(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Willow woke up. Her alarm clock read 9:17. It was a Saturday, so she did not have to go to school. For a moment, she felt peaceful and calm. She then realised Spike was studying her closely, and remembered the events of the previous day.

"Mornin' pet" he said cheerfully (well, as cheerfully a vampire can be when talking about the daylight hours).

"Morning, Spike. Would you like some breakfast? Oh yeah, vampires don't eat..."

Spike cut her off. "Correction, pet. Vampires don't need to eat. I still do. I mean it would be impossible to live with out chocolate!" Willow let out a fake bray of laughter. Spike saw through it. "Still feel bad?"

Willow looked up at him with clear green eyes which were sparkling with tears.

"Oh Spike, it hurts too much. I want it to stop."

"The pain gets less, pet. It won't last forever, though it may feel like it will. It will get better."

"How can it? My boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend, and they were laughing about me behind my back! Why? Do I have a deformation or something?"

Spike shook his head. "The only answer I can give to you is Oz must be blind. He doesn't see how amazing you are. Buffy...is just an idiot. Peaches got down and dirty with her, and she stuck a sword in him and sent him to hell for a holiday!" Willow let out a giggle.

"Spike....do you really think I'm amazing?"

"You just don't see it, do you? You are beautiful in every way." He said softly.

Willow looked into his stormy blue eyes. It was strange...she felt closer to a vampire without a soul, than she did to Buffy or Xander at the moment.

Spike leaned forward, and softly kissed Willow on the lips. She pulled Spike towards her to deepen the kiss.

She suddenly broke away.

"No....what about Drusilla? She, I-I can't do to her what Buffy did to me."

Spike looked at her thoughtfully. He liked the fact she cared about everyone. Even about the feelings of an insane, evil, vampires.

"Dru...,she doesn't love me anymore. She wants Angelus back. Just last night, she came back with a Shilgoka demon. It's why I went out alone last night." Willow's face softened.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Willow asked, concerned and stroking his cheek.

"You had enough on your plate without my troubles." Spike answered.

"Oh Spike..."

"Yes, love?"

"I-I love you."

"You know what, pet? I love you too"