Love Sick

Chapter Seventeen

Hermione spent the whole evening in the Gryfindor's Common room. She had stayed with Ginny, Ron, Lavender and Harry. She tried to not think about what Draco said and not worry over what he did. But a few times during her conversation with her friends they would ask if she was feeling okay and as usual she would put a fake smile and nod her head. Finally when the clock struck midnight, Hermione decided to call it a night and head back to her house. She couldn't help but feel concerned to find Draco waiting for her.

Luckily when she had reached the common room Hermione didn't find Draco. With a sigh of relief, she headed upstairs to her room. Hermione put her bag down on the foot of her bed and walked over to her drawers to change. She decided to wear a loose long white t-shirt with writing all over the front and black pajama pants. Hermione looked at herself in the mirror. She had begun to look wearied out and tired. She tied her hair up in a bun and headed to her bed.

When Hermione pulled the covers down, she heard a knock on the door. Hermione rolled her eyes and ignored the sound. She slipped in bed and put a pillow over her head to block out the sound. Little did she know that Draco walked in while she couldn't see and when she brought her pillow down, Draco stood by the post of her bed. He only wore pants showing his fined chest, which could make her drool but Hermione became outraged. She jumped out of bed and walked over to him.

"What the hell gives you the right to come into my room?!" Hermione screamed in anger. Hermione was close enough to smell the sweet scent she had loved so much, but she ignored that fact or at least tried to.

"I wanted to return this book you dropped." Draco said calmly holding her journal in front of her. Hermione swiped the book out of his hand and glared at him.

"So you have no respect what so ever for others privacy?" Hermione said as she threw her book on the side of her bed.

"I swear I didn't read it." Draco said. Hermione could hear the honesty in his voice but as usual she would ignore that.

"Get out! Right now!" Hermione screamed pointing to the door. Draco watched her but never once moved from where he stood.

"I can't." He said quietly. He never dropped his gaze from her. Hermione had tried her hardest but the tears couldn't hold on any longer, it slipped down her cheeks. Suddenly, Draco fell on his knees in front of Hermione and hugged her thighs. Hermione couldn't believe what he had done and out of frustration and anger she began to hit him on the shoulders. But he never let her go.

"Hermione! I'm sorry." Draco said. He put his head in between her thighs, but Hermione could see the tears coming down from his face.

"I hate you Draco!" Hermione screamed. Draco looked up at her and instantly she slapped him across the face. "I hate you for hurting me." Then she slapped him across the other side of his face. "I hate you for making me lose my virginity as a bet!" Hermione could see the hurt in Draco's expression but he never let her go. Hermione began hitting his shoulders with her fists. "How can a simple word like sorry change the fact that you broke my heart! Let me go right now!"

"Doesn't matter how much times you beat me Hermione, it can't be worse then how much I beat myself up for doing the things I did to you." Draco said truthfully.

Hermione stopped hitting him and stared at him for a good minute. How can she accept his apology? Why couldn't he just leave her alone?

"I am begging you to forgive me." Draco said after the unbearable silence. Hermione looked away from him, she couldn't stare at a face that reminded her of all the pain she felt night and day. How can she trust him after what he had done to her?

Finally Draco let her go and got up to his feet. Hermione gazed at his reddened face. Hermione bit her lip because for the first time she didn't know what to do. There was no books on love that she had read, nothing could prepare her for heartache.

"No way will I sit and take this shit from you, I'll never play another day of being your fool. I wasted all my time on something that just wasn't true, I should have known that I could never ever change you!" Hermione bellowed as she took steps back from him. Draco's face went from hurt to pained as he brushed his hair back from his face.

"Whenever you see me don't even speak, I'll never forget what you did to me." Hermione said quietly allowing the tears again to wash her face. Draco nodded his head and turned away from her, towards the door.

"All I can say is you did change me, Hermione Granger." Draco said calmly as he walked out the door, closing it behind him. Hermione fell to the floor, allowing her self to be engulfed by her tears.

"I want to forgive you. I really do." Hermione whispered to herself.

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Harry was leaning against a tree by the lake alone when Hermione found him. It was a Saturday morning and she felt she needed a good stroll outside to take her mind off of everything. She hugged her jean jacket tighter as the wind blew in her direction. After finding Harry she decided she would talk to him about her problem. Harry looked over his shoulder when he heard her footsteps.

"Hey what you doing?" Hermione asked as she walked over to him.

"Nothing." Harry said smiling at her. Hermione smiled back as she put her hands in her jean pockets.

"I was looking for you." Hermione said watching Harry's face.

"Why?" He asked a bit curious. They began to walk over to the large rocks to sit down.

"I needed someone to talk to." Hermione said quietly as she sat down next to Harry.

"About?" Harry asked as he glanced over at Hermione.

"Boy Stuff." Hermione answered blushing lightly.

"Isn't that Ginny's department?" Harry asked as he chuckled.

"I need a guy's perspective." Hermione elbowed him.

"Okay, okay. What is it?" Harry asked suspiciously.

"You see there's this guy..." Hermione began.

"Malfoy?" Harry interrupted. Hermione rolled her eyes, she began to hate the way Harry knew everything she was talking about.

"Fine, Malfoy. Anyways he umm...well apologized to me twice." Hermione said looking over the lake. Harry nodded.

"And?" He asked.

"Well, umm..I didn't accept his apology both times." Hermione replied. Harry looked over at her, she felt as though he was studying her.

"Why not?" He asked.

"I don't want to get hurt again." Hermione answered. Harry frowned at her for a second. "What?" Hermione asked noticing his odd look.

"You love him Hermione, why can't you accept that fact. Even though you might think he'll hurt you. Part of you wants him." Harry said. Hermione quickly looked away staring at the ground.

"What am I suppose to do?" Hermione asked quietly. Harry put his arm over her shoulder.

"To be honest, I think he loves you Hermione." Harry said. Hermione gave a big sigh. "Don't beat yourself up for this. I suggest you talk it over with him." Hermione looked at him baffled. Why would he say that?

"Where's the Harry I know?" Hermione asked curiously. Harry arched his eye brow.

"What do you mean?" He asked confused.

"I mean, usually you would want to kill Malfoy for coming near me. But your telling me to talk to him." Hermione said as she looked into Harry's green eyes.

"Hermione, I never want to see you hurt and everyday I see that. Your always dazing off, your tired, you never smile and when you do, its fake. But when you were with Malfoy as much as I hate to admit it, you were happy." Harry said sincerely. Hermione nodded her head understandingly.

"So your saying I should talk it out with him." Hermione asked. Harry got up to his feet and looked down at her.

"Hermione, just do what you think is best. But I don't wanna see you upset." Harry said. He gave her a hug before walking back inside the school, leaving her to think things through.

Hermione continued to watch the lake, wondering how everything got so twisted. All she wanted in a relationship was love and honesty but Draco screwed up big time, so how can Harry tell her to talk to him?