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Harry
and Hermione had both signed up to stay over spring holiday. Ron had
been forced to go visit some terrible aunt of his (or so he said)
that lived in Canterbury, but had promised to write every day. Hagrid
had also left, and Hermione and Harry suspected it was to visit
Madame Maxime in France. They did not know that Draco Malfoy had also
signed up to remain at school. Neither of his cronies Crabbe and
Goyle were staying, but his parents had taken a trip without him.
Draco honestly did not want to pry into that trip.
The
situation was discovered the day that holiday started. Harry and
Hermione had been to feed Fang that morning, and were strolling back
up to the castle when they noticed a lone figure on the shore of the
lake. Their path led them closer to it, and they realized that it was
Draco. He was sitting on a rock, his knees pulled up to his chest and
his arms wrapped around him. Anyone who did not know Draco would
think him a very likeable fellow had they first met him here. His
face was peaceful and his shining blond hair fell into his eyes. Icy
blue eyes reflected the sky and the lake, giving him an almost
vampiric (for anyone who's read Anne Rice, think of Claudia) yet
childish look. Despite her extreme loathing of him, the image of
Draco bore into Hermione's heart and mind.
She
let reality slip away for a few seconds and fell into the picturesque
world of her mind. The boy in front of her was not her enemy, here.
He did not detest her just because of her parents. He was not cruel.
He was not the son of a death eater. Yet he was not completely
different. His eyes were still piercing and deep like a cavern of
ice. His demeanor was still mysterious, sly and smooth like a snake.
Hermione suddenly felt an unfamiliar pang in her heart. She could
imagine herself loving someone like Draco. He was smart, clever,
admittedly funny at time, flawed in an attractive way, very much good
looking, and in the tiny bit of Hermione that was shallow- very, very
rich.
As
much as Hermione wanted to remain in her reverie, she returned to
reality. She surprised to find that the two realms were shockingly
similar. Draco had not moved, despite Hermione and Harry's advance.
His gaze was fixed on the water, his brow furrowed and lips pursed.
Harry's gaze locked with Hermione's- what was up with Draco?
They
were only feet away now. Neither friend knew what to do- continue
along the path or stop and say something. They needn't decide,
because at that moment Draco looked up, his eyes boring into them,
his expression serious. Both Harry and Hermione knew something was
wrong now. If Draco was alright, he'd have at least sneered by now,
or made some snide remark.
Draco
stared at Hermione and Harry for a few moments, his expression like
stone. When he finally opened his mouth to say something, it was as
if someone had cracked a solid rock. "Everything's about to
change, isn't it? The Dark Lord... he's returned. Chaos will rip our
world to pieces."
Harry
and Hermione gaped at him, their mouths slightly open. Of all things
they had expected him to say, this was near the bottom of the
list.
Draco
returned his gaze to the lake and his brow furrowed even deeper. "All
my life I was proud to have a Death Eater as a father. I can admit
this only to you two because you already know. I thought it meant
that I had power- no matter what happens with the Dark Lord, I am
safe. But I'm not. No one is. The witches and wizards that are
against the Dark Lord will wreak havoc on my family. My father will
kill innocent people. The second war will begin, and I will be caught
in the middle. I'll be innocent- I have never helped the Death
Eaters. But they will be out to get me because of my father. My world
will be worse than the Mudbloods, worse than the Muggles. I'll be
cast adrift between sides. My future is uncertain. I am not proud of
my father anymore."
Harry
and Hermione could hardly believe what they were hearing. They
glanced at each other, neither daring to say a word. Something was
very, very wrong. Draco would never say this to anyone, not his
friends, and definitely not to Harry and Hermione.
Suddenly,
Draco's head snapped back towards them. His calm, stony expression
was now something panicked and anguished. He slid back off the rock,
away from them, his hands trembling. He did not back away any father,
but looked at them with a mixture of horror and pleading.
"S-something's wrong." He stammered, his expression of
panic growing. "Help m-me!"
Harry
stepped forward, putting a hand out to keep Hermione back. If
something was wrong with Draco, he didn't want Hermione to have to
deal with it. "We'll take you to the hospital wing, Malfoy.
Madame Pomfrey will fix you up." He put a hand out. Despite his
loathing of Malfoy, his heart took the better of him. Draco was
scared, confused, and sick.
"NO!"
Draco yelled, taking a step back. "I can't be seen like this. I
can't be caught. It's wrong, all wrong. Help me!"
"Caught
doing what, Malfoy? We know you're father's a death eater, you know
that. No harm can come from telling us-"
"N-not
that. I made a mistake. A horrible, horrible mistake. It's my fault
can't you see? My mistake cannot be known! I DON'T MAKE MISTAKES! I
can't fail-"
Hermione
spoke now, her voice gentle and calm. Harry knew that tone- she used
it whenever the world was getting the better of him. She had used it
while Rita Skeeter was after him, when the whole school thought he
was the heir of Slytherin- it was a calming, soothing voice. "What
was your mistake, Malfoy? Maybe we can fix it..."
Malfoy's
eyes lifted to Hermione's, his lips trembling. He held out his hand,
his forefinger extended. On it was a tiny cut. "What have I
done?" he asked, his voice quiet and trembling. "I've made
a mistake..." At this point he reduced to tears. He fell to his
knees, clutching his stomach and rocking back and forth. He sobbed
uncontrollably, tears pouring down his cheeks. Red lines appeared in
his teardrop paths.
Harry
and Hermione's hearts were opened now. Both of them knew that
whatever was wrong with him was putting him through mortal anguish.
No human being should be in so much pain- not even Draco
Malfoy.
Harry
moved to help him off the ground, moving Draco's arm around his
shoulder. "C'mon, Malfoy, we'll take you to the Hospital
Wing..."
Malfoy
regained his strength suddenly, and a look of malice took over his
face. "YOU CANNOT TAKE ME THERE! YOU CANNOT LET ME BE SEEN LIKE
THIS! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE. I HAVE TO BE PERFECT. I DO
NOT MAKE MISTAKES. I WON'T LET YOU RUIN ME!" He silenced
himself, clenching his fists and shaking with anger. Harry took a
step away, afraid that Draco would through a fist at him. After a few
minutes Draco's quivering stopped, though his fists remained
clenched. His expression went from anger to something that Hermione
could not identify. He was upset, but not angry. He was almost
fearful, but it a rebellious way. "My father..." he said,
rubbing his shoulder then shaking his head.
"Harry,
I think I know what's happened to him." Hermione said, coming
over to his shoulder. "That cut can't be more than a day old,
and his symptoms match those of something who's been exposed to raw
Sundragon Venom. I've already done the report- I know. When Neville
tripped, the venom splashed onto the table. It was on Malfoy's knife.
He must have cut himself and let the venom into his bloodstream.
That's what's wrong with him."
Harry
stared at her, half of his mind incredulous at the fact that she had
already done the report, the other half attempting to remember what
Snape had said in class the day before. All he could remember was
that it caused severe mood-swings and that definitely fit Malfoy's
state.
"Then
he has to be treated. We have to take him to the Hospital Wing."
Harry said, looking at Draco apprehensively. He didn't really want to
be hit by Malfoy in his state of rage.
"No,
I don't think we should. He's volatile. If we try to take him there
he might pull his wand and do who knows what to us." Hermione's
lips were pursed, and Harry could practically see her brain
working.
"Can
we sedate him and take him there?"
Hermione
shook her head. When he's revived there'll be an emotional build up
in him and it could cause permanent brain damage."
The
situation was looking bleaker and bleaker. "Should one of us go
find a teacher? No, he'd pull the wand before thinking..."
Draco
stumbled over to them and fell to his knees. "Don't tell anyone.
I beg of you, please don't tell anyone. Granger's smart, she can help
me, I know she can. Just don't tell any of the teachers- my father
cannot know."
Hermione,
slightly taken aback at Draco's groveling, couldn't find something to
say. Harry, though shocked as well, had an idea. "We can take
him to Hagrid's hut, at least for now. We can decide what to do
there. No one will know."
Hermione
nodded in agreement. It was hard to disobey Draco's wishes while he
kneeled at her feet. His tear stained face was in agony and his eyes
were pleading in such a way that saying 'no' would be impossible. She
helped him to his feet and began retracing their steps back to
Hagrid's cabin.
"Thank
you..." Draco whispered under his breath. "Thank
you..."
Half
way to the cabin Draco regained his composer slightly and walked by
himself. Soon it became his normal, arrogant swagger. "I knew
you two would help me," he said, acting as though he had never
begged at their feet. His manner was almost jaunty, and Hermione
could have sworn his tone was friendly.
They
reached the cabin and went inside. Fang growled at Draco when he
entered. "Be kind, Pooch," Malfoy said cheerily, "ol'
Draco's keeping you company!"
Hermione
suppressed a giggle at Draco's friendliness. The emotion looked odd
on his features, which admittedly looked extremely good when being
sullen and arrogant.
While
Draco was petting Fang (who was on his back and thumping his tail
happily on the floor), Hermione and Harry came up with a plan. They
decided that Draco should never be left alone. Harry would go back to
the castle and go to the kitchens. He'd ask Winky the house elf
(Dobby would not want to help Draco) to send food for Draco and
Hermione, who would be staying behind. He'd also go to the library
and check out as many books as he could that would help with Draco's
condition and bring them back to Hagrid's cabin.
Lucky
Snape assigned that paper, Harry thought, I won't need an
excuse as to having all those books.
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