Slowly losing Sanity
WARNING!- This chapter contains spoilers to the end of YU-GI-OH read at your own risk!!
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His knees buckled beneath him as he descended upon the pavement, his eyes closing as consciousness faded. It was strange…he thought he heard someone call out to him but dismissed it.
No one could enter his reality…
"RYOU!!" Yuugi called out seeing the albino fall onto the ground. He ran to him picking his head up gently "Ryou…" he repeated softly "He looks so pale…" he thought to himself. "Ryou" he spoke again slightly shaking him but the boy did not stir.
Ryou…
………..
"Ryou, wake up sleep head!"
His soft eyes slowly opened, responding to the voice which called to him. He sat up and noticed he was in the park….but it wasn't domino, he was back home….England. He looked around "You're finally awake" a voice called to him.
"Amane…"he spoke. The girl didn't seem to notice him but rather look through him "RYOU!!" she exclaimed in gruff annoyance. He heard a yawn besides him and looked down to only see him…
Chibified….
The white hair child rubbed his eyes "Sister, I was taking a nap…" the boy whined. Amane gave him a glare " You sleep enough as is you vampire" she teased. Little Ryou gave a huff at this. "Am not!"
"Are too"
"Am not"
"Are too"
"AMNOTAMNOT!!!" he yelled suddenly getting up he began chasing the older sibling throughout the park while their laughter echoed through the empty environment. As they ran further away their forms slowly faded away until they disappeared in the sunset.
Ryou was left alone…alone…how that word related to him so perfectly…
He only laid behind the tree and sighed, this was he had now…memories…of a once happy life he would never have grasped again…he felt so alone…kami he even wanted his yami back, even with the abuse it was better than being alone…
The echoing laugh of his paths still played through the wind, the calls towards his sister and the sweet melody of her laugh
Amane…
"Amane…" he whispered. He felt a hand stroke his forehead it felt incredibly warm and soothing while a sent of jasmine his nostrils. His hand slowly risen touching the stroking hand and held it to his face the smell was so intoxicating…
"How do you feel?" the voice spoke to him. He slowly opened his eyes and was face with blue eyes. "Who…are you?" he accent softly asked to the person before him.
"I am Isis" she replied. He looked to her never he seen a women so beautiful before him well there was Anzu but this women seem to be beautiful in a whole different level. Long midnight black hair caressed her dark golden bronze skin while azure eyes gave a hint of maturity, cool….somehow a sense of loneliness…
"Ryou!"
Ryou's attention was turned away from the dark skinned beauty "…Yuugi…" he began. The short duelist ran to him "Ryou! Are you all right?" he exclaimed with worry. "…What happened….?" Ryou only asked. Yuugi frowned at him "you fainted in the middle of the street….Ryou, what happened to you?" he ask motioning to the bruises and dried blood on the albino.
"Nothing…" Ryou spoke in a whisper as in a dazed. Yuugi looked to him worriedly "Well, we should clean you up…" he offered. Ryou slowly nodded "Yes, old chap…" he replied again in the same toneless voice.
"Perhaps I should leave…." the beauty known as Isis spoke. Yuugi nodded "yes, I'll see you tomorrow, thank you for helping me bring Ryou in the house" Yuugi spoke. Isis nodded. She began to walked but not before stopping a moment to look to Ryou.
Blue met brown.
She bowed her head and continue to walk, the shut of the door signaling that she had left. "Well then, lets clean you up" Yuugi spoke leading the Albino to the bathroom. Using Yuugi as a crutch Ryou slowly made it to the lavatory. "Do you want to take a shower?" Yuugi ask. Ryou slowly nodded not answering.
"Ok, I'll just get clothes out for you" he offered.
"Say Ryou…"
"?" he turned to him. Yuugi looked back, eyes full of concerned "….I know it hasn't been easy for any of us…ever since Atemu left us but…you've…"
"I'm fine Yuugi…" he interrupted. "O-Ok…" yuugi spoke and closed the door behind the bathroom. Ryou began to take off his now dirtied shirt letting it fall unto the floor. Dry blood still stick against his pale skin. His hands trail downed of the sound of the zipper came down and his pants pooled around his feet.
He stood before the mirror naked eyes deep in thought and space as he stared at the reflection before him.
This was him…
Was it really?
Hair as pure as snow
Black as darkness…
Pale skin…
Pale as death…
Soft brown eyes…
Which withheld a mask of twisted truths and eluding lies…
Who was he really?
Lost souls which walks the trail of meaningless…
He turned from the reflection and entered into the shower the water turned on and the room filled with steam. As the water sprinkled down his body he closed his eyes feeling the life giving liquid beat against trail down his body softly beating against him as the white mop plastered to his cranium.
Which all hide lies, truths, deceit of what we are…
His body winced as he began to cleaned himself, scrubbing off the blood, the dirt against the bruises of last nights memory. The mix of blood and dirt trailed down from his body and into the drain.
To live to die…such meaningless that we live in…
His eyes opened when he felt another presence with him "W-Who's…there…?" he spoke softly. He gasped when he felt a restricting force on his chest.
{Hello Hikari…}
His heart stopped at this…
{Baku…ra….}
It chuckled at this as pale arms became evident holding him. "Are you so lonely…?" His dark purred to his ear. Ryou shook.
No…you're suppose to be gone now…"he manage to speak out. Bakura laughed as he embraced his naked hikari tighter. {how can you be so sure?} he replied.
"What do you mean?"
{How could you be so sure I'm so gone…? Do you have proof?}
"Stop it…" he pleaded. His yami chuckled at his {you don't have to be alone you know, if you want I can come back} he tempted. Ryou gritted his teeth "NO!" he cried. He let out a gasp…he was alone again. He fell to his knees breathing hard as the water fell down on him.
The water stopped.
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"Ryou…are you sure your all right?" Yuugi ask for the umpteenth time.
"Yes mate, don't worry" Ryou replied as he walked him to his apartment. "Well, ok…" Yuugi hesitantly spoke before leaving the boy alone in the apartment. Ryou locked the door behind him
Always putting on a mask…
That's all he ever did.
He slumped on his knees and look to his home in a daze. His room before him began to change and distort right in front of his eyes. Would the city of soot come back? Would it rain feathers this time? When it came to his reality nothing was ordinary.
As the matter liquefy and float in space ryou began to pick himself up slowly.
No one wants to be alone…
He remembered the words of his yami but it couldn't be, his yami was no more, laid to rest along with Atemu…but how could he reach him beyond…could Amane reach him too…?
If we're alone, our mind can turn against us…
"Amane…" he whispered feeling the pain of imprisonment in his body as chain shackled around him the room turned dark as the walls stank of decay and staleness. Chains appeared around his body as the hard weight force him to kneel unto the dirtied ground.
Where insanity exists, where we can escape…
It was hard to breathe suddenly "alone…" he whispered.
{I can come back…you just have to allow it…}
"….."
{Unless you want to continue to be alone…}
His taunts rang through him this was too much "I don't…want to be…alone…" ryou whispered. In a blink, the cell disappeared and he found himself back in his living room. Making no sound he stood up in silence. He made his way to the kitchen and took out a knife. Without hesitation he made a cut to his arm. As the warm liquid splattered towards the ground a grin played upon the albino's face.
"That's right Hikari, you won't be alone anymore…" Ryou spoke before breaking into a familiar insane cackle.
Once upon a time there lived a lonely child who lived in a tower of thorns.
Every night the child would spill tears unto the world , the tears became the rain and they cleansed the world but did not cleanse the sadness.
Soon after the child was save by another and was happy
But, happiness was short lived
The one who had been the child's savior took the life of oneself and the child of thorns was alone again. Consumed by sadness the child cried until the child transform in a cross of thorns symbolizing the everlasting bondage of innocence and pain for all human kind.
Sad child of thorns, will the tears of angels ever cleanse your soul?
No one wants to be alone…
Will the day come for you?
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AN: ok sorry for those who have become confused by this chapter so I might as well clean up a few things.
Bakura represents ryou's losing grip in reality and slowly going insane to cope. The shower scene… I guess it was fan service to yaoi fangrls n.n;;
Yes this takes place after the end of yugi-oh so yes Atemu did leave them, sorry for the spoilers. Also the places that ryou visits do serve a purpose; for those who know a little about surrealism go ahead give a crack at it! Amane definitely plays a major role in this and the "child of thorns"
And yes it's Ryou/Isis so enjoy
See ya!
fOX/Unshattering Faith