by: darkestbeforedawn
summary: flowers and dreams... just what does dreams lead to?
warnings: shounen ai, shoujo ai, and everything else in between. spoiler for entire anime series.
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Flower - Meaning - Pairing -
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Bell Flowers - 'Gratitude' - Kyo --> Yuki --> Tohru
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I shouldn't be content by just being with these people, I know. But I am, and that's whats making me think things I really shouldn't be, and doing things I definately shouldn't be. Like notice how that damned Yuki stares at me funny all the time. And how Tohru seems to get this sad look in her eyes whenever that freaky wave-chick is mentioned.
Yuki-- I don't even know what to think of him anymore. He makes me doubt my actions. I never doubt myself. But sometimes... he gets this faraway look in his eyes when he thinks I'm not watching. It's the same look I see when Haru looks at Yuki, except he doesn't hide it. I... I respect him for that.
It's like that one time when I had to stay after school for a detention. It was for a stupid reason, but that that's not the point, the point is, Yuki mysteriously got one as well. I mean, he started the whole thing, and he should've! He got me in trouble because of a dumb fight we had, but knowing him, the Prince, he could've gotten out of that. He could've.
He should've.
So why did he insist on getting one? Knowing I would be there as well... Honestly, it's almost like he enjoys my company. Keh...
But it is kinda funny, because once, I caught him smiling at me, when he walked past my room, and I caught his reflection in my mirror.
It was sorta... nice. Not that I'm saying him smiling at me was nice, but him smiling in general was. I have no idea what I'm saying... and it's only because that damned rat smiled at me. Or at the mirror. Or something. I hate this...
But it doesn't compare to Haru, that damned idiot. I sometimes wonder if he fights me so that Yuki would remember he existed. I... I sometimes wonder if I fight Yuki so that he remembers I existed.
I wonder sometimes... and I know it can't be good for the well-being of my sanity, but...
Why does he anger me so? Besides that cocky attitude, and constant bitchyness...
He isn't that bad. Because if he was, then I would be a sinner for thinking all this about him.
Which brings me to Tohru. She really is brainless. A blind person could see that you're worrying over that chick... Hanajima? And a vegtable could tell that you're upset. I asked you about it once, and you said it wasn't anything big, but there was something not right.
Oddly enough, last time I saw her, I did feel like I was being left out on something, especially when Uotani gave me a pleading look. Yuki told me to shove it-- and I took his advice for once, and caused him to fall on top of Tohru. I couldn't help that smile that graced my face when we started our usual bickering.
But still... why is it that I'm content just being with them? Knowing.. knowing that they'll never change, maybe?
I... I would be disturbed one day, if I don't see Tohru doing her usual chores around the house, humming that annoyingly nice song and smiling the way she does.
I would be... hurt, if Yuki decides that I'm not worthy of fighting him anymore.
I would never let myself go if I don't have that house to return to, with these people that make my life a living hell and yet brings me closer to heaven then I've ever been.
I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here.
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i tried very, very hard to make it sound like kyo has a crush on yuki, borderlining platonic love. somehow, i found writing in kyo's POV harder than yuki's, and i was pleasently surpised. i think kyo has mixed feelings for these two however, because they're the most important people in his life, i mean. besides his sensei, whose kick-ass, if i do say so myself. -smiles- and i even dropped in some tohru x hana hints again. -hearts- ALSO! i won't be updating daily like i normally do, i'm going away to new york! -grins- so expect the next chapter on thursday, ne? bye bye!
replies to reviews..
GhostHelwig: thanks again! i did cry when i saw momiji's episode. alright, i outright sobbed like an idiot xD i have a soft spot for tohru, actually, because she's too nice to hate. sure, i yell at the TV sometimes when she does something stupid, but it's for her own good. ;;
KageOhkami: thank you for the review! a haru x yuki, eh? i'll try to do one, but probably later on, because lately all i've been doing is haru, yuki, kyo, etc. i want to get some others in! but i promise i'll do an extra sugary one!
GinHasa: thanks very much! i've actually wanted to do a uo x kyo, but later on. -waggles eyebrows- lol, good luck on your fic! and momiji -is- an awesome character! and cyute to boot. -winks-
Darkness Sweetheart2000: no problem! i've always preferred short stories myself, because i lose patience with long, chaptered fics. however, there are always exceptions... thanks for the review!
R & R, onegai (please)! the next chapter will feature...
Kisa x Hiro x Megumi