WOW, you people must really love my story! Thank you for all the nice
reviews!!!!(Runs over and hugs reviewers, reviews look uncomfortable). I
LOVES YOU ALL!!!!!!!!! Now this chapter will be a little angst-y, just to
warn you all. It will also be incredibly short. Sorry, but I'll be back
soon with a much longer chapter, in Hiei's POV. And yes, Hiei will get his
memory back soon. But not for a few more chapters. Now Scribble will do
the disclaimer and we'll begin.
Scribble: We don't own YYH, although the fourth manga is out, and we have that.
Decisions
Kurama's POV:
As I went to go to sleep that night, I was struck with a dilemma. I was wondering if Hiei would ever get his memory back at all.
'Maybe he shouldn't get his memory back,' another voice in my head suggested.
'What do you mean?'
'Don't deny it, you like having him around as a little brother. He's fine the way he is right now. Why fix what's not broken?'
'Well, yeah, I do like having him around,' I admitted. 'But I can't keep him here. He has a different life, and belongs in Makai. He can't stay forever. I want him to get his memory back and go live his life the way it should be.'
'But you sound upset while thinking that.'
'Maybe I'm upset, but it would be selfish to keep him. He's a wild spirit, I shouldn't keep him caged. He should be free, with all his memories.'
'All of them? Are you sure?' the voice asked me.
'What do you mean? Of course all of them!'
'With you being his friend, that's a pretty horrible thing to do. Think about it! All his life he's been hated, abandoned, abused, maybe even raped. He has so many bad memories. Much more than good ones. Why would you want him to remember all those terrible things that have happened to him?'
'I...but...he....'
'See? You understand it would be horrible to have all those things happen. Who would want to remember them?'
'But Hiei is my friend, for who he is. And his life and experiences- they made him that. You can't change the past, no matter how much you want to.' I knew this from experience.
'But still- who would want to remember a horrible life?' With that said, the voice fell silent.
I tried to think about what we both said. (A/N: OMG, I made Kurama schizophrenic! Sorry!) He had been right. Hiei had a pretty bad life. If I could I would change it, but I can't. So then why do I want him to regain his memory, when I want to be able to stop it? In a sense, I could keep it from happening. But that would be unfair to the small fire demon. He'll never be himself again, never be like the Hiei he used to be, the Hiei I befriended.
Torn between wanting to help Hiei have a better life and wanting him to be who he was, I was stuck at indecision. Both had good points and both had consequences. So what would I do? How was I to help Hiei?
Everything that had happened- the mental strain of the past few days- I just couldn't keep it in anymore. Tears formed in my eyes, and I let them fall. Just before I drifted off to sleep, I wondered: What would you want, if you, Hiei, were in this situation? What would you do?
Scribble: That sucked.
Me: (sarcasm) Thanks a lot. You're a great friend.
Scribble: I'm a muse, but I suppose I could be your friend.
Me: How nice! Oh! Well, that's the end of that chapter, so I hope you enjoyed Kurama's internal conflicts, and I'll be updating within a week- shorter if my sister stays off. Thanks for reading, and even more thanks for reviewing! Please, no flames, but all else is welcomed. Long Live the Demons!
titangirl161
Scribble: We don't own YYH, although the fourth manga is out, and we have that.
Decisions
Kurama's POV:
As I went to go to sleep that night, I was struck with a dilemma. I was wondering if Hiei would ever get his memory back at all.
'Maybe he shouldn't get his memory back,' another voice in my head suggested.
'What do you mean?'
'Don't deny it, you like having him around as a little brother. He's fine the way he is right now. Why fix what's not broken?'
'Well, yeah, I do like having him around,' I admitted. 'But I can't keep him here. He has a different life, and belongs in Makai. He can't stay forever. I want him to get his memory back and go live his life the way it should be.'
'But you sound upset while thinking that.'
'Maybe I'm upset, but it would be selfish to keep him. He's a wild spirit, I shouldn't keep him caged. He should be free, with all his memories.'
'All of them? Are you sure?' the voice asked me.
'What do you mean? Of course all of them!'
'With you being his friend, that's a pretty horrible thing to do. Think about it! All his life he's been hated, abandoned, abused, maybe even raped. He has so many bad memories. Much more than good ones. Why would you want him to remember all those terrible things that have happened to him?'
'I...but...he....'
'See? You understand it would be horrible to have all those things happen. Who would want to remember them?'
'But Hiei is my friend, for who he is. And his life and experiences- they made him that. You can't change the past, no matter how much you want to.' I knew this from experience.
'But still- who would want to remember a horrible life?' With that said, the voice fell silent.
I tried to think about what we both said. (A/N: OMG, I made Kurama schizophrenic! Sorry!) He had been right. Hiei had a pretty bad life. If I could I would change it, but I can't. So then why do I want him to regain his memory, when I want to be able to stop it? In a sense, I could keep it from happening. But that would be unfair to the small fire demon. He'll never be himself again, never be like the Hiei he used to be, the Hiei I befriended.
Torn between wanting to help Hiei have a better life and wanting him to be who he was, I was stuck at indecision. Both had good points and both had consequences. So what would I do? How was I to help Hiei?
Everything that had happened- the mental strain of the past few days- I just couldn't keep it in anymore. Tears formed in my eyes, and I let them fall. Just before I drifted off to sleep, I wondered: What would you want, if you, Hiei, were in this situation? What would you do?
Scribble: That sucked.
Me: (sarcasm) Thanks a lot. You're a great friend.
Scribble: I'm a muse, but I suppose I could be your friend.
Me: How nice! Oh! Well, that's the end of that chapter, so I hope you enjoyed Kurama's internal conflicts, and I'll be updating within a week- shorter if my sister stays off. Thanks for reading, and even more thanks for reviewing! Please, no flames, but all else is welcomed. Long Live the Demons!
titangirl161