Hey guys, I'm sorry for the delay between the chapters... I know it's been a long time since the last one and I know some of you are waiting for the new chapter of "Where's my son?". I beg
your pardon for writing as fast as a turtle...
As for the sequel of "Wanting Cole Desperately." Amazing Gaby is working on it, aren't you girl?? :-)
As always, thanks to all who reviewed the last chapter... Please go on and tell me what you think...
Chapter 12
"Guess who's back?"
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It's been one week, one long and horrible week since the last time Cole had seen Phoebe and the kids. Seven sleepless night thinking, crying, hating himself for what he was. Seven sleepless nights with the same doubts. One week missing his family, staying in the basement of the manor.
Of course, Paige, Piper, Leo and even Will were there for him, but it was nothing like being with Phoebe and the kids. Paige was repeating to him that he was looking like hell, that he really need to rest and get some sleep. But he just couldn't. Every times he was closing his eyes, he was seeing Belthazor hurting Phoebe, or the look in Liz's eyes. The truth was that he was really looking like hell. His eyes were injected with blood and he hadn't shaved since one week, he was looking like a zombie.
It was the afternoon, at least that was what he was guessing, Paige was probably at work, Piper and Leo at P3 and Will at school. Cole was thirsty, so he decided to go in the kitchen and drink some water. At the same moment, Phoebe entered the manor. At first, Cole didn't heard her, but when he turned around to go back in the basement, he saw her looking at him. He immediately looked down, not knowing what to do or what to say. There was a strange and heavy silence between them. Cole couldn't help but noticed that she was really sexy, and he also noticed that her belly was bigger than the last time he saw her.
He finally looked in her eyes and said: "I miss you."
"You and the kids." He added.
"I know, they miss you too." Phoebe replied.
Cole looked down again. It was like his guilt and the shame was making him looking down. She said 'they' not 'we'. That was the proof that she was mad at him. He couldn't be mad at her for that, it was pretty understandable after what he did to her. He felt tears coming to his eyes.
It took him all his strength to look up at her again.
"Your belly is getting bigger." He told her.
He deadly wanted to take her in his arms, to caress her belly, to kiss it and talk to the baby, just like he did the first time she was pregnant. Impossible thing right now and it was killing him, literately.
Phoebe nodded and said: "I went to the obstetrician with Piper for the ultrasounds."
It was Cole's turn to nod.
"Is the baby okay?" He shyly asked.
"Yes." Phoebe said.
Cole couldn't help but started crying, it was too much to take for him, too much to handle.
He bitterly laughed and said: "How can I be such a monster like Belthazor and cry because I missed my baby's first ultrasounds?"
Phoebe was at the verge of tears.
"You are not him, he's just a part of you." Paige said as she entered the kitchen.
None of them had heard her coming into the manor.
"A part which can hurt the people I love the most on earth." He replied, looking in Phoebe's eyes.
Since she had saw him, Phoebe was feeling bad, really bad, it was hard to see him like this, she knew he would give his life for her and the kids and that it was driving him crazy to be away from all of them.
"I... I have to go." She said.
Cole nodded and Paige kissed her quickly on the cheek and said: "See you tonight honey."
Phoebe nodded and walked away.
Paige hugged Cole tightly.
"It's going to be okay." She told him.
"No Paige, it'll never be okay. I love her so much, I love them so much, I can't stay away from them." He said.
"I want to die Paige, I really do, live means nothing without them." He added.
"I hurt her so much Paige... What if she cannot forgive me? What if she hates me and doesn't want me back in her life?" He asked, tears still streaming down his face.
What they didn't know was that Phoebe had heard everything. She walked back in the kitchen and kissed Cole on the cheek.
"I love you Cole, I just need some time." She whispered and immediately walked out of the manor.
Cole stayed eyes closed until the shiver Phoebe's kiss and words provoked into his whole body went away.
When he opened his eyes again, he looked at Paige who was smiling at him.
"Piper planned a family dinner tonight, Phoebe and the kids will be here too." She said.
Cole nodded and before returning in the basement, Paige asked him: "You'll be with us as well, right?"
Cole nodded again and went in the basement.
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"You look beautiful baby." Phoebe told to her daughter before placing a kiss on her cheek.
"Really beautiful, just like Mommy." Tom added with a smile.
Liz was still not talking to anyone and Phoebe was more and more worried about it.
"Mommy wants to talk to you." She said.
"Tonight, at the manor, Daddy will be here." She started.
"I want you to know that you don't have to do things you don't want to do, you can go and kiss him or you just can stay with Mommy, or play with Will." She added.
Both of the kids nodded and Phoebe finished: "You have to do what your heart says."
Both of the kids nodded again and Phoebe kissed the both of them on the forehead and they leave their house to go to the manor.
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Paige, Piper, Leo, Will and Cole were all sitting at the huge dinner table when Phoebe, Liz and Tom entered the manor.
Everyone got up and walked towards the rest of the Turner family and hugged them, but Cole stayed behind everyone, not knowing if he could kiss his children and his wife. He just stay there, looking at them, at how beautiful they all was.
He felt his heart shattering into million pieces when he looked at Liz and Tom and noticed that they will probably not kiss him. Liz was in Phoebe's arms and Tom was holding his mother's hand. When they looked at their father, they both tighten their grip which make Phoebe looked around to see what was doing this effect on the kids. It was Cole.
When she looked in his eyes, he immediately looked down, he had probably noticed the way the kids have reacted. Phoebe felt sorry for it, she felt sorry for Cole too. She couldn't even imagine what it was like to scare your own babies because of what you are. She didn't even want to know what it was like to be away from them during one week, to feel rejected by the ones you love.
Everybody sat down at the table. Leo in front of Cole at one side of the table and in the opposite side, Phoebe and the kids.
Silence filled the room. Cole was looking down at his plate.
"So, how was your day Phoebe?" Paige asked to her bigger sister, to break the silence and make some conversation.
"It went well." Phoebe simply answered.
"Auntie Paige do you know that Lizzie and I saw the baby?" Tom asked.
"No, I didn't know about that." Paige replied, messing up her nephew's hair.
"Well, we went to the doctor with Mommy and Auntie Piper and the doctor put the cold thing on Mommy's tummy and we saw the baby." Tom explained.
"Is that true Lizzie?" Paige asked.
Liz nodded in answer.
"But I think he won't be able to play football with us Will, he's too tiny." Tom said to his cousin.
Everyone smiled, except Cole.
He got up and managed to say: "I'm sorry, I... I... I have to go, I just can't..."
Everybody saw the tears in his eyes.
He walked out of the room and went in the basement were he lied on the bed and let his tears rolling down his cheeks.
He was feeling like he wasn't part of this family anymore, like he never had been a part of it. All these people was good, it was in their nature, they were born good and they'll be good until the rest of their life. Cole wasn't like it, he was evil, he was born evil and will stay evil until the rest of his life. No matter how much he was fighting it deep inside of him, no matter all his efforts to take the best of Belthazor, he was evil, purely evil. He was a threat to his family and he knew that. He had fooled everyone including himself in trying to be the perfect, good and loving husband and father. The truth was that he'll never be this good and loving guy that he so badly wanted to be. Having an happy family who he loved was to much to ask for a demon, even for a half-demon. He always knew he will have to pay for all the people he had killed in more than a hundred years, now was the time. He had tasted what it was like to love and to be loved in return and now, well now... he was loosing it. It was his punition for being evil.
He sat up on the bed, wiped away his tears and he heard someone orbing next to him. Probably Paige or Leo.
"I just want to be alone, please." He said without looking up.
"I don't think so Turner." The voice replied.
He looked up to see who was talking to him, and he said: "If you want to vanquish me, do it fast, I won't fight, I have nothing to loose."
"Nothing to loose? I'm really going to vanquish your sorry ass Turner." The voice said.
"Like you promised me." Cole said.
"If you were hurting my sister, which you didn't do." Prue Halliwell said.
"Didn't I?" Cole asked, feeling the tears coming back.
"Listen buddy, I would have really enjoy to vanquish you sorry ass and show you what an Halliwell sister can do but, the point is that, you didn't hurt Phoebe, well, at least, you didn't want to." Prue said.
"Of course I didn't want to, I love her so much." Cole said quietly.
"I know." Prue replied.
"What do you want then?" Cole asked.
"I never really liked you." Prue told him.
"And then?" Cole asked.
"Well, I died." Prue said as she shrugged.
"Anything I don't know yet?" Cole asked.
"I like you now." Prue said.
"Oh." Cole whispered.
"I just wanted to tell that you can't give up, you're not evil Cole, you're a good guy." Prue said.
"Wow, what I just said is so weird." She added.
Cole smiled a little and Prue continued: "Anyway, I've been watching you and the rest of the family, you know in case I had to kick you ass badly, and all I saw was that you were protecting Phoebe and the rest of the family. What you did to save my little niece's life is the best proof that you are not, you hear me Cole, you are not evil and you love your family."
"I know it's going to be hard and long, but you have to give them the time to forget what happened, not to forgive you because you didn't do anything, nothing is your fault here, they just need time to forget." She added.
Cole nodded slightly.
"Thank you." He told her.
"You're welcome." She replied.
"I don't know how much time you have here, but you should go upstairs and meet the rest of the family, I'm sure Piper, Phoebe and Paige will be more than happy to see you." Cole said.
Prue just stayed there smiling at him.
"What are you waiting for?" He almost yelled.
"See, you're so good, thinking about the rest of the family before you." She told him.
"Go upstairs, they miss you so much." Cole said.
"Unfortunately, I came only for you, but it looks like I'll be back soon." Prue told him.
"Don't give up Cole." She added before orbing out.
"I won't." Cole said before laying back on the bed.
He closed his eyes and tried to fall asleep and get some rest for some minutes.
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"Lizzie, Tommy, it's time to go home." Phoebe shouted from downstairs.
They kids were playing in Will's room.
Phoebe hugged Piper and said: "Thank you Piper, it's was delicious."
Piper smiled at her and said: "Anytime sweetie."
Phoebe smiled back and hugged Paige.
"Thanks for everything and for Cole." She whispered.
Paige nodded and Tom and Will finally arrived downstairs.
"Where's you're sister Tom?" Phoebe asked.
"I don't know." Tom replied.
"How comes you don't know?" Phoebe asked again.
"She was playing with us and then she went away, we thought that she wanted to go to the toilets or to be with you." The little boy added.
"Liz?!" Phoebe shouted.
"Lizzie, where are you baby?" Phoebe shouted, she was becoming more and more worried by seconds and started to panic.
Everybody started to look around the house for the little girl.
Some minutes later, they all came back in the living room, no one had found Liz.
"Oh my God, where is she?" Phoebe asked.
"It's a demon, a demon took her." She said as she burst in tears in Piper's arms.
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Okay, was it bad? What do you think of Prue's return? Do you want her to come back again? Any suggestions, comments or ideas???
Please leave me a review and tell me what you think... THANKS A LOT FOR ALL THE REVIEWERS.
One more thing, which story do you want me to update next time? "I want to have a baby sister." or "Where's my son?"
Want to join the update list? Give me your email in one of your reviews...
your pardon for writing as fast as a turtle...
As for the sequel of "Wanting Cole Desperately." Amazing Gaby is working on it, aren't you girl?? :-)
As always, thanks to all who reviewed the last chapter... Please go on and tell me what you think...
Chapter 12
"Guess who's back?"
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It's been one week, one long and horrible week since the last time Cole had seen Phoebe and the kids. Seven sleepless night thinking, crying, hating himself for what he was. Seven sleepless nights with the same doubts. One week missing his family, staying in the basement of the manor.
Of course, Paige, Piper, Leo and even Will were there for him, but it was nothing like being with Phoebe and the kids. Paige was repeating to him that he was looking like hell, that he really need to rest and get some sleep. But he just couldn't. Every times he was closing his eyes, he was seeing Belthazor hurting Phoebe, or the look in Liz's eyes. The truth was that he was really looking like hell. His eyes were injected with blood and he hadn't shaved since one week, he was looking like a zombie.
It was the afternoon, at least that was what he was guessing, Paige was probably at work, Piper and Leo at P3 and Will at school. Cole was thirsty, so he decided to go in the kitchen and drink some water. At the same moment, Phoebe entered the manor. At first, Cole didn't heard her, but when he turned around to go back in the basement, he saw her looking at him. He immediately looked down, not knowing what to do or what to say. There was a strange and heavy silence between them. Cole couldn't help but noticed that she was really sexy, and he also noticed that her belly was bigger than the last time he saw her.
He finally looked in her eyes and said: "I miss you."
"You and the kids." He added.
"I know, they miss you too." Phoebe replied.
Cole looked down again. It was like his guilt and the shame was making him looking down. She said 'they' not 'we'. That was the proof that she was mad at him. He couldn't be mad at her for that, it was pretty understandable after what he did to her. He felt tears coming to his eyes.
It took him all his strength to look up at her again.
"Your belly is getting bigger." He told her.
He deadly wanted to take her in his arms, to caress her belly, to kiss it and talk to the baby, just like he did the first time she was pregnant. Impossible thing right now and it was killing him, literately.
Phoebe nodded and said: "I went to the obstetrician with Piper for the ultrasounds."
It was Cole's turn to nod.
"Is the baby okay?" He shyly asked.
"Yes." Phoebe said.
Cole couldn't help but started crying, it was too much to take for him, too much to handle.
He bitterly laughed and said: "How can I be such a monster like Belthazor and cry because I missed my baby's first ultrasounds?"
Phoebe was at the verge of tears.
"You are not him, he's just a part of you." Paige said as she entered the kitchen.
None of them had heard her coming into the manor.
"A part which can hurt the people I love the most on earth." He replied, looking in Phoebe's eyes.
Since she had saw him, Phoebe was feeling bad, really bad, it was hard to see him like this, she knew he would give his life for her and the kids and that it was driving him crazy to be away from all of them.
"I... I have to go." She said.
Cole nodded and Paige kissed her quickly on the cheek and said: "See you tonight honey."
Phoebe nodded and walked away.
Paige hugged Cole tightly.
"It's going to be okay." She told him.
"No Paige, it'll never be okay. I love her so much, I love them so much, I can't stay away from them." He said.
"I want to die Paige, I really do, live means nothing without them." He added.
"I hurt her so much Paige... What if she cannot forgive me? What if she hates me and doesn't want me back in her life?" He asked, tears still streaming down his face.
What they didn't know was that Phoebe had heard everything. She walked back in the kitchen and kissed Cole on the cheek.
"I love you Cole, I just need some time." She whispered and immediately walked out of the manor.
Cole stayed eyes closed until the shiver Phoebe's kiss and words provoked into his whole body went away.
When he opened his eyes again, he looked at Paige who was smiling at him.
"Piper planned a family dinner tonight, Phoebe and the kids will be here too." She said.
Cole nodded and before returning in the basement, Paige asked him: "You'll be with us as well, right?"
Cole nodded again and went in the basement.
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"You look beautiful baby." Phoebe told to her daughter before placing a kiss on her cheek.
"Really beautiful, just like Mommy." Tom added with a smile.
Liz was still not talking to anyone and Phoebe was more and more worried about it.
"Mommy wants to talk to you." She said.
"Tonight, at the manor, Daddy will be here." She started.
"I want you to know that you don't have to do things you don't want to do, you can go and kiss him or you just can stay with Mommy, or play with Will." She added.
Both of the kids nodded and Phoebe finished: "You have to do what your heart says."
Both of the kids nodded again and Phoebe kissed the both of them on the forehead and they leave their house to go to the manor.
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Paige, Piper, Leo, Will and Cole were all sitting at the huge dinner table when Phoebe, Liz and Tom entered the manor.
Everyone got up and walked towards the rest of the Turner family and hugged them, but Cole stayed behind everyone, not knowing if he could kiss his children and his wife. He just stay there, looking at them, at how beautiful they all was.
He felt his heart shattering into million pieces when he looked at Liz and Tom and noticed that they will probably not kiss him. Liz was in Phoebe's arms and Tom was holding his mother's hand. When they looked at their father, they both tighten their grip which make Phoebe looked around to see what was doing this effect on the kids. It was Cole.
When she looked in his eyes, he immediately looked down, he had probably noticed the way the kids have reacted. Phoebe felt sorry for it, she felt sorry for Cole too. She couldn't even imagine what it was like to scare your own babies because of what you are. She didn't even want to know what it was like to be away from them during one week, to feel rejected by the ones you love.
Everybody sat down at the table. Leo in front of Cole at one side of the table and in the opposite side, Phoebe and the kids.
Silence filled the room. Cole was looking down at his plate.
"So, how was your day Phoebe?" Paige asked to her bigger sister, to break the silence and make some conversation.
"It went well." Phoebe simply answered.
"Auntie Paige do you know that Lizzie and I saw the baby?" Tom asked.
"No, I didn't know about that." Paige replied, messing up her nephew's hair.
"Well, we went to the doctor with Mommy and Auntie Piper and the doctor put the cold thing on Mommy's tummy and we saw the baby." Tom explained.
"Is that true Lizzie?" Paige asked.
Liz nodded in answer.
"But I think he won't be able to play football with us Will, he's too tiny." Tom said to his cousin.
Everyone smiled, except Cole.
He got up and managed to say: "I'm sorry, I... I... I have to go, I just can't..."
Everybody saw the tears in his eyes.
He walked out of the room and went in the basement were he lied on the bed and let his tears rolling down his cheeks.
He was feeling like he wasn't part of this family anymore, like he never had been a part of it. All these people was good, it was in their nature, they were born good and they'll be good until the rest of their life. Cole wasn't like it, he was evil, he was born evil and will stay evil until the rest of his life. No matter how much he was fighting it deep inside of him, no matter all his efforts to take the best of Belthazor, he was evil, purely evil. He was a threat to his family and he knew that. He had fooled everyone including himself in trying to be the perfect, good and loving husband and father. The truth was that he'll never be this good and loving guy that he so badly wanted to be. Having an happy family who he loved was to much to ask for a demon, even for a half-demon. He always knew he will have to pay for all the people he had killed in more than a hundred years, now was the time. He had tasted what it was like to love and to be loved in return and now, well now... he was loosing it. It was his punition for being evil.
He sat up on the bed, wiped away his tears and he heard someone orbing next to him. Probably Paige or Leo.
"I just want to be alone, please." He said without looking up.
"I don't think so Turner." The voice replied.
He looked up to see who was talking to him, and he said: "If you want to vanquish me, do it fast, I won't fight, I have nothing to loose."
"Nothing to loose? I'm really going to vanquish your sorry ass Turner." The voice said.
"Like you promised me." Cole said.
"If you were hurting my sister, which you didn't do." Prue Halliwell said.
"Didn't I?" Cole asked, feeling the tears coming back.
"Listen buddy, I would have really enjoy to vanquish you sorry ass and show you what an Halliwell sister can do but, the point is that, you didn't hurt Phoebe, well, at least, you didn't want to." Prue said.
"Of course I didn't want to, I love her so much." Cole said quietly.
"I know." Prue replied.
"What do you want then?" Cole asked.
"I never really liked you." Prue told him.
"And then?" Cole asked.
"Well, I died." Prue said as she shrugged.
"Anything I don't know yet?" Cole asked.
"I like you now." Prue said.
"Oh." Cole whispered.
"I just wanted to tell that you can't give up, you're not evil Cole, you're a good guy." Prue said.
"Wow, what I just said is so weird." She added.
Cole smiled a little and Prue continued: "Anyway, I've been watching you and the rest of the family, you know in case I had to kick you ass badly, and all I saw was that you were protecting Phoebe and the rest of the family. What you did to save my little niece's life is the best proof that you are not, you hear me Cole, you are not evil and you love your family."
"I know it's going to be hard and long, but you have to give them the time to forget what happened, not to forgive you because you didn't do anything, nothing is your fault here, they just need time to forget." She added.
Cole nodded slightly.
"Thank you." He told her.
"You're welcome." She replied.
"I don't know how much time you have here, but you should go upstairs and meet the rest of the family, I'm sure Piper, Phoebe and Paige will be more than happy to see you." Cole said.
Prue just stayed there smiling at him.
"What are you waiting for?" He almost yelled.
"See, you're so good, thinking about the rest of the family before you." She told him.
"Go upstairs, they miss you so much." Cole said.
"Unfortunately, I came only for you, but it looks like I'll be back soon." Prue told him.
"Don't give up Cole." She added before orbing out.
"I won't." Cole said before laying back on the bed.
He closed his eyes and tried to fall asleep and get some rest for some minutes.
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"Lizzie, Tommy, it's time to go home." Phoebe shouted from downstairs.
They kids were playing in Will's room.
Phoebe hugged Piper and said: "Thank you Piper, it's was delicious."
Piper smiled at her and said: "Anytime sweetie."
Phoebe smiled back and hugged Paige.
"Thanks for everything and for Cole." She whispered.
Paige nodded and Tom and Will finally arrived downstairs.
"Where's you're sister Tom?" Phoebe asked.
"I don't know." Tom replied.
"How comes you don't know?" Phoebe asked again.
"She was playing with us and then she went away, we thought that she wanted to go to the toilets or to be with you." The little boy added.
"Liz?!" Phoebe shouted.
"Lizzie, where are you baby?" Phoebe shouted, she was becoming more and more worried by seconds and started to panic.
Everybody started to look around the house for the little girl.
Some minutes later, they all came back in the living room, no one had found Liz.
"Oh my God, where is she?" Phoebe asked.
"It's a demon, a demon took her." She said as she burst in tears in Piper's arms.
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Okay, was it bad? What do you think of Prue's return? Do you want her to come back again? Any suggestions, comments or ideas???
Please leave me a review and tell me what you think... THANKS A LOT FOR ALL THE REVIEWERS.
One more thing, which story do you want me to update next time? "I want to have a baby sister." or "Where's my son?"
Want to join the update list? Give me your email in one of your reviews...