A SLIGHT CHANGE

CH. 6- CHOICES

DISCLAIMER- I'm only 14, I have nothing of my own. Except the people and objects I've mentioned before. Darn. Also, I'm already mad that Gary Oldman and David Bowie are taken and now you're trying to take the only things that are my very own? Geez…

AN- What was I supposed to say? (flips through notebook) Um… nothing. But if I think of something, I'll be sure to tell you. Oh, and Destiny Bunny? Thanks a lot… not only for reviewing but for saying "holy poop". I will now commence on spreading that saying around all of Virginia. Thank you.

I didn't get much sleep for the next month because my nights were overshadowed by thoughts of someone getting hurt this coming Christmas break. Mom had to choose between Sirius and Remus and I wasn't much help. I love them both. But, this is her choice, you know? This will affect both her life and mine.

"Lor, we're going to be late," Hermione told me, rushing into the girls dormitories.

"I'm ready." I picked up my trunk and Becks's cage, following Hermione to the train.

Once aboard the Hogwarts Express, we played several games of Exploding Snaps and Questions and later told stories, but I wasn't paying attention to any of them. I was busy thinking or daydreaming. It varied. I'd start out thinking about what it'd be like if Sirius was my dad and then Sirius would somehow turn into Will Ferrell, thus beginning the daydream. Dude, that would be sweet! Will Ferrell as my dad… anyways, I tried wondering who would be a better dad but then I felt guilty for comparing my own father to someone else. So I just stopped thinking about it.

I took out y c.d. player, popped in the latest Lit c.d. and drifted away.

AS WE drove home from Platform 9 ¾ (Mrs. Weasley picked us up), Ron's mom filled us in with the latest news, all the while stealing excited glances at me. Am I really that sexy? Nah, just kidding.

"Well, here we are!" She announced. She smiled at the figure on the front porch. Watching as the person stepped into the light, I let out a delighted scream.

"Mom!" I jumped into my mother's arms, laughing joyously. "You came!"

"No, I'm just the holographic form of your mother. Your real mother is in Tahiti with Scott Patterson and Simple Plan. I'm sorry, but you're not top on her agenda."

"Funny.'

"I thought so." She looked at my new friends and smiled. "Hi, I'm Lorelai's mom, Princess Consuela Bananahammock."

"Oh, hello, Princess Bananahammock," Ron said seriously, extending his hand.

"I think she's joking, Ron," Harry said out of the corner of his mouth.

Meanwhile, Mom and I were busy laughing our asses off, just as Sirius Apparated right in front of us, knocking Mom over. Reflexively, Sirius held out his arms, catching her gracefully. They both stared at each other before Sirius leaned in for a kiss. Go, Siri, go!

"Hi," Mom said breathlessly, right before he… pulled away. Argh!

Sirius cleared his throat, setting Mom back on her feet. "Hi. How've you been?"

"Good. You?"

"I've been in jail."

"Oh, geez, Siri, I'm sorry."

Siri? I cocked an eyebrow at the name bearer, who smiled warmly. She's the one who gave him that nickname.

"Don't worry about it."

"Um, why don't we show you to your room, Tina? Lorelai, you'll be staying with Hermione and Ginny, like last time." Mrs. Weasley ushered us inside and began to escort us to our rooms.

"Now, Tina, there are two free beds: One in Tonks's room and one in Remus and Sirius's room. I must tell you though, Tonks sleepwalks so… Which would you like? I didn't know whether or not you wanted to stay with Remus given your past." At that she quickly glanced at me.

"I think I'll just stay with Tonks."

"Okay, then. Right this way, dear."

WHEN Remus arrived later that evening, there was an apparent change in Mom's attitude. Whenever she was around him, there were awkward silences and nervous demeanors. But with Sirius, it was different. They acted like a couple of kids, playing and joking around, which was cute. It was then that I saw how well they got along. They were like brother and sister. I want her to be with Sirius (and I can do this cuz I'm the author) They are so perfect together!

"Oh, Lorelai!" Mom sang, wandering into my room as I was unpacking my things.

"Yeah?"

"I've got at question…. Regarding your father."

"I'm listening."

"Okay, well, I think I'm falling for Sirius but I don't know how to tell Remus because he told me that he still loves me. He said that you told him that I still love him."

"Well, that's what you said!"

"I said I might! I don't! I'm over him."

"Oh. Um, whoops?"

"Geez, Lor. Anyways, what should I tell him?"

I sat down next to her on the bed as Becks sat on my knee. I stroked his brown feathers, thinking. "Well, just say that I jumped to conclusions when I read your letter. Say that you will always love him but you two just weren't right for each other. I don't know, Mom. Just say what you feel."

"Thanks, Oprah."

"No problem." I paused as a grin spread across my face." So, you like Sirius."

I could see her blush and she smiled like a schoolgirl. "Yes. Oh, Lor, he's great! He's funny, fun, cute, smart, and… he said that I was his first love. Isn't that sweet?"

"Sickly sweet."

"Thanks. But he's just so amazing. He makes me feel special."

"You don't need him to make you feel special."

"Aw, that's sweet."

"Wasn't meant to be. It was an insult, Mom. Special? Ed? Put two and two together and get five." I rolled my eyes just as Harry walked in, holding something behind his back. He looked so cute with his toussled hair mischievous smirk.

"Hey, Lor. Miss Kelsey."

"Please, just call me Tina."

"Yes, ma'am." He turned to me. "Ron and I were in the backyard, looking for some gnomes that have been giving Tonks trouble, when I stumbled upon these." He held out a bouquet of snapdragons and I smiled as he handed them to me. "I remember you saying that these were your favorite."

"Harry, I think I'm falling in love with you," I admitted.

He shrugged. "It's not hard." He laughed, not realizing that what he said was so true. "I think I'm falling in love with you, too."

"Kodak moment," Mom interrupted.

Harry blushed. "Um, it's also time for supper. Mrs. Weasley made turkey and some mashed potatoes."

"Sounds great." Mom smiled at him. "We'll be down in a minute."

"All right." He left the room and my immature mother turned towards me, making kissy faces. I swear, she is not 34.

"He's cute."

"Yes, he is."

"So… can I date Sirius?"

"You need my permission?"

"Well, I mean, he's a part of your life now. He's your father's best friend and your boyfriend's godfather. He might even be my boyfriend someday and I just wanted to make sure it's okay with you."

"Of course it's okay. Y'all are good together."

"Thank you so much." She hugged me tightly. "I love ya, sweetie."

"Love ya, too, Mom."

I SAT in bed that night, reading the latest issue of the Muggle magazine MOJO while Hermione read over her Arithmancy book. Things were starting to work out between us again. We were talking and joking around a lot more and I was really enjoying spending time with her. She apologized about getting pissy about mine and Harry's relationship. She even said that she was really happy for us. I don't know whether she was just saying that, but it sounded sincere so I was happy.

"Hey, Lorelai?"

"Hmm?"

Hermione sat her book in her lap and looked me straight in the eye. "Please, just don't hurt him."

I held her gaze steadily, saying, "I wouldn't dare. Trust me, 'Mione, I'm in love with him."

"Good." She paused. "He's one of my best friends and people have hurt him before. I don't want to see it happen again."

"You won't."

She smiled and resumed reading her book as Sirius walked in. He put a caring hand on her shoulder and smiled warmly at her. They chattered for a moment before Sirius beckoned me out into the hallway. He studied the poster on our bedroom door, his face confused.

"Who are they again? I know they're one of Harry's favorite bands but I keep forgetting who they are."

"The Sex Pistols." I laughed at the face he made. "Kind of hard to forget, huh?"

"Um, yes. Anyway, I need to ask you something…"

"Regarding my mother?"

"Yeah. How'd you know?"

"ESP, my friend." I made weird gestures around my head. "I can read your mind, Sirius Black."

"Really?" He asked, incredulous.

"No."

"Oh, right, well, I think-"

"You're falling for my mom."

"That two times now that you've read my mind!"

"I had this same exact conversation with Mom earlier."

"Okay. Can I date her?"

"Why do you people always need my permission? Geez, yes."

He let out a long breath as he grinned broadly. "Great. That's great. Thanks a lot, Lor."

"You're welcome. Are you gonna go ask her?"

""Well, um, I already did," he said sheepishly.

"You did, huh? What'd she say?"

Did I just see Sirius Black blush? "She said yes."

"That's great! I'm really glad you did this. Did my dad seem to mind?"

"He talked to me earlier, after I asked her out. He said that he was glad to finally see her happy, really happy. When he said that though… he didn't look glad. In fact, he looked regretful. I don't want to do this if Remus really does love her. He's my best friend, you know?"

"I know, Siri. Look, I talked to Mom earlier about this and she's not in love with Dad. She thought she might've been but she's not. She' falling for you and the only thing you can do is give it a chance. The two of you are good for each other and, who knows? Y'all might end up getting married!"

At this, Sirius jumped a foot in the air and backed away from me with his hands in the air.

"Geez, kid, don't scare me like that!"

"What, are you afraid of commitment or something?"

He returned to his seat next to me and I realized that I hit the nail smack dab on the head.

The look on his prematurely lined face turned soft as he nodded. "Before your mom, I'd never really loved someone. Not even my own family. In school, sure, I dated. A lot. But I never loved the girls."

"But you loved the guys!" I joked.

He rolled his eyes and continued. "When my mom threw that arty and Tina showed up…" He smiled in reminiscence. "It was love at first sight. We spent the whole night out on the roof, talking and laughing. That's where we had our first kiss. And first make-out session. We dated for well over a year- almost two- and I knew I loved her.

"When I realized that I didn't just love her- that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her- I flipped! I just didn't know how to react about that so I left. You have no idea how many times I wanted to run back to her but when I finally had the balls to try it, I heard that she had had Remus's baby and moved to California with him."

I let all of that digest. All this time, I could have had Sirius as a father and grown up with him by my side instead of with no dad at all. Boy, that would've made a difference. Maybe I would have grown up in a nice neighborhood with kids instead of in the middle of a forest with the closest neighbor four miles away. Maybe I would've had someone to talk magic with.. Maybe Mom and I would've had a better life.

Not that our life sucked. I mean, it wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great, wither. Mom worked two jobs so she could pay for rent and the bills: during the day, she was the secretary for some guy at a business called Macca and at night, she was a bartender at the local bar. She didn't make much money but it was enough to put food on our plates and school books in my bag.

"Why were you so afraid to fall in love?" I asked, suddenly angry at him and his stupid commitophobia. "Mom and I could have had a better life if you hadn't have left! You could've been my father! I could've had an actual father instead of dreaming about the dad I would never have. But now that I finally found my dad, Mom's gone and fallen in love with the guy who left her!"

"Lorelai, listen!" He had placed both of his hands on my trembling shoulders and pulled me into a hug so that I could cry into his shirt. "Lor, I'll make it up to you, I swear. I'm not afraid to love anymore. I lost my loved ones years ago. First, your mother. Than, Lily and James and the life I loved, when I went to Azkaban. Life in prison has changed me. At first, I though 'Hell, if I don't ever loved anyone, I won't get hurt again'. I was just fooling myself. If I never loved again, I would only relive those 12 years in Azkaban over and over again, everyday of my life. I can love now and I will love you and your mother."

"Me, too, huh?" I asked, wiping the back of my hand across my eyes.

"You bet."

"Cool." I pulled away from him and playfully ruffled his hair. "You're a good guy."

"I know." He smirked. "Now let's talk about you and Harry. You two haven't shagged yet, have you?"

"Sirius!"

"You're too young."

I WAS lazily levitating my book over my head, trying to read it but to no avail. I rolled my eyes and lowered my wand, watching the Iris Johansen novel fall to the floor. Looking out the window, I jumped back, startled, as Harry zoomed past my window on his Firebolt with Ron right on his tail. Quidditch again? I glanced around the backyard to see who else was playing. All of the Weasley kids, with Ginny as Keeper, Sirius, Tonks, and even Remus was out there.

When I saw Remus, I felt a pang in my heart (LAME). This man was trying to be the father he never was but was failing miserably. My head saw him as my father but my heart held that spot for Sirius. I didn't intend for it to, but he just seemed like more of a dad to me. He hung out with me, he joked around with me, he was easier to talk to- I don't know. He just seemed to fit. It was a natural thing, ya know?

"Lorelai, come play!" Ginny yelled through the window.

"All right! Be right down!" I grabbed my birthday present from Mom, a Nimbus 2004, and ran down the stairs, nearly knocking the gift giver down.

"Hey, Mom!" As I ran out the door, I yelled over my shoulder, "Congrats!"

I heard her mutter something before laughing out loud.

AN- Sorry it's not as long as the last chapter. I just wanted to get the relationships sorted out. For those of you who aren't into slash, I suggest you stop reading. It's not very physical but it's a really deep emotional relationship between Remus and Severus. Just wanted you to know. The next chapter should be up later today. Death Eaters return and some must go to war. Ooh…suspense. All right. I'm gonna go before I embarrass myself further. Later!