Authors Notez: I am really sorry for the late update, I just had a lot of things going on. Well enjoy. Oh and a few of my reviewers asked me to read their stories, Sorry I haven't read it. As soon as I'm done this story, I promise I'll check yours out as well. Thanks to all. Take care.
Love Sick
Chapter Thirty Two
Hermione walked along the path of the school grounds allowing the chill in the air blow against her. Her jean jacket alone was enough to protect her of the cold but sunny April evening. The past month passed by as quickly as it came and nothing over dramatic had occurred. She had studied endlessly for the up coming exams and had made herself a study schedule for her and her friends. Harry was thankful but Ron kept complaining about all the hours he would spend on studying. As usual Hermione lectured him and Harry laughed at Ron's saddened face. Hermione also had offered to help Draco but he insisted that he could do it without anyone's help.
Draco had been also very busy talking to Professor Dumbledore and the Ministry about his financial issues. Hermione had asked if there was anything she could do but he kept telling her he would be fine. As always Draco was being stubborn once again and she often felt worried whenever he would daze off in the middle of a conversation. But today was her no study day, she wanted to enjoy the cool weather and keep her mind stress free.
Hermione kicked the wet dirt on the ground and walked down the path that lead to Hagrid's hut. Just remembering the place made her feel sorrow, she missed Hagrid. He was on an assignment for the Head Master and was down in Germany for the whole year. He promised to Harry, Ron and herself he would come back safely by the end of the year. Because he could no longer teach Care of Magical Creatures, Hermione chose not to take that class this year for it only reminded her of him.
She sat herself down on one of the large pumpkins in the pumpkin patch and enjoyed the smell of it. She glanced around the place as she remembered all the fun filled adventures she had with her two best friends. A loud crack broke her train of thought as she snapped her head to see Draco walking over to her, hands in his pocket and a stern look on his face.
"Hey." Hermione said calmly watching Draco's fatigue face.
"What you doing here alone?" Draco asked sitting down next to her.
"Thinking about Hagrid." Hermione replied. She knew very well that Draco hated Hagrid but if he had learned not to fight with Ron and Harry maybe there was a small chance he wouldn't get angry about the giant.
"Oh." Draco said quietly as he glanced at the hut then back at Hermione. "You miss him?" He asked.
"Yeah. I do." Hermione said looking down at her sneakers.
"He'll be back right?" He asked. Hermione nodded and stared into his eyes. "So don't worry over him." Draco got up and dusted the dirt off his pants. "Let's go back. This place gives me the creeps." Draco said as he stared at the hut once more.
"No one's in there." Hermione said following his gaze as she got up herself.
"It still gives me the creeps." Draco replied. Hermione rolled her eyes and began to walk back up the path Draco right behind her. In silence they entered the school and made their way to the library. Actually, Hermione wanted to read a good book she had no idea why Draco was coming along. Once she walked inside she spotted Ginny and Blaise talking near the front desk.
"I was wondering, how's Pansy doing?" Hermione asked.
"Okay I guess." Draco responded slowly. Hermione nodded and sat down near the back end tables. Draco sat across from her and watched her for awhile.
"What?" Hermione asked curiously.
"Nothing, just admiring your beauty." Draco said smugly.
"Whatever." Hermione said.
"Are you saying you don't believe me?" Draco asked mockingly.
"I do. I just don't trust your judgments." Hermione said teasingly. Draco put a hand to his heart and made a pained expression.
"I'm hurt." Draco said playfully.
"Yeah and I'm horny." Hermione said sarcastically. Draco raised his eye brow at her, maybe she said the wrong thing because his lips cracked into a evil smirk she hated and loved.
"You are? Why don't I test you myself." Draco said jokingly as he took her hand.
"I don't take tests from you." Hermione said quickly.
"What the hell are you two discussing?" Ginny asked plopping next to Hermione. Quickly Draco released her hand and Hermione blushed.
"We were merely discussing how to kill you." Hermione said sarcastically.
"Ha. Ha. Hermione, I heard half and luckily I don't repeat anything." Ginny said giving her the eye. Hermione turned away from her as she saw Blaise walking over to them.
"Hey guys." Blaise said as he sat down next to Draco.
"Hi." Hermione said.
"Where's the book I asked for?" Ginny asked.
"I couldn't find it." Blaise said innocently.
"What good use are you?" Ginny said jokingly.
"Don't be so hard on him." Hermione said and Blaise nodded in agreement.
"Now that we're all here why don't we plan a double date?" Blaise said enthusiastically.
"Umm..no." Draco replied coldly. Hermione kicked him under the table and Draco made a pained face.
"Draco's being silly. We would love to go on a double date." Hermione said quickly at Blaise. He smiled at her and all four of them began to talk about it but Hermione noticed Draco didn't put his heart into the conversation the whole time. She waited until she reached their common room to ask Draco what was wrong with him.
"Nothings wrong, I'm just don't want to go to a stupid double date." Draco replied.
"You just don't want to have fun, what is seriously bugging you?" Hermione asked.
"In a bad mood." Draco replied dryly.
"What do you mean? You were just fine awhile ago." Hermione asked.
"Well, that's because you take my mind off of this miserable life." Draco said. Hermione was now confused. Why was he miserable? Wasn't everything turning around for him?
"Why?" Hermione asked.
"Why what?"
"Why are you miserable?"
"I'm not."
"But you just said you were."
"You heard wrong." Draco said calmly.
"I have perfect hearing." Hermione retorted.
"I don't want to argue about this. I'm tired." Draco said as he began to walk up the staircase.
"You can't even confined in me?" Hermione said loudly but Draco ignored her and shut his door. Hermione leaned against the railing thinking to herself. What is up with Draco? Why is he being this way? Hermione walked up the stairs to her room and shut the door behind her. She laid down on the bed wondering about her love life or so claimed love life with Draco. Turning to her right she noticed her journal, picked it up and began to read through all the things she use to write when she felt down. A small tear came down suddenly she had the sinking feeling that she won't be able to hold on to Draco much longer. No, no! Don't think like that. He's yours..
"Can I come in?" Draco's voice came from behind her door. Hermione jumped up surprised to hear his voice. She set her book down.
"Yeah sure." Hermione said quickly brushing her hair away from her face. Draco walked in quietly shutting the door behind him and made his way to Hermione's bed post.
"Sorry, I haven't been completely honest with you." Draco said.
"I had a feeling."
"I just don't know how to explain it to you."
"Start from the beginning, that usually helps." Hermione said calmly. Draco sat down beside her. He put his elbows on his knees and rested his knuckles on his chin.
"You know I'm having money problems but I can't get the money the way I thought I could."
"You mean it won't be given to you when you're eighteen?" Hermione asked.
"Yeah, I tried to convince the ministry that my father is practically dead if he's spending life in prison but they said they won't change the law to fit my needs."
"I'm sorry." Hermione said rubbing her hand on his back.
"No, it's worse then that. I asked how can I get the money and the only option I have is to get married." Draco said quietly. "Mother wants me to rethink about the marriage with Pansy but I just don't know what to do." Draco put his hands in his face and Hermione just froze on the spot. Hermione knew something like this might happen, not the marriage but the part of not having Draco to herself.
"Marry her." Hermione said calmly. Draco snapped his head at her, shocked and confused.
"What?! I will not do that!" Draco yelled.
"It's the only way, and besides Draco it will be better for the baby. That child deserves parents who are married." Hermione said calmly, she forced herself to hide any emotions that might leap out. I will not cry in front of him.
"I can't believe you're saying this." Draco said still watching her confused. "What about us?"
"What about us? I mean do you honestly think we can live a happily ever after life together? We're young and we might not know what's best for us."
"You're not making any sense! You want to break up don't you?" Draco said angrily.
"No! That's the last thing I want. But we will end up separated later on. You know it's true."
"I won't listen to this, I can't believe you're suggesting me to get married to Pansy, after all the trouble I went through. I know what my child deserves and I will give it everything."
"How can you when you can't even support yourself? After graduation you won't be guaranteed to get a job."
"It's worth the risk if I'm with you." Draco said as he got up.
"Fine! Risk it. But don't come complaining to me later on." Hermione said calmly.
"I won't complain." Draco said. Hermione turned away from him trying not to watch him walk away from the room. When she heard the door shut she curled herself in her bed. She stayed in that position forcing any thoughts of Draco out of her mind. After what seemed like a long time of lying on her bed, Draco knocked on her door once again.
"Come in." Hermione said.
"I just want to show you something." Draco said calmly. Hermione arched her eyebrow and sat up on her bed.
"What?" Hermione asked.
"Follow me." Draco said taking her hand and dragging her out of her room and into his. Hermione kept quiet the whole the time watching him dig something out of his drawer then conjure a stereo.
"What is it?" Hermione asked eagerly.
"You'll just have to wait." Draco said calmly. He took out a CD from a CD case and placed inside the stereo. "Don't worry I won't sing." Draco pressed a few buttons and adjusted the volume.
"How do you know about muggle things?" Hermione asked.
"You don't want to know." Draco replied. He pointed to his khaki checkered shirt and khaki pants. "And you don't want to know where I got these either."
"Okay." Hermione said quietly. She was interested in what he will show her and prayed he didn't do anything strange or crazy.
"Don't worry, I just want you to hear this song." Draco said to her as though he read her mind. Hermione relaxed a little bit as Draco took her hand in his and rested it around his neck. Then he gently grabbed her by the waist. Hermione could smell his aftershave and the scent of him that she was so use to. She laid her head on his chest and felt his chin on her head.
Dig if you will a picture,
A picture of you and I engaged in a kiss,
The sweat of your body covers me,
Can you my darling, can you picture this,
Dream if you can a court yard,
Oceans of violets are bloomed,
Animals strike curious possess,
They feel the heat, the heat between me and you,
How can you just leave me standing
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe I'm just too demanding,
Maybe I'm just like my father, too bold,
Maybe your just like my mother,
She's never satisfied,
Why do we scream at each other,
This is what it sounds like when doves cry,
Touch if you will my stomach,
Feel how it trembles inside,
You got the butterflies all tied up,
Don't make me chase you, even doves have pride,
How can you just leave me standing
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe I'm just too demanding,
Maybe I'm just like my father, too bold,
Maybe your just like my mother,
She's never satisfied,
Why do we scream at each other,
This is what it sounds like when doves cry...
"Nice song." Hermione said raising her head to look at him.
"Yeah, I know." Draco said smugly looking down at her.
"Could you be any more egotistic?" Hermione asked jokingly.
"Yeah, but I'll save that for some other time." Draco said.
"Whatever." Hermione said sarcastically. "Must you act like a stuck up brat."
"Shut up." Draco said.
"Excuse me?"
"I said shut up." Draco replied. Hermione gave him a frown and he just laughed. "Hermione, sometimes you're too predictable." Hermione just stared at him, if he wanted her to be quiet she'll just keep quiet. "Come on! I was just kidding." Draco said shaking her lightly. Hermione still didn't utter a sound and Draco rolled his eyes.
"And you say I'm predictable?" Hermione asked after a moment of silence.
"You're like the blood flowing through my veins, keeps me alive and feeding my brain." Draco whispered. Hermione jerked her head in surprise. Why does that sound so familiar?
"Excuse me?" Hermione asked a bit taken back.
"Remember the song you sang for me." Draco said watching her eyes.
"Oh. I can't believe you remembered that." Hermione said a bit shocked.
"There's a lot of things I remember." Draco said jokingly. Hermione rolled her eyes playfully and laid her head back on his chest. "We should head to bed." Draco said plainly. Hermione gave a sigh and nodded.
"You're right." Hermione gave him a kiss on the cheek and left his room. As she undressed and went to bed Hermione forgot about Draco's financial problems and the marriage. All that she kept thinking was how good he felt around her. That's how she ended falling into a deep sleep.