A/n: This is my depressing little fic. I'd like to thank Kaiya-chan for the plot, go read her poems! Anyway, this is something I thought of a while ago, enjoy.

Summary: What if you destroyed everything you ever knew, and didn't even know why? That's now Goten's reality; see how he deals when after eleven years of trying to forget he meets someone who wants him to remember. Will he find peace? Or is history bound to repeat itself? Read on in my first romantic fic ever! This is the way it never was!

Disclaimer: I don't even own the basic plot -_-; that has full credit to Kaiya-chan *give her a cookie*. I don't own DBZ either.

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                Goten hit his knees in tears. He had finally defeated the monster that had plagued his life for so long. But now, where were they? They were gone, gone because he was not strong enough. Strong enough to defeat him. He who had destroyed everyone the boy had known and loved. Himself. He did it. It was his fault everyone was gone. The child could not control his emotions, so everyone else paid; in their own blood. Why? Why them? Why not me? Surely I couldn't have been strong enough to defeat all of them. So why? He thought as he banged his fists on the ground. What happened to make me do all this? How!?! Why did I do this!?! WHY!?!?!?! Goten grabbed his head in pain from his mental torture. Kaasan, tousan, nii-chan...Everyone....Why....? His tears landed softly on the dry dirt of this wasteland that was once South City. Why didn't anyone stop me? Why didn't they stop me? Why!? They were stronger; they should have blown my head off! He curled his small body into a ball as he cried himself into a restless sleep. Why....?

********************************* [Eleven Years Later] *********************************

                An eighteen year old walked swiftly out of the new store in the almost rebuilt South City. It would never be as it had before; but that was fine with him, the city had too many painful memories for Goten. He took a box of Pocky out of one of the many bags he had and grabbed one of the chocolate dipped sweets. He was wearing a black gi with a red sash and wristband. His black hair was cut short and uncombed. Goten was a different person than he was when he was seven, and he destroyed everything; for reasons unknown to him. The teen was afraid to get close to anyone, he had spent most of the last eleven years by himself in a forest far away from what was once home. He grabbed a newspaper with the headline 'Capsule Corp. Grand Reopening!' off a newsstand and paid for it as he headed toward the outskirts of the city.  

                About half an hour later as he was walking through the woods to his home he heard someone screaming. Goten ran to where he thought he heard the cry and saw a man holding a bloody knife and a girl with horrid wounds trying to get away from him. "What's wrong girly, don't want to play no more?" The knife wielding man said as he coolly strode towards her. The girl flinched and crawled faster, Goten scowled as he got ready to attack the man. "Well that's to bad girl, 'cause you see, when I play, winner takes all." The man said getting ready to deliver the final blow.

                She closed her eyes and waited silently for the knife to fall, but it never did. When the girl looked up the murderous man was hunched against a tree unconscious, with a footprint planted square on his chest. She saw Goten standing over her with his arms crossed glaring at the man. He looked at her, his expression changing in half a second to a one of concern, "are you okay miss?" he asked, gesturing to the major gash on her leg. She cringed as she remembered the searing pain traveling through her body, suddenly she passed out. Goten quickly scooped her up and ran with his saiya-jin speed to his home.

                When he got back to his home Goten quickly bandaged the girl and gently laid her on his bed. It was when she was out of danger that he finally got a good look at her. She had short blonde hair tied in a low ponytail. When she was conscious he remembered her azure blue eyes and perfectly white teeth. It was late, so Goten pulled the covers over her and went to read the paper he had bought earlier before going to sleep. He silently sat it a chair in his living room and grabbed the newspaper and read silently. Goten scowled slightly when he read the article about the CC reopening, great, more bad memories to be reminded of. Who's Bra Briefs? Wasn't that Trunks' little sister's name? At least I know I didn't kill everyone I knew.

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                The next day Goten woke to the sound of someone stirring in his kitchen and he quickly got up. "You shouldn't be up and about with the injuries you have you know." He said coolly as the girl from before gasped and looking behind her and seeing him there behind her leaning against the doorframe. "Sorry if I startled you, by the way, I noticed we never properly introduced ourselves. I'm Goten, who're you?" He said as he walked over a stuck out his hand for a handshake.

                "I'm Marron." She said, shaking Goten's hand.
                "Marron, huh? I knew someone named that once…" He trailed off, "anyway as soon as you wound heal you better be heading home, you parents might get worried." He said and turned to her, although Marron knew hat wasn't the real reason he wanted her to leave.

                "My parents are dead." She sighed sadly.

                "Oh, I'm sorry." Goten replied looking at his feet suddenly.

                "Why? It's not like you killed them. My O'tousan died eleven years ago, my O'kaasan passed five years next month…" Marron looked down quietly as well. "I'm staying with my friend at her home, she lost her family in a freak accident a couple years back, and she's a little bit younger than me. Say… Goten, do you live out here by yourself?" She asked looking up at his face. Goten scowled.

                "Yeah. And I want it to stay that way." He crossed his arms and frowned as he headed towards the door. "I'm going out for awhile; you get into bed and rest. OK?" The teen glanced back at Marron before disappearing outside.

                "Goten…" She sighed sadly, "You sure have changed, if only you knew how much you're missed…" Marron took one last look at the spot he had been moments before and headed to the bedroom to get some sleep.

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A/n: and that's chapter one of my sad lil' fic! R/R ten reviews and I'll post the next one.