by: darkestbeforedawn
summary: flowers and dreams... just what does dreams lead to?
warnings: shounen ai, shoujo ai, and everything else in between. spoiler for entire anime series.
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Flower - Meaning - Pairing -
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Lily of the Valley - 'Return of happiness' - Momiji x Tohru
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Papa once told me to grasp happiness with both hands, and never let go. He said this to me after what had happened to Mama, when he still cried for her. Papa doesn't cry anymore, because he knows I'm alright.
Thinks, I'm alright.
But maybe I'm being immature again. I don't want to be that way, but it's easier to think like that sometimes. I want to grasp onto happiness, like when I was still young, and held on to my favourite stuffed animal. I want something that I can look back on, and draw strength from.
That was before I met you, Tohru.
You always have that smile, did you know that? Like everything will always be alright, and everything would work out in the end. At first, I was a little taken back by it, much like Akito. I couldn't believe there was someone who could smile like that, not when you lived in sad memories all your life. I really tried to live with them, I did.
But I couldn't do that by myself. Everything was a secret from then on. Papa said it was best for Mama. And I understand that, really!
But I didn't want her to run away either. She left me in the dark again... to find my way out by myself. I don't hate her, but I miss her.
And when I think about that time... when Papa asked me to help Mama forget, I wanted to say no. Scream, cry, and beg them not to let her forget about me. I never wanted to see her look at me like I was a stranger... Because to me, she never will be.
But I lied and let her go, so that she would be happy. It was a white lie, made with tears and regret.
Being selfless hurts so much. But it's alright if someone else is willing to do the same for you. I didn't have that someone, and it hurt.
Until I met you. You walked with me through the darkness again, holding my hand and giving me the strength to look back and smile. You gave me hope, that there will always be someone willing to help. And that sacrifices are made by everyone.
People walk through life, creating memories they can look back on. Some memories do nothing but hurt them.
And others, like my memory of you, will make me strong again, so I can face the world.
And to think... it was only because you smiled the way you always do.
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ecchhh... i had writer's block for a short time there, and i couldn't come up with anything. so, i decided to re-watch fruits basket for inspiration. what i really, really, really, love about furuba is that it's dependant on character development, and there isn't really anything dramatic/drastic going on, like saving the world or something. it only gives you more reason to love it, because it's such a simple, beautiful story. and when i watched the episode with momiji and tohru, i thought... damn. so, this could be taken as a momiji --> tohru, or momiji x tohru. -shrugs-
replies to reviews...
GhostHelwig: i'm not too much of a haru fan either, but i thougt that... well, what would i do if someone i loved didn't care for me back? i'd want them to be happy, with or without me. so actually, through this fic, i began to understand haru better. -smiles- ahh, you saw right through my kyo-introspecive chapter, ne? of course! i wouldn't forget him!
momo-chan: well, i'll try my best to accomdate it, but i have a few more threesomes planned -sweatdrops- they could be taken any way, so you could think of it as their POVs wound together instead of a romantic sense. but thanks for the review!
GinHasa: thank you! i'm taking any request for any coupling, so yes! but of course, if i won't force myself to do ones that my mind won't... -sweatdrops- we'll see, ne? but i'd love to hear your ideas!
polkadots: -grins nervously- ehehe the flowers were meant to be my source of inspiration, so i'd get an 'idea' from their meanings to incorporate into the chapters. but thanks for the review! -smiles-
R & R, onegai(please)! and the next chapter will feature...
Kyo ---> Yuki ---> Tohru