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A/N Haha..seems like forever since I've updated, eh? avoids misc. glares Uhh..yes! Well at least I'm doing so now! You have no idea how busy I've been, homework really sucks. And you know what else sucks?

Random reviewer: School?

Roonz: Well besides school. It's waiting! Don't you hate waiting for things! I sure as hell do! shakes fist Anyway, onto the next chapter. I wrote some of this in French class on Friday because my teacher was being gay. He gave us some work we didn't have to do, I was like 'psch..screw you, sir!' This is the chapter you've all been waiting for, eh? You finally get to find out what's going on with Inuyasha and the cause of all his guilt. Let's get to the chapter, baby!

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Inuyasha sighed as his eyes wandered warily at the path in front of him. As he took each step, the tip of his shoe would come into view, then the other. The streetlights would light up fair portions of the sidewalk as if trying to lighten his mood.

Hah!

His hair shook with the bare movements he made. The silver locks swayed on his head, almost like they were trying to run away and not face the future he was headed for. Most of him also wanted just that. He could almost feel his body trying to pull him in all directions.

The wind howled harshly at him as it drew forward, slashing him in the face, then slowly pulling back and trapping any warmth he felt in it's fierce breeze. This was like a glimpse of the torture he would be forced to endeavor very soon.

With each step he took, he was walking closer to his fate. Okay, so maybe that was a little melodramatic..but it was somewhat true! He couldn't continue with this anymore, and that would cost him, he knew. There would be some serious consequences, but that was the case no matter what he did.

It was almost too much to take, and at these times he often would start thinking about Kagome. Although, this would just increase the pain, cause his insides to implode and his heart to grow weak. As these events occurred, he would force himself to replay how everything had started.

A young Inuyasha (A/N Okay girls, get your awwwww's out now!) had been resting in a hospital bed with random injuries tainting his body. He had just recently been in an accident; he remembered that much as he blinked his eyes, staring at the pale ceiling.

The boy winced slightly, trying to get himself up. No luck. He was very weak, and so tired. His eyes fell closed as his body descended downwards towards the hard, lumpy, uncomfortable bed. He decided to wait, and carefully breathed heavily.

He needed to recall what had happened. All the messy details, the whole gross story. Inuyasha turned his gaze to the window, catching the ray of lights that shone through in his eyes. This caused his golden, amber ones to turn brighter. His ears twitched a little as voices clouded them sharply.

Forcing his eyes shut, he strained to block out all the voices so his mind could focus on the accident. Just as the thought flew out, another rushed at him, causing him to speak, "My parents.." He breathed, almost breathless. He shifted slowly, raising his arm to scratch his head.

The movement caused some blood to rush out of his cut and he swallowed a lump that seemed to want to stay in his throat. Yes, he was with his parents..but..where were they now? Was he the only one hurt? Inuyasha slowly glanced around the room and found himself alone. The door bursting open caught his attention as three tall men flooded the room.

One was obviously a doctor, he could tell by the clothes he was wearing. A clipboard was occupying his left hand. The other two looked very dark, as they towered over the doctor, somewhat. The sight of them caused the little boy to shiver inwardly, making his blood run cold, and his body to stiffen.

Just by one glance, he decided that he didn't like either of these men at all. The doctor's voice cut through his thoughts with a sharp blade, "I don't think you should!" He roared angrily, obviously trying to get his point across, whatever that was.

The other two glared, as if contemplating who should kill him in the next five seconds. The doctor took quick note of this and broke any eye contact by turning towards the bed. "Oh." He started, looking at the boy now awake lying in the hospital bed.

He advanced slowly towards him, looking through some papers and jotting down a few things. Inuyasha curiously watched on as he wondered what he was writing. Cocking his head forward he decided to get some answers, "Where am I?"

Ahh..great question, he thought to himself. The doctor chuckled, "I hope you didn't suffer any amnesia." Giving him a warm smile he let him know that he was only joking. This earned him a few confused blinks, waiting for the doctor to continue.

"You're in Sunny Brooke Hospital. You and your parents were in a very serious accident." A frown wrapped his features closely, the seriousness of his tone evident, "You're very lucky to be alive, you know? How are you feeling, anyway?" He raised his pen back up, ready to write something down again.

"Ok-okay." Inuyasha spoke, a shy look rested on him. He decided to ask another question that remained nibbling at his mind, "Where..where are my parents?" This question seemed to stab the doctor as he straitened up, a little unsure whether he should reply and put the young boy's curious mind at ease with the answer.

Even if he was sure, it wasn't what he wanted to hear. However, this boy was young..how much memory of his parents would he have? He sighed, waiting for his lips to seal shut, and opened them again, "I don't know if I'm the right person to tell you this..but since you don't seem to have any other relatives, I might as well."

This didn't sound good. Why would he need some relatives to tell him where his parents were? Did they move away? Maybe they were at home, sleeping..instead of being by their son's side. Silent tears glazed over his eyes, almost as if he knew what the doctor was about to say.

"Inuyasha..like I said before, you're very lucky to be alive and to have survived that terrible accident." He paused and waited for his expression to change, trying to somewhat prepare him for what was about to come next.

The first set of tears formed and began making their way down his small face. His lower lip trembled a little, as his eyes faltered under the doctor's voice. "Your parents are..dead. I'm so sorry."

He didn't stop any of the tears that came out, second set..third, forth. It didn't matter. They all raced down his face, staining his skin causing slight whimpers to tumble out. Usually he would force himself not to cry, and to be strong for others..but who would he be being (A/N Try saying that fast five times!) strong for this time? He had no one now. All alone, at such a young age.

(A/N You tried to say "he be being" fast five times, didn't you! Didn't you! Don't try to deny it..I have cameras EVERYWHERE!)

The doctor just watched on as the boy continued to cry for his loss. Not even bothering to comfort him with a hug, or anything. 'Guess it just wasn't his thing.' Inuyasha thought bitterly. The room suddenly got so cold as he tried to hug himself and rid all and any numb feeling.

He felt the tears glide down to his neck and tickle him as he tried to wipe them away. Everything around him had stopped; nothing was worth paying attention to now. Maybe he could just lay here and wait until he died. It's not like it mattered if he lived anymore, all life would do now is shove the fact that he was alone in his face countless times.

What kid deserved to be reminded of that fact more than once? His breathing began getting shallow as his cries increased in volume. With each blink, more tears would flood his gentle skin. He could do nothing to stop it now, a part of him had just died..even if he did continue to live, it would be like living with only half his heart and soul.

A white tissue was lightly pushed into his view and tenderly wiped away his tears, like a mother would do. Like HIS mother would do. Letting his mouth remain opened, he turned to find out who was trying to take the place of his mother.

It was another woman; she had light blue hair and soft green eyes. They held a warmness that Inuyasha needed more than anything right now. Without giving it a second thought, he gathered the little strength he had and pushed himself towards the loving woman.

She caught on quickly, and positioned herself closer to him so that he could easily fit into her perfect arms. Inuyasha realized that he didn't even notice that this woman had come into the room, but that didn't really matter right now. All that mattered was that he had someone here for him; that was what he needed.

His heart collided with emotion as he grasped onto the woman harder. Letting her feel his pain, and lash his tears at her. She accepted both lovingly, carefully pulling him even closer. Her scent clouded his senses as everything in the room was suddenly blurred out as it had done before.

He could feel his skin rush against her warm clothing, as her flawless hands captured his hair and stroked it with such tenderness, it made him feel better. That however didn't nor could stop the amount of tears that continued to spill out. She didn't even seem to care, just continued to hold him very close.

Her voice was that of an angel, soothing every single pain that he felt at that moment. Both physical, and emotional. "Shhh, it's okay now sweetie." She soothed against him, letting the words fall into him. It worked amazingly as his arms tightened around her and he rested his head on her shoulder.

"That's right Inuyasha, it's okay now."

She ever knew his name! Wow, was she some kind of super-woman? That was what he thought, and very little could change that opinion right now. Only his mother had been able to comfort him this way, and that was what he needed right now, so badly.

Within minutes of being in her arms the pain decreased dramatically. He just felt really tired right now, and this was obvious as he began falling asleep in the arms of this angel. His breathing calmed down and he let himself rest peacefully, his future left to decide when he felt up to it.

Maybe he could just stay here for the rest of his life, at least it was warm.

His face softened as he thought of that woman, Miramu. As far as he was concerned, she was like his mother now. She cared for him in every way that he needed. The only thing that he didn't understand what how she, along with him had gotten mixed up in such a mess.

He raised his arm and snatched out a bit of sleep from his eyes as the rest of the story continued to unfold like he had allowed it to so many times in the past.

When Inuyasha awoke the next morning, he was in a different room. Had the hospital finally decided to change the rooms so that they would be somewhat attractive? His eyes searched the room and stopped at the window. The sun was finally not dancing in his eyes as it usually enjoyed doing.

He caught sight of the beautiful flowers that lay outside. The lush green caused him to smile a little, as the pink emitted a joy that wrapped around him comfortably. Okay, so maybe that was a little girlish to think and feel, but he was so little! At this age, it was okay to think these things.

The brown, wooden door softly opened as the woman he had cried to entered the room. Her beautiful blue hair was tied up in a neat bun and her green eyes glowed with such love he couldn't help but smile at her. "Mornin'." She called cheerfully, walking closer to him with a gray tray (A/N Tee hee..gray tray! Okay, I'll shut up now) of food in her arms.

She was dressed in a pale pink kimono, decorated with purple petals. She took a seat on the edge of his bed, and placed the tray of food on the ground. Steam emitted from it and was caught in Inuyasha's nostrils. It smelled so good..

Laughing lightly, she smiled at him, "Hungry?" He nodded slowly, not wanting to seem greedy. "Good, well let's get some food into you before we do anything else, okay?" Her voice was coloured with such love, that it made him want to just run into it. The calmness made him feel at such ease, despite the fact he had no clue as to where he was.

He nodded once again, and tried to get up. Grunting a little, he fell back against the soft sheets. "Here, let me help you." Taking a hold of his hands, she lightly pulled him up and positioned him so that he was leaning against her, with her left arm around his shoulder. It felt nice.

With her other single arm she picked up the tray and placed it in her lap. It looked heavy, she must have been quite strong to lift it with one hand and not even twitch. His opinion of this woman shot up higher and higher with every single movement she made. It was just then that he realized he didn't even know her name.

"Wh..wha.." He tried to speak but his voice was too hoarse since he hadn't spoken a word since yesterday morning. She turned to him attentively, and read his mind, "You're probably wondering who I am, aren't you?"

Wow! She was also a psychic! He cleared his throat, and answered with a word this time, "Yes."

"Well, my name is Miramu. I have been living with my two older brothers in this house for about 13 years now. Like you, my parents died when I was quite young." She said the last line quietly, so that she didn't hurt him. Miramu watched as he lowered his head slightly.

A little frown captured her lips as she watched him, and decided to change the subject. "Here, how about you eat first." His ears perked up and his head float back up. "Do you want to eat yourself, or would you like me to-.." Before she got to finish the sentence, Inuyasha responded, "You.."

Giving him a quick nod, she picked up the silver spoon, and began feeding him. The soup tasted great, there was such flavor in the broth that the taste never quite left his tongue. The vegetables were cut so perfectly, and heated just right they didn't burn him in the least. It was not too cold, but not too hot either. It was just right.

Okay, now he was starting to sound like Goldilocks (A/N I'm not sure how to spell her name. ; You all know who I'm talking about though, right?..RIGHT!) When he finished she handed him something to drink kindly. He drank it slowly, savoring the taste.

She watched him carefully as he did this, but in such a manner that it wasn't creepy or anything. It was just like a mother would watch her new born, carefully taking such notice to the little things they did. It felt kinda nice, that someone, not related to him would pay such close attention to him.

When he was finished, he placed it politely as possible on the tray. She gave him another one of her warm smiles, and set the tray on the cream coloured carpet. "I can tell you're a curious boy, Inuyasha. You must have a ton of questions, and I'll be more than glad to answer any that I can for you."

For a few seconds, he just stared at her blinking rapidly. How did she know all this! He opened his small mouth to say something, but it fell closed and the room filled with silence.

Miramu giggled lightly, "I'm sure you're wondering how I knew that. Well you see.." She patted her right leg lightly, beckoning him to take a seat. He jumped off the bed and slowly pulled himself up onto her lap. She wrapped her arms around him gingerly.

"Not too long ago, I had a baby boy that looked just liked you.." She rubbed one of his ears softly, "Minus the ears of course." Giving him a slight wink, she continued, "He was so full of curiosity, and excitement. At just a young age he had such a zest for life, it was truly touching. But then again, he was his father's son." She trailed off as her eyes began getting a little dark.

Silence crept it's way back into the room, so Inuyasha decided to blow it away, "Where is he now?" The curiosity in his eyes overwhelmed her and a single tear made its way out of her left eye. Before it had a chance to make its way to her cheek, she swiftly wiped it away.

"I'm sorry, it's still a bit hard to talk about it.." She apologized, sniffling a bit. A pang of guilt struck his heart, he made her cry. Pressing his head into her, he hugged her. "Sorry I made you cry.." And he truly was, this woman reminded him so much of his mother, he hated it when he would make her cry..so he didn't want to make Miramu cry either.

"No, it's not your fault, dear." She sighed deeply, "My son's father and I were having some problems. He had taking up drinking, which would result in him doing some very bad things." Searching for his expression, she decided to take out some of the details.

"Let's just say, that he took my son away from me and went far, far away. I haven't heard from either of them since then." He could tell she was fighting to hold back the tears that were glazing over her eyes. He gave her a light pat on the back; "Your husband is a mean, mean man!" He stated, trying to sound as serious as possible.

She laughed despite the tears at his concern, "It's just you remind me so much of him, I can't help but feel some kind of attraction towards you." He nodded, "Me too." Giving a little yawn he leaned into her a bit more, "I'm tired." He told her, closing his eyes.

"Why don't I leave you to rest then, hmm?" She questioned softly, motioning to get up. "No!" He grabbed her kimono. "Stay!" Inuyasha commanded. Miramu gave him a confused look, which was quickly replaced with a soft one. "Okay then, I'll stay."

"Miramu..what happened?" Everything was so nice back then. He gritted his teeth; "It's all Mikaru and Kimaru's doing. I knew it from the start, oh god! I could kill you both!" Before he got too angry, he began taking deep breaths to calm his senses. Getting angry over it now wouldn't do anything.

As he grew up he remembered that Miramu begun telling him to leave, not in those exact words, but she would always lightly push him against that thought. It was almost as if she was trying to protect him from something, and now he knew what that was.

Without even noticing it, he suddenly became their slave, doing one little job after the other. Miramu visited him less often, and when she did..she would always be so tired. Her glow that he adored faded over time, and she sometimes lost the power to even force a smile.

And he knew, he knew exactly why! It was her damn brothers, breaking her soul and her very being. If she didn't stop him, he could have killed those two long ago. Damn her big heart! People like that just deserved to die and rot in hell. Especially for the most recent task they asked of him..the one that caused so much guilt to rise in him when he so much as looked at Kagome.

That damn day..his 14th birthday.

"Inuyasha!" Barked Miraku. The sun was setting and the room became very dark. The shadows on his face were quite intimidating, just as the rest of him was. Inuyasha's final guest had just left, and even at the slightest sound of Miraku's voice..he had wished he hadn't been left alone.

Miramu had warned him about this, that something would come..and judging by the way things were playing out, he assumed this was what she was talking about. Gulping, he walked slowly through the narrow corridor. 'Was it always this narrow?' He thought to himself, a little scared.

He reached the end and stepped in carefully to the living room. Sitting on the couch were his two most favourite people.

Not.

Mikaru and Kimaru's

Taking timid steps closer to them, he halted to an abrupt stop and didn't even bother to sit down. The looks they were giving him made him feel like he didn't even deserve to sit down and rest his tired legs. They shook under their stares, until their booming voicing made much more impact.

"You little brat. Oh god, that feels good." Kimaru have a slight chuckle. "Try it Mikaru, no holding back." He smirked, and turned to the shaking boy. They could tell he was scared, oh yes..but that only provoked them to be twice as cruel. "Fucking bitch..get over here!"

He stretched out his oversized arm and literally yanked Inuyasha's arm, pulling him closer and into harms way. He also released an evil laugh. "You're right, this does feel good." They laughed together, which made Inuyasha a little angry. Why were they laughing and doing this to him! Yeah, they never really were nice to him, but they never did this.

"Stop it!" Miramu flew forward and pushed one of her older brothers back, causing him to release Inuyasha's arm. Right away he rubbed the pain that emitted from it. His stare set upon Miramu now, for he feared for her well being.

Quickly standing up he stepped in front of her; "Don't you dare touch-touch her!" He stated, trying to sound as brave as possible. This only earned him a smirk, "You can relax, Miramu. We're only doing what we have to, to ensure our safety." He gave her a sadistic smile, "Aren't we allowed to have some fun, hmm? We've had to put up with this little runt for far too long, it's time that he actually do something useful for US for a change. It seems as though all he's been since he got here is trouble. A huge pain in the.."

"No! Inuyasha has been nothing but joy. He will carry out what he's supposed to! There's no sense in hurting him anymore than he has been. This boy has endured enough pain to last him a lifetime. He doesn't need you two making it worse." She gave them a short glare.

"You know, in a way she's right, we need to hurry up and get this plan into action before it's too late." Miraku chimed.

"Hah, we have plenty of time. That brat is only the kid's age." Remarked Kimaru, giving a small point in Inuyasha's direction.

"Still, we need to plan now, so none of it looks suspicious and planed. And that no one else suspects it, ESPECIALLY the girl."

"True. Okay, why don't we let this one in on everything and get him started." The two men turned their full attention on the little boy that stood before them. He had on a confused look but didn't dare breath a word in fear of being beaten by the other two.

"Well by now you know about your parents, they were in a terrible accident and died." He said it matter of factly, and didn't even care when Inuyasha gave a little flinch.

"So we brought you here, Miramu there adopted you." Giving a slight nudge towards her direction, "Now you belong to us. Now Inuyasha, you're finally old enough to do something to repay everything we've done for you."

His breaths came short, and he tried not to make much noise. Trying to hide himself from everyone in the room, even though they could clearly see him. There was no way to run..

"A long, long, long time ago, someone hurt our family a lot. They, of course now are very much dead, but someone from that family still remains." Miraku glanced at his watch as the minute hand struck twelve'o'clock midnight. "As of right now, she is 14."

"I-I don't get it.." Inuyasha stammered, his eyes glued on the man in front of him.

"Quiet, it's rude to interrupt! Now, as I was saying, this girl isn't some ordinary girl. She possesses a soul that can bring back the dead. But if she continues to live, that soul will cause a lot of pain, to so many people." A short glance was given to Kimaru, as he continued on with the story.

"That includes us, Inuyasha. You don't wanna be hurt again, do you?" They waited for the slighted movement from him, the went on, "In order for us to stay safe, you must find that girl, gain her trust, and then you must kill her." The words leaked out of his mouth like poison.

They burned Inuyasha's heart.

"I-I won't. I can..I can't!" He spoke, timidly.

"Heh, silly boy. Don't you realize what I just said? Her soul can bring back the dead! Like your parents." His face stayed stern, no hint of lies.

"You're lying!" Inuyasha spat, it couldn't be true..they were just trying to twist him into their stupid games.

"Oh am I? Come now, boy! How can you say that?" A twitch ate away at his eye hungrily.

"Be-because that's not..it's not possible." His sad face was darkened by his sad bangs that hung from his head.

"Fine, you don't believe me? Then maybe you'll believe Miramu. Tell 'em, sister. Tell him about the all mighty soul. Tell him about how it can bring his parents back to him."

The young boy turned his face towards the only woman standing in the room, she looked very tired and almost..scared. He couldn't read much into her expression as she turned away and spoke quietly, "It's true, Inuyasha..everything they're saying. It's all true. If you kill the girl, you will get your parents back." Her lower lip trembled but any attention to it was blown away and Mikaru's voice ran over it.

"You see?" His face was beaming, but he still looked calm and collected.

This was almost too good to be true. The one thing that he had wanted more than anything, and he could have it. But of course, there were strings attached. He would have to kill an innocent girl, well she wasn't really innocent..after all, her family did cause a lot of harm to some people. He was just balancing out everything, right?..Right?

The voice rang in his head as he quickly thought everything over. When he came to his decision, he knew it was a very selfish one..but he needed his parents so much. Living like this was very hard, and he couldn't really take much more of it. So yes, he would do it..he would do it so that he could have his parents returned to him.

"I"ll do it." He spoke, shaking quite a bit. Why was it so damn cold in here?

The two men's lips curved upward forming the same evil smile. "Excellent. Here is your target, Kagome Higurashi."

"Oh Kagome. If only I knew that they were lying to me! I never would have gone through with it, I swear!" His confessions fell on the deaf skys. "I was so young, so alone..but when I met you all of that changed, you showed me a life with everything. You became my best friend so quickly, and now..now I've fallen madly in love with you. I have to tell them that I can't carry out this plan anymore, I have to put an end to all this. I'm sorry..Kagome."

The words ran short as he continued to walk into the dusky night, praying that everything would turn out for the best.

A/N AH JEEZ! I hope that made sense. I hope it explains things, and makes things clearer for you. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to finish this, but at least it's the longest chapter that I've ever done! sigh I hate school so much, it's because of it that I didn't get to work on this before. shakes fist Anyway, next chapter will explain even more things, I'll try to tie up as many loose ends that I can. Later everyone, I'm off to study and do more homework!

Inuyasha: NERD!

Roonz: glares Quiet you! chases him

Inuyasha: AHH! runs faster

Roonz: continues to chase him Get back here you! Oh..and review!