AUTHORS NOTE: Here we go!! Thank you to everyone who reviewed. You guys are amazing. You are patient. Which is GREAT! But I promise to maybe update a bit quicker. I feel horrible. But with Christmas coming up it has been hectic. And I have had to help out a friend in need. So that's been crazy. And exams are coming up after Christmas. So I'm beginning to study a bit. Then I will take a break over Christmas. Then study more AFTER Christmas. 'Cause exams are..well..ugh… Never mind. Too much explaining needed. A lot of you might know what I'm talking about. Those who are younger and haven't had to deal with it, you will eventually, then you'll understand. Lmao. Anyways. Here it is. FINALLY! Heh. "Remus' Secret" Right here. On Fanfiction.net … wait a sec. I sound like one of those T.V guys. "Justin Timberlake will be here with us. Right here. On MuchMusic." Lmao… Ignore my randomness. Happens a lot lately. After-affect of being sick-Complete randomness. So ignore my little randomness and read this chapter. THEN REVIEW PLEASE!! YAY! "Remus' Secret" CHECK IT OUT!!
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ANOTHER NOTE: This chapter may not be AMAZINGLY long. But then again it might be. It's called "Remus' Secret" and most of you are probably thinking one thing. While I am writing another. Well I am writing two things. The one you are expecting because it is called "Remus' Secret" and another part just for the hell of it. Enjoy!
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Remus' Secret"James?" Lily asked yawning one night by the fire. Her and James were snuggled up on the couch. Their friends had claimed they had "looked more adorable than ever". Lily had just rolled her eyes and snuggled into James. Now their friends had gone to bed and Lily and James were still in the common room, on that couch, by the fire.
"Yes flower?" Lily giggled at him calling her 'flower'. Frankly, she loved the nickname.
"Where does Remus go every month?" James sat up, nearly knocking Lily off the couch. But he grabbed her before she could fall. "He just disappears claiming his mom is sick. His grandma is sick. If I'm not mistaken, Remus doesn't live with his mom or aunt, nor does her have contact with them. Last I hear he was living on his own now that he could. He left the house he was living in with his sister. Isn't that right?" James nodded.
"Lily where Remus goes is really nobody's business." Said James.
"But you know. You know where he goes and why. And I'm your girlfriend. I deserve to know." James looked away. "Look at me James. Tell me the truth."
"I can't flower. I just can't." Lily stood up.
"Fine. When you can trust me, come find me. Until then, I do NOT want to talk to you or see your face." And with that Lily turned and headed up the stairs to her dormitory. Ignoring James' calling of her name.
James settled him back onto the couch. He placed his head in his hands. "Damn it." He muttered to himself. "What the hell have I done?" He glanced around, hoping someone would answer him, but nobody did. Sighing, he headed upstairs to his dorm, the common room fire slowly dying. 'Nobody was to know Remus' Secret.' He thought to himself. 'Nobody.'
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The next morning Lily woke up, showered, dressed and headed down to breakfast earlier than all her friends. She had no reason to wait for James. She had remembered the conversation from last night. And now she wasn't talking to him. 'If he trusts me. He'd tell me. Obviously he doesn't trust me.' She thought to herself. Sighing, Lily took her place at the Gryffindor table, where, surprisingly seeing how today they did have classes, there was hardly anybody.
"When the road gets dark, and you can no longer see. Let my love throw a spark, and have a little faith in me. When the tears you cry, are all you can believe, just give these loving arms a try baby, and have a little faith in me…" Lily began singing a muggle song to herself for no apparent reason. She was completely oblivious to those around her. She just sang. Not caring who heard. She didn't have a care in the world. She had nobody to care about. She continued to sing, dishing herself some breakfast. She hadn't noticed her best friend and the Marauders walk into the Great Hall and see her sitting there. Slowly, they began to walk over and they took their places next to her at the Gryffindor table.
"Morning Lily." Said Sarah as she sat down. Lily looked up, finally noticing those around her.
"Oh. Morning." She nodded in the direction of Sirius, Remus and Peter, not caring to look at James.
"Is something wrong?" asked Sarah. Lily looked at her, an innocent look plastered across her fact.
"No. Everything is fine Sarah. Why would you ask?" By now the Great Hall had begun to fill with students, everyone still tired and wanting breakfast.
"For one reason, you haven't said hello to James or even looked in his direction yet this morning. That's odd." Replied Sarah.
"He doesn't deserve to be looked at or spoken to Sarah. Its that simple." Sarah stared at her is disbelief.
"Are you two..broken up?" asked Sarah.
"It depends." Lily turned to James. "James do you trust me enough to tell me?"
"I do trust you flower."
"Then tell me."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"It's not my place to tell."
"I'm your girlfriend. You're supposed to trust me with things!" Lily said, angry.
"I do trust you."
"I don't believe you." Lily turned back to Sarah. "Yes." She said. "Me and James are broken up to confirm what you asked." And with that she went back to her breakfast.
"We- we are what?" Lily looked at him.
"Broken. Up." She said.
"But-Lil. No please. Don't do this."
"I'm sorry James. Wait. No. I'm not. This is entirely your fault. You can't trust me enough to tell me things that I deserve to know. I was your girlfriend. Till you decided you couldn't tell me. Or is it that you wouldn't?" James looked her straight in the eyes.
"Look me in the eyes Lil. Tell me what you see." Lily sighed and looked deep into his eyes.
"Hurt." She replied. "Anger."
"Exactly. Lillian please don't do this." She looked him in the eyes again.
"Its too late. I already have." And with that Lily got up and left the Great Hall. James stared after her. Hoping he was dreaming.
"Am I dreaming?" he asked his friends. Sirius put a comforting hand on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry mate." He said. "But you aren't dreaming." Feeling tears prickling in his eyes, James jumped out of his seat and ran from the hall, not wanting his friends to see him about to cry.
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A half an hour later, James found himself sitting by the lake. Just him and his thoughts.
'I should tell her.' Thought James. 'I can't lose her. She is my everything. What am I going to do? Tell her? Remus would kill me. I can't do that. But I can't lose Lily. I need her. Damn it! Why did my world have to be like this?'
"Prongs?" asked a voice, pulling James from his thoughts. James turned to see Remus standing there, wearing his winter cloak and holding James' cloak in his arm. "Thought you might be cold." He said holding out the cloak. James reached out and grabbed the cloak.
"Thanks." He muttered.
"I know." Said Remus. James looked at him.
"Know what?" asked James.
"Why you and Lily are like this."
"Its nobody's business."
"Like hell it is James. I think it is my fault mainly seeing how I'm the reason why you guys are heading down to splitsville." Said Remus.
"How did you-" James started but Remus cut him off.
"Wolf instinct I guess." They were quiet for a few minutes. Then Remus spoke. "Tell her James."
"Its not my secret to tell. You will tell people when you are ready Moony."
"And I'm ready. I just want you to tell her."
"You positive?"
"100%."
"Alright. I will." James stood up. "Thanks Remus. I, I couldn't do it without you"
"No problem mate. Oh. James, could I talk to you for one minute. There is something I need to get off my chest." James stared at him. Then nodded and the two of them sat down.
"Two months." Was all Remus said. James stared at him.
"Two months?" he questioned.
"Me and Melina. From Ravenclaw. Its been going on for two months."
"Melina Kazmarek?" Remus nodded. "Isn't she dating Diggory?" Remus nodded once again. "How?" Remus shrugged.
"It just happened. I had been getting…uh..help from her in Muggle Studies." James laughed, usually Remus was the one to tutor people. Remus ignored him and went on. "One night we were in the library when she leaned over and kissed me. We've been seeing each other in private ever since." James stared at him.
"Wow. You know how big of a problem it could be if you and her went public and she broke up with Diggory."
"I know. Damn it Prongs. Diggory's father is high up in the Ministry. MY sister works for HIM. Even though I don't talk to her. If I'm the reason his sons heart is broken, he'll fire Isabella in an instant."
"We'll figure something out mate. We will." Remus smiled at him and James returned the smile.
"Thanks. Now go tell Lily. Can't have you broken up any longer." James nodded and stood up. Muttering 'thanks', James ran towards the castle. Needing to find Lily as soon as possible.
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Panting, James reached the portrait hole, said the password, and ran inside. Glancing around the common room, James spotted Lily by the fire and ran up to her.
"I have nothing to say to you." Lily said before he could say anything.
"Just. Come with me. I need to talk to you." He held out his hand.
"You trust me?" She asked in disbelief.
"With all my heart." Jumping up, she took his hand and let him lead her upstairs. The entire common room staring at the couple. Sirius jumped up out of the chair and let out a whoop.
"PRONGS IS GETTING SOME!" The common room laughed and laughed some more when they heard Lily yell down 'No he ain't!'.
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Lily sat on James' bed listening to the truth. She was amazed. James truly trusted her. And now she was learning Remus' Secret. She knew the truth now. She believed she could trust James to trust her. Everything would be fine.
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James sat across from Lily on his bed, retelling Remus' story that he had heard many times before. About how it happened. How Remus was bit. About his transformations. But not that James helped him through it. That was more than just his secret. It was the Marauders secret. Nobody could learn those secrets. So he went on telling Remus' story to Lily. She seemed content that he trusted her. And James did. With all his heart. He had learned more than just trust today. He too had learned Remus' Secret.
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PLEASE REVIEW!! CAUSE I FINALLY WROTE THE CHAPTER!! THREE WHOOPS FOR SAM!! YAY! Anyways..as soon as I get some more ideas I will type the next chapter and post it. I know the titles of all my chapters. So as far as I know the next chapter is "Is It True". I just can't remember what I wanted to write about. Lmao. Thanks again everyone! Click review…… NOW!