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CHAPTER 5: I CAN'T
Connor got up before Jack and left, looking back at the sleeping figure in the bed. She walked out onto the deck to watch the sunrise. The sky turned colors before her eyes. Her mind was working a mile a minute, trying to decide what to do with these new feelings.
She felt someone walk up behind her but didn't turn around. "Mr. Turner."
"You seem somewhat troubled Connor, what's up?"
"You know I can't tell you that."
"You could if you could learn to trust me. I've kept your other secret for a while now, do you honestly think I will just yell out what you say to me to the crew."
"It's big Will, very big."
"What?"
Will walked up and stood next to her looking out at the rising sun. Connor didn't say anything for a few minutes and he began to think she wouldn't tell him.
"I slept with Jack." She said looking down at her hands. "What's more, I fell in love with Jack."
"What's the problem? I don't see it I'm sorry. Does he not love you back?"
"I don't know and I don't care. The problem is that I cannot love him. Damn it. I am not supposed to be in love with him. God, why did I allow this! I should have never even began to converse with him, I should have kept to myself like always."
"Is it such a bad thing to love him?"
"Because it's me. I can't afford to love, I'll only get hurt. I won't allow myself to love him, I can't."
"Why not? Who says that you are going to get hurt?"
"I can't explain it Will, but I will. I just can't go there." She turned away from the ocean and walked back to the cabin.
Will stood and watched her leave, confused by her answer.
She entered the cabin and found Jack putting on his boots. She walked over to her hammock and laid down on it. Jack turned to face her.
"Where were you luv?"
"Out on deck, I watched the sunrise."
"Oh. Look Connor about last night. . ." Jack started hesitantly, but before he could continue she interrupted.
"Look Jack, it was a mistake. We were both spending a lot of time together and we got carried away. Let's just forget it ever happened okay."
"Okay." Jack said, turning away and walking out onto the deck. They spent the rest of the day avoiding each other.
Later that night Jack stood alone at the helm staring out at the sea. Connor had retreated to the cabin earlier to escape an encounter later.
Jack had been wanting to talk to Will all day but didn't want Connor to know. When he saw her enter the cabin he called Gibbs over to take the helm and went to find Will. He found him on deck and pulled him aside.
"I need to talk to you Will." Jack looked around to ensure that nobody was around before he continued. "I slept with Connor last night and I am in love with her."
"Really?" Will said, trying to hide that he already knew.
"Yes, I don't know what to do."
"Tell her."
"I would but, there's something else."
"What?"
"She's scarred Will. Her entire back. I couldn't see them but I felt the rises in her skin when I touched her. I can't figure out how it happened, or why she hasn't told me. I know she thinks that I still don't know."
"Jack, don't force her to tell you. She'll tell you when she's ready."
"I'm not going to force her to tell me Whelp! I wouldn't do that. But I don't know what to do."
"Talk to her about how you feel, you can't go wrong with that. If you two slept together then there has to be a chance that she feels something to."
"She said it was a mistake."
"What?"
"She said that we both just got caught up in the moment. That we should forget about it. Face it Will, I'm in love with a woman who does not love me back. Now we're stuck together on the ship until we get to Ireland. She's going to be around me for the next 2 months, plus the return journey. I don't know what to do, me Captain Jack Sparrow, not able to think of any ideas."
"Give it time Jack, anything can happen." "Aye." Jack walked back up to the helm.
Will watched after him, feeling helpless. An idea forming in his head he went to Elizabeth and his cabin to tell her the situation.
Elizabeth sat there in stunned silence when her husband finished. "Will I don't see what we can do. We'll just have to wait for both of them to accept it and confess." "What if that doesn't happen?"
"It will Will. You and I worked out didn't we. Have faith."
"I can't believe that I was like Jack once, afraid to tell the woman I love that I loved her."
"But you eventually did, and look at us now." Elizabeth said, kissing her husband and pulling him to the bed.
CHAPTER 5: I CAN'T
Connor got up before Jack and left, looking back at the sleeping figure in the bed. She walked out onto the deck to watch the sunrise. The sky turned colors before her eyes. Her mind was working a mile a minute, trying to decide what to do with these new feelings.
She felt someone walk up behind her but didn't turn around. "Mr. Turner."
"You seem somewhat troubled Connor, what's up?"
"You know I can't tell you that."
"You could if you could learn to trust me. I've kept your other secret for a while now, do you honestly think I will just yell out what you say to me to the crew."
"It's big Will, very big."
"What?"
Will walked up and stood next to her looking out at the rising sun. Connor didn't say anything for a few minutes and he began to think she wouldn't tell him.
"I slept with Jack." She said looking down at her hands. "What's more, I fell in love with Jack."
"What's the problem? I don't see it I'm sorry. Does he not love you back?"
"I don't know and I don't care. The problem is that I cannot love him. Damn it. I am not supposed to be in love with him. God, why did I allow this! I should have never even began to converse with him, I should have kept to myself like always."
"Is it such a bad thing to love him?"
"Because it's me. I can't afford to love, I'll only get hurt. I won't allow myself to love him, I can't."
"Why not? Who says that you are going to get hurt?"
"I can't explain it Will, but I will. I just can't go there." She turned away from the ocean and walked back to the cabin.
Will stood and watched her leave, confused by her answer.
She entered the cabin and found Jack putting on his boots. She walked over to her hammock and laid down on it. Jack turned to face her.
"Where were you luv?"
"Out on deck, I watched the sunrise."
"Oh. Look Connor about last night. . ." Jack started hesitantly, but before he could continue she interrupted.
"Look Jack, it was a mistake. We were both spending a lot of time together and we got carried away. Let's just forget it ever happened okay."
"Okay." Jack said, turning away and walking out onto the deck. They spent the rest of the day avoiding each other.
Later that night Jack stood alone at the helm staring out at the sea. Connor had retreated to the cabin earlier to escape an encounter later.
Jack had been wanting to talk to Will all day but didn't want Connor to know. When he saw her enter the cabin he called Gibbs over to take the helm and went to find Will. He found him on deck and pulled him aside.
"I need to talk to you Will." Jack looked around to ensure that nobody was around before he continued. "I slept with Connor last night and I am in love with her."
"Really?" Will said, trying to hide that he already knew.
"Yes, I don't know what to do."
"Tell her."
"I would but, there's something else."
"What?"
"She's scarred Will. Her entire back. I couldn't see them but I felt the rises in her skin when I touched her. I can't figure out how it happened, or why she hasn't told me. I know she thinks that I still don't know."
"Jack, don't force her to tell you. She'll tell you when she's ready."
"I'm not going to force her to tell me Whelp! I wouldn't do that. But I don't know what to do."
"Talk to her about how you feel, you can't go wrong with that. If you two slept together then there has to be a chance that she feels something to."
"She said it was a mistake."
"What?"
"She said that we both just got caught up in the moment. That we should forget about it. Face it Will, I'm in love with a woman who does not love me back. Now we're stuck together on the ship until we get to Ireland. She's going to be around me for the next 2 months, plus the return journey. I don't know what to do, me Captain Jack Sparrow, not able to think of any ideas."
"Give it time Jack, anything can happen." "Aye." Jack walked back up to the helm.
Will watched after him, feeling helpless. An idea forming in his head he went to Elizabeth and his cabin to tell her the situation.
Elizabeth sat there in stunned silence when her husband finished. "Will I don't see what we can do. We'll just have to wait for both of them to accept it and confess." "What if that doesn't happen?"
"It will Will. You and I worked out didn't we. Have faith."
"I can't believe that I was like Jack once, afraid to tell the woman I love that I loved her."
"But you eventually did, and look at us now." Elizabeth said, kissing her husband and pulling him to the bed.