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There's not much going on in this chapter. But it's important enough in my mind.
"Lady Kagome?" Miroku was out looking for InuYasha. Naturally the first place he would look would be the bone eaters well. That's where he found Kagome kneeling on the ground crying. The sight was shocking; the two lovebirds never fought anymore, they were so happy it was almost disturbing. Kagome looked up to meet gazes with her dear friend. Next thing she knew, she flew into his arms and began crying uncontrollably. She clutched unto the monk as if he was her lifeline. Miroku was stunned and could only pat her back and try to comfort her.
After a few minuets Kagome pulled away and stood straight. Mirokus face was etched in worry and concern. Kagome wondered why InuYasha couldn't have even pretended to care. Why couldn't he have continued to lie and let her leave thinking he loved her? Now she knew the truth and there was no escaping it. A sob got caught in her throat but she merely spoke through it with a voice as shaky as she herself was.
"Thank you for everything. I need to ask some things more of you though. Take care of Shippo and tell him I'm proud of him. Love Sango, she deserves that and so much more. Also let her know I think the world of her." She giggled at what she was going to say next, and decided to say it. It would mean the most to him. "Miroku, even though you are free of the curse, you and Sango have lots of children. You are amazing…as far as a perverted monk can go. I'll never forget any of you."
She leaned on the lip of the well, ready to fall backwards. She hesitated and Miroku took this as his chance to say something. "Lady Kagome…I…" He began, but Kagome held up his hand as a silent command for him to speak no farther.
"Tell him that I love him even NOW. And I'm sorry I was such a pain to him. And…" That retched sob tried to escape her throat again, and this time she let it free through her lips. She immediately regained composure and continued, "And…and…would you tell him, when the time comes, I'll give his love back her soul."
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"Souta! Souta, come here please!" Kagome sat at her desk and nervously tapped her pen on her notebook.
"What is it Kagome?" Souta asked as he entered her lavish bedroom.
"Listen, when mom and Bill get home, tell them not to disturb me. Any phone calls or visitors just take messages, Okay?" She winked at her brother who stood there gaping at her.
"You're starting it now? Finally?" He looked at her with wide, admiring eyes.
"Yes" Kagome said, and then breathed in deeply, exhaling with an overly dramatic sigh. "It's about time don't ya think?" Souta embraced his sister and then nodded his head in reply. Kagome felt tears welding up in her eyes. She blinked them back, fighting the urge to allow them to fall. "Souta," she began, for some reason this question had been nagging at her, and she couldn't resist asking him, "Why do you want me to do this so badly?"
"Because you still love him." He was older now but never lost his child-like frankness. He turned and walked away, but just before he shut the door he called back to her. "Now Kagome, sit down at that desk and write until dinner. Oh and…I just want to tell you that I'm proud of you." With that he shut the door, leaving Kagome to dwell in her bewilderment.
When Kagome broke free from her trance she sat down. Her heart beat rapidly for some reasons she did not know. It wasn't too soon…it had been two years. She was now 19 and she had moved on. Perhaps it was the fact that it had been too long. One year of never speaking his name…or speaking of anything that had happened between the ages of 15-17. That was it. It had been too long; it was like cutting open a wound that had already healed. Then Kagome had an idea. "I'll change the ending! Yes! The ending will be the way it SHOULD have really, truly ended. That will ease all the pain. At the end of my story, InuYasha and I will be together." She pulled out her favorite blue pen and a brand new notebook and began retelling it all.
Once upon a time, there was a creature; half devil and half angel, who wanted more then anything to be full devil. This creatures name was Isaac. Isaac searched all over of the golden crystal jewel that would give him the power to make his wish come true. The jewels guardian was a beautiful and powerful angel whose main priority was to keep the jewel safe. Isaac tried to steal the jewel from her, but soon her name filled his mind ina different way then before. Soon he found himself to be in love with this angel, his enemy…his Kikyou.
Kagome stopped and scratched out Kikyous name…numerous times. "American names…you live in America now Kagome, we are going to use American names…" She mumbled under her breath, using that reasoning as a good excuse as to why should could cross out that horrible, treacherous name. But subconsciously, she found that name to be poisonous. She put down her pen and rubbed her temples. "UGH! How am I going to get through this? I haven't even got to the part where he swore to protect her and already my insides are screaming!"
Kagome leaned back in her chair. She sighed and her mind sent another silent message to her real Isaac, whose name she dared not speak out loud. 'Oh InuYasha, Souta's right. I still love you.' She cautiously picked up her pen in such a hesitant way that if someone would have watched her, they would have believed the pen would reach out and bite her.
She wanted to go back; Kagome knew she wouldn't have stayed away forever…unless distance was involved. She wondered if InuYasha had jumped through the well searching for her at the shrine. A small smile curved on her lips as she pictured her precious hanyou yelling at the new inhabitants and demanding the whereabouts of his Kagome.
Kagome laid her head down on the desk as she remembered the way he'd address her. She remembered all those nights when he'd hold her tightly to himself. She'd pretend to be asleep, but the feel of his arms around her made her so giddy and she knew the longer she would stay away, the longer she could feel that. She remembered the way he would quickly walk up behind her and whisper an "I love you" in her ear than walk past her without a glance so none of their companions could see how soft he had become. Just as much as she was his, he was hers. He was like a child from the day they met to the day she left, and she believed he was still that child now.
It took her months to come to terms with his words. She worked so hard to convince herself that he was hurt and didn't mean what he said. She wished daily that she could take back the last words that she said to him. "I HATE you InuYasha." Every time she thought about that she cringed. The advantage InuYasha had over Kagome though, was Miroku. InuYasha would know after talking to Miroku that Kagome loved him. She had to assume he still loved her, and although she decided he did, she was always second guessing herself.
It was no life at all, only a mere masque that never allowed her to take her mask from her face. No one could know she loved him for no one would believe her about the time and situation. She had her family, but only Souta knew the extent of her hurt…and at this point it seemed only Souta ever would. That's why she was writing a story about her adventures. With different names, no one would know it was real, and hopefully one day, she would be able to talk about InuYasha as a man she once loved, and not feel like she was dying…
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Seeeeeee! That was longer! As I said before, there isn't a lot of stuff going on in this chapter, but it will serve for a greater purpose in times to come.