By: Padfoot-chan
Thank you so much for the review, Midnyte Wolf. That really got me back into writing Also, thanks to everyone who reviewed to the last chapter of Dark Love.
Disclaimer: I do not own Golden Sun.
Warning: Shonen-ai.
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Chapter 2: Return
It has been over a year since Garcia and Ivan left for that mission but Picard and the others keep refusing to allow me to go out to look for Ivan. The fact that my maker could still be out there has gotten me more worried than I probably should be. I do not know how he will take out last meeting into account. He could want revenge for me sending him flying into the wall of his castle and then…out of it. He may want to get to me through Ivan as he had nearly done last time our paths had crossed.
I just cannot take this waiting around anymore. I know that Picard wants to go out there to find them as much as I do but he is still so adamant about us following orders and sticking around at the academy until they come back. What if they do not come back? How long can he wait before he finally breaks under the pressure of not having the person you love most next to you. Ivan means the world to me, he is my world. I cannot bare the thought of him being in danger somewhere far from my reach. How am I supposed to protect him if I do not even know where the hell he is?
I have had enough of this. No more waiting around for me. I have always been a man of action and this time is not going to be different. Ivan has been gone far longer than he had anticipated. If I had left on a dangerous assignment and gone off for longer than I had planned, Ivan would have gone after me. Sitting here is just stupid.
I walk out of the room Ivan and I share and stomp down the stairs past Sheba. She calls after me but I ignore her and hurry to Picard's office at the other end of the house. Once I reach the doors, I push them open and cross the room to Picard's desk. He looks up from his papers and smiles at me until I slam my hands onto his desk, almost splintering the wood. "I-is something the matter, Robin? You seem quite upset. Do you wish to discuss something with me?"
"Cut the act, Picard. I know what you do at night. I hear you when I pass your room on the way to the kitchen at night. You are sitting up in your bed crying over that picture of Garcia that you took before he left with Ivan." He turns his gaze away from me and I soften my look, "I know you miss him as much as I miss Ivan, maybe more. Why do you insist on continuing this if it is only going to hurt people? Picard, stop being a ninny and help me find them, if you will not at least do that, let me go out there and look for them on my own."He drops his head into his hands, staring down at the papers in front of him until a sole, crimson tinged tear drops onto the white paper. "I want to…I want to so badly, Robin." He whispers faintly, shaking his head. "But I am scared. What if something terrible has happened to either of them? I do not think I would be able to bear it is something happed to them while we were just sitting here patiently waiting for them to return like lovesick idiots.
"If we stay here and keep waiting for them here…there is the chance that they will return and even if something has happened to them, we can keep thinking that they are all right and that they are going to return soon because…we love them…" I narrow my eyes at him but I know that this is the only way he knows how to handle it. I look down at my hand, puzzled when I see that it is trembling. "Like a lighthouse, the fire in our hearts burning brightly to guide them back to us."
"Do as you wish, Picard but I am not afraid to find out the truth because I know Ivan would never die on me." I turn around quickly and begin out of the room. Picard stands up from his chair and holds his hand out to me. "You can stay there and keep dreaming but what is that going to get you, Picard? How much more of this pain can you stand? You may live forever…but what does that mean without someone to share it with? Life is empty without love. Why else would we have been given these emotions in the first place? The ability to feel love for someone so deeply that it hurts when you are without the person that you have falling in love with, the ability to feel their love each time you touch them…" I turn back and look at him, "What is the point if you lose that? Why should you keep on living? I came back because I realized that. There was no magic in what happened when I fought my master. I knew that Ivan needed me and that was what brought me back. I did not want it to end like that…with so many things left undone, some many words left unsaid.
"Is there anything you want to tell Garcia? It would be a shame if there was any unfinished business between the two of you and something terrible had happened to him." I shrug my shoulders and turn my back to him again. "Picard, we have known each other for two years now, ever since I came to live here with Ivan. You and I have had a good relationship, I consider you one of my closet friends, maybe my best friend. You really do seem to understand me. I like to think that I know you, Picard. You are not the kind of person who likes to leave things undone…do not start now, not with this…not like this. I know you are scared but you do not have to be. Try having a little more faith in the person that you love. If you cannot trust him, who can you trust?"
"Robin…you do not even know where they went."
"It does not matter, I just have to follow my heart, no matter how long it takes. I have waited over a year at least now I will be doing something useful instead of just sitting around like you and the others. I have to do something before I go insane." He follows me to the front door and grabs his coat, pulling it on as he kicks off his slippers and slips on his shoes. "So you decided to change your mind."
"You knew I would, or else you would have just said 'I'm going out, dammit and there is nothing you or any of your stupid hunters can do about it'." He smiles weakly at me, "Besides, you do not seem so surprised so I thought that you would be expecting it, especially when you did not turn around and ask me why I was following you." I suppress a smile and nod to him, opening the door and stepping out into the cold night air. It was raining just like the night Ivan and Garcia left. Before the rain used to calm me and sooth my worries but now, it is only a memory of what I am without. I flip the hood of my coat up over my head and look back at Picard as he closes the door and holds his arm over his head to shield his face from the rain.
I do not know where to begin to look but standing around in the rain is not going to help one bit. We begin to walk down the driveway when a shadowy form appears in the distance near the wrought-iron gate that separates our world from the world of normal mortals.
The figure looks like a tall man carrying someone in his arms. I drop to the ground and pull up the leg of my pants, grabbing the hilt of my knife that I hide in my boot. "Wait, Robin." Picard lays a reassuring hand on my shoulder and I hesitate, turning to look up at him. He does not meet my gaze; his eyes are trained on the figure, something like hope shining in his eyes. I turn to look back to the figure and narrow my eyes, the rain making it hard to see.
I feel my breath leave me when the man comes into focus, not because of him, but because of what he is holding in his arms. I jump off the ground and run towards him, my arms out to take the person from him. Garcia and Ivan. Neither of them have changed much but their clothes are warn and their hair is longer. I take Ivan from Garcia and look down at him, tears welling in my eyes. He has been gone for such a long time and yet it feels as if I had just held him in my arms the other day.
Picard moves up to Garcia next to me, hesitating for a moment before throwing his arms around the hunter's neck. "I missed you too, Picard." Whispers Garcia, hugging the vampire. I smile weakly at them and turn to leave. "Robin, Ivan needs his rest. He has been like that for a while now. The battle with that vampire took a lot out of him. He should be fine with a couple days of rest." I nod, just happy that I can hold Ivan in my arms again. This is the way things should be, Ivan here in my arms and no one else's.
-TBC-
That is right,
this is not the end yet. I have a lot planned for My Angel. shakes fist
in air People shall die this time and stay dead! Not…Robin, Ivan, Garcia, and
Picard of course I could never kill my shonen-ai bunnies.
Robin: …Shonen-ai bunnies? I'm not even going to ask about that one.
It's better that way. Read and review please!