Well, this is my first fic so there should be a lot of wrong grammar and stuff like that, but be patient because I'll do my best. This story should seem to you like an EnishixKaoru fic but it isn't. In future you will see... Anyway I started to write this fic after my heart's broken so it should be a lot of sadness, plus I was listening to metallica's black album songs (METALLICA!!!!), so this is why the first chapter and the fic have names of metallica's songs. I'm not excepting many reviews because this chapter is only the beginning and the fic is going to get better more ahead. Read and enjoy! Lots of kisses!!!!! Angel338
Note: I don't own any of this characters, I only change a litlle bit of their behavior for this story! And lyrics from the songs are not mine: they belong to metallica.
Chapter one: of wolf and men by Angel338
There she was again. That edge standing in front of her was too close now. She knew it. But didn't try to fight it. She just wanted that. To jump to the cliff and die. Nobody was going to miss her anyway. So why not?
She was watching throw the large big windows of her office, her forehead pressed against the cold material as she was trying to keep herself from falling.
"Kaoru are you okay?" a tall and very beautiful woman asked as she opened her office. But she never got an answer. Instead there was a cold silence as Kaoru was staring at the crowd from the bar. "Well are you going to answer me or not??" the tall women asked as she stood in front of a black metallic modern desk.
"What do you want Megumi-san?" Kaoru asked in a very weak voice, with no move from her position.
"Somebody is looking for you down there. I think is Yukushiro. He must come here to get you home." Megumi said as she grabbed some little plastic bag that was in the desk. "What is this??"
"What do you think it is Megumi? Tell him to get the f#% out of here before I send someone to. I will not go home with him."
"Why are you taking LSD?" Megumi asked this time in a very angry tone.
"C'mon you are not my babysitter and I do whatever I want. Leave me alone! " Megumi was now completely taken aback from Kaoru's words. Not saying that she was totally hurt.
"Ok. But you know that this is stupid. You don't need this s#%!" she said has she thrown the bag to Kaoru. Kaoru didn't measure her words but it was fine for her. She was always alone in that dark place when nobody was there. She was all alone. She finally set in her desk has she lighted a cigarette. God how she wanted to die! She wanted to vanish. She was so alone even if she was surrounded by a mafia loyal to her father. But it was OK. It didn't matter to her.
Suddenly someone knocked at the door. She didn't bother to look because she already knew who it was. She just stood sit and calmly smoking her cigarette.
"Kaoru-san I came here to pick you home. But Megumi-san told me that you don't want to come home. Can I ask why?" a tall and very beautiful blonde- palled men asked Kaoru. His eyes scanned her for a brief moment full of worried. "You are pale Kaoru. Are you feeling alright? Why don't you answer me?"
"I'm fine don't bother to ask and pretend that you care! Get the f#$% out of here before I call the security!!! Let me be alone!"
"I don't think that you should stay alone in a place like this Kaoru. And you father send me to get you. He is very worried. You should get home."
"Enishi please leave! I am fine, and if I want to get home I have a car and I get home alone ok?"
"Fine. But we will escort you home if you don't mind." Enishi said as he walked to the door and close it behind without even waiting for an answer. Now Kaoru was mad. How dare he think of her as a ten year child that she was a long time ago!? She has grown up dammit!! Why did he refuse to see!!!??
Suddenly a sound of a guitar sounded in her ears waking her from her day dream. Drums played hard and fast, and the song was calling her:
After the new day's mist I run
After the new day's mist I've come
I hunt, therefore I am
Harvest the land
Taking of the fallen lamb
Her song, she thought. How she love it. She didn't notice that the music was taken her back to the bar. The door of her office opened and she walk throw the stairs as a day dream. And she heard it again:
Shape shift, nose to the wind
Shape shift, feeling I've been
Move swift, all senses clean Earth's gift
Back to the meaning, back to the meaning of Life.
When she noticed she was already in the crowd. The bodies pumping up to her, sweaty, dirty. And then there it was. Enishi. Looking to her with worry in is eyes. But more than that. With something that she could not describe.
Enishi was starting to get out from the stupid noise from the bar when his eyes guide hide to the back. She was there. Kaoru. He didn't notice how beautiful she has become in this past years serving her father. Her black long hair, smooth, dark has she was all to her right side covering almost her right eye. Her face was so angelical, pale with two big blue eyes. Oh God how he wanted her in that moment. She slowly walk to him and stopped as they were nose to nose. He couldn't take it anymore. He grabbed her and kissed her like it was a need to breath. She responded with an equal fever. When they both knew they were again in her office. Kaoru pulled him in to her black modern sofa and went in top of him. Taking his black t-shirt she started to kiss his muscular body. It was too much to him. He grabbed her and rolled in top of her and started to take her black dress.
Megumi saw the scene from the exit door and couldn't help but to smile. They were both like a dog and a cat. Always fighting, two egos that didn't know that they were in love. But Enishi has hurt Kaoru a long time ago. Maybe she will forget it this time. She needed Enishi has Enishi needed her.
"Well I wish you both a lot of luck. You will need it." She whispered to herself has she was walking of the bar.
Enishi collapsed on top of her. Sweat covering both of their bodies as he lay there, in top of her. His head on her constantly raising chest, listening her heart beat fast and fast, but slowing in every minute that passed.
"We shouldn't have done this." Enishi finally said after some time on silence.
"Why?" Kaoru asked with her eyes full of exhaustion.
"Because you are my boss's daughter. This is forbidden."
"You know pretty well that I'm not his daughter. So this is not forbidden."
"You are his daughter even if you don't want it." Enishi said as he gives a kiss in Kaoru's breast. He got up to her face and traces a finger on her features. "God you're so beautiful... But we can't do this. It's a matter of ethic. We cannot involve..."
"So don't." Kaoru finally said as she pushed Enishi from her. He fell on the cold floor looking to her, surprised. "For you I'll never be more then a pathetic child that will always be eternally stupid and ugly, oh and right now you discover that I am a whore too. Just get out of here; I can go home by myself."
"You father give me orders to escort you home." He said as he zipped his back jeans.
"Did he give you orders to screw me also? Or am I a bonus?" Kaoru said as she lighted a cigarette. Her eyes never leaving his. She was doing it again. Driving him mad. She dresses herself and got to the exit of the bar.
"Hey Kaoru where are you going?" a women, big and muscular asked her.
"Jen close the bar for me ok. I need to go home. I'm tired." She said as she walked off the door.
"Anything you say boss. Good night."
She walked next to her black Porsche and opens it. She enters the car and drive off.
"Why did I do this? I give him exactly what he wanted and I was supposed to let him suffer! You're stupid hormones Kaoru Kea! And he humiliated you and you let him! I can believe I did this. F#$%! Now you really are a whore." Kaoru thought to herself as she was getting to the Kea's mansion.
"Good night Miss. Kaoru." The security guards saluted her.
"Good night." She answered.
Has the big iron gates open she drove throw an almost endless road that was surrounded by a huge garden with all flowers that you could imagine. But finally she got to the mansion. She parked the Porsche and another guard opened the front door. She got to the stairs and got to her bedroom.Her bedroom was almost of the size of an apartment. All white with two huge windows that give access to a balcony where you could see a big back garden and a pool. Her bed was equally big with too big black pillows in an iron black bed. There was also a desk with a computer with a big screen and there were some papers that were all messed up on the desk. She took off her dress and took a quick shower in the private bathroom. When she was done she dresses her silk-dress pyjama and went to her bed.
Enishi left the bar and didn't saw Kaoru's black Porsche and went completely mad.
"That kid!!!! God how I hate her!!!!" he thought to himself. But the feelings of the night before were still fresh on his mind. He had never felt so good in his life, and he already had is quote of sex. How this child could left him like that. Then it suddenly it hit him.
I cannot be involved.
He already was caught up in her web. How could she do that to him? She was the child that he saved ten years ago. That little kid...
The rain... The shadows... an angel .
Kaoru was tossing and turning on her bed. The strange dream was hitting her gain.
She was standing in a sakura's garden. Pink and white petals were flowing in the wind. She was feeling so peaceful like she never did before. She didn't even remember seeing sakura's trees before!
"Kaoru-chan you should go home now. It is cold outside and you will catch a cold." A voice of a man no more then 16 told her.
Suddenly she woke up.
"Who is this man that I'm always dreaming about? Why do I feel so peaceful when he talks to me?" Kaoru whispered to herself has she got up and reached to the windows. It was already morning. "Who are you stranger?" she asked to no one.
Hummmmmmmm! Who the stranger would be? Why does Kaoru have these strange dreams?? Why Enishi refuse to accept his feelings for Kaoru and why is she always so mad at him??? See you all in the next chapter!!!! Please review and tell me wat you think!!!!!!