A/n: I DON'T OWN THE CHARACTERS! EXCEPT FOR PANSY'S SISTER! Don't sue me!!!
Note the EMPTY bank account
Rated: PG-13 for swearing, and discrimination against gays..though eventually the rating may go up o.o
HP/DM (Or DM/HP, whatever o.o)
If you want to flame me, go ahead. I don't care anymore. *nods*
Thanks to: My faithful reviewers
And if you have any questions, review and I'll try and answer them in the next chapter!
And any derogatory terms towards gays or any other minority are simply for the effect of the story. I myself am Bi, and so are almost all of my friends, so the terms are in no way the way I feel towards said minorities.
And...to the chapter!!!!!!
Forgive Me
Harry's P.o.V.
At the time, I wasn't truely sorry for leaving him at all. I wanted everything to go away. He did change during what was left of the school year, and I didn't see him at all over the holiday. The holiday did, however seem longer, and though I was with the Weasly's and the Order, It was the most lonely of all. I had no one that I could fall back on. No one to say "I love you" to.
Finally, that dreadfully long holiday, Ron, Hermione, and I all returned to Hogwarts. We sat at our table, as always..and for some reason I saved the seat next to me. I suppose I was hoping that maybe he'd have forgotten about our breakup and would sit with me. He didn't however, and it shocked me when I saw him.
There he was, that silvery, white-blonde hair shining in the candle- lit hall, his pale features even more pale than they had been at the end of last year. His clothes were, if possible, darker, and he had marked his face as Brandon Lee had done in The Crow. Granted, this Draco was sexy, but it was also scary. I could see marks on his wrist..scars, it seemed, that I knew hadn't been there before.
Hermione leaned over and whispered to Ron, who in turn turned and whispered what she said, to me.
"What happened to him..? He sure has changed...go talk to him."
"No, Ron. You and Mione both know that we're not on speaking terms anymore."
I saw them both sag down, accepting defeat. They realized that when I wanted to talk to Dray..I would. Neither of them said anything more on the subject of him that day. And they left me alone. I avoided the subject of Him until the last class of the day, when I couldn't any longer. The class was potions. He was in that class.
I sat next to Hermione, who was closer to Draco than Ron was. I watched him, seeing what he did. He sat there, not paying the slightest bit of attention to Snape. He was playing with a muggle lighter...and a very small dagger. He was running the dagger over his wrists, just enough to make them bleed slightly before he moved to a new spot.
I knew then that I had to talk to him. But I couldn't show that to Ron or Hermione. I turned my attention back to Snape. I listened throughout his lecture, and his introduction of the newest student in our class. A new Gryffindor, named Derrek Talylorn. Snape had Derrek give a small introduction of himself to the class.
Derrek went to the front of the room and smiled. "Hey. My name's Derrek..um..I'm from The United States...I just moved to London over the holiday...and...Sorry Girls...I'm gay."
Those last words caused me to look up. I stared at Derrek, and he smiled at me. It was a smile I recognized. Draco had given me that same smile when I realized that I liked him. I shook off the shock, and waited until the end of class. When the bell rang, I grabbed my things and walked out into the corridor.
Derrek walked out and smiled at me again. "So you're the famous Harry Potter, who alerted the ministry that Lord Voldemort is back among us, ey? That's wicked cool. I want you to know that I never thought you were insane..just kinda cute-"
Just as he said that, Draco walked out. I turned back to Derrek for a minute. "Derrek, I'm sorry, I have to go. I'll talk to you later." I ran after Draco, making sure he didn't see me following him. He went all the way back to his room and closed the portrait behind him. I waited a bit before I whispered the password and climbed in.
Everything was different from when I had last been there. The whole room was dark, mainly black, though there were shades of dark reds and blues as well. Draco was sitting, not noticing me, on the bed in the corner of the room, playing with the dagger just as he had been doing in class. I snuck up behind him and gently pulled the dagger from his hands.
"Draco, what are you doing?" I whispered, tossing the dagger away.
He shuddered when I touched him, as if he was afraid I was going to hurt him again. "Why are you here. You have Derrek now. Go snog him." He let a single tear fall from his eye, causing some of his makeup to run.
I immediately wrapped my arms around him, pulling him towards me, and holding him in my lap. I tilted my head to the side and whispered almost silently into his ear.
"I don't want Derrek. All these months, throughout the holiday..I've wanted you back. You're all I ever wanted, all I will ever want. If these people can't deal with it, screw them, we don't need them. I realized that over the summer...When I was missing you something awful." I gently took his bleeding wrist and kissed the blood away, holding my sweet dragon in my arms. "Please Forgive Me, Draco Malfoy. I'd do anything to have you back."
He turned to me, more tears falling down, smearing the rest of his makeup. "I...You hurt me so badly...I turned to cutting myself to get the pain to leave. I couldn't handle being all alone anymore...Why did you hurt me like that?"
I sighed, not truely knowing what to say. I didn't know what made me leave him. Maybe it was the stress...I sighed again and looked into those grey eyes. "I honestly don't know...Maybe it was the stress of knowing something that no one else save Dumbledore knows...and the added stress of what people called us ...I Don't know...But I realize now that I should have just told you...instead of keeping all of it to myself."
Dray wrapped his arms around me and held on to me as though he would never again let go. " I forgive you, Harry. I love you..and I always have." He wiped his own tears away, smearing the makeup across his face. "Please tell me what it is that only you and Dumbledore know..."
I was quiet for a minute or two before I answered. "I had to be the one to kill Voldemort. He wouldn't be permanently gone if I hadn't killed him. And if I hadn't...He'd have killed me. That was what was in the prophecy that he was after, and the prophecy was the weapon...That is what had me so worried. He didn't know the prophecy.. But I do."
Draco's eyes filled with worry. "I will stay by you through every battle, Harry. No matter where you are, in some form or another, I will be by your side." He fell silent for a while, and then resumed speaking. "Remember when I was tied up and found unconscious in the Slytherin common room?" He paused, waiting for my nod. When it came, he began again. "Well...it was Bianca, Pansy's sister..along with my entire year...including Crabbe and Goyle...I wouldn't tell you because I couldn't let myself seem as weak as I knew I was..." More tears streamed down his face, though I could tell that he was relieved to finally let that out.
I held him close, and whispered in his ear "Draco Malfoy...Will you go out with me again? And I swear...this time I will never leave."
He looked up and smiled through his tears. "Yes, I will." He kissed me softly, and we lay down on the bed together until we both fell asleep, ecstatic to be in each others arms again.
A/N: See!! I told you it would get better! And dun-dun-dun...a new character with a crush on Harry? What's gonna happen? What Will Derrek do to win Harry? What will Draco do to keep his love? Tune in next time for the next chapter in..REFLECTIONS
oh, the alternative of this chapter is Here:
www .
^____^
~*~*Midnyte*~*~
Rated: PG-13 for swearing, and discrimination against gays..though eventually the rating may go up o.o
HP/DM (Or DM/HP, whatever o.o)
If you want to flame me, go ahead. I don't care anymore. *nods*
Thanks to: My faithful reviewers
And if you have any questions, review and I'll try and answer them in the next chapter!
And any derogatory terms towards gays or any other minority are simply for the effect of the story. I myself am Bi, and so are almost all of my friends, so the terms are in no way the way I feel towards said minorities.
And...to the chapter!!!!!!
Forgive Me
Harry's P.o.V.
At the time, I wasn't truely sorry for leaving him at all. I wanted everything to go away. He did change during what was left of the school year, and I didn't see him at all over the holiday. The holiday did, however seem longer, and though I was with the Weasly's and the Order, It was the most lonely of all. I had no one that I could fall back on. No one to say "I love you" to.
Finally, that dreadfully long holiday, Ron, Hermione, and I all returned to Hogwarts. We sat at our table, as always..and for some reason I saved the seat next to me. I suppose I was hoping that maybe he'd have forgotten about our breakup and would sit with me. He didn't however, and it shocked me when I saw him.
There he was, that silvery, white-blonde hair shining in the candle- lit hall, his pale features even more pale than they had been at the end of last year. His clothes were, if possible, darker, and he had marked his face as Brandon Lee had done in The Crow. Granted, this Draco was sexy, but it was also scary. I could see marks on his wrist..scars, it seemed, that I knew hadn't been there before.
Hermione leaned over and whispered to Ron, who in turn turned and whispered what she said, to me.
"What happened to him..? He sure has changed...go talk to him."
"No, Ron. You and Mione both know that we're not on speaking terms anymore."
I saw them both sag down, accepting defeat. They realized that when I wanted to talk to Dray..I would. Neither of them said anything more on the subject of him that day. And they left me alone. I avoided the subject of Him until the last class of the day, when I couldn't any longer. The class was potions. He was in that class.
I sat next to Hermione, who was closer to Draco than Ron was. I watched him, seeing what he did. He sat there, not paying the slightest bit of attention to Snape. He was playing with a muggle lighter...and a very small dagger. He was running the dagger over his wrists, just enough to make them bleed slightly before he moved to a new spot.
I knew then that I had to talk to him. But I couldn't show that to Ron or Hermione. I turned my attention back to Snape. I listened throughout his lecture, and his introduction of the newest student in our class. A new Gryffindor, named Derrek Talylorn. Snape had Derrek give a small introduction of himself to the class.
Derrek went to the front of the room and smiled. "Hey. My name's Derrek..um..I'm from The United States...I just moved to London over the holiday...and...Sorry Girls...I'm gay."
Those last words caused me to look up. I stared at Derrek, and he smiled at me. It was a smile I recognized. Draco had given me that same smile when I realized that I liked him. I shook off the shock, and waited until the end of class. When the bell rang, I grabbed my things and walked out into the corridor.
Derrek walked out and smiled at me again. "So you're the famous Harry Potter, who alerted the ministry that Lord Voldemort is back among us, ey? That's wicked cool. I want you to know that I never thought you were insane..just kinda cute-"
Just as he said that, Draco walked out. I turned back to Derrek for a minute. "Derrek, I'm sorry, I have to go. I'll talk to you later." I ran after Draco, making sure he didn't see me following him. He went all the way back to his room and closed the portrait behind him. I waited a bit before I whispered the password and climbed in.
Everything was different from when I had last been there. The whole room was dark, mainly black, though there were shades of dark reds and blues as well. Draco was sitting, not noticing me, on the bed in the corner of the room, playing with the dagger just as he had been doing in class. I snuck up behind him and gently pulled the dagger from his hands.
"Draco, what are you doing?" I whispered, tossing the dagger away.
He shuddered when I touched him, as if he was afraid I was going to hurt him again. "Why are you here. You have Derrek now. Go snog him." He let a single tear fall from his eye, causing some of his makeup to run.
I immediately wrapped my arms around him, pulling him towards me, and holding him in my lap. I tilted my head to the side and whispered almost silently into his ear.
"I don't want Derrek. All these months, throughout the holiday..I've wanted you back. You're all I ever wanted, all I will ever want. If these people can't deal with it, screw them, we don't need them. I realized that over the summer...When I was missing you something awful." I gently took his bleeding wrist and kissed the blood away, holding my sweet dragon in my arms. "Please Forgive Me, Draco Malfoy. I'd do anything to have you back."
He turned to me, more tears falling down, smearing the rest of his makeup. "I...You hurt me so badly...I turned to cutting myself to get the pain to leave. I couldn't handle being all alone anymore...Why did you hurt me like that?"
I sighed, not truely knowing what to say. I didn't know what made me leave him. Maybe it was the stress...I sighed again and looked into those grey eyes. "I honestly don't know...Maybe it was the stress of knowing something that no one else save Dumbledore knows...and the added stress of what people called us ...I Don't know...But I realize now that I should have just told you...instead of keeping all of it to myself."
Dray wrapped his arms around me and held on to me as though he would never again let go. " I forgive you, Harry. I love you..and I always have." He wiped his own tears away, smearing the makeup across his face. "Please tell me what it is that only you and Dumbledore know..."
I was quiet for a minute or two before I answered. "I had to be the one to kill Voldemort. He wouldn't be permanently gone if I hadn't killed him. And if I hadn't...He'd have killed me. That was what was in the prophecy that he was after, and the prophecy was the weapon...That is what had me so worried. He didn't know the prophecy.. But I do."
Draco's eyes filled with worry. "I will stay by you through every battle, Harry. No matter where you are, in some form or another, I will be by your side." He fell silent for a while, and then resumed speaking. "Remember when I was tied up and found unconscious in the Slytherin common room?" He paused, waiting for my nod. When it came, he began again. "Well...it was Bianca, Pansy's sister..along with my entire year...including Crabbe and Goyle...I wouldn't tell you because I couldn't let myself seem as weak as I knew I was..." More tears streamed down his face, though I could tell that he was relieved to finally let that out.
I held him close, and whispered in his ear "Draco Malfoy...Will you go out with me again? And I swear...this time I will never leave."
He looked up and smiled through his tears. "Yes, I will." He kissed me softly, and we lay down on the bed together until we both fell asleep, ecstatic to be in each others arms again.
A/N: See!! I told you it would get better! And dun-dun-dun...a new character with a crush on Harry? What's gonna happen? What Will Derrek do to win Harry? What will Draco do to keep his love? Tune in next time for the next chapter in..REFLECTIONS
oh, the alternative of this chapter is Here:
www .
^____^
~*~*Midnyte*~*~