Reviews~
loozer-09: Yes, Ryu is quite the bastard..or is he? **dun dun dunnn**
sleep walking chicken AND hap: Ahh..this is true. Mwhaha! **strokes walls** Good my pretties..gooooood!
ladykaa28: Hehe, so many questions. And as much as I'd looove to answer every single one and give almost everything away, I can't =) You'll find out all in due time. Actually, you'll find out everything about Inuyasha in the next chapter after this one. So if you can just hang on a few more weeks..then yay-go you!
Kagomi: Yes, lots of crying. I love crying, although it doesn't do much, but writing about crying is really fun. Whenever I'm actually crying, one of the ways I stop is by thinking about how I feel and how I would describe it in a story, then I end up using it. Works really well.
darkangel78: Did I get three reviews from you? oo.OO; I'm confuzzled but thanks anyway. Lol, Sango and Kagome kissing..I guess some people like that. Can't really blame em for having an opinion. ^_^; Hope you enjoy the chapter.
sweet little country girl: Yes, Kikyo must d..**reads review again** I mean, yes..Ryu **shifty eyes** HEY! That's my bat!! **chases sweet little country girl**
MOrOn4lifE: But that wouldn't make for a very good fic, if she started out loving him and she loved him..there's gotta be conflict, **shakes fist** coonnnffflliiicctt! I go to school now, can't get anything past me! MWHAHAHAH!!!..god someone kill me..
DevilishGrl17: Ahh, who doesn't?
Ryuu_Raine_Kanemeate3: Sorry!! **cringes** I love the name Ryu, really I do. But I just needed a good name for the fic and that was the first one that popped in my head. GASP! CHOCOLATE! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! Purple? :( No pink?
hyperchica11: Yeah, haha..ahaa..haha..hah..ahahah!
misakichi1: Done and done. (There it is..BOO-YAH!!)
Zonza: But that's the power of love! Loving the person no matter what, even though she's not really experiencing true love..or is she? =) Mwhaha..that's coming up! Yep, they were very cool, well a few of them. Some look kinda blahful. Hehe, well I've finally got to watch it..so woot..go me! Yeah, he is a very big coward! That's why he's not gunna get Kagome in the ending, or is he? I love being evil, y'know ;) Tanksjooz, I like how I think too. Like right now I'm thinking about eating ice cream! Mmm..Ice cream..
Kats02980416: **pat pat** Don't worry, everything will work out eventually.
EvilBunnies1: lol, Ryu almost seems to be as hated as Kikyo..almost.
CorruptedAngel: Whee..I rule..go me!
taramaqick: Aww..thanks!
Hidden One: LOL! I wouldn't do that!! Inuyasha couldn't have missed Ryu! Especially when Kagome wasn't really in range of the hit, but stupid Ryu pushed her into harms way.
Kagome1990: **bows** tanksjooz, tanksjooz!
fanfictiongeek36: Yay! I wrote that one so long ago, but decided to use it since it was quite dark and depressing. He did it cause he's an idiot. You know those kind of guys who would hurt anyone just to save themselves.. **shakes head** tsk tsk!
Inferna: Yeah, he's half demon. I didn't see the series at all at the beginning..so that's why it might be a little blah, sorry if that's the case.
rAiNwAtEr: Ahh! So many fics to read..I will get to them! Once I finish my stupid homework, but it's studying so that's not going to happen very soon. Wahh..why can't school just blow up?! Things would be so much easier then!
A/N* Wah! I'm so sorry that it took me so long to get this out. It's all because of school, I haven't had any free time till now! I swear. And even now, I have so much homework to do. v.v; Enough about stupid school, I FINALLY GET TO WATCH INUYASHA!!!!! YTV finally did something right and got the show. It's on twice a week but that's better than nothing. I love it! Inuyasha is sooooooo cute! Wah! AND THE EARS! **drools** Erm, let's get to the chapter, shall we?
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Inuyasha sighed as he carefully glanced down at the girl in his arms. Her hair poured carelessly from her head down to her back, holding a dark shade, lovingly. Stroking it lightly with his thumb, he concluded that it was as soft as a feather. He swallowed slowly, feeling slightly wrong for doing this while she was asleep.
She shifted somewhat under his touch. Now he could see her face perfectly. His expression softened right away as he contently stared at her many outstanding features. A few choice strands of her hair hung over her damp eyes. He steadily raised his hand to move them out of the way so he could see her flawless eyes.
He suddenly stopped, and drew his hand to a hault. She looked perfect the way she was now, what right did he have to change that? He mentally shook his head.
None.
No right.
He rested his left hand under her head, so that she could continue on with her peacefull slumber.
"I have to figure everything out.." He spoke to himself. "What am I going to do?" Rubbing a little bit of sleep out of his eye with his right hand, he allowed his glance to fall back upon Kagome. She was lightly clutching his shirt in between her small fingers. Her head was rest carefully against his left knee, as her hair flowed down off his leg.
Her thin body lay comfortably in his lap, as her bare legs hung loosely off his right knee. (She's wearing shorts,you perverts. -_-) He continued to allow his one hand slumber under her faultless head. It held no imperfection at that moment.
Not to him, anyway.
It took all the strength in him not to just kiss her senseless. To just wake her up and scream "I love you." countless times to that face. Watch her eyes light up, as those tender lips of hers curved in an upward position. Hold her so close that if they wanted, they could mold into each other's being within fractions of a second.
Place a hand in her hair and tilt his head slightly, so that with just a simple push..their lips would fit perfectly against each other. They would make such mere movements, that allowed them to form a sentual kiss. One that portrayed all the passion they felt for each other, one that held all the love they shared.
In that perfect moment, god would approve of them erasing all memories of everything and bleeding into that one kiss. Their minds only setting upon the sights in front of them, the hands tightly wrapped around their bodies, the warm skin gliding against their own, as two sets of lips rush past each other again..and again..and again.
Gentle, yet impetuous tongues brushing against each other in a sense of harmony. Then when it was finally time to part, breath in short breaths, allowing the effects they had on each other naturally cascade out, lavishing the other.
He wanted to sit near her, as he held her so close, yet so kindly, with the kind of grace you would treat an angle with. Whisper soft words into her ear, causing a light blush to rise on her cheeks. Simply say things that could cause laughter to fill his ears to the brim, and gush out, as her infatuating scent clouded his senses.
He caught sight of his hand in the corner of his eye and stared at it for a while. How nice it would be to intertwine it with Kagome's. Feel her soft fingers against his, clasp them together and hold them over his heart. So that once again, she could realize exactly what she did to him.
Maybe he was getting a little ahead of himself. He knew, yes, he knew..that doing all those things would only make things so much more worse.
"Oh Kagome.." He chimed carelessly. Her reply was a mere breath being taken in, and released as her stomach rose and fell. Well what else did he expect? Her to 'awww' the way girls always did, and help him with this problem? The way she had always done since he met her..
He inhaled deeply, then released it as a full sigh, causing her body to move along with him. As if she would treat this problem like she did with every other one he had faced before. She would probably never talk to him again. He shook his head, careful not to wake her in the process.
"Can't lose Kagome.." He felt her shift uncomfortably. A frown wrapped tightly around his lips as he picked her up slowly, then set her on her bed. Right away the cold rushed into her small body as she drew her knees up higher. Inuyasha reached for the covers that sat near her and pulled them slowly on top of her.
Right away he saw her loosen up, allowing her legs to straighten. She shook her head slowly, reaching out to throw any strands of hair out of her eyes. As a result of her damp eyes, some stuck to her head which made Inuyasha smile. He decided to help her, so by reaching out cautiously, brushed away the strands she missed.
He could now see her face clearly. She nuzzled her nose into the pillow, a small smiling tugging at her lips. He watched attentively at her features making movements, just the way he wanted her to stay. Which would mean not complying to his plan. Damnit, how had he gotten himself into all of that again?
Oh yeah, it was his way of living. This is the way everything began, well everything he could remember..that is. It was cruel, yes..he knew that. But he had slowly gotten used to it, accepted the fact that this was the way everything was. If he did what was asked, it wouldn't be that way forever, no..not forever.
Ahh..forever. Something that he would simply LOVE to experience. Not the forever he was headed for now, but a whole new one. One filled with joy, and pain, not alone, but with someone to share everything with. He knew exactly who he wanted that someone to be.
Kagome.
He loved her, that he was aware of now. And it wasn't just some girlfriend/boyfriend love. He really, truly, genuenlly loved her. So much that he thrived to spend the rest of his life with her, to eventually get married, and have a family. He couldn't imagine himself with anyone else but her.
This plan to get her with Ryu had made him realize how special she really was. At first he wanted her to be happy with the person of her choice, but after pretending to be together with her, being able to kiss her whenever he wanted, hug her whenever he needed to feel her close to him..he couldn't just let her go that easily.
And that was exactly what he wasn't going to do, let her go. He belonged with her. That was the way it should be, and if he could play all his cards right..that's the way it would be.
Not like this.
He shook his head fully now, not having someone sleeping in his arms. He was aware that she didn't love him, but maybe she could? Maybe he could make her love him. Despite how forced that sounded, that's what he wanted now. It was so painfully evident, all of it.
Now he had some serious thinking to do, and even more planning. He groaned inwardly. "I guess I better go." He decided, "I need to go think, and having you this close to me won't allow anything but you to be processed in my brain."
He reached forward and kissed her head gingerly, whispering softly into her hair, "G'night Kagome..sleep tight."
He must not have said it very softly, because he felt her move under him. Quickly pulling back, he watched as her eyes pushed open. "Inu..Inuyasha?" She questioned, rubbing her eye carefully.
"Hey, sorry but I really have to get going now." He stated, trying to sound convincing..even though he really dreaded leaving her side.
She frowned lightly, "Why do you have to go?" She sounded like a little girl. This caused him to smile warmly, "Because I have a few important matters to attend to.." He trailed off, averting his gaze, afraid that she could see right through him. See all the guilt he held.
"Why do you always do that?" She asked, just above a whisper. He looked back at her and watched as she used her left hand to steady herself up, drawing back the covers.
"Do-do what?" He said, not completely understanding what she meant. Could she really see right through him?
She grunted, much like he enjoyed doing, and grabbed his arm, tugging a little. "C'mere." When he simply blinked at her, she forced a frown, "Please?" She made it come out like a desperate plee for help. He sighed, and made his way on the bed, sitting next to her.
Kagome grinned tightly, pushing herself against his chest. "Mmm!.." She murmed. He knew what she wanted, and slowly wrapped his arms around her, pulling her closer to him. "Now tell me, why do you always do that?" She now had her hands around his waist, her head gently rest against his strong, chest.
"Do what?!" He scowled somewhat, but not really intentially. He heard her suddenly go quiet, not that she wasn't before, but he noticed the silence between them and sighed, again. "Sorry, I didn't mean for it to come out like that." He quickly apologized. He felt her tighten her grip, and stare up at him.
"Whenever, I look at you..really closely, I see something." She stopped as he returned her stare. "You always seem to have this guilty expression, but before I can really read into it..you look away, why is that?"
Her eyes captivated him, he knew the answer, but couldn't tell her because it would just ruin everything, more than they already were. And he knew that he couldn't allow that. She was giving him that look again, the ones girls always give you when they want you to answer in the next 30 seconds or you're in for some serious trouble.
He quickly threw out the first thing that came to his mind. "It's nothing."
'Great answer.' He mentally scolded. That was like saying, "Something is wrong but don't worry about it, I'll handle it myself." He studied her face to look for the emotion manifesting within her.
None.
She held a stoic expression, which was quite odd, because she rarely, EVER did that. He cocked up an eyebrow, staring down at her. He felt himself run into her eyes and fall, deep. Exploring the many sectors that held her emotions. Although because of her current one, all colours were dark, and nothing could really be seen.
Her blinking caused him to snap out of the trance he had once again fallen deeply under. 'Surprise, surprise.' He thought quietly to himself, awaiting her reply. She couldn't possibly have believed him, could she?..
No, not Kagome.
Part of him wanted her to believe him, and just forget about it. But then another part of him wanted her to continue questioning him till he had no choice but to tell her, even though he couldn't. He just wanted to feel her warmth against his cold soul, and breath into him, letting him know that eveything was going to be okay.
He wanted to hear her voice echo into his ear, silencing his fears about her hating him. To hear that she'd never leave him again.
Never, again.
"Do you really expect me to believe that?" She questioned after quite some time. Once again he fumbled with an answer as she continued to stare him down. The answer was of course, obvious..but he needed to lie, just this once. "Yes." He spat out evenly.
'One lie leads to another, y'know.' His mind threw at him, he silenced the voice and waited for the next question that she needed answering. But to his surprise, it never came. The slight weight resting in his lap turned her head back towards his chest and jumped in.
The warmth surrounded her, he could tell because she grasped on tighter. "Are-are you okay Inuyasha?" She chocked out, he felt slightly wet in the area her face was occupying in his chest. 'Oh no, she wasn't crying again, was she?' He pondered. He made it his mission to get her to stop.
He begun by stroking her hair softly, down to her back, as she slowly shook, the sobs being surpressed by his clothes. She was clutching his shirt with both her hands now, intertwining the cloth between her fingers as he wrapped his arms around her shaking form. He tried not to hold her too close, so that she had time to pull back as much as she wanted.
He just wanted to make her feel better, and not cry. "'Course I'm okay.." He soothed against her being, hoping those three words would be enough. She gently pulled back, still clutching against him. He watched as a new set of tears glazed over her eyes as they took form and fell down her face, falling on her hands.
"Look me in the eye.." She started, her eyes heavily shifting. "And tell me, that you'll always be here. No matter what." She paused again and sniffled a little, demolishing a few tears that sprung free from her eyes. Her voice suddenly became shaky and demanding, "Tell me Inuyasha, tell me that you'll always be here!!"
Kagome's face began to faulter under her soft plees, as she continued to beg, "Please..tell me.." She started slipping down but was brought back up by his strong arms. He looked her deep in her eyes and spoke, with such a strong voice, it cut through all her sobs and cries, and shot directly to her ears.
"Kagome, I promise that I will always be by your side, no matter what. Whether you want me to be there or not, I will always stand by you through anything and everything."
She smiled through all the tears and threw herself on him again, obviously tired. In his shirt she whispered something, that only his ears would catch, "Thank-you, Inuyasha.."
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A/N* YAY! I'm finally done! Hope that fluff was enough. .; I promise that in the next chapter you'll find out exactly what is going on with Inuyasha. I've decided that whole chapter will be dedicated to explaining why he feels so guilty, and everything that he's stated. So for all you confuzzled people out there, get ready to be un-confuzzled..in the next chapter! Now please review or no next chapter. **shakes fist madly**
loozer-09: Yes, Ryu is quite the bastard..or is he? **dun dun dunnn**
sleep walking chicken AND hap: Ahh..this is true. Mwhaha! **strokes walls** Good my pretties..gooooood!
ladykaa28: Hehe, so many questions. And as much as I'd looove to answer every single one and give almost everything away, I can't =) You'll find out all in due time. Actually, you'll find out everything about Inuyasha in the next chapter after this one. So if you can just hang on a few more weeks..then yay-go you!
Kagomi: Yes, lots of crying. I love crying, although it doesn't do much, but writing about crying is really fun. Whenever I'm actually crying, one of the ways I stop is by thinking about how I feel and how I would describe it in a story, then I end up using it. Works really well.
darkangel78: Did I get three reviews from you? oo.OO; I'm confuzzled but thanks anyway. Lol, Sango and Kagome kissing..I guess some people like that. Can't really blame em for having an opinion. ^_^; Hope you enjoy the chapter.
sweet little country girl: Yes, Kikyo must d..**reads review again** I mean, yes..Ryu **shifty eyes** HEY! That's my bat!! **chases sweet little country girl**
MOrOn4lifE: But that wouldn't make for a very good fic, if she started out loving him and she loved him..there's gotta be conflict, **shakes fist** coonnnffflliiicctt! I go to school now, can't get anything past me! MWHAHAHAH!!!..god someone kill me..
DevilishGrl17: Ahh, who doesn't?
Ryuu_Raine_Kanemeate3: Sorry!! **cringes** I love the name Ryu, really I do. But I just needed a good name for the fic and that was the first one that popped in my head. GASP! CHOCOLATE! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! Purple? :( No pink?
hyperchica11: Yeah, haha..ahaa..haha..hah..ahahah!
misakichi1: Done and done. (There it is..BOO-YAH!!)
Zonza: But that's the power of love! Loving the person no matter what, even though she's not really experiencing true love..or is she? =) Mwhaha..that's coming up! Yep, they were very cool, well a few of them. Some look kinda blahful. Hehe, well I've finally got to watch it..so woot..go me! Yeah, he is a very big coward! That's why he's not gunna get Kagome in the ending, or is he? I love being evil, y'know ;) Tanksjooz, I like how I think too. Like right now I'm thinking about eating ice cream! Mmm..Ice cream..
Kats02980416: **pat pat** Don't worry, everything will work out eventually.
EvilBunnies1: lol, Ryu almost seems to be as hated as Kikyo..almost.
CorruptedAngel: Whee..I rule..go me!
taramaqick: Aww..thanks!
Hidden One: LOL! I wouldn't do that!! Inuyasha couldn't have missed Ryu! Especially when Kagome wasn't really in range of the hit, but stupid Ryu pushed her into harms way.
Kagome1990: **bows** tanksjooz, tanksjooz!
fanfictiongeek36: Yay! I wrote that one so long ago, but decided to use it since it was quite dark and depressing. He did it cause he's an idiot. You know those kind of guys who would hurt anyone just to save themselves.. **shakes head** tsk tsk!
Inferna: Yeah, he's half demon. I didn't see the series at all at the beginning..so that's why it might be a little blah, sorry if that's the case.
rAiNwAtEr: Ahh! So many fics to read..I will get to them! Once I finish my stupid homework, but it's studying so that's not going to happen very soon. Wahh..why can't school just blow up?! Things would be so much easier then!
A/N* Wah! I'm so sorry that it took me so long to get this out. It's all because of school, I haven't had any free time till now! I swear. And even now, I have so much homework to do. v.v; Enough about stupid school, I FINALLY GET TO WATCH INUYASHA!!!!! YTV finally did something right and got the show. It's on twice a week but that's better than nothing. I love it! Inuyasha is sooooooo cute! Wah! AND THE EARS! **drools** Erm, let's get to the chapter, shall we?
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Inuyasha sighed as he carefully glanced down at the girl in his arms. Her hair poured carelessly from her head down to her back, holding a dark shade, lovingly. Stroking it lightly with his thumb, he concluded that it was as soft as a feather. He swallowed slowly, feeling slightly wrong for doing this while she was asleep.
She shifted somewhat under his touch. Now he could see her face perfectly. His expression softened right away as he contently stared at her many outstanding features. A few choice strands of her hair hung over her damp eyes. He steadily raised his hand to move them out of the way so he could see her flawless eyes.
He suddenly stopped, and drew his hand to a hault. She looked perfect the way she was now, what right did he have to change that? He mentally shook his head.
None.
No right.
He rested his left hand under her head, so that she could continue on with her peacefull slumber.
"I have to figure everything out.." He spoke to himself. "What am I going to do?" Rubbing a little bit of sleep out of his eye with his right hand, he allowed his glance to fall back upon Kagome. She was lightly clutching his shirt in between her small fingers. Her head was rest carefully against his left knee, as her hair flowed down off his leg.
Her thin body lay comfortably in his lap, as her bare legs hung loosely off his right knee. (She's wearing shorts,you perverts. -_-) He continued to allow his one hand slumber under her faultless head. It held no imperfection at that moment.
Not to him, anyway.
It took all the strength in him not to just kiss her senseless. To just wake her up and scream "I love you." countless times to that face. Watch her eyes light up, as those tender lips of hers curved in an upward position. Hold her so close that if they wanted, they could mold into each other's being within fractions of a second.
Place a hand in her hair and tilt his head slightly, so that with just a simple push..their lips would fit perfectly against each other. They would make such mere movements, that allowed them to form a sentual kiss. One that portrayed all the passion they felt for each other, one that held all the love they shared.
In that perfect moment, god would approve of them erasing all memories of everything and bleeding into that one kiss. Their minds only setting upon the sights in front of them, the hands tightly wrapped around their bodies, the warm skin gliding against their own, as two sets of lips rush past each other again..and again..and again.
Gentle, yet impetuous tongues brushing against each other in a sense of harmony. Then when it was finally time to part, breath in short breaths, allowing the effects they had on each other naturally cascade out, lavishing the other.
He wanted to sit near her, as he held her so close, yet so kindly, with the kind of grace you would treat an angle with. Whisper soft words into her ear, causing a light blush to rise on her cheeks. Simply say things that could cause laughter to fill his ears to the brim, and gush out, as her infatuating scent clouded his senses.
He caught sight of his hand in the corner of his eye and stared at it for a while. How nice it would be to intertwine it with Kagome's. Feel her soft fingers against his, clasp them together and hold them over his heart. So that once again, she could realize exactly what she did to him.
Maybe he was getting a little ahead of himself. He knew, yes, he knew..that doing all those things would only make things so much more worse.
"Oh Kagome.." He chimed carelessly. Her reply was a mere breath being taken in, and released as her stomach rose and fell. Well what else did he expect? Her to 'awww' the way girls always did, and help him with this problem? The way she had always done since he met her..
He inhaled deeply, then released it as a full sigh, causing her body to move along with him. As if she would treat this problem like she did with every other one he had faced before. She would probably never talk to him again. He shook his head, careful not to wake her in the process.
"Can't lose Kagome.." He felt her shift uncomfortably. A frown wrapped tightly around his lips as he picked her up slowly, then set her on her bed. Right away the cold rushed into her small body as she drew her knees up higher. Inuyasha reached for the covers that sat near her and pulled them slowly on top of her.
Right away he saw her loosen up, allowing her legs to straighten. She shook her head slowly, reaching out to throw any strands of hair out of her eyes. As a result of her damp eyes, some stuck to her head which made Inuyasha smile. He decided to help her, so by reaching out cautiously, brushed away the strands she missed.
He could now see her face clearly. She nuzzled her nose into the pillow, a small smiling tugging at her lips. He watched attentively at her features making movements, just the way he wanted her to stay. Which would mean not complying to his plan. Damnit, how had he gotten himself into all of that again?
Oh yeah, it was his way of living. This is the way everything began, well everything he could remember..that is. It was cruel, yes..he knew that. But he had slowly gotten used to it, accepted the fact that this was the way everything was. If he did what was asked, it wouldn't be that way forever, no..not forever.
Ahh..forever. Something that he would simply LOVE to experience. Not the forever he was headed for now, but a whole new one. One filled with joy, and pain, not alone, but with someone to share everything with. He knew exactly who he wanted that someone to be.
Kagome.
He loved her, that he was aware of now. And it wasn't just some girlfriend/boyfriend love. He really, truly, genuenlly loved her. So much that he thrived to spend the rest of his life with her, to eventually get married, and have a family. He couldn't imagine himself with anyone else but her.
This plan to get her with Ryu had made him realize how special she really was. At first he wanted her to be happy with the person of her choice, but after pretending to be together with her, being able to kiss her whenever he wanted, hug her whenever he needed to feel her close to him..he couldn't just let her go that easily.
And that was exactly what he wasn't going to do, let her go. He belonged with her. That was the way it should be, and if he could play all his cards right..that's the way it would be.
Not like this.
He shook his head fully now, not having someone sleeping in his arms. He was aware that she didn't love him, but maybe she could? Maybe he could make her love him. Despite how forced that sounded, that's what he wanted now. It was so painfully evident, all of it.
Now he had some serious thinking to do, and even more planning. He groaned inwardly. "I guess I better go." He decided, "I need to go think, and having you this close to me won't allow anything but you to be processed in my brain."
He reached forward and kissed her head gingerly, whispering softly into her hair, "G'night Kagome..sleep tight."
He must not have said it very softly, because he felt her move under him. Quickly pulling back, he watched as her eyes pushed open. "Inu..Inuyasha?" She questioned, rubbing her eye carefully.
"Hey, sorry but I really have to get going now." He stated, trying to sound convincing..even though he really dreaded leaving her side.
She frowned lightly, "Why do you have to go?" She sounded like a little girl. This caused him to smile warmly, "Because I have a few important matters to attend to.." He trailed off, averting his gaze, afraid that she could see right through him. See all the guilt he held.
"Why do you always do that?" She asked, just above a whisper. He looked back at her and watched as she used her left hand to steady herself up, drawing back the covers.
"Do-do what?" He said, not completely understanding what she meant. Could she really see right through him?
She grunted, much like he enjoyed doing, and grabbed his arm, tugging a little. "C'mere." When he simply blinked at her, she forced a frown, "Please?" She made it come out like a desperate plee for help. He sighed, and made his way on the bed, sitting next to her.
Kagome grinned tightly, pushing herself against his chest. "Mmm!.." She murmed. He knew what she wanted, and slowly wrapped his arms around her, pulling her closer to him. "Now tell me, why do you always do that?" She now had her hands around his waist, her head gently rest against his strong, chest.
"Do what?!" He scowled somewhat, but not really intentially. He heard her suddenly go quiet, not that she wasn't before, but he noticed the silence between them and sighed, again. "Sorry, I didn't mean for it to come out like that." He quickly apologized. He felt her tighten her grip, and stare up at him.
"Whenever, I look at you..really closely, I see something." She stopped as he returned her stare. "You always seem to have this guilty expression, but before I can really read into it..you look away, why is that?"
Her eyes captivated him, he knew the answer, but couldn't tell her because it would just ruin everything, more than they already were. And he knew that he couldn't allow that. She was giving him that look again, the ones girls always give you when they want you to answer in the next 30 seconds or you're in for some serious trouble.
He quickly threw out the first thing that came to his mind. "It's nothing."
'Great answer.' He mentally scolded. That was like saying, "Something is wrong but don't worry about it, I'll handle it myself." He studied her face to look for the emotion manifesting within her.
None.
She held a stoic expression, which was quite odd, because she rarely, EVER did that. He cocked up an eyebrow, staring down at her. He felt himself run into her eyes and fall, deep. Exploring the many sectors that held her emotions. Although because of her current one, all colours were dark, and nothing could really be seen.
Her blinking caused him to snap out of the trance he had once again fallen deeply under. 'Surprise, surprise.' He thought quietly to himself, awaiting her reply. She couldn't possibly have believed him, could she?..
No, not Kagome.
Part of him wanted her to believe him, and just forget about it. But then another part of him wanted her to continue questioning him till he had no choice but to tell her, even though he couldn't. He just wanted to feel her warmth against his cold soul, and breath into him, letting him know that eveything was going to be okay.
He wanted to hear her voice echo into his ear, silencing his fears about her hating him. To hear that she'd never leave him again.
Never, again.
"Do you really expect me to believe that?" She questioned after quite some time. Once again he fumbled with an answer as she continued to stare him down. The answer was of course, obvious..but he needed to lie, just this once. "Yes." He spat out evenly.
'One lie leads to another, y'know.' His mind threw at him, he silenced the voice and waited for the next question that she needed answering. But to his surprise, it never came. The slight weight resting in his lap turned her head back towards his chest and jumped in.
The warmth surrounded her, he could tell because she grasped on tighter. "Are-are you okay Inuyasha?" She chocked out, he felt slightly wet in the area her face was occupying in his chest. 'Oh no, she wasn't crying again, was she?' He pondered. He made it his mission to get her to stop.
He begun by stroking her hair softly, down to her back, as she slowly shook, the sobs being surpressed by his clothes. She was clutching his shirt with both her hands now, intertwining the cloth between her fingers as he wrapped his arms around her shaking form. He tried not to hold her too close, so that she had time to pull back as much as she wanted.
He just wanted to make her feel better, and not cry. "'Course I'm okay.." He soothed against her being, hoping those three words would be enough. She gently pulled back, still clutching against him. He watched as a new set of tears glazed over her eyes as they took form and fell down her face, falling on her hands.
"Look me in the eye.." She started, her eyes heavily shifting. "And tell me, that you'll always be here. No matter what." She paused again and sniffled a little, demolishing a few tears that sprung free from her eyes. Her voice suddenly became shaky and demanding, "Tell me Inuyasha, tell me that you'll always be here!!"
Kagome's face began to faulter under her soft plees, as she continued to beg, "Please..tell me.." She started slipping down but was brought back up by his strong arms. He looked her deep in her eyes and spoke, with such a strong voice, it cut through all her sobs and cries, and shot directly to her ears.
"Kagome, I promise that I will always be by your side, no matter what. Whether you want me to be there or not, I will always stand by you through anything and everything."
She smiled through all the tears and threw herself on him again, obviously tired. In his shirt she whispered something, that only his ears would catch, "Thank-you, Inuyasha.."
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A/N* YAY! I'm finally done! Hope that fluff was enough. .; I promise that in the next chapter you'll find out exactly what is going on with Inuyasha. I've decided that whole chapter will be dedicated to explaining why he feels so guilty, and everything that he's stated. So for all you confuzzled people out there, get ready to be un-confuzzled..in the next chapter! Now please review or no next chapter. **shakes fist madly**