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Authors Note: I have actually lost my story outline. I can't find it. Grrrawr. Anyways. Here are a few responses to some reviews. I think its about time I did this.

Raven/ravenchickmegablaster20 : Don't you just HATE it when your computer crashes? I hate it. Majorly. Even though mine doesn't really crash. It just decides to not co-operate. And please don't die. Here's my next chapter. Haha.

Fanatic22 : Ex-nay on the suspense? Lol. I'll do my best. Maybe JUST for that, this chapter should be a cliffhanger. evil laugh

Smurfinator : Yeah, I made that mistake of not including that part in. And I wrote during Remus' Secret that she didn't find out so I confused myself. If ANYONE ELSE IS READING THIS .. just imagine that she did find out some how. Because I dont have the time to sit here and find a spot to place it in. Maybe I will eventually, just use your imagination and put it in. Thanks for letting me know though!

Shieldmaiden Wot : I hope James is okay too. Haha. Naw, dont worry, James is okay. As for Sarah and Sirius, who knows. You'll just have to continue to read my story now wont you? wink

Dancingquyn : Please breathe, I'm not exactly wanting to be responsible for your death. Haha.

Siriusly Psychotic : Dying? Is that healthy?

Inadequate : Thanks :). And you're welcome for the experience.

Lilly Parkinson : Now what kind of author would I be if I left out something like shagging? Lol. A 14 year old one thats what. :D

OjosAzules : Depends on how mean this thing you would do if I dont update. Lol. I'm confusing myself.

That's all for now. I'm taking up too much update space. Lol. So please read and review. And remember that this is from scratch, no outline, so if it sucks. Screw me. Not literally. Yet watch, this will be better then when I had the outline.

Lily held on tightly to James' hand as they walked down the street in Hogsmeade. For the past few weeks, Lily had been trying to stay closer to James, afraid that something may happen to him after what had happened. When James woke up she had been estatic and Sirius had left the room. From what James had reported back to her after he was left alone for a little while with Sirius after Sirius returned from seeing Remus, Sirius had gone to see Remus and he had no memory of what happened with James. He had wondered why James had appeared in slight pain for a week or two, but James had claimed the morning after the incident at the Shrieking Shack, he had taken a small fall off his broom during a private quidditch practice, and Lily had done her best to heal him. Lily had gone along with this story, not wanting to hurt Remus. But then again, watching the healing process of James' cuts and bruises, she had wanted to tell Remus to be more careful next time, not knowing what could happen. Glancing over at James beside her on the street in Hogsmeade, she noticed he still had a faint scar along his cheek that may never fade. With the memories of that night a few weeks back flooding her mind, Lily increased her grip on James' hand. James, feeling her grip strengthen, turned to look at her as she looked away. He stopped walking and gripped her hand back, making her stop.

"Lil, what is it?" Lily shook her head and turned away even more. James turned her back to look at him. "Lil, you can tell me anything, you know that, right?" Lily nodded but turned away again, having James by her side made her happy, but the memories still fresh in her mind threatened tears to pour from her eyes.

"It's nothing James, just leave it." James turned her back to face him again, just as a silent tear made its way down her cheek and off her chin.

"It's obviously something if you're crying about it." James said wiping the trail, that was left by the tear, off her face. Lily melted into his touch and wrapped her arms around him, and starting softly crying. Not knowing exactly what was up, James returned the hug and wrapped his arms around her, letting her cry.

After a while, the crying softly subsided and Lily looked up at James.

"I'm sorry." she said, standing out of his embrace. He stopped her while she moved.

"Dont be sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for." He reached his hand up and wiped the last few tears that were making their way down Lily's cheeks. "Now will you tell me what's up?"

"I just.." Lily trailed off, mumbling something. James looked at her, confuzzled (A/N I'm sorry, I HAD to put that word SOMEWHERE).

"Say again." He said softly. Lily mumbed something again. "I can't hear you, flower." Lily looked up at him and spoke softly.

"I thought I was going to lose you." Slowly, James wrapped his arms around her once again and pulled her close, Lily resting her head on his chest.

"You're not." He said, his chin resting on the top of her head.

"I know. But before, when you were hurt. I was scared James. I was so scared." James hugged her tighter, not wanting to let her go.

"I love you, flower. And I would never, ever leave you." Lily nodded into his chest and wrapped her arms around him.

"I love you too James."

Students in Hogsmeade that day walked around the couple that stood in the street. Nobody wanted to disturb the moment that was being exchanged between the Head Boy and Girl. By witnessing that scene, it was obvious of how much love was shared between the two.

"Think we should tell them we have to go back soon?" Sirius asked Remus as they stood out front of the Three Broomsticks, watching the couple.

"Naw, you go ahead and head back though. I have something I need to pick up first. I'll let them know as soon as I'm done." Sirius nodded and Remus walked off. Watching Remus enter a store further down the street, Sirius headed up the other way towards the carriages to the school. Not having anyone to share with because Peter had detention, Sirius ignored the carriages and walked up to the castle on his own. As he walked across the grounds to the main doors, he noticed a lone figure sitting alone by the lake. Needing to talk to this character, having not spoken with them since the incident a few weeks back, Sirius headed towards the lake. Approaching the figure, he didn't say anything, but the character turned around when Sirius stepped on a twig that the Whomping Willow had sent this way.

Sarah sat alongside the lake. Watching the Giant Squid bob up and down in the water. The ground was slightly damp from a rain earlier that morning, and the sky was foggy, but Sarah didn't mind the dampness on the ground or the fog, so she sat in the grass, dampness soaking through her robes. Hearing a snap of a twig, Sarah turned around to see the one person she wasn't quite interested in speaking to right now.

"Hey." said Sirius. Sarah ignored him and turned back to the lake. Sirius stepped a bit closer, crunching a few more twigs.

"What do you want?" Sarah asked, not bothering to look at him.

"I know you don't want to talk to me. But Sarah, you gotta speak to me at some point." Sarah shook her head, standing up and facing him.

"No, I don't. I have gone a few weeks without talking to you. Despite your attempts. I have nothing to say to you, therefore I'm not even going to bother with standing around here speaking whatever I'm speaking to you. Goodbye, Black." Sirius watched as she turned and walked towards the school.

"I'm sorry!" he called after her. She stopped but didn't turn around. "I'm sorry for not telling you why I couldn't come. I'm sorry for leaving you on that special night. I'm sorry for falling in love with you. I'm sorry for wanting you so bad that it hurts. I'm sorry for spending the best months of my life with you. I'm sorry for blowing off my friends to be with you. I'm sorry for every little thing I've ever done, Sarah. I'm sorry." She turned to look at him.

"If you're so sorry, how do you have the strength to even speak to me?" She asked him.

"Because as cheesy as this may sound, my love for you draws me to you. No matter how much this hurts at this very moment, it's something I have to do. To prove to you I care." She began to turn away.

"Sirius, no matter what you prove to me, it doesn't change the fact that we're through." And with that she turned and marched up to the castle, Sirius not even bothering to call at her. He began too weak and he just sat down, staring at the Giant Squid, something Sarah had been doing minutes ago.

"Damn it, Sarah. I love you." Sirius whispered to the air.

Remus, James and Lily made their way up to the castle, walking. They had just missed the last carriage up to the castle and so they walked together, laughing and chatting. Remus hadn't known what had caused the strong show of public affection earlier, but he thought it was just a random "I Love You" moment, seeing how Lily and James were perfect for each other. As they walked up the path towards the castle, Remus noticed Sirius sitting alongside the lake.

"Um, guys?" Lily and James looked at him. "You guys go on in, I think I may go for a walk or something."

"Are you okay, Remus?" Remus nodded.

"Yeah, I just need some time to myself, to think, you know?" Lily and James nodded and said good-bye, heading up into the castle. Heading towards the lake, Remus sat down beside Sirius. Sirius looked at him and Remus just patted his shoulder, as the two of them just sat in silence, not saying anything, but just being there for each other.

Authors Note:

And thats all for that chapter. I hope you enjoyed it. PLEASE review and I'll write the next chapter as soon as I can. My hands hurt, so not tonight. Haha.

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