An- Hey minna!! I no I didn't update when I said I would but I mean I had to re type this story like 6 times!!! Every time I would type it would sound all wrong. This chapter just wouldn't sound right to me. Well at least now it sounds a shit load better. Well I guess your dieing to read this chapter so let me just give it to u now.

My World Has Changed

Chapter 3- In The Shadows Of My Mind

(Later that Day)

Kagome sat cross-legged across in a room with no widows. Across from her was Keade and in between them were a couple white and yellow candles and incenses that smelled of cinnamon. Kagome's eye brows knitted together as she concentrated. Her eye lid twitched until she finally cracked from the lack of sound. She slammed her hands on the wood floor while making a sound of frustration.

"Forget it!!" Kagome paced the room with her hands on the small of back. She wore gray sweat pants that laid low on her hips and a white sports bra with no make up. She had came right after lunch and changed into some clothes she always left at Keade's home when she needed to get away from her mother. This had become her home for the last nine years. She had known Keade since her father had left. Kagome was about six when her father had left with her only little brother whom was only three. Keade had been her nanny since her mother work all day. Then she was fired when her mom lost her job and that was when her mother started drinking. Kagome was about ten when her mother was first abusive. Kagome had put all her trust in Keade as an aunt or grandmother. "I'm never going to get this! I give up!"

"Sit down child. Explain to me your troubles." Kagome laid down on the floor and exhaled. This was going to be a long story.

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Kagome was walking to lunch for fourth period with a scowl on her face. Her first period had been the best. Yes, the teacher that she loathed get hit with the oldest prank, but it was filled with cottage cheese and she took it as her right to call him lard ass all day, but second period was not was she called happy. It was all because of the new girl.

'Sango, was it?' Kagome thought. 'Oh is that bitch going to pay.' Kagome's didn't what was up that girl's ass, but oh was it in deep. Kagome was filled with glee since first period when she walked into her second class, Science. Kagome sat in her assigned seat with the hugest smile on her face. Her smile soon faded when she leaned forward and found that someone had placed gum on the back of her chair. Kagome turned around to see the Sango girl trying to control her laughter. Once Kagome had pulled off all the gum on her back she started her science experiment trying to think of a plan to get the girl back when Sango walked by spilling water all over her gray pants. Kagome instantly got up and pushing the girl to the floor before going to her locker. Luckily Kagome always kept a spare pair of pants just in case. She skipped her third period and waited for fourth to come so that she could talk to Ayame. Kagome pushed open the door to the outdoors cafeteria and sat in her usual spot in the table under a giant Sakura tress without bothering to greet Ayame, who was already at the table.

"What's up your ass?" she asked taking a bite out of her sandwich. Kagome grunted as she rested her head on the palm of her hand. "No! How could you let her do that!?" Kagome groaned and turned to face Ayame. "You're right!" (A/n oh the communication of females ;;) Ayame placed her fingers in her mouth and whistled. Suddenly an orange blur appeared. Kagome spun around and squealed. There stood a teen boy with bright orange hair with sparkling green eyes. He was a head tall then the girl.

"Shippo!! I feel like I haven't seen you in a month!" Kagome squealed out. Shippo was her best guy friend, they had known each other since they were little.

"That because you haven't, remember the incident last month where…" Kagome gasped.

"That was you?" Shippo nodded. Last month someone had rigged all the intercoms in the school to start blowing bubbles, school was out for a couple day because they couldn't find where all the bubbles were coming from. "Damn Shippo. I mean I was even jealous." Kagome joked. She sat down and Shippo sat across from her.

"So what happened?" he asked. Ayame explained what happened to Shippo while finishing her lunch. "So, what level are we seeing?" Shippo asked scratching his chin.

"10." Kagome growled out with no hesitation. This bitch needed to be taught, and bad. Shippo blink and looked at Ayame before looking back at Kagome, Ayame doing the same thing.

"Okay, Kagome, what is your plan?" Ayame asked. Kagome grabbed something from her bag and something from Ayame's lunch. She showed her weapons to her best friends and smirked. "No, you really….ketchup and permanent red paint??" Ayame said looking at the objects.

"Well, since she does trust me, I need someone to do it for me." Kagome looked at Shippo and Ayame.

"Nuh huh, I'm not doing it. If I get another suspension so soon, my grandpa will have a heart attack." Kagome moved her gaze to just Shippo.

"No." Shippo said simply. Kagome gave him her best puppy face until he caved. "Fine! Fine! But if I'm going down I'm taking you with me." Oh what lovely friends Kagome had. Kagome grabbed the paint bottle and put in the ketchup, to make is smell bad, and closed the bottle shaking it and handed it to Shippo. Shippo then walked over to the target. He tapped her shoulder, and watched her turn around irritated.

"What?" she snapped while Shippo rolled his eyes at the girl.

"Are you Sango Taijia?" The girl nodded. "Well, I was told to find you and tell you that someone is waiting for you in the lunch line." Sango got up and left. Shippo then smothered the stuff all over the girl's chair, and being a Kitsune, made the concoction invisible and walked back to Kagome and watched the prank. Sango then returned grumbling and sat in her chair. She froze and Shippo then made the mixture visible again. She stood up and screamed as everyone in the cafeteria started to laugh. Kagome then stood up to seal the deal.

"NEED A PAD?!? OR DO YA NEED A TAMPON?!?" Sango then began to stomp away, but not before giving Kagome a death glare in which Kagome stuck out her tongue. Kagome got a week suspension for that little stunt.

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Kagome explained the whole story to Keade, substituting Sango's name for this girl or the girl. Keade nodded her head to the whole story knowing Kagome's prankster side. Once Kagome got all her frustrations out she sat up, in her crossed legged position. Keade understood Kagome and sat across from her with her legs under herself.

"Now, Kagome try to focus all your energy to your mind." Keade whispered. Kagome closed her eyes and felt herself go weak and all her energy go to her mind. Soon she saw colored spots appear and take form to the objects around her. She could tell Keade's figure apart from everything else, it was in the shape of Keade's body but it was a green haze. Kagome also could feel Keade's warmth radiant off her light green form. Kagome looked around with her eyes still closed looking at her surrounding. She could see the flames of the candles and the scent of each incenses float in the air and mix. She opened her eyes and it was gone, but she could sort of sense it. "You are now able to see aura. You will soon learn, that you will be able to differ the good from the bad. That is enough for today." Keade blew out the candles and walked out followed by Kagome. "I will be out side tending the garden if you need me." Kagome smiled and walked upstairs to her room that Keade always kept for her.

She walked into the room and fell on top of her white bed. She clothes her eyes thought about her life. Ten years ago she would swear her life was perfect. A father and mother who loved her dearly, and a new baby brother. Then a year later things changed. Kagome's mother and father weren't exactly a happy couple any more. They would yell and scream at each other when they thought no one could hear them, but in truth the one person who they didn't want to take note of it was in fact listening. Kagome would cry with her head under her pillow, with her hands squeezing it over her eyes so she wouldn't hear. Then one morning he was gone. Her beloved father had vanished in the night. Taking all of his possessions, including Kagome's three year old brother. Kagome refused to go to school for a week, convinced that her father was just going out for an errand. But soon it kicked in that he was never going to come back and she was never going to see him and her brother, Souta, again.

Kagome's eyes watered, but her tears were soon blinked away as she got off her bed. Nope, she hadn't cried since she was twelve and she wasn't starting now. Kagome lazily walked to her dresser and grabbed some clothes and walked into her bathroom. She turned on her stereo when Keade knocked on her bathroom door.

"Kagome, I'll be stepping out to the grocery store and won't be back for a while. You are welcome to anything as always." Keade said through the door,

"Alright, thanks for letting me know." Kagome heard Keade walked out of her room before turning on the radio. She filled the bath tub with warm water while nodding her head to her favorite song. She stripped off her clothing and turned off the faucet on the tub when it was full. Slowly she submerged into the water humming the song playing on the radio.

Now I can taste
The war that I've been fighting
Start to fall but I'm still standing here
Behind the wall of dying faith

Kagome's body slipped under the water with her eyes closed until not one inch of her body was on the surface of the water. She loved this band and their lyrics always had a connection with her. When she first heard this song, it instantly became her favorite. It was her life, her situation, and her feeling. Her life was a war and she was fighting back, but she was still surviving. She never admitted but she felt that soon she would lose the battle to herself. Her life can't keep pushing her down, because if it did, who knew what she would do.

I can't forget
The fight that's growing stronger
Face to face with hopes of longer days
To build on something we should save

Kagome lifted her head slightly, just enough to take a breath before lying back down. With her eyes still open she looked at her body. Even with the water distortion she could clearly see her scars. Ugly, long scars ran down her thighs and forearms and torso. Still she knew she had more gruesome marks on her back. Kagome shut her eyes instantly hoping that the story of her scars wouldn't come to her mind.

I stand alone
I'm on my own
My hands will bleed, My hands will bleed!
I'm holding on to what is gone
What's left of me?

She slammed her hand to her ears as she heard the word to the chorus. She didn't want to remember it, but something wanted to remind her of the past. Remind her of that dreadful day that she preferred to be in the shadows of her mind. She reopened her eyes to see her something that chilled her bones.

I'm falling down
But I should find my strength in this
A light that burns to reconnect
My heart for what it's meant to give

Her scars were slowly reopening and blood slowly oozing out. No, this was just a figment of her imagination. Why? Why was her conscious being so persistent? What was the reason for her to remember? She shut her eyes again, not wanting to see that view.

I stand alone
I'm on my own
My hands will bleed, My hands will bleed!
I'm holding on to what is gone
What's left of me?!

But as soon as Kagome closed her eyes all off her memories flooded her senses and made her relive all that she wanted never, ever to remember. She would revisit that horrid day when she was small and defenseless. The day when she lost all hope for her mother. (A/n Okay there is gonna be a couple very, very short flashes of her past, and there gonna be in italics, just to no.)

Walk!
Fall!

Kagome walked into to the darkened living room. She looked on the floor to see at least a dozen beer bottles on the ground.

"Mommy?"

Stand again so I can
Walk!
Fall!

All she could was blurry objects around her as she grouped the ground on her hands and knees. Not excepting what was to happen next.

Stand again so I can
Walk!
Fall!

"NO! PLEASE! NO! DON'T!!"

Stand again so I can

FALL!!!

"It's all your fault, all of it."

I stand alone
I'm on my own
My hands will bleed, My hands will bleed!
I'm holding on to what is gone
What's left of me?!

Kagome tried to scream, but succeeded in filling her already burning lungs with water. She shot up from the water coughing out the water that found its way into her mouth and gasped for breath. She looked at her body to find that the water was clear and her scars where still shut. Suddenly the door bell rang repeatedly. Kagome grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her body, turned off her radio and ran for the front door, with those flashes still in her mind. Once she reached the door and opened it her eyes widened.

"YOU!!!"

There staring right at her was the same guy that almost ran her over. And what was Kagome's first reaction to seeing him. She shut the door in his face that's what. And stomped right back up the stairs to her room where she turned up her stereo to full blast ignoring the loud knocks on her door and changed, with the incident in the bathroom forgotten, for now that it.

Kagome heard the front door open and close lightly. Kagome put down the volume of the radio, grabbing a metal baseball bat in her hands and stealthy walked down the stairs. She turned the corner fully ready to knock the living crap out of who she was sure was a stalker, but found Keade there instead.

"Kagome what are you doing, and with a bat of all things." Keade questioned. Kagome let the bat rest on her shoulder and relaxed her body.

"Keade you got to watch your back now, some lunatic is stalking me." Kagome's eyes shifted to a movement behind Keade, to see the raven-haired teen walking toward them. "There he is!" she jumped to the guy and was about to whack him with all her might when he caught the bat in one hand.

"Nice try, wench, but you're going to have a shit load better to hurt me. And who would want to stalk a ugly bitch like you?" Kagome glared at the guy standing before her.

"Kagome this is an old friend of mine, another child I took care of, Inuyasha. Inuyasha this Kagome, I took care of her as well." Keade explained. Inuyasha and Kagome just continued to stare at each other as Keade walked by and toward her living room. Kagome soon followed her and sat next to her, while Inuyasha sat across from them. "So what brings you to Tokyo, Inuyasha?"

"No choice, I'm going to the school here." Kagome's eyes snapped her eyes to his when she heard this. So he was friends with that Sango bitch, well, she was going to have fun with this. Inuyasha glanced at Kagome suspiciously not liking the look in her eye.

"Your one of the three that got stuck here weren't you?" Kagome asked, already fully knowing the answer. Inuyasha nodded as he looked at her, Kagome, that name rang a bell with him.

"Now Inuyasha why have you come to visit me?" Keade asked. Inuyasha turned his view from Kagome to Keade. He was about to say something when she glared at Kagome.

"It's none of this wenches business, so she might as well leave." Inuyasha said sticking his nose in the air and folding his arms.

"Hey I'm living here too so, if anyone is going anywhere it would be you." Kagome said closing her eyes and also crossing her arms.

"And why are you living here shouldn't you be living with you mommy and daddy." Kagome's eyes snapped to Inuyasha and instantly remember what happened in the bathroom.

"That is none of your business either!" Kagome's eyes flashing a bit of fear. Inuyasha snorted and turned to Kagome.

"Ran away from home did you? Probably ran because you a spoiled brat who didn't get what you want. Yeah, that's it. Pissed 'casue mommy and daddy didn't want to give you money poor you. Poor pitiful you, you don't deserve parents." Kagome lunged at Inuyasha and began to chock him.

"You don't know anything about me! So shut the fuck up! You don't know what I have been through!" Kagome said, until Keade pulled Kagome off Inuyasha.

"I think it's better if you go." Keade said having troubles holding back Kagome. Without a word Inuyasha walked out of the house, with such rage he had felt in his entire life.

A/N I think that's enough for now, I hope this makes up for the time I didn't update!!! The song doesn't belong to me it belongs to Story Of The Year!! I'm really sorry! Remember to vote for which version you want the old or new! I swear I'll try to update more often!! REVIEW!!!