Rachel stepped down hard on her shovel to pull out only her 5th shovel full of dirt. She looked over at Zero, who, already, had more dirt out of his whole than in. Once again, X-Ray and Armpit were making their pointless, yet rude, remarks toward Zero and Stanley. Rachel doesn't talk when she digs, it gives away more of her energy. She might as well keep silent and use up her energy to get out of the hot sun. She started speeding up….
"Who here had animals before you got sent to Camp Green Lake?" the Hispanic boy asked, who was named Magnet.
"I did! One of them little grasshoppers always hopped around in my room." Armpit said.
"I know you did Pit, I was asking them." X-Ray snapped.
"I didn't." Stanley answered.
"I had a puppy, but it got ran over by a car." Squid said, who glanced over at Rachel to see if she was listening. Her eyes were still fixed on the dirt she was shoveling, but she saw him out of her peripheral vision. And she was listening.
Magnet didn't have any animals, which was why he stole a puppy from a store, and because he felt really bad about it. Which is what got him here in the first place.
Zero didn't answer, and Zigzag said that he did have a cat once, named Twizzlers, who had his hair burned off when Zigzag caught it on fire. Supposedly by accident.
"Did Rachel have any animal, I wonder?" X-Ray said sarcastically.
Squid side-glanced at X-Ray.
Rachel didn't change her rhythm of digging, and acted like she didn't even hear them, on purpose, just to see their reaction. Rachel didn't even know why she did, whether because she was bitter, or because she just wanted to get some attention and have fun, something she needs a lot more of around here. Especially now that her life's gone renegade.
"I said," X-Ray said, cupping his hands around his mouth, "Did Rachel have any animal, I wonder?"
"It's no use man," Armpit said, "she's worthless."
Rachel kept digging like nothing was said, but nevertheless, she was hurting inside. Armpit should've never said that. Now her whole idea of trying to get someone to have fun with her, was gone. She had no determination for any of that anymore.
"Dude maybe she doesn't even want to talk to you." Squid said in his southern accent, half jokingly to make X-Ray believe that Squid was on his side.
X-Ray made the weirdest look, shook his head, and went back to his digging. Rachel, for once, started to grin the smallest grin. She just made sure nobody saw.
At the end of the day, still no sign of Caitlyn. Zero had walked back to camp a lot sooner then everyone else, as always, and next to be finished was Rachel. She showered quickly and put her clean orange jumpsuit over her white tank top. She grabbed her hairbrush and her dirty clothes from the ground, went to the tent and sat down on her cot, while combing out her hair.
She turned the volume all the way up on her Walkman CD player so she could hear it without putting it on her ears. Though the song boomed loudly from her headphones, she wasn't even listening. Her thoughts lingered. She kept thinking about this one song she had heard once, that she thought was sad, dark, and maybe even a little depressing. It's like the person that the song was talking about was screaming for somebody's help. She sat there frozen of a horrible heart-piercing realization, that this song truly and deeply applied to her now….
LYRICS
[I]How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb
Without a soul. My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without,
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling. Only you are the life among the dead.
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life[/I]
END OF LYRICS
At that moment, Rachel found that she was that person, needing someone to breathe the life into her. She was calling somebody who cares to come and save her. She was screaming inside, though no one hears her. Does anyone hear her? Can anyone help her? She felt "kept in the dark" and that someone was in front of her, egging her on to become a good person. But who was that?? A vast amount of anger overcome her and she grabbed her CD player and threw it onto the floor, which caused it to smash into pieces, the CD broke, the headphones broke, and the cover of the whole Walkman broke off.
She pulled her knees to her chest, and covered her face with her hands, which were resting on her knees, and just burst into tears. She never, ever would've thought that she could relate to this song. Of course she had horrible times with her drunken father and her beaten mother, not to mention her late brother, but she had never considered herself alone, in the dark, or in too awful of pain. She had her mother's love. Which was everything in the world. Now it's gone, and there was nothing she could do about it. And she will never have that love again.
The moment that she threw her CD player, Squid walked in and had to dodge the flying object. He saw Rachel crying and ran over to her and kneeled down on the side of her cot.
He tried to comfort her, but she didn't even know that his hand was resting on her foot and he was looking up at her face. He knew how she felt.
She kept sobbing, and then suddenly stopped. She lifted her head, her hair stuck in her tears, as she looking at Squid.
"W-what're you doing in here? Why aren't you with the others in the Wreck Room?" Rachel asked.
"The guys wanted to know if you wanted to come and play pool with us. I knew what your answer was going to be, so I came to see if you wanted any company." Squid answered.
Rachel sniffed and wiped her eyes with her sleeve. She got up and went over to pick up her now ruined CD player. Without looking up, Rachel answered, "Uh, I don't think so. I don't know. I do and don't. Now that this happened I feel a little vulnerable around you."
"Don't," Squid said, "You didn't tell anyone about me cryin', so I sure as hell won't tell anyone about you."
Rachel got up and had her hands full with plastic, looked at him, and nodded.
"Then I'll come and play pool." Rachel said, nodding.
That was the first time Rachel and Squid had spoke directly. Out of the 3 weeks she's been there, it was the first time. And for the first time, she felt a hint of importance.
But little did she know of what would happen when she did go to play pool, what a mistake. Even Squid wouldn't be able to persuade her to do anything she didn't want to do. Ever again.
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"Who here had animals before you got sent to Camp Green Lake?" the Hispanic boy asked, who was named Magnet.
"I did! One of them little grasshoppers always hopped around in my room." Armpit said.
"I know you did Pit, I was asking them." X-Ray snapped.
"I didn't." Stanley answered.
"I had a puppy, but it got ran over by a car." Squid said, who glanced over at Rachel to see if she was listening. Her eyes were still fixed on the dirt she was shoveling, but she saw him out of her peripheral vision. And she was listening.
Magnet didn't have any animals, which was why he stole a puppy from a store, and because he felt really bad about it. Which is what got him here in the first place.
Zero didn't answer, and Zigzag said that he did have a cat once, named Twizzlers, who had his hair burned off when Zigzag caught it on fire. Supposedly by accident.
"Did Rachel have any animal, I wonder?" X-Ray said sarcastically.
Squid side-glanced at X-Ray.
Rachel didn't change her rhythm of digging, and acted like she didn't even hear them, on purpose, just to see their reaction. Rachel didn't even know why she did, whether because she was bitter, or because she just wanted to get some attention and have fun, something she needs a lot more of around here. Especially now that her life's gone renegade.
"I said," X-Ray said, cupping his hands around his mouth, "Did Rachel have any animal, I wonder?"
"It's no use man," Armpit said, "she's worthless."
Rachel kept digging like nothing was said, but nevertheless, she was hurting inside. Armpit should've never said that. Now her whole idea of trying to get someone to have fun with her, was gone. She had no determination for any of that anymore.
"Dude maybe she doesn't even want to talk to you." Squid said in his southern accent, half jokingly to make X-Ray believe that Squid was on his side.
X-Ray made the weirdest look, shook his head, and went back to his digging. Rachel, for once, started to grin the smallest grin. She just made sure nobody saw.
At the end of the day, still no sign of Caitlyn. Zero had walked back to camp a lot sooner then everyone else, as always, and next to be finished was Rachel. She showered quickly and put her clean orange jumpsuit over her white tank top. She grabbed her hairbrush and her dirty clothes from the ground, went to the tent and sat down on her cot, while combing out her hair.
She turned the volume all the way up on her Walkman CD player so she could hear it without putting it on her ears. Though the song boomed loudly from her headphones, she wasn't even listening. Her thoughts lingered. She kept thinking about this one song she had heard once, that she thought was sad, dark, and maybe even a little depressing. It's like the person that the song was talking about was screaming for somebody's help. She sat there frozen of a horrible heart-piercing realization, that this song truly and deeply applied to her now….
LYRICS
[I]How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb
Without a soul. My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without,
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling. Only you are the life among the dead.
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life[/I]
END OF LYRICS
At that moment, Rachel found that she was that person, needing someone to breathe the life into her. She was calling somebody who cares to come and save her. She was screaming inside, though no one hears her. Does anyone hear her? Can anyone help her? She felt "kept in the dark" and that someone was in front of her, egging her on to become a good person. But who was that?? A vast amount of anger overcome her and she grabbed her CD player and threw it onto the floor, which caused it to smash into pieces, the CD broke, the headphones broke, and the cover of the whole Walkman broke off.
She pulled her knees to her chest, and covered her face with her hands, which were resting on her knees, and just burst into tears. She never, ever would've thought that she could relate to this song. Of course she had horrible times with her drunken father and her beaten mother, not to mention her late brother, but she had never considered herself alone, in the dark, or in too awful of pain. She had her mother's love. Which was everything in the world. Now it's gone, and there was nothing she could do about it. And she will never have that love again.
The moment that she threw her CD player, Squid walked in and had to dodge the flying object. He saw Rachel crying and ran over to her and kneeled down on the side of her cot.
He tried to comfort her, but she didn't even know that his hand was resting on her foot and he was looking up at her face. He knew how she felt.
She kept sobbing, and then suddenly stopped. She lifted her head, her hair stuck in her tears, as she looking at Squid.
"W-what're you doing in here? Why aren't you with the others in the Wreck Room?" Rachel asked.
"The guys wanted to know if you wanted to come and play pool with us. I knew what your answer was going to be, so I came to see if you wanted any company." Squid answered.
Rachel sniffed and wiped her eyes with her sleeve. She got up and went over to pick up her now ruined CD player. Without looking up, Rachel answered, "Uh, I don't think so. I don't know. I do and don't. Now that this happened I feel a little vulnerable around you."
"Don't," Squid said, "You didn't tell anyone about me cryin', so I sure as hell won't tell anyone about you."
Rachel got up and had her hands full with plastic, looked at him, and nodded.
"Then I'll come and play pool." Rachel said, nodding.
That was the first time Rachel and Squid had spoke directly. Out of the 3 weeks she's been there, it was the first time. And for the first time, she felt a hint of importance.
But little did she know of what would happen when she did go to play pool, what a mistake. Even Squid wouldn't be able to persuade her to do anything she didn't want to do. Ever again.
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