A SLIGHT CHANGE CH. 10- GUILTY CONSCIENCE
DISCLAIMER- I own a cell phone… and all the people I made up with my twisted imagination… and a puppy… Huh, not much.
AN- This one's longer, so quit yelling at me. Geez… I'm probably only gonna have one chapter after this one. So, tell me if I should start a sequel. I'm working on another Snape story where I get to make him the good guy again. I just love making him the good guy… Super duper.
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Don't close your eyes in fear
Just stay calm for I am here
Don't scream out in fright
I'm lying next to you tonight
If it's raining hard
I'm the raindrop on your tongue
If you fell down hard
I'm the bullet in your gun
Don't lose yourself in the game
I'm the one who gave your name
Don't kill cause it's not right
Don't fret, I'm here tonight
If you lost yourself
I'll meet you in Hell
If you forgot to love
I will give you way too much
Don't fall behind
It's not okay
Just wait for me
For one more day
For one more day
"Guilty Conscience"- Lauren Camacho
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Everyday for the next week, Sirius and I snuck to the "fairground" as we called it, a different time each day. We stayed as long as we could (or until Sir got restless) before hurrying back to relay the news. We uncovered why they were after us, as well as Sirius. Lucius Malfoy longed for my mother. He went to school with the Marauders and discovered a picture of Mom that Siri carried around with him during their fourth year. Ever since then, he's always wanted her. Though he's married with a son of his own, Mom would always remain fair game.
"There's no way I'm going to let them take her from me. From all of us!" Sirius exclaimed when we arrived back at the campsite. "If that bastard lays even one finger on her, I'll kill him!"
"Sirius, he won't find her," Remus said, his voice oddly quiet. "I've sent her away."
"What?!?"
"I felt that it was best for her."
"Where is she?"
"I can't tell you."
"What about the others?" Tonks asked.
"They went with her."
"Why can't you tell us?" Sirius demanded.
"I thought it best if you didn't know."
"Well, you know what I think? Stop thinking!"
"Siri, chill," I told him under my breath.
"No! I don't want to 'chill'! I want to know if my girlfriend's safe! You sent her to God knows where without telling any of us, so for all we know, she could be walking straight into the hands of a Death Eater!"
"You think I didn't know that? Sirius, you're not the only one who loves Tina or any of the others. We all love them. I want them safe, too. Do you know what it'd be like if Tina died? Or Harry? How would you feel? I, for one, would be devastated."
"Me, too."
"Trust me. They're safe."
"Where are they, Remus?"
"Hogwarts."
"You think that's safe?!? We have the headmaster here with us!"
"Yes, but they have dozens of teachers and hundreds of students. Plus, Hogwarts is full of spells and hexes for protection. It's safe, Sirius. I want them safe as much as you do. I love Tina and would give up my life for her safety which is basically what we're doing. They are under the best protection we can offer." He looked his best friend in the eye. "I know how you feel about her, Sirius. I used to feel the same way. She won't be found."
"Thank you, Remus," he said genuinely.
"Now that that heart to heart moment is over, shall we discuss what our next move should be?" Snape asked impatiently. (AN- Bastard.)
"Now, we wait," Dumbledore told him.
"Haven't we done enough waiting?" I slumped down against a nearby tree. "We've been waiting for almost two weeks. I mean, we ain't coming up with any plans or nothing."
"Such poor grammar," Sev sneered.
"Shut up, Sev."
"My, my."
"Look, Sev, I love ya, buddy, but you really need to learn when to shut the hell up." That got him quiet.
Sirius and I waited a few days before venturing off to go spy on the Death Eaters again. We were sitting quietly, listening to a timid woman begging Voldemort to forgive her for crying. Crying of all things! The pleas of the woman made me sick to my stomach. Sensing my discomfort, Sirius chose to return to the camp.
"Hush, woman!" Voldemort demanded as we walked away. "Lucius, go catch those damned dogs."
"Shit!" Sirius and I ran as fast as our four legs would allow as the shouts grew nearer and nearer.
"Petrificus Totalus!" Malfoy yelled. I felt my body go rigid and Sirius's do the same. They caught us. We let them catch us. We let Dumbledore down. We let everyone down.
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"Reveal yourselves," Malfoy repeated, this time with annoyance. "I know you are not just two mangy mutts. This one wears a necklace." He ripped Harry's gift off of my neck as I growled menacingly.
"Cruc-" He began to utter an Unforgivable Curse, but Sirius and I reluctantly transformed back into humans.
"Ah…" Voldemort stepped forward, a smile on Tom Riddle's face. "Sirius Black. Who's your little girly friend."
"Leave her alone," Sirius snarled. "She's of no importance to you."
"Silence!" He turned to me. "What's your name?"
"Lorelai Kelsey," I told him.
"Kelsey. That is not a Wizarding name. Who are your parents?"
"Rot in Hell."
"Crucio!" I fell to the floor, my eyes squinted shut in pain. I heard Sirius yelling my name just barely. Finally, I felt the curse being lifted, but the pain remained.
"Now, tell me, Lorelai, who are your parents?"
"Tina Kelsey and Remus Lupin."
"Lupin, eh? Then I suspect you're familiar with Severus Snape."
"Never heard of him."
"Don't lie to me!" He yelled, slapping me hard across the face. "You know damn right who he is!"
"I believe we must show her who he is," Malfoy drawled. "Oh, Severus?"
My eyes widened with disbelief as the man I had grown to trust with all my heart stepped out of the shadows. His dark eyes held mine with convincing love before I broke contact as my eyes filled with tears.
"Do you know this Severus Snape?" Malfoy sneered. "The one who obeys the Dark Lord? The killer?"
"He's not a killer!" I burst. "Does he have the Dark Mark? No! He cut it our of his own flesh! (AN- Ouchies.) Severus Snape is not a Death Eater!"
"SHUT UP!" SMACK! My cheek burned red, almost as much as the blood flowing fiercely through my veins. "He is a Death Eater. Look at his back." Malfoy pulled up Sev's shirt and a low hiss escaped from his lips. "Where is your mark, Severus?"
Sev rubbed the other scar on his back. "I moved it to a place no one can see. It's hard to be at the beach with people staring at my back. It is inside of me. Trust me. You can feel it."
Voldemort pressed his hand against Severus's chest and nodded. "It is there. Well done, Snape."
I cried out. "I trusted you! Dad trusted you!"
"I know you did."
"How could you do this to us?"
"Easy. I hid my Mark and led you to believe that I was indeed a 'good guy', as you called me."
"Sev…" I spotted pain in his onyx eyes as he turned away from me.
"What shall we do with them, my Lord?" He asked Voldemort.
"Kill Black, but leave the girl and we may have our way with her."
"Now, my Lord, that is not necessary. She is merely a child."
"Snape, don't. Lucius, would you like to do the honors? We'll make Black watch."
"Of course, my Lord." With a dark smile on his face, Malfoy came onto me. I fainted before he even laid a hand on me.
Hours later, I watched the Death Eaters sleep, pain coursing through every inch of my body. I caught Sev's horrified stare and felt anger settle in my stomach. Though he didn't do anything to me, he let them rape me. Repeatedly.
"Son of a bitch," I whispered.
Severus inched over to me, his eyes holding pain and shock. "Lor, you've got to listen-"
"I don't have to do anything. You let them do that to me! You didn't even try to stop them!"
"How do you stop a dozen Death Eaters?"
"I trusted you. You're a bastard, Severus Snape."
"Please, believe me."
"I've already believed enough of your lies. Look what they've given me. Cuts, bruises, burns, and enough pain to last a lifetime. Get the hell away from me and stay away from my dad."
"Lorelai…" He was practically begging.
"Just go away." The tears were flowing freely now.
With a resigned sigh and sad eyes, he returned to his place in the shadows.
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"Well, Snape, since you brought him to us, would you like to dispose of him?"
Severus nodded and pointed his wand at Sirius, whose head was bowed.
"No!!!" I screamed as red sparks hit Sirius and he crumpled to a lifeless heap.
"Sirius! Siri, please…" The body bind denied me any movement closer to Sirius. "Siri, come back."
Severus whirled on Malfoy, bellowing "Avada Kedavra!" killing him instantly.
"How dare you!" Voldemort raised his wand at Severus. "Imperio!"
I watched Sev's eyes glaze over, a feeling of dread washing over me. He was trying to help us. But he killed Siri… and Lucius Malfoy, but no one cared about him. He's not a Death Eater. I could hear many curses being yelled as I fainted once again.
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"Lorelai… Lorelai, wake up. Goddamn it, Severus! What happened?"
"They raped her."
"They WHAT?!?"
"I don't want to repeat those words. They made me watch, Remus. They made me watch the awful things they did to your daughter." His voice was full of tears. "Damn it, Remus, I let them! She's right. I am a bastard. Rem, I'm so sorry. Gods, you have no idea how sorry I am."
"Sirius. What did you do to, Sirius?"
"It's just an Unconscious Curse. He should be awake tomorrow. Oh, Gods, Remus…"
"Shh… Severus, be quiet… Lorelai."
I wrapped my arms around them both as we all cried; let out our pain, frustration, and relief to be done with it all. They had defeated Voldemort. Though his followers still existed around the world, they no longer have a leader to follow. They're helpless.
A fresh wave of pain hit my body and I recoiled from Remus and Sev.
Sev… he saved us. He loves us… he loves me.
"Lor?" Concern was etched in every line of my father's face. "Lorelai, are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm good."
"Just lie down. You'll be fine."
I looked around me and realized that we were back at 12 Grimmauld Place once again. The familiar postered (AN- Apparently, "postered" is not a word. Huh.) room and flowered bedspread brought a strange sense of comfort to me after being away for so long. Remus lied down next to me, stroking my hair and whispering soothing words as Severus stared out the window.
"Sev, come here," I said, sitting up in bed.
He cautiously inched over to me and tried to pull away when I pulled him into a hug.
"Nuh-uh, old man. I love you, Sev."
His breath caught, but he tightened his grip on me and kissed the top of my head. "I love you, too, Lorelai."
"And I love you, Dad." I smiled as Remus joined the hug. At that very moment, my stomach gave a sudden lurch and I jumped out of bed and into the bathroom.
I stared at "what-used-to-be-in-my-stomach-and-is-now-in-the-toilet" with a sickening feeling. Well, it's probably just because I've been through a lot of pain and stuff during the last few days. But, after a week or so of waking up and rushing to the restroom, I decided to talk to Mrs. Weasley about what was wrong with me. Sure, I've barfed before but not for eight days in a row.
"Well, how do you feel now?" She asked me.
"Like shit. Oops, sorry, Mrs. W."
"Do you know why you feel this way?" God, I felt like I was being interrogated by the police. Of course I don't know why I feel this way. Why do you think I came to you?
"Well, I've just been raped and beaten several times," I said sarcastically. "But I don't think that the physical pain would make me vomit for a week."
"Wait… you've been raped so… Lorelai, I think you're pregnant."
"What? Pregnant? No, I can't be. I'm only 15!"
"I never said you were! It's just a possibility! A very big one. You know, if you are pregnant, you could always, you know… get rid of it…"
My jaw dropped.
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