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Chapter 20

"Ease ones pain."

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Cole was holding Phoebe tightly from behind, they were both laying in their bed and Phoebe couldn't stop crying. Cole had tried everything to ease her pain but it looked like nothing was working. So now, he was just holding her, showing her he was here for her. He was having a hard time not crying himself but he wanted to be strong for Phoebe. He was so lost, he didn't know what to tell her, 'sorry' and 'it's going to be okay' weren't enough, coz he didn't know how it could be okay, he didn't know what could make her okay. He was feeling like he had lost of part of him and Phoebe was feeling the same. For sure it was harder for her, she had get used to have this little one inside of her, they both were talking to the little being who was growing up everyday. Since they had found out that Phoebe was pregnant, the little one had been a part of their family and now they had lost one member of this family that they both loved more than anything.

Phoebe turned in Cole's arms to bury her face in his chest, he unwrapped his arms from her.

"No, please, hold me tight." She protested

"It hurts so much to see you like that." He told her as he wrapped his arms around her again.

"I feel good in your arms, I just want to stay like this." She told him before she closed her eyes.

"Why don't you try to get some sleep?" He proposed.

She nodded slightly and he kissed the top of her head, adjusting the covers on her.

Suddenly, Phoebe opened her eyes and looked up at Cole.

"Can you shimmer us to the manor so that we'll say good night to the twins?" She asked.

"Sure. Wanna go now?" He asked back.

She nodded and they both got up and they quickly get dressed, once they were ready, Cole kissed Phoebe on the forehead, wiped her tears away and he shimmered them to the manor.

They appeared in the living room where everyone was watching TV.

"Mommy!" Tom exclaimed as he quickly got up and ran to his mother.

Phoebe knelt down and hugged her baby boy tightly as Cole approached Liz to take her in his arms.

"Are you okay Aunt Phoebe?" Will asked.

"Yes, I'm feeling better, thank you." She lied, she didn't wanted to tell to her nephew that she was feeling like hell, that she wanted to disappear to make the pain go away but the fact of being here with her family was good.

"I think that it's now time to go to bed for the kiddos." Paige stated as she got up from the couch.

"Let's go." Cole said as he took Tom in his arms as well. Thanks to his demonic powers, he could hold both of them.

"I'll be right there to kiss you goodnight." Phoebe told them.

Leo got up as well and took Will in his arms and followed Cole upstairs. Paige and Piper immediately hugged Phoebe tightly and at the same moment, Prue orbed in and joined the sisters' hug.

"If we can do anything to help you, just let us know." Piper told to her little sister.

"Thank you guys." Phoebe replied as she wiped away her tears.

"I'd just like Tom and Liz to stay here for a while, I don't want them to see me like this." She added.

"Okay, you know how much we love to have them here, and Will is more than happy to have his cousins to play with." Paige said.

"And don't worry, I'm here to keep an eye on them, they'll be fine." Prue added.

Phoebe nodded and pulled apart.

"I'm gonna tuck them in bed." She said, wiping her tears away one more time.

"We love you Phoebe." Paige said.

"I love you too guys." Phoebe replied and with that, she went upstairs where the twins were already waiting for her with Cole.

The three of them were laying in bed, Cole was holding Liz and Phoebe laid down next to Tom and wrapped her arms around him.

"Mommy?" Liz asked.

"Yeah, what is it Lizzie?" Phoebe replied as she looked at him.

"I miss you and Daddy you know. Can't we go home with you?" The little girl asked.

"Oh... we miss you too honey but... huh..." Phoebe didn't know how to explain this to her daughter, she looked desperately at Cole, hoping he could help her.

"Listen baby." Cole said as he kissed her on the top of the head.

"Mommy needs to rest of lot, that's why you have to stay here for a little while, you have your three Aunts to take care of you, you have also Will and Uncle Leo to play with." He tried to explain.

"Yes... but... it's not fair...." Liz said as she let out a huge sigh.

She closed her eyes and cuddled up to her father, she was too tired to argue more, to Phoebe and Cole's relief.

"You are going to stay with us until we fall asleep, right?" Tom asked, half asleep.

"Sure baby." Phoebe told him as she kissed him on the forehead.

"Wanna be closer to Mommy." Liz stated.

Cole smiled and moved closer to Phoebe and Liz reached for her mother's hand and held it tightly.

"Night." Liz mumbled.

"Night baby." Cole and Phoebe said in the same time.

They looked at each others, words didn't need to be told, with one look they knew exactly what the other was feeling. They were going through a hard time, a very hard time but they will go through it together, the four of them as a family. Their love was stronger than anything and they both could feel it, it was good to be with Liz and Tom, to feel their love.

Cole smiled at Phoebe and whispered: "I love you."

"Me too." She whispered back.

"Love you too." Tom whispered.

"Me too." Liz added.

Phoebe and Cole both smiled and Phoebe kissed Tom on the forehead. The little boy closed his eyes and fell asleep, only Liz remained awake, playing with Cole's shirt with one hand and running her fingers on Phoebe's arm with the other.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" Phoebe asked her.

The little girl shook her head no in answer.

"Is there something wrong?" Cole asked, he was starting to get worried.

Once again, Liz shook her head no and she said: "I don't want to sleep because I don't want you to go and leave me alone."

Both of Phoebe and Cole felt touched by their daughter's comment.

"Can you tell me a story?" Liz asked to her father.

"That'll wake Tom up honey, we can't talk to much." He explained.

Liz let out a loud sigh of disappointment and Cole said: "You can stay awake as much as you want, we won't leave you before you start snoring."

The little girl let out a giggle and adjusted her place between her parents and she held Phoebe's hand and continued to play with Cole's shirt.

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Cole and Phoebe shimmered in their room. The kids had finally fallen asleep and Phoebe needed to rest, that's why Cole had shimmered the both of them back into their house. Phoebe was resting her head on Cole's chest. He kissed her on the forehead and he suddenly froze and Phoebe looked up at him questioningly.

"There is someone in the house, stay here." He whispered to her.

She nodded, Cole left the room and went in the living room where he found a demon who was looking for something in there.

"What do you want?" Cole asked coldly.

Without answering, the demon threw a fireball at Cole who ducked easily. It made him smiled, this demon wasn't an experimented one, it'll be easy to kill him. He threw a fireball at him and the demon didn't duck, the fireball hit him in the middle of the chest and he stumbled back against the wall. Cole approached him and hit him in the face several times. Tears started to stream down his face, all his anger was coming out of him. All the emotions that he had been keeping inside since the doctor told him that the baby was gone were pushing to go out. As the demon fall on the floor, Cole kicked him hardly in the ribs.

"I want my baby back." He shouted, still kicking the demon and crying.

It was so unfair to him, he hated every single demons for what happened and this one was going to pay, they were all going to pay for the pain the monsters of their kind were causing to his family.

Phoebe heard the noise and quietly went out of the room to see what was going on in the living room.

"I - want - my - baby - back." Cole repeated between kicks and he turned into Belthazor.

Phoebe was shocked. She knew Cole was hurt because of what happened and she was understanding that all his anger and his sadness was coming out of him.

Belthazor finally killed the demon who burst into flames. As Phoebe walked slowly next to him, she noticed that he was breathing heavily. She was scared of the demon, but she knew that Cole was still here. Cole and Belthazor were only one person, they shared the same soul and the same heart, only their names where different.

She touched his shoulder and he violently turned back which caused her to jump and stepped back.

"I know you're angry Cole and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I lost your baby." She said as tears fall down her face.

She made a step towards him and looked into Belthazor's eyes and repeated: "I'm sorry."

She approached him again and finally rested her head on his chest. She wasn't afraid of him anymore, he was Cole and she knew that he loved her.

Belthazor wrapped his arms around her lovingly and turned back into Cole.

"It's not your fault honey. I'm sorry I scared you and changed into Belthazor, that won't happen again." He told her.

"It's okay, you don't have to be sorry, you needed to let it out, it's okay." She told him.

"I've been only focusing on my own pain and forgot yours, you need to be comforted as much as I need it, you need to cry and to let it out. I don't take care of you as much as you take care of me and I'm going to change that right now." She added.

She pulled apart, put her hands on his cheeks and wiped away his tears before kissing him passionately. She wanted to ease his pain, to make him feel better. Cole responded to her kisses and kissed her back but once he understood what she was doing, where she wanted to end up, he pulled apart.

"No." He whispered.

"You... this is not right." He told her, shaking his head.

"I just want you to feel better." She told him.

"This is not how I want to feel better, I only want to be with you, to hold you. I don't want you to feel forced to make love just because you want me to feel better... I won't feel better like this." He said.

She looked down and said: "I'm sorry."

He kissed her on the forehead and said: "It's okay Phoebe, I'm lost as much as you are, but we're together and this is important."

She started to cry freely and he said: "I love you, not matter what happen, I love you."

He hugged her tight and she whispered: "I love you too."

"Come on, let's go changed into our Pj's and we'll sleep together, in each others arms." He proposed.

Phoebe nodded and asked for one more kiss which he gave her willingly and they both walked in their room and get changed into their Pj's.

Once they were laying in bed, Phoebe rested her head on Cole's shoulder who was resting on his back. This time, she didn't want him to comfort her, she wanted her to comfort him because since the beginning, she had only thought about her own pain and she had totally forgot his feelings and she now was feeling guilty about it. She was running her fingers along his side and caressing him gently.

Cole closed his eyes, he was now understanding what she meant when she was saying that she was feeling better when he was holding her. He had doubt that the only fact of him holding her was making her feel better, but now that she was taking care of him, he was feeling way better, and he understood what she meant. Even if the pain was still here, it was easier to handle with her in his arms. They had been through so much already and Cole was praying silently for them to be able to go through the lost of their child. He didn't know what tomorrow would be made of and to tell the truth he was scared that Phoebe might break, life was hell for her. But no matter what will happen in the future, because their love is strong and powerful, they'll get up and face the day... together.

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