A/N ~ Well, I hope that you like this chapter, it's short, but to the point. Please review!
Looking Back
Chapter 4
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Darling, I was so worried about going out with both of the boys in the same weekend. It didn't seem fair to either one of them. But, I knew if I was going to find out which one it was to be, then I needed to find out then and there.
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I was fidgeting as I checked myself once more in the mirror. It was almost time for Tai to come. I had been worried all day about this. But for some reason, it wasn't the date that I was nervous about, it was the fact that she was going to see Matt.
I knew that I had to get control of myself and be fair to Tai. I had never really given him a chance, after all. It was his turn now. So I forced myself to concentrate on Tai, and only him.
The doorbell finally rang and I ran to it, hoping to get into this the right way. As I opened the door I looked knowing it was Tai, but found Matt instead. He had a dozen roses and was smiling at me.
I blushed and looked at him in utter amazement. "What are you doing here? We aren't supposed to meet until tomorrow for the project."
He looked at me with those eyes that could make me melt, "Can't a guy just drop by and see a girl at any time? I saw these pretty flowers and knew that only you could match their beauty."
I blushed at his comment and looked down at the floor. "Thank you, Matt. But you really can't stay. I have other plans."
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He looked at her , really looked at her . Her hair was done up in the little way that he loved with the tendrils hanging down. She was wearing a new dress, with little flowers on it that accented her curves. In his eyes she was utterly beautiful. Then it hit him, that she wasn't dressed that way for him. "Who are you going on these plans with?" He said, as the anger started to grow in him.
She had put the roses in water and was back at the door, when Tai came around the corner into the hallway. She panicked and pulled Matt inside the apartment and pushed him into the closet. "Don't come out until I leave!" She said to him. She knew that if Tai saw Matt there, he would be devastated.
After the door closed on Matt, he was in total darkness. He was fuming, Where did Tai think he got off, taking Sora from him? And why did she have to dress so nicely. He remembered that he had told her once that she needed to give Tai a chance, but he didn't think that she would actually do it.
He wanted to make sure that she really loved him before they committed their lives
together. He wanted her to be sure, and not longing for anything else. He wanted her happiness. He heard Tai and Sora leave the apartment after Tai saying how beautiful she was. Sora had simply laughed and said that he was sweet.
Matt's heart fell and he sat in the closet for a few minutes after they left. He had messed up, and if she choose Tai over him, then his heart would be broken forever.
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I sighed as Tai led me out of the restaurant. It had been a fun evening so far, but I knew what I had to tell Tai. So when he asked if I wanted to go anywhere else, I replied, "Let's go to the park, like old times."
So he led me to the park. "What's on your mind?" He said as he sat on the bench with me.
"Tai, we need to talk."
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Tai sighed. He knew this was coming all night. "Listen Sora, I know what you are going to say. But, let me try something once before you say it so that we will never have any regrets." With that, he leaned forward and kissed her. But, as he parted from her lips he knew that they weren't meant to be.
"Matt is a lucky guy, Sora. Make sure he knows that! And know that I'll always be here by your side if you need me." He walked her home and let her in the door. She had not said a word since the park.
She turned towards him in the doorway, "Tai, your my best friend, and like the brother I never had. I love you, but just not in that way. Thanks for always being there."
He patted her on the back. "Hey babe, That's my job."
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You see, my darlings. Tai and I were best friends since our early childhood. And, true to his word - From then on, if I ever needed anything he was there for me. I loved Tai with a brotherly love that I could never love anyone else like. He was my brother, and nothing more. I could never love him as I loved Matt, and I knew that. But, I didn't want Matt to have another chance to hurt me.
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He stared at the doorway as she shut it for a few more minutes and then walked down the steps of the apartment building.
When he reached the bottom of the steps he looked up right as he saw Matt swing his fist at him. Tai hit the ground, furious at his friend for doing this.
"You idiot, why did you do that ...." But he stopped when he looked up at Matt's face. Were those tears he saw running down Matt's cheek? The all powerful Matt that was always so forlorn was crying over Sora?
He sighed, "Man, you don't have anything to worry about. She loves you and there will never be anything other than friendship between me and her."
Matt, who had stayed there all night, sighed. "Tai, I'm sorry. It's just ... I can't bare to loose Sora. She means the world to me."
Tai smiled, "I know man, but you hurt her bad. Really bad. She left and now the pain and distance has made her a different person. I saw that tonight. My little Sora has finally grown into a woman. It's up to you to change with her and win her back. I'll help anyway I can."
Matt grinned and wiped at his eyes, "Thank you Tai. Your the best friend a guy could have. What would I do without you?" He said
Tai waved it off, "I'd do anything for my two best friends."
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It wasn't until later that I found out about this conversation and what had gone on after Tai had left my house that night, so long ago. I only knew that I loved Tai as a brother, and I wasn't sure what I really felt for Matt, because what I had thought I had felt had ended up hurting me so much. But I knew I could handle it this time. I was a stronger person. True to Tai's words. I had grown up.
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Looking Back
Chapter 4
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Darling, I was so worried about going out with both of the boys in the same weekend. It didn't seem fair to either one of them. But, I knew if I was going to find out which one it was to be, then I needed to find out then and there.
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I was fidgeting as I checked myself once more in the mirror. It was almost time for Tai to come. I had been worried all day about this. But for some reason, it wasn't the date that I was nervous about, it was the fact that she was going to see Matt.
I knew that I had to get control of myself and be fair to Tai. I had never really given him a chance, after all. It was his turn now. So I forced myself to concentrate on Tai, and only him.
The doorbell finally rang and I ran to it, hoping to get into this the right way. As I opened the door I looked knowing it was Tai, but found Matt instead. He had a dozen roses and was smiling at me.
I blushed and looked at him in utter amazement. "What are you doing here? We aren't supposed to meet until tomorrow for the project."
He looked at me with those eyes that could make me melt, "Can't a guy just drop by and see a girl at any time? I saw these pretty flowers and knew that only you could match their beauty."
I blushed at his comment and looked down at the floor. "Thank you, Matt. But you really can't stay. I have other plans."
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He looked at her , really looked at her . Her hair was done up in the little way that he loved with the tendrils hanging down. She was wearing a new dress, with little flowers on it that accented her curves. In his eyes she was utterly beautiful. Then it hit him, that she wasn't dressed that way for him. "Who are you going on these plans with?" He said, as the anger started to grow in him.
She had put the roses in water and was back at the door, when Tai came around the corner into the hallway. She panicked and pulled Matt inside the apartment and pushed him into the closet. "Don't come out until I leave!" She said to him. She knew that if Tai saw Matt there, he would be devastated.
After the door closed on Matt, he was in total darkness. He was fuming, Where did Tai think he got off, taking Sora from him? And why did she have to dress so nicely. He remembered that he had told her once that she needed to give Tai a chance, but he didn't think that she would actually do it.
He wanted to make sure that she really loved him before they committed their lives
together. He wanted her to be sure, and not longing for anything else. He wanted her happiness. He heard Tai and Sora leave the apartment after Tai saying how beautiful she was. Sora had simply laughed and said that he was sweet.
Matt's heart fell and he sat in the closet for a few minutes after they left. He had messed up, and if she choose Tai over him, then his heart would be broken forever.
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I sighed as Tai led me out of the restaurant. It had been a fun evening so far, but I knew what I had to tell Tai. So when he asked if I wanted to go anywhere else, I replied, "Let's go to the park, like old times."
So he led me to the park. "What's on your mind?" He said as he sat on the bench with me.
"Tai, we need to talk."
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Tai sighed. He knew this was coming all night. "Listen Sora, I know what you are going to say. But, let me try something once before you say it so that we will never have any regrets." With that, he leaned forward and kissed her. But, as he parted from her lips he knew that they weren't meant to be.
"Matt is a lucky guy, Sora. Make sure he knows that! And know that I'll always be here by your side if you need me." He walked her home and let her in the door. She had not said a word since the park.
She turned towards him in the doorway, "Tai, your my best friend, and like the brother I never had. I love you, but just not in that way. Thanks for always being there."
He patted her on the back. "Hey babe, That's my job."
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You see, my darlings. Tai and I were best friends since our early childhood. And, true to his word - From then on, if I ever needed anything he was there for me. I loved Tai with a brotherly love that I could never love anyone else like. He was my brother, and nothing more. I could never love him as I loved Matt, and I knew that. But, I didn't want Matt to have another chance to hurt me.
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He stared at the doorway as she shut it for a few more minutes and then walked down the steps of the apartment building.
When he reached the bottom of the steps he looked up right as he saw Matt swing his fist at him. Tai hit the ground, furious at his friend for doing this.
"You idiot, why did you do that ...." But he stopped when he looked up at Matt's face. Were those tears he saw running down Matt's cheek? The all powerful Matt that was always so forlorn was crying over Sora?
He sighed, "Man, you don't have anything to worry about. She loves you and there will never be anything other than friendship between me and her."
Matt, who had stayed there all night, sighed. "Tai, I'm sorry. It's just ... I can't bare to loose Sora. She means the world to me."
Tai smiled, "I know man, but you hurt her bad. Really bad. She left and now the pain and distance has made her a different person. I saw that tonight. My little Sora has finally grown into a woman. It's up to you to change with her and win her back. I'll help anyway I can."
Matt grinned and wiped at his eyes, "Thank you Tai. Your the best friend a guy could have. What would I do without you?" He said
Tai waved it off, "I'd do anything for my two best friends."
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It wasn't until later that I found out about this conversation and what had gone on after Tai had left my house that night, so long ago. I only knew that I loved Tai as a brother, and I wasn't sure what I really felt for Matt, because what I had thought I had felt had ended up hurting me so much. But I knew I could handle it this time. I was a stronger person. True to Tai's words. I had grown up.
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