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Who am I?
You mean you actually want to know?
Most people see only what they want to see, and don't bother to look for what's really there.
Rumors say that I am a bully, a rebel, a fighter... Prone to get into trouble and not caring when I do. People are scared of me, avoid me, because they've heard of my strength and fighting ability. I'm stronger than they are, and so immediately become the enemy, or at very least, an outcast. Girls stare at my tall frame as I pass them in the hallways, and gossip behind my back when they think I'm not there to hear. They especially ridicule my tendency to have an instant crush on any cute boy who looks remotely like my old boyfriend. And boys... boys usually see me as a rival, or a conquest to brag about to their fellow jerks.
I am equally renowned for my fighting as the Senshi of Lightning, with my fellow warriors. But still I cannot escape others' scorn, for I have heard people talking about my counterpart, Sailor Jupiter: that she is a loose cannon, the least intelligent of the senshi, a girl nothing in her favor but brute strength. That Jupiter will someday impetuously attack an enemy and get herself injured or killed for it. They say I have too much power, and can't control it properly; Or, the worst of all, they attempt to debunk my very existence, despite the collecting evidence which refutes skepticism.
That's what most people see. Do you believe it? In reality, it's not the way that I am...
I am the Senshi of Strength and Protection, and work hard to protect my fellow senshi. Mercury, especially in the past, has survived a battle only because of a warning, or in extreme situations, being tackled to the ground. I swear, that girl has no sense of self-preservation. She's too busy trying to figure out how to destroy the monster to worry about avoiding it.
The powers granted me by my guardian planet are, well, powerful... To be struck down by lightning is apparently a rather unpleasant experience. Though when I first awoke as a Senshi my control could occasionally slip, over the years I have learned to better understand my powers and can use them without much difficulty. They will always be ready to be used in the protection of my fellow senshi and my Princess. There might be times where my desire to protect one of them will cause me to make an occasional rash mistake, but I'm learning to control my impetuousness. Really. The sound of Venus' incredulous laughter in my mind as I make this statement is irrelevant.
Moving on...
I am a tomboy, certainly, and I enjoy it, but those who know me recognize that I don't fight without reason. I fight to protect those who are weaker and can't defend themselves, because too many take advantage of them. Even though those I protect may be ungrateful, I will still fight for them because it is the right thing to do. Nor do I lack feminine qualities — one of my favorite hobbies is cooking, and my friends devour the goodies I make for our meetings and parties. The rest of my time is spent cleaning house and caring for the jungle of plants in my apartment, or going boyhunting with my friends. I will admit that I still have a tendency to be rather boy crazy, but I'm not much worse than Mina is when she sees a cute guy.
And though I have had crushes on countless boys, I recognize them for what they are — brief infatuations, to soon be forgotten. I'm still waiting for love and I guess you could say I sometimes get impatient and look too hard. Right now, I'm still waiting for my fairytale romance. When I was younger I would have said that I had experienced love, but looking at the relationship that my Princess shares with her Prince, I'm forced to admit that in this lifetime, I've never known its joys. The deepest parts of my heart have yet to be given to another; like my fellow guardians I wait for the day when my past love will return to me once again. Sailor Pluto refuses to tell us if this will occur during this lifetime, but I will not give up hope that it still might happen. I want to be with him so badly that there are nights when I physically ache from the intensity of my emotions.
...I killed him again this lifetime. I'm not proud of it, but when he becomes himself again I know that he'll understand why I did it. At the time I didn't even know who he was and what he meant to me, and regardless, the safety of my Princess is higher priority than anything else in my life. He knew — knows — will know — and remember that he would have done the same for his Prince had our roles been reversed. Sometimes, though, I worry about whether he'll be able to understand and accept that I've forgiven him. His sense of justice is equal to mine, and I fear that he will think himself unworthy of pardon. If he does, then he would most likely avoid ever coming in contact with me or my friends, and I won't ever have the chance to actually tell him that I've forgiven him, love him, and want to spend forever with him by my side.
Of course, I don't spend my life pining away, either. I still live in Japan like all of my friends do, and attend the local college on a sports scholarship. While my major is the Culinary Arts, I do enjoy sports and am a long-distance runner on the track team, among other things. As Jupiter's avatar I have been granted greater physical strength, endurance and size than many boys have, let alone most women. Though I will never be as fast as some, I have been told I'm the ideal marathon runner. Being tall is advantageous for once, since my long legs tend to eat up the yards. In the past I've cursed being only half-Japanese and so intimidatingly tall, but I've adjusted and now at least have a use for it.
I still live in my tiny apartment, since it's close to the college and it means I can keep my privacy. For one thing, sneaking out at night to fight would be suspicious to a roommate and probably the entire dormitory floor. For another ever since my once-skinny frame filled out I've gained my share of male attention. Unwanted male attention, at that. When I was younger I would have enjoyed it, but ever since my memories of the past began to surface I've been a taken woman. Until he returns I will continue chasing my dream to be a famous chef, but I look forward to the day when I can fulfill my other dream of being a bride.
Who am I?
I am a warrior waiting for the day when my equal will once more fight by my side. I am a princess, waiting for the prince of my dreams to sweep me off my feet.
I live.
I love.
I wait.
I dream.
I am a guardian to my Princess.
I am the avatar of my planet.
I am Lightning.
I am Strength.
I am Sailor Jupiter.
I am Kino Makoto.
And beyond duty, beyond obligations to the world, beyond my past, my future, and my many names and identities... Beyond all of that, there will always remain something of the person I am at this moment, even if I should lose the life I have now. There will always be a part of myself, however small, that remembers being Makoto... Mako-chan.
Fin
Makoto's chance to be in the spotlight! I enjoyed this one a lot, mostly because it's given me a chance to define her character in my mind better (including unique twists to her character). Minako's part will be next after this, but I don't know if I'll do any of the other girls. (Or Mamoru.) It depends on whether I get the inspiration for it. Please review, and see you next time!
Summary: A series of slightly introspective one-shots, where each Senshi answers the ever-present question. Makoto's thoughts.
Completed: 2-23-04
Who am I?
Who am I?
You mean you actually want to know?
Most people see only what they want to see, and don't bother to look for what's really there.
Rumors say that I am a bully, a rebel, a fighter... Prone to get into trouble and not caring when I do. People are scared of me, avoid me, because they've heard of my strength and fighting ability. I'm stronger than they are, and so immediately become the enemy, or at very least, an outcast. Girls stare at my tall frame as I pass them in the hallways, and gossip behind my back when they think I'm not there to hear. They especially ridicule my tendency to have an instant crush on any cute boy who looks remotely like my old boyfriend. And boys... boys usually see me as a rival, or a conquest to brag about to their fellow jerks.
I am equally renowned for my fighting as the Senshi of Lightning, with my fellow warriors. But still I cannot escape others' scorn, for I have heard people talking about my counterpart, Sailor Jupiter: that she is a loose cannon, the least intelligent of the senshi, a girl nothing in her favor but brute strength. That Jupiter will someday impetuously attack an enemy and get herself injured or killed for it. They say I have too much power, and can't control it properly; Or, the worst of all, they attempt to debunk my very existence, despite the collecting evidence which refutes skepticism.
That's what most people see. Do you believe it? In reality, it's not the way that I am...
I am the Senshi of Strength and Protection, and work hard to protect my fellow senshi. Mercury, especially in the past, has survived a battle only because of a warning, or in extreme situations, being tackled to the ground. I swear, that girl has no sense of self-preservation. She's too busy trying to figure out how to destroy the monster to worry about avoiding it.
The powers granted me by my guardian planet are, well, powerful... To be struck down by lightning is apparently a rather unpleasant experience. Though when I first awoke as a Senshi my control could occasionally slip, over the years I have learned to better understand my powers and can use them without much difficulty. They will always be ready to be used in the protection of my fellow senshi and my Princess. There might be times where my desire to protect one of them will cause me to make an occasional rash mistake, but I'm learning to control my impetuousness. Really. The sound of Venus' incredulous laughter in my mind as I make this statement is irrelevant.
Moving on...
I am a tomboy, certainly, and I enjoy it, but those who know me recognize that I don't fight without reason. I fight to protect those who are weaker and can't defend themselves, because too many take advantage of them. Even though those I protect may be ungrateful, I will still fight for them because it is the right thing to do. Nor do I lack feminine qualities — one of my favorite hobbies is cooking, and my friends devour the goodies I make for our meetings and parties. The rest of my time is spent cleaning house and caring for the jungle of plants in my apartment, or going boyhunting with my friends. I will admit that I still have a tendency to be rather boy crazy, but I'm not much worse than Mina is when she sees a cute guy.
And though I have had crushes on countless boys, I recognize them for what they are — brief infatuations, to soon be forgotten. I'm still waiting for love and I guess you could say I sometimes get impatient and look too hard. Right now, I'm still waiting for my fairytale romance. When I was younger I would have said that I had experienced love, but looking at the relationship that my Princess shares with her Prince, I'm forced to admit that in this lifetime, I've never known its joys. The deepest parts of my heart have yet to be given to another; like my fellow guardians I wait for the day when my past love will return to me once again. Sailor Pluto refuses to tell us if this will occur during this lifetime, but I will not give up hope that it still might happen. I want to be with him so badly that there are nights when I physically ache from the intensity of my emotions.
...I killed him again this lifetime. I'm not proud of it, but when he becomes himself again I know that he'll understand why I did it. At the time I didn't even know who he was and what he meant to me, and regardless, the safety of my Princess is higher priority than anything else in my life. He knew — knows — will know — and remember that he would have done the same for his Prince had our roles been reversed. Sometimes, though, I worry about whether he'll be able to understand and accept that I've forgiven him. His sense of justice is equal to mine, and I fear that he will think himself unworthy of pardon. If he does, then he would most likely avoid ever coming in contact with me or my friends, and I won't ever have the chance to actually tell him that I've forgiven him, love him, and want to spend forever with him by my side.
Of course, I don't spend my life pining away, either. I still live in Japan like all of my friends do, and attend the local college on a sports scholarship. While my major is the Culinary Arts, I do enjoy sports and am a long-distance runner on the track team, among other things. As Jupiter's avatar I have been granted greater physical strength, endurance and size than many boys have, let alone most women. Though I will never be as fast as some, I have been told I'm the ideal marathon runner. Being tall is advantageous for once, since my long legs tend to eat up the yards. In the past I've cursed being only half-Japanese and so intimidatingly tall, but I've adjusted and now at least have a use for it.
I still live in my tiny apartment, since it's close to the college and it means I can keep my privacy. For one thing, sneaking out at night to fight would be suspicious to a roommate and probably the entire dormitory floor. For another ever since my once-skinny frame filled out I've gained my share of male attention. Unwanted male attention, at that. When I was younger I would have enjoyed it, but ever since my memories of the past began to surface I've been a taken woman. Until he returns I will continue chasing my dream to be a famous chef, but I look forward to the day when I can fulfill my other dream of being a bride.
Who am I?
I am a warrior waiting for the day when my equal will once more fight by my side. I am a princess, waiting for the prince of my dreams to sweep me off my feet.
I live.
I love.
I wait.
I dream.
I am a guardian to my Princess.
I am the avatar of my planet.
I am Lightning.
I am Strength.
I am Sailor Jupiter.
I am Kino Makoto.
And beyond duty, beyond obligations to the world, beyond my past, my future, and my many names and identities... Beyond all of that, there will always remain something of the person I am at this moment, even if I should lose the life I have now. There will always be a part of myself, however small, that remembers being Makoto... Mako-chan.
Fin
Makoto's chance to be in the spotlight! I enjoyed this one a lot, mostly because it's given me a chance to define her character in my mind better (including unique twists to her character). Minako's part will be next after this, but I don't know if I'll do any of the other girls. (Or Mamoru.) It depends on whether I get the inspiration for it. Please review, and see you next time!
Ocianne