The Goddess of Sorrow

How can you see me?

A crystal tear

slides down my cheek.

Touch my soul

that's frozen inside.

Wake me up

from the outside

Kagome spent the rest of her day riding Manhattan out on the many forest trails that Inu-yasha had made. She rode down her favorite scenic route to the small creek that ran through Inu-yasha's property. Manhattan had fun trotting around in the shallow water. Kagome watched from her usual rock, and smiled when he spooked himself, and trotted further down, his tail waving in the air like a flag. She whistled, and Manhattan's ears perked in her direction. He snorted, and cantered lightly over to her.

"Good Boy!" She said, reaching for the second apple in her pocket. Manhattan gave her his 'look at me, I'm cute' look, and watched her hand in her pocket. She drew out the apple, and he lunged for it.

"Manhattan, be gentle!" Kagome laughed, when he nearly knocked her off her rock. She held it out, and he bit it cleanly in half, leaving her hands wet and cold again. She hastily fed the other half, and put her hands back in her pockets. Manhattan slobbered apple juice all over the ground underneath him. She laughed, and carefully mounted him again. She loved feeling so tall, so powerful upon him. She patted his neck affectionately, and nudged him back onto the trail.

"Kagome! I thought I'd find you here." She cocked her head to the side, and squinted ahead on the trail. It was Inu-yasha on Shadow. "It's lunch time, you should return to the house to eat. You can come back out when you're done."

"I was going to eat out here. The trails are beautiful." She said, trotting up beside him. "If you'd like to join me, you have to bring mother as well. I don't trust you anymore." She said, her tone turning cold. She clicked and squeezed Manhattan, from a stand still, he began galloping back home. She whistled to him again, and he sped up slightly. She heard the sound of hoof beats behind her, and she gave Manhattan a twitch at the mouth. He slowed to a quiet canter.

"Kagome, I'm sorry about earlier." Inu-yasha said, cantering beside her. "I don't know what came over me. I'd like to make it up to you. Wait outside, and I'll bring lunch. We can eat by the creek."

She gave him a suspicious look. "Fine. She clicked once, and Manhattan went racing away. She thought she was well ahead of him, when Shadow's head came into her view.

"I'll race you!" He yelled over the noise of the hooves striking rocks and the ground. "We have a course near the barn!"

She nodded. "Now!" She whistled sharply, and Manhattan stretched his neck hind legs he was reaching, flying over the uneven ground. She whistled again, and his legs began moving at such a pace that amazed her.

When the barn came into view, she clucked with her tongue and twitched the reins he moved gradually to a slow canter, then the a light trot. She turned him, and looked for Inu-yasha.

"I bet you thought you had beaten me." He said from somewhere behind her. She spun around in her saddle and laughed at him.

"Just get us lunch, Inu-chan."

"Yes dear." he joked, signaling for her to follow him and they headed off to the house at a quick trot. He handed her shadow's reins, and headed back to the house.

He returned with two backpacks five minutes later. Tossing one to Kagome, he mounted Shadow, and they headed down the trail at a comfortable walk. The 'race' had over heated the two horses and Kagome said they needed to be walked. When they arrived at the creek, Inu-yasha and Kagome both removed the tack, and let the two horses play in the shallow water. Kagome and Inu-yasha sat down on the large rock near the creek. She unpacked her lunch, and began to eat her sandwich. She laughed openly with Inu-yasha when the two horses decided the water was too cold, and came out rather quickly. The two huddled together very far from the edge of the creek. Inu-yasha whistled and clicked and the two began to canter down the stretch of pebble.

"It's better if they get warmed up." He said, sitting next to Kagome. She laughed, and began eating the strawberries.

"Mmm. These are really good!" She said, looking at the small tupperware container, "They're really red, want one?" She asked, holding the container closer to him. He smiled and took one

"Thanks." He said, eating them quietly. They shared the strawberries in silence.

"Inu-yasha?"

"Hmm?"

"Why did this have to happen? Why are the gods against us?" She asked, hanging her head. An arm wrapped around her shoulders.

"I don't know..." He said, pulling her closer.

"Do you love her?"

"..."

She looked at him, his eyes were downcast. "What do you want me to say?"

"I want you to tell the truth."

"I do. I love her."

"I see." She said, pushing him away. "So I'm just some sort of sex toy?"

"No! Not at all, Kagome!" he said, reaching toward her. "Please don't think that Kagome..."

"Then what am I?!" She said, looking at him through furious eyes. "Am I just a thrill?! Just breaking the rules?!" She yelled at him, tears spilling from her eyes. She put two fingers in her mouth, and whistled shrilly. Manhattan's heavy hoof beats could be heard. He stopped beside her and she threw a leg over him.

She looked so wild with her face flush from the cold, and wet from her tears. Her wavy hair billowing around her. She was upon a beautiful creature, which was no comparison to her grace. He stood up to stop her, but her eyes held so much fury.

"Never follow me here again, Inu-yasha." She whispered. "Don't ever try to understand me." And with that, she was gone, gone with the flying feet of a wild horse.

She threw the door open, after putting Manhattan back into his warm stall.

"Oh, hello dear." Her mother said, looking up from the paper.

"I want to go back." Kagome said, storming through the dining room, toward her room. "Take me back." She stomped up the stairs, and slammed the door behind her. She went to her balcony, and gazed over the ledge at the barn. The cold wind froze her tears to her face. She took one of the small crystals and held it in her hand. When it didn't melt, she took it inside. She placed the teardrop on her desk, and waited. It never melted.

Her heart suddenly felt lighter, and she slipped the jewel into a tiny box of earrings. She went back down the stairs, and sat at the table with her mother.

"I'm sorry mom. I like it here."

"I understand. But what I forgot to tell you... There's a father/daughter dance at the theater. I was wondering if you wouldn't mind going with Inu-yasha. I really feel you would get along better if you bonded."

"But Mom-"

"Oh, do shut up."

"Sorry."

"It's a masked dance, almost no one there will recognize you."

"But there will only be old people..."

"It's also a brother/sister dance, don't be silly."

"Alright. But I want to wear a special dress."

"I'll ask Inu-yasha what you should wear."

"Thanks Mom." She said, smiling and going back upstairs to find one of those weird party masks.

She could not find a mask, but she did find a tiny cage pendant. It was only about the size of her pointer fingernail. She smiled at the silver bars, and took out one of her silver chains. She put the pendant on, and admired herself in the mirror.

"It looks pretty good."

"Would you stop barging into my room?" She said coolly without turning around.

"I want to apologize for earlier, and I have a dress for you. It's a traditional attire dance, and I picked out this Kimono."

Kagome spun around at 'Kimono'. He had a light-blue silk yukata draped over his arm. She squealed, and ran over to him.

"It's so pretty!" She cried, taking it gently from him. "Thank you."

"You're welcome. Be ready by six. It's now four."

"Yes." Before she could turn away, he had pecked her lightly on the cheek.

"Look your best, I'll be there."

"You're not going with me?"

"Sorry, I have errands to run downtown, so I'll meet you there. Suzaku will drive you.

"Okay." She closed the door, and looked at the empty silver cage around her neck. Something was missing. She rushed to her earring box and took out her crystallized tear. She opened the small trap door in the back, and put in the tear so that it was in the middle, and straight up. She smiled, and began putting on her Kimono. The heavy layered silks seemed to weigh her down, but the feeling of elegance lifted her spirits. She put on traditional geisha makeup, powdering her face, and painting on red lips with a brush.

"Kagome, it's time to go!"

"Okay, Mom!" She said, walking as fast as she could with her tight Kimono. She slipped on her wooden sandals, and walked out the door with Suzaku.

"Kagome, now that you're twenty one, you can drink, but I advise that you don't." Suzaku said, as they got in the car. "It's easier for men to take advantage of you when you are drunk."

"Yes mother."

"You look nice, Kagome."

"Thanks, Mom."

The rest of the car trip was in silence. Kagome got out of the car when they arrived at the theater, and marveled at the other people's Kimonos and Haori-Hakamas. One man came as a Samurai.

She saw Miroku and Sango walking toward the door. She was wearing a red and white yukata, and he was wearing Buddhist priest garb. She walked behind them, held up her invitation, and was handed a mask. It was glittery and black, it went with her hair which was swept up with fancy combs. She looked around for Inu-yasha, but she couldn't see who anyone was. She looked for long white hair, but there was only one man with long white hair, and he was definitely not Inu-yasha.

He was wearing a old-fashioned Haori Hakama with a breast plate and spiky armor. He had one sword at each side, and his hair was sleek and even. Definitely not Inu-yasha.

"Excuse me, milady." Some one said from behind her. She turned around. There was a tall boy behind her. He had dark hair, and bright violet eyes. She blushed underneath her mask.

"Yes?"

"Could I have this dance?" He said, bowing. He was wearing a traditional red Haori-Hakama, and he had a single Katana at his side. She squinted at his posture.

"Do I know you from somewhere?"

He looked up from his bow. "I don't think so, milady."

"Alright." She said, taking his outstretched hand. He led her onto the dance floor, and she gasped when he held her closer than what she was used to.

"Is everything alright?"

"Y-yes..."

They danced in silence, and for once, Kagome felt that she could have someone other than Inu-yasha. She closed her eyes, and she saw something from underneath her eyelids. She saw the fancy restaurant that Inu-yasha took her and her mother to. She saw Inu-yasha in his tuxedo, and his shiny black boots.

"Inu-yasha..." She murmured into the red fabric of the man's Haori.

"What was that?"

"Oh, nothing." She sighed.

The night passed by rather quickly, and she ended up having several beers with the mysterious boy. Nearing the end of the party, the man took her outside, and they sat in the traditional gardens. Kagome looked up into the stars.

"No moon tonight." She said, looking up into the starry sky.

"I know."

She looked over at his profile.

"Kagome... I have to tell you something."

"How'd you know my name?"

"Because I know you." He looked away from her, and removed his mask.

"What do you mean?" She said, leaning in closer.

He turned to face her and she screamed. His hand covered her mouth.

"Shhh! It's me!"

"Immfyahmfa!" She said from behind his hand.

"Yeah." He said, letting go of her mouth.

"What happened to you?" She said, poking his nose, which was less pointed.

"I become this way every new moon. Surprised?"

"Oh, but you're so sexy..." She laughed, leaning on his shoulder. "Ha ha.... That's funny." She said quietly before passing out on him.

"Kagome?" He asked, leaning over her smiling face. "Drunk."

"Ughnn..."

He rolled his eyes at her, picked her up, and headed out the door. He put her in the front seat of his passat, and buckled her in. The drive home lasted more than he expected, and her drool running down the sleeve of his haori made him shudder.

When he pulled up to the house, he got her out, and came stealthily in the front door. It was much too late for Suzaku to be awake, so he took her up to her room. He couldn't leave her in her Kimono, so he began to undress her. He felt himself going hard, as he removed the inner layer of silk. She was wearing matching baby blue panties, and he wanted to just lie with her, but he knew that it was out of the question. Right now, he needed a really, really cold shower. She moaned lightly, and turned onto her side.

"Mmm... Inu-..." She sighed heavily and smiled.

He felt more blood rush from his head to a certain place between his legs. He subconsciously began to remove his Haori, then his pants. When he lied beside her, she moaned louder, and wrapped her legs around him. He had more self control in his human form than anything else, but he still could not resist the temptation. He wrapped his arms around her and suckled on her collar bone. She pressed her womanhood against him, and threw her head back. She put her hands on his chest, and crawled over him, straddling his waist. Her hand slipped over his abs, and rested at the elastic band of his boxers. Leaning over him, she kissed him under the jawbone.

"Kagome!" He whispered, shaking her. He wanted this... gods he wanted this. But not without her knowing. "Kagome!"

She blinked bleary-eyed at him, and smiled stupidly. "Hi Inu-yasha..." she said, kissing him again underneath his jawbone.

"Kagome, you're drunk..."

"I know. Who's going to find out about this? Let's just play." she said, putting her hand into his boxers, and wrapping her small fingers around him.

"Ughn.." He bit back a moan of pleasure. She covered his mouth with hers and licked his tongue in the same rhythm in which she stroked him. His eyes rolled into the back of his head, and he grabbed her ass with his free hands.

"Inu-yasha... You bad boy..." She whispered. "Suzaku will hear us, where can we go?"

"There's a room..." he panted, not wanting her stop. "Sound proof... home theater..."

"Lets go." She said, pulling him up, slipping on her under robe, and he pulled on his pants. They padded silently down the hallway, and he opened two double doors, and led her inside. He snapped his fingers, and the doors closed and locked. The lights dimmed and went out. He led her to a huge bench in the front.

"Are you sure you want-" he was cut off by her kiss.

"Yes." she said, throwing him onto the cushioned bench. She threw off her robe, and pounced on him. His erection rubbed her stomach gently, and she moved over him, kissing his chest and running her hands down his sides. He pulled off his pants and boxers, bunching them at his ankles. She kissed him deeply, sucking on his tongue, then his lip. She moved on him, causing him to groan.

"Inu-yasha..." She murmured into his ear.

"Anything." He muttered. He was helpless to her.

"Take off my bra."

"Gladly." He said, moving his hands up her sided, causing her goose-bumps. He unhooked her bra, and slid the straps off of her shoulders. It fell onto his chest, and he could feel the heat radiating off her. He couldn't, however, see her. He reached around her and pulled her to him, shuddering at the ecstacy.

"Ooh... Inu-yasha..." She mewled, licking his chin seductively. She got off him, and stood up. "Get up."

He complied, and got up, feeling vulnerable without clothing. He heard something fall to the floor. Kagome was suddenly in his arms, her legs wrapped around him, his erection up between them. He could feel her wetness, and concluded that she had removed her under wear.

"Take me, Inu-Yasha."

He nodded, and laid her down on the cushion. He flipped her over onto her stomach, and slipped one of his fingers into her slick opening.

"Mmm." She made a muffled agreement.

He slid his finger in and out of her, quickly adding a second one, pumping faster and faster. He felt her inner muscles clench against his fingers. She arched her back and moaned loudly as her orgasm crashed down on her.

"Inu-yasha!" She cried out into the cushion.

"You ready, Kagome?"

"Just do it already!" She said impatiently. He nodded, and flipped her back over. He put his hands on her lower back, and lifted her knees over his shoulder. He guided himself into her entrance, slipping right past where her virginity should be. He was relieved, so he wasn't doing anything permanent by screwing her. He began slow, thrusting his painfully hard erection in and out of her.

"Ooh... Ughn... Fast...er.." She said with each thrust. She could feel herself stretch around him. He had to be at least ten inches. She heard the bench creak with every thrust. He sped up his pace, clenching his fingers around her waist painfully hard.

He stopped thrusting into her, and tried not to give into the sensations. He shushed her when she began to whine. He put her legs around his waist, and picked her up, so that her breasts were pressed to him.

"Kagome... I love you."

"I love you too." She said, hugging around him, as he sat cross-legged with her in his lap. "But please, Inu-yasha. Keep going."

He nodded, and kissed her lightly. He laid her on her back and began thrusting into her fast and faster. He grunted with the effort, pumping into her like there was nothing else.

She bent her head back, and moaned loudly. He felt himself nearing his peak, and he slammed into her one last time before releasing his seed. She arched against him, and cried his name to the dark.

He collapsed onto her, breathing hard.

"Inu-yasha? That was so sweet."

"I know..." he pulled out of her slowly, and slipped on his boxers and pants. "Lets go."

She nodded, grabbed her underwear, and pulled on her robe. They kissed one last time before he departed for his room. He took a quick shower, and crawled in bed.

She fell asleep instantly, smiling in content.

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Hold me so close

I forget my pain

Kiss me sweetly

Everything's to gain

Hold Me Close

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Tack- for you non-horse people. Saddle, etc.

I'm happy about the positive reviews. P.S: I bet you weren't expecting Kagome to be a virgin, but I'll get into that later.