He tensed with Saitou's arm wrapped around him, and he looked at the older
man with surprise. He half expected a biting comment from him, but got a
gruff, awkward "it's okay," instead. And it felt like it was. Saitou had
his serious look in his eyes, staring up at the tree, and it made him smile
just a bit. He didn't like this weakness-he still had issues with the idea
of being weak-but for just this little while, he decided it might be ok.
His tenseness faded and he found he enjoyed the arm around him. He wasn't sure if he was feeling comforted or something else. It was strange and new but he was more or less sure he liked it, he just wasn't absolutely positive because of the nagging embarrassment at his uncontrollable tears, which hadn 't stopped yet.
"It's so pretty here." He said, feeling the need to make conversation, and looking up at the trees. There were soft voices, some confused and no doubt wondering why on earth he and Saitou were crouched down as they were.
But the voices weren't enough, and Saitou was characteristically stoic.
"I'm glad you showed them to me... I'd like to see them again in autumn,
when the leaves are red and brown and falling."
He laughed suddenly and gave Saitou a smile. A conflicting mess of distinct emotions, none of which he was sure he was feeling properly. "I'll try not to cry next time. I don't know why I can't stop. or why I started in the first place. I'm sorry if I'm embarrassing you.people are looking at us..."
His tenseness faded and he found he enjoyed the arm around him. He wasn't sure if he was feeling comforted or something else. It was strange and new but he was more or less sure he liked it, he just wasn't absolutely positive because of the nagging embarrassment at his uncontrollable tears, which hadn 't stopped yet.
"It's so pretty here." He said, feeling the need to make conversation, and looking up at the trees. There were soft voices, some confused and no doubt wondering why on earth he and Saitou were crouched down as they were.
But the voices weren't enough, and Saitou was characteristically stoic.
"I'm glad you showed them to me... I'd like to see them again in autumn,
when the leaves are red and brown and falling."
He laughed suddenly and gave Saitou a smile. A conflicting mess of distinct emotions, none of which he was sure he was feeling properly. "I'll try not to cry next time. I don't know why I can't stop. or why I started in the first place. I'm sorry if I'm embarrassing you.people are looking at us..."