A/N: Wow I haven't updated any stories in such a long time..I feel really bad...not just because of everyone looking forward to another chap of my stories but for myself. I've been neglecting what I like to do and that is write! God I have to stop doing that...but I've been having exams and stuff so can you blame a girl? Well here is another chappie of Addicted to you and I'm happy about all the reviews! Keep em coming it makes me happy that my work is well liked and appreciated! I will update all my other stories soon so keep checking back or put me on story alert..or whatever it's called lol! Thanks for your patience! Love, Fallen Angel

Disclaimer: I do not own the song Bleed it's belongs to the group/singer Jack Frost

Chapter 4-First step to nothing

"Out in the cold
paralyzed mind
visions of moving
hunger for more
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born into silence
caught in the past..."-Bleed-Jack Frost

Van sat on a large stone balcony over looking the quiet streets of Gaia, the moon was full and bright and gave him the light he needed. He swung his legs back and forth as he looked down into the streets, a sigh escaped his lips. He ran a hand through his hair knocking the joint from his ear into his lap. He stared at it for a moment and then flicked it off his lap, it fell off the belcony into the streets below. Even before it hit the ground Van regretted what he done and he groaned loudly, but he forced himself to sit there and not get up to get another one.

"Some bastards gonna be pretty happy when he get's hit in the head with a joint." Van thought darkly.

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Hitomi sighed as she walked down the street toward her house in her arms was a stack of books from the library she had just visited. She had put off doing her geography project for two weeks and now it was due Tuesday, which means she only had two days left to finish it. She stopped a minute and shifted the books in her arms and then something hit her in the head. She looked down and saw the joint cracked open on the floor. She then gazed upward at the legs swinging back and forth on the balcony.

"Hey jackass why don't you smoke the joint instead of throwing it at people? Or are you to high to notice it's not in your mouth anymore?" Hitomi shouted up at the swinging legs.

She grumbled loudly and continued to walk, she looked over her shoulder at the swinging legs. Now she was able to see the person the legs belonged to. A shocked expression appeared on her face and then a look of anger. She backtracked a bit and picked up the broken joint. She looked at the balcony again and walked over to the house the balcony was on top of. Without bothering to knock she opened the door which was unlocked. She wasn't the least bit surprised that it was unlocked. Hitomi climbed up the stairs as fast as she could holding the books in one arm and the joint in her other hand. She took a wild guess that his room was the one with the door shut and the random graffiti all over the black door. She sighed loudly before she knocked on the door, he didn't answer. She knocked again and this time kicked the door hard. She heard rustling and waited some what impatiently for him to open the door. Hitomi remained composed and calm as she opened the bedroom door and ignored the flutter in chest when she laid eyes on him. His hair was messier then usual with a more of a just woke up look and it screamed run your hands through it. He was wearing a pair of cotton beige pants and he was topless his well toned muscles rippled as he stretched. He lowered his arms quickly and stared wide eyed realizing who was standing in his doorway. She realized why she came here in the first place and glared at him, she shifted the books again and then threw the joint at him. It hit him square in the chest and fell to the floor breaking apart. He looked down to the joint and then to her and sighed, running his hands through his hair.

"Van your pathetic you say your not addicted? I seen you yesterday and you can't go one day without having one? I wonder how much you have in your room?"

Van stood dumbfounded everything he wanted to say was jumbled up into a mass of mixed up letters in his mind, he just stared at her.

"Nothing to say? Nothing to say? Good because you know I am right there is no way you can kick drugs if you can't admit you're a junkie! Whatever Van you can scrap the pot off the floor and smoke it for all I care I'm not wasting another minute on you!"

Van snapped out of it when she began to walk away he reached out and grabbed her arm pulling her towards him. The books dropped from her hands landing with a loud bang onto the floor. The spine on one of the books broke, and Hitomi glared at Van.

"Let go of me!" she said in an angry tone.

Van held onto her arm staring at her intently, "Hitomi..."

"Van let go of me now!" she yelled.

Van pulled her arm and pulled her towards him, she landed against his chest and he put his arms around her.

"Van let go.." she whispered, her heartbeat picking up.

He leaned down his black tresses falling in front of his eyes shielding them from Hitomi's piercing look. Hitomi looked to him his eyes were blocked by his hair and she couldn't send him the warning looked she wanted to. She closed her own eyes and felt his breath on her, his lips pressed lightly against her's. His hand pressed to the small of her back pulling her close, she didn't kiss him back. Her body was screaming yes but her mind was telling her no, it was like the cliche scenario of a devil and an angel sitting on your shoulders. Van pulled back and looked to her a calm look on his face maybe it was almost pleading. Hitomi looked away from him and shook her head.

"Van I can't..."

He cupped her chin in his hand and forced her to look at him, "Hitomi it's not my fault.."

She pulled away from his hand and wrapped her arms around his waist, "Yes it is."

She looked up to him and raised her hand brushing the hair away from his eyes, his chocolate eyes stared at her sadly like a child that wanted something so bad. She ran her hand down the left side of his face cupping his cheek, her finger brushing against his neck. She leaned toward him and whispered into his ear, his eyes went wide and then clouded as a sigh escaped his lips.

"People say that they would do anything for the person they love." she whispered and then walked away from him, leaving him standing alone once more. Contemplating what he could have had if he just kicked the drugs.....

A/N: what is Hitomi getting at with that saying? Will Van take that in to any consideration? Tune in for another drug filled chapter of Addicted to you! Okay I'm joking bout the last part, drugs are a serious thing and no one should abuse them because it could lead to serious harm. So if you addicted get help it's the best thing! Don't be like Van who's losing everything just because of drugs!