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Let's go onto the story now.
Chapter 9
"Reasons why."
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Phoebe was shocked, like if she couldn't realize what was happening and in a way she didn't want it to be happening, she didn't want all this to be true. She snapped out of her thoughts and looked at Tom and Liz who were scared and looking at her, wondering what happened to their Daddy. She knew it was going to be hard for the both of them, especially for Liz.
"Hey my babies, you listen to me carefully. You are going into your room and hide in the closet until Mommy comes there and tells you to go out, okay?" She told them because she knew that Belthazor would be back soon.
Both of the kids nodded and Phoebe kissed them on the cheeks.
"Go now, Mommy loves you." She told them before the kids ran in their room to hide.
Phoebe slowly got up, she didn't wanted to show it to her children but she was scared, scared that Cole could be gone for real, leaving his place to Belthazor, scared to lose him and scared about the fact that Brad could come back to hurt her again.
She took a huge breath and in the same time, Belthazor shimmered back in. Phoebe gasped and looked at him in the eyes, looking for Cole.
She remembered the time when Cole was changing into Belthazor to fight in order to help her or her sisters, she could always look in his eyes and see Cole's soul, see that he was still here and that he could come back easily. The case wasn't the same here, when Phoebe looked into the demon's eyes, she saw nothing else than anger and hatred, Cole's soul were nowhere to be found and that scared her even more.
"Cole, come back please." She begged.
Belthazor smiled in answer and grabbed her by the throat and squeezed it so much that it was almost impossible for Phoebe to breath.
When he saw that Phoebe couldn't breath he let her go and smiled even more. Phoebe gasped for air and coughed up several times.
Without any warning, the demon hit her across the face and gave her an uppercut sending Phoebe flying backwards and she landed hard on the floor.
At this very moment, Phoebe wanted to scream from the pain but she bit her tongue, the last thing she wanted was Tom and Liz to heard what was happening. Once again she got up and Belthazor pined her against the wall and started hitting her again.
Suddenly, the demon backed up and screamed in pain and Cole came back to his human form. His eyes was injected with blood and he was breathing heavily, tired from fighting Belthazor from the inside. He looked at Phoebe horrified, horrified of what he did to her. The look in Phoebe's eyes was unbearable for him, he could clearly see her pain and her fear, her fear from him, from the monster he was. And one of the hardest thing for him was to see the bruise around her left eye, the proof that he had hurt the woman he loved. He thought about the kids, they had seen the monster that their father was.
Phoebe looked at him and saw the tears in his eyes but she couldn't approach him, she was too scared. Scared of the man who was caressing her and kissing her one hour ago and who was now hurting her so badly.
Cole looked at her and whispered: "Sorry."
And then he morphed back into Belthazor, howling because of the pain and because of the frustration to not be able to control the evil monster inside of him.
Phoebe jumped when she saw that Belthazor was back but the demon shimmered away.
She sighed with relief and slumped against the wall and burst into tears.
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Some seconds later, Cole shimmered to the manor on his human form.
"Paige! Piper!" He screamed.
Paige ran down the stairs and asked: "What's wrong?"
The youngest Halliwell sister was scared that something could be wrong with Phoebe or the kids.
"I need your help." Cole begged.
"Why? What's wrong?" She asked again.
"I-I can't control him Paige, Belthazor is ba-." Cole told her but hadn't enough time to finish his sentence and turned into Belthazor once again.
Paige quickly orbed upstairs and the demon threw the couch on the window, and throw a fireball at the TV and broke other things in the house.
When Cole morphed back into his human form and yelled: "Paige."
The youngest Halliwell orbed back next to him and she said: "I have an idea, let's go in the basement before he comes back."
Cole nodded and followed her into the basement.
She cast a quick spell and a cage appeared in front of them. Cole hurried inside and Paige locked it.
"Do you think Belthazor will be able to break it?" He asked.
Paige shook her head no and said: "It's immune to black magic."
Cole nodded and changed into Belthazor again.
The demon tried to break free but it was in vain. Paige stood there looking at him until Cole came back. Fighting to get the best of Belthazor was exhausting for Cole. He was all sweaty, breathing heavily and his eyes were still injected with blood.
"I hurt Phoebe." He told Paige before looking down.
Paige noticed he was crying and she told him: "I'm going to your house and help her."
Cole nodded and Paige orbed away and Belthazor came back.
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Paige found Phoebe hugging her knees and crying. She quickly knelt by her sides and heal the bruises she had. Once she had finished, Paige kissed her sister on the forehead and wiped away her tears and she said: "It's okay sweetie."
"Belthazor..." Phoebe said as she was sobbing.
"I know." Paige told her.
"Cole is at the manor, in the basement, he won't come back, you don't have to worry." Paige told her.
Phoebe nodded slightly and said: "Tom and Liz."
She got up and walked in the kids' room as Paige followed her.
Phoebe opened the closet door and found Tom hugging Liz who was crying silently.
"Hey my babies, come here, let Mommy hugs you." She told them.
Tom let go Liz and hugged his mother tightly.
Phoebe kissed him on the cheek and said: "Everything is okay now."
She kissed Tom once again and saw that Liz hadn't move yet.
She looked at Tom and said: "You go with Auntie Paige in the living room while I talk with Lizzie."
The little boy nodded and Paige picked him up, giving an according nod to Phoebe before going into the living room.
Phoebe knelt down in front of Liz and said: "You don't have to be scared anymore, the bad guy won't come back."
Liz shrugged and Phoebe wiped away her tears.
"I know you saw what Daddy did but there is an explanation." Phoebe said to her daughter.
The little girl shrugged again.
"The bad guy you saw has always been into Daddy and Daddy can tell him to be a good guy but I don't know why, today, Daddy couldn't say to the bad guy to be a good guy, that's why he did what you saw he did." Phoebe tried to explain.
How could she explain to her daughter that her father was half-human, half-demon?
"But now you see, Mommy is okay." Phoebe added.
Liz nodded and Phoebe asked: "Can you give me a huge cuddle?"
Liz nodded again and snuggled up to her mother. Phoebe wrapped her arms around her and kissed her on the top of the head.
"Let's go in the living room with Tommy." Phoebe said.
She picked up Liz and carried her in the living room where she sat down next to Paige and Tom.
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Meanwhile in the basement, Cole was having more and more troubles the breath and he was extremely exhausting from trying to control Belthazor.
He noticed that someone has appeared next to the cage and was looking at him.
"Poor Cole Turner." The guy said.
As he approached the cage, Cole recognized him.
"You son of a bitch." He said.
"I prefer Brad." The guy told him.
Cole tried to get out of the cage to kick this bastard's ass but Brad laughed.
Brad used his powers to create a chair and sat down on front of Cole.
"Let me tell you a story." Brad said.
"Years ago, I was a whitelighter, I was sent on earth to protect Phoebe Halliwell's twins. As the father of the kids was a demon and wasn't near his family, I stood with them and loved them as if they were my own family. Unfortunately, the bastard went back and took my place. I became crazy, I wanted to be part of Phoebe life's more than everything... Every times I was seeing her, I wanted to be close to her, to kiss her, to make love to her... She was in my dreams, in my mind, every days and every nights..." Brad started.
Cole winced when he hear what Brad just said and he turned into Belthazor.
Brad waited until Cole took back his human form and continued: "Finally, one day I raped her. Her evil husband killed me, at least that's what he thought... He left me for dead, that's when I decided to take my revenge on him and I started to kill demons to get powers. The Elders loved that until the day when they discovered that I was killing them to collect their powers. They clipped my wings, thing that they should have done a long time ago. I took different powers from different demons and now I'm a full demon, with many powers, more than you have Belthazor."
Cole turned into Belthazor and came back to him and Brad said: "Once I was sure that I had enough powers, I came back to Phoebe and, morphed into her dear husband and made love to her, which was pretty good."
Cole became a fury and tried to break free from his cage again, as Paige has made it so strong that Cole's powers were useless and helpless.
Brad laughed again and said: "I don't know what was the best, being inside her while she was screaming your name and begging you to come back to help her or being inside her and hearing her moaning your name thinking it was you..."
Cole shivered at this words, his eyes filled up with tears when he thought about what Phoebe went through, it was like someone was stabbing him in the heart, his couldn't breath anymore. He let his rage explode and turn into Belthazor.
Brad smiled even more, knowing that he was playing with Cole's feeling and hurting him so much was delectable. A crossbow appeared in Brad's hands and he aimed at Belthazor.
Cole came back into his human form and looked at Brad.
Brad shoot him in the chest and said: "Magic can't go out but it can go in... nice."
Cole screamed in pain and Brad aimed at him again and he said: "Let's try another part..."
Then he shoot Cole in the stomach and he continued to shoot him until he heard Piper voice talking to her son in the kitchen.
Brad smiled and said: "I'll be back." And shimmered away.
Hearing the noise, Piper went down in the basement and saw Cole.
"Paige!" She yelled.
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"I'm worried about her Paige." Phoebe said to her little sister as they was in the kitchen, making some tea.
"I know Phoebe, but a lot of the kids stop talking after a huge shock like Liz just had." Paige explained.
Phoebe sighed deeply.
"It's just... I... I don't know what to say to her, how to explain her, I don't even know myself what happened." Phoebe said, trying to fight tears back.
Paige hugged her and said: "I know Phoebe... Shhhh, it's okay."
"We all know Liz has a special link with Cole and seeing him like this, so angry and hitting you, made her stop talking, she can't handle something like this Phoebe, she's too young to understand, but you have to know that it's not your fault." Paige explained.
"What can I do to make her feel better? She can't stay like this forever." Phoebe said.
"There's nothing we can do, she'll talk when she'll be ready." Paige said.
Phoebe put her head in her hands and said: "Why when everything is all right, something so terrible has to happen?"
Paige hugged her sister once again to comfort her and suddenly they heard Tom.
"Mommy!" Tom called his mother.
Paige and Phoebe who was in the kitchen both ran in the living room.
"Lizzie is crying again." He said sadly.
Phoebe immediately hugged her daughter and whispered loving and comforting words to her while kissing her cheeks and forehead.
"Croco plush." Paige said, stretching her hand to summon the plush.
Phoebe smiled and Paige gave the plush to Liz who hugged it tightly.
Phoebe sat on the couch and pulled Liz on her lap. The little girl rested her head on her mother's shoulder and continued to cry silently while hugging her favorite plush.
"Here baby, you don't have to be scared, Mommy is here." Phoebe whispered, she was at the verge of tears.
She kissed the top of Liz's head and Tom asked: "Why did Lizzie stop talking?"
"I don't know baby." Phoebe answered.
"I have to go, I hear Piper calling." Paige told Phoebe. Since she was focusing on her whitelighter powers she could hear the people from her family calling her.
Phoebe nodded and Paige orbed out.
Tom sat down closer to Phoebe and Liz and rested his head on his mother shoulder as well.
"We're going to close our eyes and have a little nap together." Phoebe stated.
Tom nodded and said before closing his eyes: "I love you Lizzie."
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When Paige orbed in the basement of the manor, she looked at Cole and cover her mouth with her hands.
"Oh my God Cole!" She said.
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Baily: You can't vanquish me!!! My husband (Cole Turner) in invincible, he'll protect me!!!! Hehehe!!!!
Midnight: Thanks a lot for your five stars... It goes straight to my heart... I'm happy to have an 'trying to be patient avid reader'... You didn't wait too much this time huh?
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I talk to much, I know...
Let's go onto the story now.
Chapter 9
"Reasons why."
#~#~#~#~#~#
Phoebe was shocked, like if she couldn't realize what was happening and in a way she didn't want it to be happening, she didn't want all this to be true. She snapped out of her thoughts and looked at Tom and Liz who were scared and looking at her, wondering what happened to their Daddy. She knew it was going to be hard for the both of them, especially for Liz.
"Hey my babies, you listen to me carefully. You are going into your room and hide in the closet until Mommy comes there and tells you to go out, okay?" She told them because she knew that Belthazor would be back soon.
Both of the kids nodded and Phoebe kissed them on the cheeks.
"Go now, Mommy loves you." She told them before the kids ran in their room to hide.
Phoebe slowly got up, she didn't wanted to show it to her children but she was scared, scared that Cole could be gone for real, leaving his place to Belthazor, scared to lose him and scared about the fact that Brad could come back to hurt her again.
She took a huge breath and in the same time, Belthazor shimmered back in. Phoebe gasped and looked at him in the eyes, looking for Cole.
She remembered the time when Cole was changing into Belthazor to fight in order to help her or her sisters, she could always look in his eyes and see Cole's soul, see that he was still here and that he could come back easily. The case wasn't the same here, when Phoebe looked into the demon's eyes, she saw nothing else than anger and hatred, Cole's soul were nowhere to be found and that scared her even more.
"Cole, come back please." She begged.
Belthazor smiled in answer and grabbed her by the throat and squeezed it so much that it was almost impossible for Phoebe to breath.
When he saw that Phoebe couldn't breath he let her go and smiled even more. Phoebe gasped for air and coughed up several times.
Without any warning, the demon hit her across the face and gave her an uppercut sending Phoebe flying backwards and she landed hard on the floor.
At this very moment, Phoebe wanted to scream from the pain but she bit her tongue, the last thing she wanted was Tom and Liz to heard what was happening. Once again she got up and Belthazor pined her against the wall and started hitting her again.
Suddenly, the demon backed up and screamed in pain and Cole came back to his human form. His eyes was injected with blood and he was breathing heavily, tired from fighting Belthazor from the inside. He looked at Phoebe horrified, horrified of what he did to her. The look in Phoebe's eyes was unbearable for him, he could clearly see her pain and her fear, her fear from him, from the monster he was. And one of the hardest thing for him was to see the bruise around her left eye, the proof that he had hurt the woman he loved. He thought about the kids, they had seen the monster that their father was.
Phoebe looked at him and saw the tears in his eyes but she couldn't approach him, she was too scared. Scared of the man who was caressing her and kissing her one hour ago and who was now hurting her so badly.
Cole looked at her and whispered: "Sorry."
And then he morphed back into Belthazor, howling because of the pain and because of the frustration to not be able to control the evil monster inside of him.
Phoebe jumped when she saw that Belthazor was back but the demon shimmered away.
She sighed with relief and slumped against the wall and burst into tears.
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Some seconds later, Cole shimmered to the manor on his human form.
"Paige! Piper!" He screamed.
Paige ran down the stairs and asked: "What's wrong?"
The youngest Halliwell sister was scared that something could be wrong with Phoebe or the kids.
"I need your help." Cole begged.
"Why? What's wrong?" She asked again.
"I-I can't control him Paige, Belthazor is ba-." Cole told her but hadn't enough time to finish his sentence and turned into Belthazor once again.
Paige quickly orbed upstairs and the demon threw the couch on the window, and throw a fireball at the TV and broke other things in the house.
When Cole morphed back into his human form and yelled: "Paige."
The youngest Halliwell orbed back next to him and she said: "I have an idea, let's go in the basement before he comes back."
Cole nodded and followed her into the basement.
She cast a quick spell and a cage appeared in front of them. Cole hurried inside and Paige locked it.
"Do you think Belthazor will be able to break it?" He asked.
Paige shook her head no and said: "It's immune to black magic."
Cole nodded and changed into Belthazor again.
The demon tried to break free but it was in vain. Paige stood there looking at him until Cole came back. Fighting to get the best of Belthazor was exhausting for Cole. He was all sweaty, breathing heavily and his eyes were still injected with blood.
"I hurt Phoebe." He told Paige before looking down.
Paige noticed he was crying and she told him: "I'm going to your house and help her."
Cole nodded and Paige orbed away and Belthazor came back.
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Paige found Phoebe hugging her knees and crying. She quickly knelt by her sides and heal the bruises she had. Once she had finished, Paige kissed her sister on the forehead and wiped away her tears and she said: "It's okay sweetie."
"Belthazor..." Phoebe said as she was sobbing.
"I know." Paige told her.
"Cole is at the manor, in the basement, he won't come back, you don't have to worry." Paige told her.
Phoebe nodded slightly and said: "Tom and Liz."
She got up and walked in the kids' room as Paige followed her.
Phoebe opened the closet door and found Tom hugging Liz who was crying silently.
"Hey my babies, come here, let Mommy hugs you." She told them.
Tom let go Liz and hugged his mother tightly.
Phoebe kissed him on the cheek and said: "Everything is okay now."
She kissed Tom once again and saw that Liz hadn't move yet.
She looked at Tom and said: "You go with Auntie Paige in the living room while I talk with Lizzie."
The little boy nodded and Paige picked him up, giving an according nod to Phoebe before going into the living room.
Phoebe knelt down in front of Liz and said: "You don't have to be scared anymore, the bad guy won't come back."
Liz shrugged and Phoebe wiped away her tears.
"I know you saw what Daddy did but there is an explanation." Phoebe said to her daughter.
The little girl shrugged again.
"The bad guy you saw has always been into Daddy and Daddy can tell him to be a good guy but I don't know why, today, Daddy couldn't say to the bad guy to be a good guy, that's why he did what you saw he did." Phoebe tried to explain.
How could she explain to her daughter that her father was half-human, half-demon?
"But now you see, Mommy is okay." Phoebe added.
Liz nodded and Phoebe asked: "Can you give me a huge cuddle?"
Liz nodded again and snuggled up to her mother. Phoebe wrapped her arms around her and kissed her on the top of the head.
"Let's go in the living room with Tommy." Phoebe said.
She picked up Liz and carried her in the living room where she sat down next to Paige and Tom.
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Meanwhile in the basement, Cole was having more and more troubles the breath and he was extremely exhausting from trying to control Belthazor.
He noticed that someone has appeared next to the cage and was looking at him.
"Poor Cole Turner." The guy said.
As he approached the cage, Cole recognized him.
"You son of a bitch." He said.
"I prefer Brad." The guy told him.
Cole tried to get out of the cage to kick this bastard's ass but Brad laughed.
Brad used his powers to create a chair and sat down on front of Cole.
"Let me tell you a story." Brad said.
"Years ago, I was a whitelighter, I was sent on earth to protect Phoebe Halliwell's twins. As the father of the kids was a demon and wasn't near his family, I stood with them and loved them as if they were my own family. Unfortunately, the bastard went back and took my place. I became crazy, I wanted to be part of Phoebe life's more than everything... Every times I was seeing her, I wanted to be close to her, to kiss her, to make love to her... She was in my dreams, in my mind, every days and every nights..." Brad started.
Cole winced when he hear what Brad just said and he turned into Belthazor.
Brad waited until Cole took back his human form and continued: "Finally, one day I raped her. Her evil husband killed me, at least that's what he thought... He left me for dead, that's when I decided to take my revenge on him and I started to kill demons to get powers. The Elders loved that until the day when they discovered that I was killing them to collect their powers. They clipped my wings, thing that they should have done a long time ago. I took different powers from different demons and now I'm a full demon, with many powers, more than you have Belthazor."
Cole turned into Belthazor and came back to him and Brad said: "Once I was sure that I had enough powers, I came back to Phoebe and, morphed into her dear husband and made love to her, which was pretty good."
Cole became a fury and tried to break free from his cage again, as Paige has made it so strong that Cole's powers were useless and helpless.
Brad laughed again and said: "I don't know what was the best, being inside her while she was screaming your name and begging you to come back to help her or being inside her and hearing her moaning your name thinking it was you..."
Cole shivered at this words, his eyes filled up with tears when he thought about what Phoebe went through, it was like someone was stabbing him in the heart, his couldn't breath anymore. He let his rage explode and turn into Belthazor.
Brad smiled even more, knowing that he was playing with Cole's feeling and hurting him so much was delectable. A crossbow appeared in Brad's hands and he aimed at Belthazor.
Cole came back into his human form and looked at Brad.
Brad shoot him in the chest and said: "Magic can't go out but it can go in... nice."
Cole screamed in pain and Brad aimed at him again and he said: "Let's try another part..."
Then he shoot Cole in the stomach and he continued to shoot him until he heard Piper voice talking to her son in the kitchen.
Brad smiled and said: "I'll be back." And shimmered away.
Hearing the noise, Piper went down in the basement and saw Cole.
"Paige!" She yelled.
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"I'm worried about her Paige." Phoebe said to her little sister as they was in the kitchen, making some tea.
"I know Phoebe, but a lot of the kids stop talking after a huge shock like Liz just had." Paige explained.
Phoebe sighed deeply.
"It's just... I... I don't know what to say to her, how to explain her, I don't even know myself what happened." Phoebe said, trying to fight tears back.
Paige hugged her and said: "I know Phoebe... Shhhh, it's okay."
"We all know Liz has a special link with Cole and seeing him like this, so angry and hitting you, made her stop talking, she can't handle something like this Phoebe, she's too young to understand, but you have to know that it's not your fault." Paige explained.
"What can I do to make her feel better? She can't stay like this forever." Phoebe said.
"There's nothing we can do, she'll talk when she'll be ready." Paige said.
Phoebe put her head in her hands and said: "Why when everything is all right, something so terrible has to happen?"
Paige hugged her sister once again to comfort her and suddenly they heard Tom.
"Mommy!" Tom called his mother.
Paige and Phoebe who was in the kitchen both ran in the living room.
"Lizzie is crying again." He said sadly.
Phoebe immediately hugged her daughter and whispered loving and comforting words to her while kissing her cheeks and forehead.
"Croco plush." Paige said, stretching her hand to summon the plush.
Phoebe smiled and Paige gave the plush to Liz who hugged it tightly.
Phoebe sat on the couch and pulled Liz on her lap. The little girl rested her head on her mother's shoulder and continued to cry silently while hugging her favorite plush.
"Here baby, you don't have to be scared, Mommy is here." Phoebe whispered, she was at the verge of tears.
She kissed the top of Liz's head and Tom asked: "Why did Lizzie stop talking?"
"I don't know baby." Phoebe answered.
"I have to go, I hear Piper calling." Paige told Phoebe. Since she was focusing on her whitelighter powers she could hear the people from her family calling her.
Phoebe nodded and Paige orbed out.
Tom sat down closer to Phoebe and Liz and rested his head on his mother shoulder as well.
"We're going to close our eyes and have a little nap together." Phoebe stated.
Tom nodded and said before closing his eyes: "I love you Lizzie."
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When Paige orbed in the basement of the manor, she looked at Cole and cover her mouth with her hands.
"Oh my God Cole!" She said.
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