Shakily, he stood up, bells ringing in his ears. Atsuko tried to stedy him, and he walked to his room. He sat at his desk once again, and pulled open the drawer, looking for some paper. He accidently uncovered the Communication Mirror, which Botan had given him back when Maze Castle was a threat. Suddenly, it hit him; why not go to spirit world and get Koenma tob bring back Kurama? He had done it before, hadn't he? Why not again? He opened the Communication Mirror, and Botan appeared on the screen.
"You ringed?" She asked, and Yuusuke nodded,
"Yeah, Botan, get me to Spirit World, I need to speak to the toddler." He demanded. Botan looked at him, puzzled, but Yuusuke suddenly found himself standing next to her, before the Gate of Judegment.
"Hello!" She said, cheerily, grinning.
"How...How'd you do that?" Yuusuke asked, and she shrugged;
"Tampering with the space-time continuem, really simple." She said, pushing the call button.
"Never mind. I failed science, I really don't think I'll understand." He said, and she laughed a nodded. He caught a hint of sadness in her laugh, but he shrugged. Little did he know she knew what he wanted, and she knew what would happen. She lead him up to Koenma's quaters, and opened the door. He sat in his desk, as usual, stamping papers. He looked up wearily, and sat up stright.
"Hello, Yuusuke," He said, "I assume you didn't just come for a tea party?"
"Hey, its my job to make jokes, but no, I'm not. Koenma, can you bring Kurama back?" Yuusuke asked. Koenma sighed heavily,
"No, Yuusuke. I can't." He said.
"Why the hell not?! You did it to me, didn't you?" He yelled.
"For one, Yuusuke, I'm not allowed to make everyone who died come back to life, as I believe when you first died Botan explained the uniquness of your case. Secondly, the world can stand having one person come back every billion years or so, but it still is aginst nature. If I bring back a second person, the lays of this world will no longer apply. Can you imagine it, Yuusuke? The parelle universe would be in disarray, nothing would apply, psyichis, anything. Do you really want to live in a world like that? Do you want everyone else to live in a world like that?" Koenma demanded. There was a heavy silence, in which Yuusuke didn't say aynthing. Botan layed a hand on his shoulder, but he shrugged it off. Maybe I'm the only one to realize, she thought to herself, but Yuusuke isn't doing this just because a friend died...hes doing it because someone he LOVED died...
"Is there anyway at all I can see him or something?" Yuusuke asked, and Koenma didn't say anything at first.
"Oh Koenma-sama, you can't! Yuusuke wouldn't want to see him that way, and you know it!" Botan said, but Koenma sighed, and pressed the call button.
"Send Kurama in, please." He said. The door opened, and Yuusuke saw Kurama come in, although he was not in human form. It was like looking at him though a frosted window glass, he smiled sadly at Yuusuke.
"K-Kurama?" He asked, and Koenma motioned for Botan to follow him out of the room, which she did. Ah...I guess Koenma knows too, Botan thought to herself. Kurama walked forward.
"Yuusuke..." He said, and his voice faded out like wind.
"Kurama...I...I'm so sorry..." Yuusuke said, tears rolling down his face, "If I had gone back like you told me...then...you'd still be alive..." Kurama put his hand ontop of Yuusuke's head.
"Yuusuke, I chose to do what I did. Even if it killed me, I have no regrets."
"What happened? Why can't I remember?" Yuusuke asked.
"I killed Shuichi. But I guess I did the samething you did with Suzaku, and used my life energy, and I found myself here."
"It doesn't matter..." Yuusuke said, "It doesn't matter if you choose to die because of me, it still doesn't change the fact that I caused so many people so much pain. Your mother...everyone...and its all my fault. I'm never going to be able to change that fact, and I'm never going to be able to forgive myself." Yuusuke said. Kurama put his hands on Yuusuke's face.
"Yuusuke," He said, "If you don't forgive yourself for your sake...forgive yourself for mine. I don't want you to hurt inside for the rest of your life, tormenting yourself over what could've been diffrent. I want you to go, and I want you to live life without any stops."
"Kurama...I don't want to live this life if you're..." He said, pausing, wondering if he should say it, "If you're not in it." Kurama smiled,
"Yuusuke..." He said, and lightly kissed him. It was heartwrenching, as Yuusuke could barely feel it, due to Kurama's lack of state. "We all die, sooner or later. You cannot change that."
"No..." Yuusuke said, "I'm going to change it. I don't think Shuichi is gone, and if I kill him, you'll have your body back." Yuusuke said, and Kurama looked at him surprised.
"I killed him, I felt his ki disappear." Kurama said, and Yuusuke shook his head.
"I sensed him, I know I did."
Fwee? Shuichi? Not dead? Damn, just when it was getting good. Oh yeah...I'm typing this aren't I? Ah...sorry, I don't plan ahead, I just write as it comes!
"You ringed?" She asked, and Yuusuke nodded,
"Yeah, Botan, get me to Spirit World, I need to speak to the toddler." He demanded. Botan looked at him, puzzled, but Yuusuke suddenly found himself standing next to her, before the Gate of Judegment.
"Hello!" She said, cheerily, grinning.
"How...How'd you do that?" Yuusuke asked, and she shrugged;
"Tampering with the space-time continuem, really simple." She said, pushing the call button.
"Never mind. I failed science, I really don't think I'll understand." He said, and she laughed a nodded. He caught a hint of sadness in her laugh, but he shrugged. Little did he know she knew what he wanted, and she knew what would happen. She lead him up to Koenma's quaters, and opened the door. He sat in his desk, as usual, stamping papers. He looked up wearily, and sat up stright.
"Hello, Yuusuke," He said, "I assume you didn't just come for a tea party?"
"Hey, its my job to make jokes, but no, I'm not. Koenma, can you bring Kurama back?" Yuusuke asked. Koenma sighed heavily,
"No, Yuusuke. I can't." He said.
"Why the hell not?! You did it to me, didn't you?" He yelled.
"For one, Yuusuke, I'm not allowed to make everyone who died come back to life, as I believe when you first died Botan explained the uniquness of your case. Secondly, the world can stand having one person come back every billion years or so, but it still is aginst nature. If I bring back a second person, the lays of this world will no longer apply. Can you imagine it, Yuusuke? The parelle universe would be in disarray, nothing would apply, psyichis, anything. Do you really want to live in a world like that? Do you want everyone else to live in a world like that?" Koenma demanded. There was a heavy silence, in which Yuusuke didn't say aynthing. Botan layed a hand on his shoulder, but he shrugged it off. Maybe I'm the only one to realize, she thought to herself, but Yuusuke isn't doing this just because a friend died...hes doing it because someone he LOVED died...
"Is there anyway at all I can see him or something?" Yuusuke asked, and Koenma didn't say anything at first.
"Oh Koenma-sama, you can't! Yuusuke wouldn't want to see him that way, and you know it!" Botan said, but Koenma sighed, and pressed the call button.
"Send Kurama in, please." He said. The door opened, and Yuusuke saw Kurama come in, although he was not in human form. It was like looking at him though a frosted window glass, he smiled sadly at Yuusuke.
"K-Kurama?" He asked, and Koenma motioned for Botan to follow him out of the room, which she did. Ah...I guess Koenma knows too, Botan thought to herself. Kurama walked forward.
"Yuusuke..." He said, and his voice faded out like wind.
"Kurama...I...I'm so sorry..." Yuusuke said, tears rolling down his face, "If I had gone back like you told me...then...you'd still be alive..." Kurama put his hand ontop of Yuusuke's head.
"Yuusuke, I chose to do what I did. Even if it killed me, I have no regrets."
"What happened? Why can't I remember?" Yuusuke asked.
"I killed Shuichi. But I guess I did the samething you did with Suzaku, and used my life energy, and I found myself here."
"It doesn't matter..." Yuusuke said, "It doesn't matter if you choose to die because of me, it still doesn't change the fact that I caused so many people so much pain. Your mother...everyone...and its all my fault. I'm never going to be able to change that fact, and I'm never going to be able to forgive myself." Yuusuke said. Kurama put his hands on Yuusuke's face.
"Yuusuke," He said, "If you don't forgive yourself for your sake...forgive yourself for mine. I don't want you to hurt inside for the rest of your life, tormenting yourself over what could've been diffrent. I want you to go, and I want you to live life without any stops."
"Kurama...I don't want to live this life if you're..." He said, pausing, wondering if he should say it, "If you're not in it." Kurama smiled,
"Yuusuke..." He said, and lightly kissed him. It was heartwrenching, as Yuusuke could barely feel it, due to Kurama's lack of state. "We all die, sooner or later. You cannot change that."
"No..." Yuusuke said, "I'm going to change it. I don't think Shuichi is gone, and if I kill him, you'll have your body back." Yuusuke said, and Kurama looked at him surprised.
"I killed him, I felt his ki disappear." Kurama said, and Yuusuke shook his head.
"I sensed him, I know I did."
Fwee? Shuichi? Not dead? Damn, just when it was getting good. Oh yeah...I'm typing this aren't I? Ah...sorry, I don't plan ahead, I just write as it comes!