Gordo's Journal
I know what happened at Ethan's party. When I woke up that morning in the bathtub and stared down at Lizzie's beautiful face, I was the happiest guy in the world, but I knew it wouldn't last. As soon as Lizzie discovered what we had done, she would push me away. She told me before we started dating that she wasn't ready for it. We hardly even made out before that night! It was killing me inside. Hormones suck!
I was right when I said Lizzie would push me away. She's been avoiding me for the past month and a half. I tried calling her house, but Matt picked up. He told me that to give Lizzie some time to figure things out, and she'd come to me when she is ready. I bet he knows. Why would Lizzie tell Matt anything? She constantly claims that he is an "annoying, dumb, careless, obnoxious brat". Matt has grown up a lot over the past few years though.
Miranda says she hasn't confided in her either. In fact, Lizzie has been avoiding her too. Now that's weird. They talk constantly. Actually, Miranda probably has no clue about it. She and Matt came to the party with us but not together. At least that's what we all thought. Later that night, I saw those to sneak upstairs. They couldn't have seen us go into the bathroom. Go Matt! It's every guys dream to have an older woman. Well, it's not my dream. I want Lizzie.
It took so long for me to confess my feelings for her, and now it's all gone to waste. She doesn't want me anymore, or else she would at least talk to me. The last time she said anything to me was when she broke up with me. "I'm sorry Gordo, but I can do this right now." That's all she said, but it was clear that she didn't want me anymore. What have I done? I should have stopped it, but I wanted it so badly.
Lizzie was completelytrashed. I wasn't. She came onto me so strongly. Damn, it was sexy! I wanted to do her right there in the middle of Ethan's living room. Then she took me by the hand and dragged me into the bathroom while whispering naughty things into my ear. I was living out a fantasy. It took no time at all to strip off our clothes and get into a sixty-nine. Just minutes after we came, I was rejuvenated. I asked her it was alright; and she giggle and nodded. A split second later, I was inside of her. It felt so good.
Those few minutes caused me to lose everything. I'm so stupid.
Note To Self: I should make the chapters longer.