready by the time we touch down. You hear me? I want to get in and out of there as quickly as possible."
Simply nodded, Kuuur left the bridge to seek out those to accompany them. Tuuvu finished what he was doing and moved to watch as they approached the planet. All the while, his thoughts drifted to his lost charge and what condition he might be in. He pleaded with his gods and even the Force, that his worrying was all for not. But his parental instincts still feared the worst.
Within a quarter hour the Night's Scream landed in a nearby meadow to the Zenah. Kuuur had completed his task swiftly. And as the ship touched down, Tuuvu, Kuuur, Mrrogh, Dergh, and Naaur headed out into the forest to find their prey. They did not have to look too hard, as they neared the other clearing. Slowly, they crept along toward the damaged craft. As they got closer they could see a few members of the crew working around the mangled engines. With simple hand movements and glances, they set a plan into motion.
**
Obser headed back to his work. He had just finished talking with his Captain who hurried inside after the Jedi. His offer to assist them was turned down, but he did not mind. Fen was a good friend and an even wiser Captain, he knew that things would be brought under control quickly, if they were indeed in trouble. As he passed by his fellow crewmates, he told them to continue their work as well.
Once again back at his portal, he started working on the circuitry with a fresh mind. He was still worried about what might be happening inside, but he had to put that aside to finish the monumental task before him. He began fiddling with a panel when he noticed something odd about the wires.
Examining it closer he had a sudden thought, one that sent a small shiver up his spine. When he got over the initial shock, he reached for the comm on his wrist. There were only two working comms available on the entire ship and only because of a back-up power source; the one Nev wore and one that Wuan Jeswick wore. It was deemed necessary that the only working communication devices be given to the head engineers in order to coordinate their efforts on the repairs.
It was the other engineer that Nev wanted to contact, "Hey, Waun. You there?"
A muffled response came over the line before clearing. "What is it Nev? I'm right in the middle of something right now."
Obser really did not want to interrupt the Duros while he was working, but he needed to find out if his assumptions were correct as quickly as possible. "Well, I hope it's something you can put down and work on later."
Heaving a deep sigh, Jeswick conceded. "Give me just a few more seconds and I'll be all ears for you." Nev could hear a few bangs and sparks over the open mic. He smiled when he heard a mumbled curse. "Alright, alright. What is it?"
Instantly, Nev sobered up and concentrated on what he was about to do. He closed his eyes to mentally imagine the inner engineering room for the main systems. "I need you to go into the main control panel for the engines."
Wuan did not hide his disapproval. "What for? I did a quick diagnostic on it about an hour ago. Everything seemed fine."
Nev understood his companion's annoyance. He himself always disliked doing something that was already completed. But this time he wanted something else, "I know, I know. But just humor me. Go into the panel. Are you there yet?" He paused, waiting for a response.
"Hold on." Wuan tried to relax, he knew that his friend would not ask something of him without a good reason. He just hoped this was not some kind of wild goose chase. He already had enough work to do that he was afraid to waste any time. Instead, he decided to listen to his friend and get through this as quickly as possible. "Alright. What do you want me to do now?"
Still picturing everything in his mind, Nev directed, "Right, go over to the left and pull out the third circuit board."
Complying, Wuan pulled out the board announcing, "Got it."
Nev opened his eyes and examined the board in his own hands. Rather than just telling the man what to look for, he wanted to see if it was just his imagination that led him to this. He said, "Now just look at it for a moment. Do you notice something odd?"
Annoyance returned immediately to the bluish-green skinned engineer as he asked angrily, "Are you trying to waste my time?"
"No, Waun, just look at it," Nev pleaded.
"I don't have ti.. Hold on. There's an extra fuse in here." Nev nodded even though he knew the man could not see him but remained quiet while the head engineer looked the board over. "Wait a sec, there's more wires attached than should be. This isn't right. Who built this thing?"
Glad to know he wasn't going crazy, Obser chuckled. "Find out where those wires connect to. I believe it is something between these two station points, but I think it's somewhere on your end. And once you've discovered it, contact me. If my suspicions are correct, I think we are going to need to talk to Fen right away."
Wuan accepted his new task. He was just as curious about this puzzle as his shipmate was. "I'll get right on it, Nev, and I'll keep you posted."
"Thanks, man."
"No problem. Jeswick out."
Nev was relieved that Wuan was able to find the other end to his unearthing, but he was now worried about what it all might lead to. Or rather what questions it might leave unanswered. Sighing he decided to check on the progress of his co-workers while he waited for Jeswick's response. He was about to turn around when the world suddenly went black.
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Qui-Gon held the wrapped form of Obi-Wan close to him. Swiftly he ran through the halls to the medbay of the crippled craft. He knew that his fellow Jedi were right on his heels, but they had lost the Captain. He pushed that to the back of his mind since his main concern was the boy in his arms. The group burst into the small infirmary, startling it's only occupant.
Ja Kohnwei jumped from his desk in response to the intrusion and questioned, "What's the meaning of this?"
Qui-Gon quickly moved to lay the shivering form of Obi-Wan on the nearest medcouch. The young man had passed out earlier right after they learned he was in shock. "Help him," he stated firmly.
The Doctor moved over to the cot and recognized the pirate immediately. "I don't understand. How.?"
"We have no time for explanations, Doctor. Please, you must help him." Qui-Gon pleaded with the man to bypass the normal need for inquiries and just start working immediately.
Understanding the fervor in the baritone, Ja immediately went to work on the young man. His years of expertise as a healer were obvious, because he had prepped and stabilized Obi-Wan before they realized what he'd done. Once he knew that everything was in place, he turned to Qui-Gon. "He'll be alright. Now can you please tell me what's going on?" He noticed that his Captain had come in during his ministrations but now he needed to know why he had helped one of the pirates that had forced them down.
"I think I should begin." Lessik announced before anyone else could respond. "Despite his previous behaviour that landed us here, this young man piloted the ship down when Mort was injured."
The healer glanced back at the youth and then looked at each person that surrounded the small room. Two Jedi Masters, an Apprentice and a young initiate stood waiting. Vexed by this new revelation, he pressed, "Why is he still on board?"
"He stayed behind when his ship broke off," Qui-Gon stated. His fervent gaze bore into the Healer.
Ja understood the meaning behind the stare and went to his cabinets to withdraw a basin and some cloth for bandages. As he retrieved the items he continued, "That doesn't make any sense. If he knew the ship was going down, why would he stay behind?"
"He was injured prior to the explosion, a blaster wound." Adi added.
Qui-Gon jumped in overriding Adi, explaining, "He knew he couldn't make it out, so he stayed. Then he came to the bridge and guided the ship down."
"If he only had a blaster wound, what happened to him? He looks like he's in about the same condition as the this ship." He brought over the basin and cloth to start cleansing and dressing the wounds. Before he could do anything, the Padawan picked up the items and started doing it herself. Slightly taken aback, he simply stood behind watching the Apprentice tend to the rogue.
Lessik replied to his question with a heavy heart. "Mort, Maad and Ain attacked him." The healer nodded slowly knowing how much this must have upset his friend. The Captain had always believed his men to be good people. And now he has discovered that some of them had a darkside. If someone had asked him only a few days before, if his men were capable of such a despicable act, he would have denied it wholeheartedly. But now, with the evidence laying on a medical table, Lessik did not know what to think about his crew.
A soft sniffle could be heard in response to the Captain's words and Kohnwei looked over at the young Jedi initiate. The tiny teal haired girl had been helping the Padawan. She seemed more like an observer than someone who might have been involved in this whole mess. But when she sniffled, Kohnwei knew she had witnessed the ugliness that landed the young man in his ward. He had seen the horrified look of watching an innocent suffer in thousands of others. He remembered those days, when war thrived. Shaking away the memories he stared at the young women. For a moment, the Calamarian paused her task to hug the girl close to her as they shared in their sorrow. Kohnwei could see the tears welling in the large silver eyes as well.
The Medic knew Jedi cared for all living beings. Defending those who could not do so themselves and sacrificing everything for others. He was amazed at how much the Jedi seemed to care for the pirate. Suddenly, realization dawned on the healer, "He was a Jedi, wasn't he?"
The two girls glanced up and hugged each other tighter. Qui-Gon, who was standing on the opposite side as the girls, stretched out a hand to touch the boy's arm. He too, looked toward the healer with a protective glance. Only the stern visage of the woman remained indifferent, but the crew had learned quickly that it was rare that she display any change of emotion, so he was not surprised. Yet by gauging the occupants' reactions, he guessed he was right.
"You are very attentive," the Councilwoman regarded the healer thoughtfully. "It is true he was once a Jedi, but we had thought him dead."
Ja considered this new information for a few minutes. "This is not what you expected, is it?"
"No. We did not think it possible to find him again." Adi replied.
He noticed that the two young Jedi were no longer holding each other and nearing completion. So the Doctor moved back toward his cabinets. Retrieving some Bacta bandages, he came up along side the Knight. The tall man barely made room for him as he came up to the couch and Ja saw that his hand still rested on the rogue's arm. The soft touch seemed to speak that this wayward youth was very important to the Knight.
The young man was still sleeping as Kohnwei applied the bandages to the various cuts and nastier bruises. While he worked he looked the boy over. The light workout tunic was spotted with blood. His soft ginger hair appeared matted from perspiration. The smooth skin on his face made the pirate look like he was a young child, not at all like a vicious criminal. Thinking back to the raid, he realized he never did get a clear look at his face, deftly hidden beneath the copper strands. He just seemed so innocent right now that Ja couldn't imagine why anyone would do him harm. A little more curious now, Ja asked, "So why did Mort do this?"
"He said that Obi-Wan killed his brother." Qui-Gon did not lift his gaze from Obi-Wan this time.
Regarding the man for a moment, Kohnwei could see the regret hidden behind the cerulean portals. Not fully understanding why that emotion was there, the healer ignored it. Instead, he recalled a day months ago when Mort Griven had come to him with the news. Often times, when they were out in space, Kohnwei doubled as a confidant as well as healer. "I remember hearing about Kiiv's death. Is it true?"
Remorsefully, Qui-Gon admitted, "It is possible, but we can not be sure."
Finishing up with the last of the scrapes, Kohnwei thought aloud, "Doesn't sound like something a Jedi would do."
"No, but there is much we have yet to learn since our discovery." Oddly enough, it was not Qui-Gon who responded to the man's outspoken thought, but the Councilor. Kohnwei stared at the woman for a while trying to figure out what exactly that meant. For some reason he believed that it was not meant to imply just the recent event, but something on a much deeper level.
Everyone was so lost in their thoughts that it was surprising to hear a new voice cut through the quiet, "Why didn't you let him finish?" The voice was subdued, rough and painfilled. But the soft seachange eyes gazed up at the tall Knight.
Before anyone else could say anything, Qui-Gon scooped up the youth's hand and knelt down beside him. Tenderly, he said, "You know we could not allow that to happen."
Taking a deep breath despite the protest of his body, Obi-Wan whispered, "I deserved it."
"I do not believe that to be true." The steely determination underlining the compassion of the man's voice.
Even softer than before, the young man admitted, "I wanted it." His gazed turned up to peer at the white ceiling.
"Please, Obi, don't say such things." Bant pleaded with her old friend. It broker her heart to hear such things come from the most precious being to her. The past few hours had been trying for all of them. But his undeterred desire to end his life in such painful ways ripped at her soul.
There was so much that still needed to be said but they never got the chance. Just then the door opened to the small infirmary and a tall man with dark skin and deep red eyes in a grimy overall came rushing in. Immediately he scanned the room and found who he was looking for. Dashing up to his captain he blurted out, "Fen, thank the gods I found you. We have a problem."
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OH MY GOD! o_O I posted the wrong version! I had a revised version of chapter 8 that was slightly different from what I originally typed up. It was so late last night and I was trying to get all the responses added that I didn't bother to check what version I pulled up. I'm so annoyed with myself right now, that I'm going to take myself out back and shoot me! ARGH!!!!! Anyway, here's the revised chapter!
I know this was a bit shorter that I usually do, but please be patient. Well, by like half a page anyway. Sorry for the delay in posting. With the new format, I couldn't log in to post from work. So I had to finagle some time to get it up from home. Thanks again everyone for reading! : D
Ewok Kid - I enjoy writing the sections with Obi and Bant. I look forward to do more. And Tola has become an interesting char for me. I wonder where it might all lead to. Honestly, I have no idea. Qui's always been a bit harder for me. For some reason, he's the hardest char for me to figure out. All the others I have down pat. It kinda irks me. *sigh* oh, well. 'Always in motion the future is." And it's even the same as in fan fic. I can't wait to find out what's in store. : D
Liyanette - LOL, yeah, they weren't very nice. But not always are things as they seem. I'm not a very good suspense writer so please forgive me. But I will do my best. ; )
JCslilangel1425 - Yeah, I think that's where he's going to right now. At least at this moment in time he is having trouble looking beyond now and giving up on everything else. I don't think any of us could deny having the same problems. Think about all the teenagers that commit suicide. (not that Obi is necessarily suicidal) They cannot seem to look past the temporary problems and find a permanent solution. But we all go through these ups and downs at times, some have a harder time than others to over come them. His life has been twisted back around on itself not once but twice. And in only a five year span. Most people take years to recover from even just one event going wrong. He just needs time. Let's hope he gets some. As for Qui, he has to determine what his motivation is and if it's truly what the Force wants, or mere coincidence. Well, thank you very much! *blush* I'm overjoyed that you loved this chapter. I hope to continually gain your approval. I have so much more planned, that I'm itching with anticipation to get it written and posted. And now I've set my sites higher, I want to be a Cliffie Goddess! : D
Artemicion - "You beat up Obi, You bastards!" Uh, sorry, couldn't help it. If you want I could loan you one of our lightsabers to beat up Griven and crew. ; ) Thank you! : D I hope you like what's coming up.
lighted eagle - Again, I'm sorry for the delay. Well, I don't think I'll be finding the answer to that question out for a very long time. This story has a long, long way to go before this "chapter" is even done. I feel like I'm still at the very beginning of an epic journey. I just hope you're all willing to join me. I might try to break it up just a little so it's not incredibly cumbersome. But Even when we get to where I want to 'end' this 'section' of Obi's life, I have more ready and waiting to be written out. Thanks for reading. :D
Ciria - As always, I look forward to reading your thoughts. And you give me so much. :D Thank you. Yes, I in a sense. It was also more or less to try and help me. I have always struggled with Qui's char. For some reason I just can't get into his head. Maybe because my own personal emotions and outlook is so similar to Obi's that I'm just as confused when it comes to the Jedi Knight. *sigh* Let's hope I'll get him better as the story progresses. You will realize that this is AU, and I will use it to my advantage. In the JA books, there was a time when Qui and Tahl were possibly going to 'get together.' Since the events of Bandomeer ended up so differently, I believe in the ripple effect. Because Qui needed someone to ease his conscious he would eventually turn to Tahl. As such, their choices and journey would be different. In this timeline, they ended up getting closer and accepting their love for each other. But Qui was still missing a part of him. And he and Tahl know it. Obi has to fill his heart and take over the place that Xanatos was in. Well, I hope you liked what I did in this chap. I know it's still some set up, but what I have planned I hope you will really, really enjoy. Yes, Tola was a little spy, but I'm glad she was. It's truly funny, when I originally began this fic, I wasn't really planning on developing some of these 'minor' characters, but little by little I have gotten into their history and really worked out who they were. I still don't know exactly where they will end up, but it will be fun find out. Yes, I must admit I am enjoying playing the part of the Force, but even I don't know exactly what comes next, so even I get curious with what the 'Force' has planned. Well, I wanted Griven to say something short and to the point and that's what I came up with. So that's the second line I really liked out of this story. The first being, "If it's justice you want, take it." I am pretty sure Obi did kill the guy, but we'll have to wait to find out for sure. And I'm glad you thought the song fit. I sometimes wonder if they make sense for what I have planned. I know I think they do, but that's just me. Thanks again! :D I always appreciate it.
Heidi M - Thanks. :D Sorry you didn't have a lot of time. But I appreciate you giving me a quick note. ;)
Meggie - I know, I think it's the healer in Bant that drives her to protect her friends. And AHHH!!!!! I'm sorry I'm late. It wasn't entirely my fault. FF.N did this new update thing and I couldn't update from work. So It took me a bit before I could get this chap posted!! Please, please, please don't releease the dogs!! *runs behind Obi for cover*
Culf - No, not looks alone, but I can't deny that Ewan didn't boost my interest quite a bit. I have to admit, Ewan is an exceptional actor, and I pity the fact that Lucas does not use him to the best of his ability. Instead, Ewan's performance as Obi-Wan sometimes feels stale, in comparison to his characters in most of his other films. And if you're having a rough time dealing with Renton vs. Obi then I suggest you DON'T watch 'Velvet Goldmine.' I happen to like the diversity that Ewan does when he takes on these various roles. I look forward to seeing his up coming movies. But for some reason, I don't really have an issue watching one char to another. I think it's like watching Harrison Ford in SW and then Indy. They have similarities but they are really different. I know it's somewhere in the back of my mind that they are one and the same, but I don't really think about it when I'm watching. Still, I love the char of Obi because I relate to him so well. In so many ways, I feel akin to his spirit. I guess I wish I could have found Obi on earth, although my husband is a wonderful man. And I can't imagine life without him, but still I wonder.
grab-ur-lightsaber - That's ok, I don't like Qui much either. He always seemed to me so eager to pick up and deal with all these other beings, but when it came to Obi, he just gave him enough to survive. Maybe that's why I can't get in his head, because I can't understand how anyone could treat Obi so differentially. OH, and I understand completely. I was already considering that, and when I first read your review, I took it as confirmation. I hope you liked what I had instead. But don't think it's all over, because it wouldn't be a proper Obi story if he didn't have to struggle. ;) Honestly, I love the passion I have in most of the chars. I think it's what makes them more real to us. Most of us have some kind of drive to push us along our path. I thought it would be great to bring that into the SW Universe. I should be posting another chap to "Catch me" soon. Cross your fingers and thanks for all the support. : D
Melissa Jooty - Thank you very much! I have enjoyed exploring this possibility to it's fullest extent. And it's nice to see Qui experiencing the guilt he so willing placed on Obi so many times. And I have a lot in mind for that meeting. I just we can all last until then. Thanks again for reading. : D
Death Rider - I officially name you a member of 'Obi-Torture Anonymous!' And don't tell me, how can it be anonymous if we know who we are and such. It started as a mock on Alcoholics Anonymous and escalated from there. I hope this wasn't too boring for you. Thanks for reading. ;)
Dark Jedi Girl - Thank you! :D
Militargrl - Would I be a cliffie master if I left it other wise? ;p Thanks for reading! :D
jedi7 - I hope you do last, I don't want to lose any of my readers. It would make me very sad. But thank you for the wonderful feedback!! :D
Ziptango - Wow! Thank you very, very much! I still feel like an amateur though when it comes down to writing emotions, which is partially a reason I wanted to write this fic in such a way. I wanted to practice. Thanks for taking a chance in reading this and letting me know you liked it. I really, really appreciate it. :D
Shan - Thanks again for all your help. I have some more to show you, but I don't know if I should yet. I'll e-mail you and ask you about it. I do enjoy a good cliffie. And I know it's hooked me on more than one occasion. I guess it's only fair I use it on others. And you're still too kind. I am trying to keep up my schedule, as long as FF.N decides to cooperate with me that is. I don't know how much more I'll put our lovely Obi through right now, but I'll see what I can do. ;) And don't worry about anything. We all have our own thoughts and ideas. That's what makes us all unique. I think it would be very boring it we didn't challenge each other all the time. And good luck yourself, with 'Going Home'! Talk to you later. ;D
jedilittlebee - Thank you very much. I'm glad you are enjoying my 'little' story. ;) As for forgiveness and the difficulties about it, I have a few lines in an upcoming scene that mention that very thing. But it might not be for another chapter or two. I know the format thing is a bit frustrating. I've had this chap done for a few days now, but have been unable to get it up until now. And don't worry I will e-mail you and let you know I updated. Please don't forget to keep reviewing. I appreciate any and all feedback! :D