Kinsako- Mhhpff. Look at me, finally getting around to my next story.
Tonde- About time.
Kinsako- Meh. I didn't want to sit here thinking about all the work that HAS to be done for tomorrow, so I decided to do something useful with my time.
Tonde- Like.... homework?
Kinsako- Nope! Angst fan fics! Ryou and Bakura, of course.
Tonde- Sigh. Well, gotta have priorities I guess.
Kinsako- Yup!
This is a story is done complete spur of the moment, I have no idea what the plot is yet, I'm just making it up as I go along. Oh, and I liked the first song fic I did, so I decided to do another.
*Warning* This story contains Yaoi, or a guy on guy couple. Don't like it, don't read it. It's that simple. Flames will be used to set fire to spare soul cards. This story is rather angsty, with a lot of violence and such.
You have been warned.
Kinsako- And, I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh, in any part or way, nor do I own any other copyrighted items, such as song by Linkin Park.
Dedicated to- Neko Sama, Fuzz (aka pink scary monster) Jess, and all of the other people in my life who mean lots to me.
/…/ is Hikari to Yami
//…// is Yami to Hikari
~...~ is song lyrics
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Fallen- Chapter 1
Numb
~"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface"~
Broken. That's what I am you know, broken, beaten and lying on the cold floor.
A sharp kick connected with my ribs, but I barely registered the slight addition to the never-ending sea of pain that is my life. Or Bakura's lessons anyway.
"Fucking weakling." He snarls. I can hear the disgust bleeding from his voice. Another jab of pain to my chest. I think several of my ribs are probably broken.
~"Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes"~
A hand tangles itself roughly in my hair, and I'm yanked up painfully to meet the cold
gaze of my yami. Blood red eyes narrow slightly, and a sneer plays across his lips,
showing unnaturally sharp canines. Fangs. They look like fangs. Bakura did always
remind me of a vampire, I've never seen anyone with such an affinity for blood.
~"Every step that I take is another mistake to you"~
I stare numbly at him, and after a moment he snarls and drops me. I make no move to
stop my fall and my face connects roughly with the floor. "Pathetic." Growls Bakura. He
aims a last brutal kick at my side, and then stomps across the floor of my soul room, and
slams the heavy stone door to his behind him. I lay quietly for a moment, and then with a
soft groan I slowly push myself to my feet. A wave of pain hits me so hard my head
spins, and I sit down heavily on the nearby bed. I take a few deep breath to clear my
head, and wince as the pain in my chest increases. My ribs probably are broken. I rise
cautiously from the bed, and stumble down the hallway that runs between our soul
rooms. I step lightly into the darkness at the end, and after a bright flash of light I find
myself in my darkened bedroom.
I glance out the window of my bedroom at the night sky, and sigh heavily. Bakura's
"lesson" had taken longer than it usually did, and I still have a lot to do tonight. I gritted
my teeth, and pushed the door of my bedroom open. The living room was a disaster.
Bakura had been in a foul mood all morning, and as soon as I walked through the door of
my house, he had seized control of my body, and taken his rage out on everything within
his reach, and then drug me into my soul room and done the same for me. I gingerly bent
my left arm, and hissed as a searing pain shot up it.
~"I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware"~
I sighed. Things had been like this since after battle city. Yami had won of course, he and
his hikari managed to defeat every opponent, save everyone close to them, and undo all
the evil Malik, and his yami Marik had accomplished.
I swallowed thickly as I proceeded to straighten the living room. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve this. Even after Marik had done so much to hurt everyone Yugi and Yami cared about, they still showed him mercy. Yami used the power to remove the evil of Malik and his yami's soul, and even formed a friendship with then afterwards.
Tears pricked the corners of my eyes, but I hastily shook them away. If Bakura felt me crying, it would mean another lesson. I hated living this life. I hated living a lie, and wearing a cheery mask outside, while inside I feel so numb.
~"I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you"~
They didn't know. None of my friends knew that Bakura had returned after his battle with Marik. They didn't know he used the power of the Millennium puzzle to survive, and as soon as I awoke he returned to the Millennium ring. The didn't see the wounds he inflicted on me, since he had no physical form other than my own and what he really hurt was my spirit. I bent over to pick up the pieces of a shattered lamp, and I gasped as a searing bolt of pain shot up my side. I shook it off, and continued with my work. Just because there were no physical marks didn't mean it didn't hurt. I had endured pain over the past six months that would have killed most people.
I tried to remember what I had done to ensue Bakura's wrath. Oh yes, I had eaten lunch with the Yugi tacchi. Bakura was furious that somehow both Yami and Marik had managed to obtain physical bodies of their own. I sometimes wish he could too, then he could be out my life forever.
~"Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you"~
But... I couldn't. Inside, I knew that to lose him would be worse than the hell I'm living
now. I bit my lip, and ran a hand through my hair. I would be totally alone if he left, and I
knew that the first chance he got he would get as far away from me as possible. I
sickened him. He had told me so himself, told me over and over how he detested having
such a weak hikari as me.
~"Every step that I take is another mistake to you"~
I would never tell them. Not from fear of what Bakura would do to me, but because...
I squeezed my eyes shut, trying desperately to stop the tears that so desperately wanted to fall.
Because I love him.
~"I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware"~
I knew it was pointless, he would never return the feelings that burned so deeply inside of me, but I couldn't help it. I loved him so much that I would endure anything just to keep him here with me, even if he hated the very sight of me. It didn't matter, as long as he was here with me, it was enough.
~"I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you"~
I stood slowly, surveying the now-clean living room one last time, before half-walking,
half-stumbling up the stairs. I knew I had homework to do, a major assignment for one of
my classes, but as I pushed open the door of my bedroom, it was the best I could do to
make it to my bed, before collapsing. Pain seemed to burn through every nerve of my
body, and curled up into a ball, and buried my face in my knees.
~"And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you"~
"Onegai," I whispered softly as the darkness overtook me. "Ka tasukete anta..."
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And there you have it. The first chapter. Anyway, my first attempt at Ryou/Bakura, so I'd love to hear what people think. Oh, and if I get a few reviews, I'll update a new chapter ths weekend.
Oh, and here's the translation to what Ryou said:
"Please," "Someone help me..."
I'm not totally sure about the translation, so if there's any mistake, don't hesitate to say.
Thanks to everyone who read this, even if you didn't like it, you're still all awesome for reading it! :) Vanilla Coke and Starbursts for all!