Angel

Chapter 5

Realizations

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In a flourish, the young man was on his knees, a delicate sued heart shaped box in his hands, the usual gentle orbs held determination and...promise.

"Sakura, will you honor me by becoming my wife?"

Sakura's head went empty for a minute, her body felt limp and the faint part of her consciousness staring at the man she had come to trust so much, and possibly loved. Li's eyes held so much love...for her; she knew that second that if she said yes, this man will make her the happiest wife with all his heart. But a nagging sensation at the back of her heart, whispering of an unknown doubt. She found her self wanting to confirm something that she isn't sure of her self, but she felt like she need it.

Tentatively, the chestnut haired girl drew forward, until their face were barely apart, she felt the other hold his breath. Slipping her eyes closed, she gently captured his lips, exploring the sense of her long time friend'. Li taste sweet, almost like cherry....like her. His tongue slowly slipped between her parted lips, gentle and almost hesitant. Momentarily, the girl drowned herself in the warmth of him, but that's not quite what she's looking for. Sakura found herself searching...almost expectantly, for another sensation, one of swirling vanilla and lavender. Suddenly, the semi familiar face snapped in her head, the flowing silver tresses, the fathomless indigo orbs...

Gingerly, the girl broke their kiss, and scrutinized Li's face. He looked dazed, but a happy glimmer shined in his eyes. A wave of sadness hit her. He isn't the one for her; the painful realization hit her all of a sudden. They kissed...but it's just a kiss...no fluttering of the heart, no sparks of happiness in her heart...it's no more than a kiss.

You're chasing a hopeless dream, if you refuse him, you'll never get a second chance again. Though the chastise of her logic screamed back at her, she can't seem to push the face of a stranger she just met a week ago out of her mind.

"Yue..." The name rolled off her lips like a whispering melody. Li stiffened against her. Sakura stared straight into his eyes for the first time of the night, a new light shinning behind her ushed tears. Her voice sounded clear between them.

"I'm sorry Li."

You're being presumptuous. Yue chided himself mentally. Leaning against the bookshelves of the darkened library, he focused and unfocused his eyes on the dim glow from inside the window. The buzzing down in the street almost seems distant from his lone stand inside the deserted building. Yet the peels of laugher from Sakura seem to echo again and again in his head.

And how are so sure that she would come back? He groaned, disgusted with his sudden sentimentalness.

"Yue...if I want to meet again...where..."

"I'll be at the library when you need me."

Such a simple promise, but a promise to him nonetheless. Strangely, her unfinished question gave him all the hopes in the world, even if it meant waiting there emptily. He wetted his lips, there's no trace of the sweetness of the cherry flavor lingering there anymore, he realized with regret. Trailing again to that brief touch they shared, he almost missed the faint prickle at the back of his mind. A presence, not far from here, the warning waves brought by it rushed his senses, someone's death draws near. With one last longing glance back at his shadow cast sanctuary among the shelves, he closed his eyes, willing the partitions of the atoms of his body. In a swirling flurry of soft light, he was gone.

The confusion on Li's face hurt, more so than the desperation rolling off him in waves. He gazed at her, his sincere eyes prodding, maybe for the reason of his rejection? His voice is unfathomably calm.

"Who?"

"I..." Lowering her head, Sakura found that she was at a lost for words. Who really? She doesn't even know anything about Yue, she's not even sure that Yue's the man's true name at all. But she know is the curve of his delicate jaw line, the slightest quirk on his lips, the earnestness in his voice, and every twinkle in his eyes.

"He has...purple eyes..." Her tiny voice sounds foreign even to her, purple eyes, what a nice summary to describe a man, she thought sarcastically, yet it is all that came to her empty mind.

The warmth of Li's hand drew away, and she felt a single tear trail down her cheek. There's such a thin line between love and hate, will she loose all she had with him just because of this? Desperately, she grabbed his hand again. Entertwining the strong fingers with her own, she held it over her heart.

"Li...I never meant it to...be like this." Choking on the few words that embody so many emotions, but found the other avoiding her eyes. Li got up, a forced smile on his lips, and gave Sakura one last chaste kiss, his lips lingering by Sakura's ear lobe.

"I understand" his whisper sent shivers up her spine, "follow your heart and be happy Sakura, I'll always love you."

Wordlessly, the girl watched as Li turned and headed for the door, with one last look back at her, he disappeared behind it.

Walking slowly to the window, she pressed her forehead to the wonderful coolness of the window. Li's figure soon appeared out of the front entrance, heading for his car.

It all happened so fast.

One moment he was walking across the street, and then suddenly the wild screech of wheels and frantic headlights blinded her vision. Her scream of warning was left unheard as the dull thump of body thrown by the car echoed on the deserted pavement.

Ok change of events, some one reviewed me and told me to create some conflicts instead of this story being a total sap romance, so here it is. I'm not sticking to the orginal city of angels plot any more, but if u'd like that, let me know. If there's scene you like in there that would love to be in here, tell me and I'll try fitting it in.

Isn't cliffhangers fun?? lol only when I do it though But don't worry I actually got it planned out on what's going to happen, just no more time to write right now, but I promise I'll update it next week!! So please stay tuned for it and don't kill meeh!! I have some really good stories on my fav list that haven't been updated in like a year!!! Your feedback will really help me to keep going, so review me please .