by: darkestbeforedawn
summary: flowers and dreams... just what does dreams lead to?
warnings: shounen ai, shoujo ai, and everything else in between. spoiler for entire anime series.
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Flower - Meaning - Pairing -
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Globe Amaranth - 'Unfading love' - Kagura x Kyo
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Everything was in some sort of a black and white scale, sometimes fading into grey. Everyone seemed to fall into one of those categories as well, their faces never quite displaying what their heart says. It's one of those things that I'm used to, after all, I've seen my fair share of whatever in my knowledge of life, however short it may be.
So it startled me when you came into my black and white world, filling it with every shade of the rainbow possible. You even showed me the in-betweens of every color, the 'exceptions' to every rule.
The thing was, you didn't say a word to me even when you did so.
All you did was step in, just like that.
Something so insignificant to you... meant all that to me. And yet you didn't even realized I existed.
But that was even alright.
It was when I began falling in love with you, that it wasn't.
In all honesty, I don't know how this started. It was already too late when I felt it, I couldn't even stop myself.
I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I didn't even realize it. Everything about you made me want to be with you. I wanted to know everything about you, all that you were, the good and the bad. It didn't matter to me at all that you didn't love me...
... even if it hurt. I wanted you to know it.
What I fear most is dying, and for the people I love to never know just how much I loved them.
That is why, I want you to know that I'm the one for you. I want you to know that I love you. I know it might bring you suffering, but I couldn't bare the thought of you forgetting about me. Or you not knowing that these feelings, these emotions, I feel, are for you. Only you.
So I wouldn't have to regret... regret not telling you how much I do care about you, Kyo.
A few months after the incident with Tohru-kun at the main house, the world began to fade back into black and white, and I was terrified. Were you fading away as well?
And then I saw you.
...With Yuki-kun.
The world began to fill with colors all over again... everytime that shy smile graced your face, another shade of color painted across my palette of life.
You two look so good in love.
Somehow, when the realization hit me, I wasn't upset at all. I wasn't suprised at all, and I couldn't help the smile that dawned.
Maybe I had fallen in love with the idea of being in love with you. But whatever it was, I am still in love with you. I would be happiest if I could see you like this. You look so good with Yuki.
I had fallen in love with you, as the happiest person in the whole world.
--- replies to reviews, my explaination for the late chapter, and any other ramble will be placed in, later on. but thanks so much for your patience, guys. -smiles- it means alot to me!