Please....PLEASE don't ask where I got the idea of mara being what she is.
(see in the chapter). It came up when I was talking with my friend and i
was wondering why Mara was the only demon with fangs (the only other evil
being with that is Tsukai, Bell's demon (see the Rind arc)). I know it's
pretty out of nowhere and all so please don't complain. I can do what i
want in a fic, ne?
The bug ch.16
[Narrator's PoV]
Mara bolted awake. "What? Where?" Looking around, she saw Peorth was... crying? "What the fuck?" She asked.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I didn't knew..." Peorth whispered and Mara understood what happened.
"Why the HELL did you looked inside my head?!!" She screamed at the goddess.
Peorth buried her head in her hands. She took her time, but answered. "You were crying and... I wanted to know why..." She looked back up at Mara. "How could she do that to you? Doesn't she know how cruel it is to unlock a binding collar? I mean... she litteraly turned her back on you."
Subconsiously, the demon brought a hand to her neck, feeling the absent collar. "I think she knows very well what she did." She swalowed hard and gritted her teeth. "As if why she did it, if I knew.... maybe I'd be able to stop having that same dream."
They stayed silent for some time until Peorth found the nerve to ask what had been bothering her. "Why did you needed that... thing in the first place?" She observed Mara. "Who.... are you?"
The demon snorted. "Why should I tell *you*?"
The goddess sighed. "Because I care about Urd and you mean alot to her."
"If you care about her that much, why aren't you with her?" Mara eyed Peorth.
"Look, Mara, it was a misunderstanding." She began.
"Oh yea, she accidently kissed you." She mumbeled sarcastically as she got up.
"NO! I *asked* her!" Peorth grabbed her arm. "You're staying here. We need to talk."
Mara glared at her but sat back down anyway. "Fine."
Peorth released the other woman's arm. "Like I said, I asked her to do it."
"Why?"
"Because she rejected me.... She said she didn't loved me back." She glanced at Mara who seemed surprised. "So I told her I wanted to know how it felt to be kissed by her. And asked her to do it." Her eyes sadened and her cheeks flushed.
"Oh..." The demon seemed to have calmed down. She made a pause and took a deep breath. "I'll tell you too, then." She stated quietly.
"What?" The goddess frowned. "Tell me what?"
"You asked me who I am." Mara reminded her. "I am Mara. Now I'll tell you *what* I am."
"What you are...." Peorth repeated.
Mara nodded. "You have angels, we have devils." Peorth nodded. "Hild wanted one for Urd, so it could protect her precious daughter."
"Why am I not surprised?" The goddess sighed.
"The problem was.... you can't get a devil nor an angel if you're not mature enough physicaly and mentaly. Urd, being four at that time obviously wasn't ready to accept another spirit to be part of her like, later, when she received her angel." Mara explained.
"Where are you heading to?" Peorth was begining to be confused.
"Experiments had been going on down there." Mara pointed to the ground. "So they geneticaly made bodies to host the devils. Then came, the second problem: since the devils now had their own bodies to use as a weapon, they didn't really needed a master, like, for example, Gorgeous rose needs you to materialise. That's where the binding collar comes in handy. It forces the creature that's wearing it to stick with its owner and protect him or her."
"Are you saying you're...." Peorth began but didn't wanted to finish.
Mara got up. "Yes. I'm Urd's devil."
While Peorth registered the information, the other woman continued. "When all these experiments came into the knowledge of the heavens.... all the researches were stopped. They said it was unfair to have such beings on Hell's side because these creatures... were too powerful. And they didn't had a doublet. That fact made them free to kill, knowing that whatever happens, they won't die. So most of the prototypes were killed, only a few of us were able to survive." Mara stopped pacing around. "As a matter of fact, only those who had powerful figures of autority as masters were kept alive. Though it was not only because the masters wanted to keep them alive. Alot of them did want their devils dead..."
"Because of what, then?" Peorth asked, captivated by the story she was being told.
Mara smiled. "You saw it in the dream, didn't you?"
"Saw what?" The goddess frowned.
"The strenght I once had." She closed her eyes. "How could they destroy me? I am as clever as them and was twenty times as strong. They didn't had the means to terminate me, as they couldn't kill a few others either."
Peorth scratched her head. "But when you fought me, you weren't--"
"I said the strenght I *once* had." Mara cut her off, but still didn't opened her eyes.
"Then she freed me on that day.... " She shivered unconciously and bit her lower lip. "Hild took me under her wing. When the scientists searched a way to terminate me, being a 'dangerous and unpredictable creature', as stated in my file, she protected me. She even let me take the training to be a demon. Maybe she knew I had potential, as I reashed the 1st class level, but.... I think she did that because I was the only thing left of Urd...." She turned sad eyes to meet Peorth's. "She loves her daughter more than anything, you know."
She sighed. "Now, I'm just glad I wasn't killed..... Don't get me wrong, I don't give a shit about my life. But now that I know about Urd and I being doublets... just imagining Hild's reaction if she learned her daughter's death... " She shivered. "I don't even want to think about it." They stayed silent for sometime before Mara talked again. "You know what? I think we never even did the ritual to become doublets, since I'm not supposed to have one..."
"Hey, you're right! Then now come...?" Peorth stopped to think of the possibilities.
"Damn!! Everything's so fucked up..." Mara groaned and burried her head in her hands as a conclusion.
Peorth frowned worriedly, coming to another conclusion. "Maybe Urd knows?"
"Maybe..." The demon answered thoughtfuly. "Even if she knew, I don't think she'd tell me." She added.
"Why do you think that?" She countered. "You have the right to know."
"Legally, I have no rights..." Mara turned to the tv, she could see her reflection in it. She brought a had to her mouth and felt one of her sharp fangs. "I'm not like them, my life is worth something only because of Urd. If she hadn't been there, I would be dead by now." She turned back to Peorth and observed her reaction.
The goddess' expression was one of extreme sadness. "Even if you're diffrent, I don't understand why you're thought less of...." She thought it over again and decided it would be better to change the subject. "Did you ever asked her why she freed you?"
"I didn't. It's evident." Mara answered quietly. "She freed me 'cause being a goddess, she she didn't needed a devil anymore... She'd receive an angel."
Peorth stayed silent, knowing that whatever answer she gave, it wouldn't be good.
"I don't know why she chose her goddess side, though... I thought she was happy." She stated sadly.
Peorth's thoughts unconsciously were brought back of the scene she saw in Mara's dream where they were sixteen and she blushed. "You have to talk with her. You have so much to sort out..."
"So much, huh? What did she tell you?" The demon asked curiously.
"..er...." Peorth smiled.
"What happened outside?" Keiichi interrupted as he came in followed by Belldandy and Megumi. "There's a huge hole in the side of the shrine and most of the plants are burnt!"
Mara and Peorth looked at each other and smiled sheepishly.
"Oh no.... what did you do?" He brought a hand to his face.
"They had a fight." Skuld said as she entered too.
"A fight?" Belldandy asked.
"A fight...." Keiichi sighed.
"A fight!" Megumi's eyes widened, thinking back of the scene of chaos and destruction outside.
"Oh, but we're ok, now!" Peorth put an arm around Mara's shoulders.
Mara growled and the goddess released her immediately. Keiichi sighed again.
"We brought pizza for supper." Belldandy pointed at the boxes he was carring, changing the subject completely.
"And ice cream for dessert." Megumi grinned as she held up a grocery bag.
Skuld's features brightened. "OH YEAH!!!"
Belldandy held up her bag too. "We also rented a movie."
Keiichi smiled. "Could someone get Urd?" He said as he deposed the boxes on the table
Peorth immediately got up. "I'll go."
****
They were now all seated and eating silently. The atmosphere was awckward and tense between Urd, Mara and Peorth, Belldany could feel it. "We rented 'Casper'." She smiled in an atempt to start a conversation.
"What's that?" Peorth asked.
"Keiichi said it was about a ghost that was good." Belldandy turned to her beloved.
"Isn't that a little childish?" Skuld added.
Everyone observed him. "Well... I liked it." He said.
"It's cute." Megumi agreed and everyone resumed eating.
Mara finished first and got up. "Urd, we need to talk."
Urd looked hopefuly at Peorth who nodded. "Ok." She got up too and they both exited.
As soon as they were out, Peorth smiled a huge smile and turned to Keiichi. "So, why don't you tell me about that movie?"
****
Mara calmly sat on Urd's bed and the goddess was pacing around in front of her. "Please stop that." The demon asked. Urd took a deep breath and stopped, turning to her friend. Mara got up. "I want to ask just one thing."
Urd nodded.
Mara clenshed her trembeling hands into fists and dove her eyes in Urd's. "Why did you leave me alone?"
****
To be continued...
[So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got]
~Faint~ (Linkin Park)
[these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have me
all of me]
~My Immortal~ (Evanescence)
The bug ch.16
[Narrator's PoV]
Mara bolted awake. "What? Where?" Looking around, she saw Peorth was... crying? "What the fuck?" She asked.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I didn't knew..." Peorth whispered and Mara understood what happened.
"Why the HELL did you looked inside my head?!!" She screamed at the goddess.
Peorth buried her head in her hands. She took her time, but answered. "You were crying and... I wanted to know why..." She looked back up at Mara. "How could she do that to you? Doesn't she know how cruel it is to unlock a binding collar? I mean... she litteraly turned her back on you."
Subconsiously, the demon brought a hand to her neck, feeling the absent collar. "I think she knows very well what she did." She swalowed hard and gritted her teeth. "As if why she did it, if I knew.... maybe I'd be able to stop having that same dream."
They stayed silent for some time until Peorth found the nerve to ask what had been bothering her. "Why did you needed that... thing in the first place?" She observed Mara. "Who.... are you?"
The demon snorted. "Why should I tell *you*?"
The goddess sighed. "Because I care about Urd and you mean alot to her."
"If you care about her that much, why aren't you with her?" Mara eyed Peorth.
"Look, Mara, it was a misunderstanding." She began.
"Oh yea, she accidently kissed you." She mumbeled sarcastically as she got up.
"NO! I *asked* her!" Peorth grabbed her arm. "You're staying here. We need to talk."
Mara glared at her but sat back down anyway. "Fine."
Peorth released the other woman's arm. "Like I said, I asked her to do it."
"Why?"
"Because she rejected me.... She said she didn't loved me back." She glanced at Mara who seemed surprised. "So I told her I wanted to know how it felt to be kissed by her. And asked her to do it." Her eyes sadened and her cheeks flushed.
"Oh..." The demon seemed to have calmed down. She made a pause and took a deep breath. "I'll tell you too, then." She stated quietly.
"What?" The goddess frowned. "Tell me what?"
"You asked me who I am." Mara reminded her. "I am Mara. Now I'll tell you *what* I am."
"What you are...." Peorth repeated.
Mara nodded. "You have angels, we have devils." Peorth nodded. "Hild wanted one for Urd, so it could protect her precious daughter."
"Why am I not surprised?" The goddess sighed.
"The problem was.... you can't get a devil nor an angel if you're not mature enough physicaly and mentaly. Urd, being four at that time obviously wasn't ready to accept another spirit to be part of her like, later, when she received her angel." Mara explained.
"Where are you heading to?" Peorth was begining to be confused.
"Experiments had been going on down there." Mara pointed to the ground. "So they geneticaly made bodies to host the devils. Then came, the second problem: since the devils now had their own bodies to use as a weapon, they didn't really needed a master, like, for example, Gorgeous rose needs you to materialise. That's where the binding collar comes in handy. It forces the creature that's wearing it to stick with its owner and protect him or her."
"Are you saying you're...." Peorth began but didn't wanted to finish.
Mara got up. "Yes. I'm Urd's devil."
While Peorth registered the information, the other woman continued. "When all these experiments came into the knowledge of the heavens.... all the researches were stopped. They said it was unfair to have such beings on Hell's side because these creatures... were too powerful. And they didn't had a doublet. That fact made them free to kill, knowing that whatever happens, they won't die. So most of the prototypes were killed, only a few of us were able to survive." Mara stopped pacing around. "As a matter of fact, only those who had powerful figures of autority as masters were kept alive. Though it was not only because the masters wanted to keep them alive. Alot of them did want their devils dead..."
"Because of what, then?" Peorth asked, captivated by the story she was being told.
Mara smiled. "You saw it in the dream, didn't you?"
"Saw what?" The goddess frowned.
"The strenght I once had." She closed her eyes. "How could they destroy me? I am as clever as them and was twenty times as strong. They didn't had the means to terminate me, as they couldn't kill a few others either."
Peorth scratched her head. "But when you fought me, you weren't--"
"I said the strenght I *once* had." Mara cut her off, but still didn't opened her eyes.
"Then she freed me on that day.... " She shivered unconciously and bit her lower lip. "Hild took me under her wing. When the scientists searched a way to terminate me, being a 'dangerous and unpredictable creature', as stated in my file, she protected me. She even let me take the training to be a demon. Maybe she knew I had potential, as I reashed the 1st class level, but.... I think she did that because I was the only thing left of Urd...." She turned sad eyes to meet Peorth's. "She loves her daughter more than anything, you know."
She sighed. "Now, I'm just glad I wasn't killed..... Don't get me wrong, I don't give a shit about my life. But now that I know about Urd and I being doublets... just imagining Hild's reaction if she learned her daughter's death... " She shivered. "I don't even want to think about it." They stayed silent for sometime before Mara talked again. "You know what? I think we never even did the ritual to become doublets, since I'm not supposed to have one..."
"Hey, you're right! Then now come...?" Peorth stopped to think of the possibilities.
"Damn!! Everything's so fucked up..." Mara groaned and burried her head in her hands as a conclusion.
Peorth frowned worriedly, coming to another conclusion. "Maybe Urd knows?"
"Maybe..." The demon answered thoughtfuly. "Even if she knew, I don't think she'd tell me." She added.
"Why do you think that?" She countered. "You have the right to know."
"Legally, I have no rights..." Mara turned to the tv, she could see her reflection in it. She brought a had to her mouth and felt one of her sharp fangs. "I'm not like them, my life is worth something only because of Urd. If she hadn't been there, I would be dead by now." She turned back to Peorth and observed her reaction.
The goddess' expression was one of extreme sadness. "Even if you're diffrent, I don't understand why you're thought less of...." She thought it over again and decided it would be better to change the subject. "Did you ever asked her why she freed you?"
"I didn't. It's evident." Mara answered quietly. "She freed me 'cause being a goddess, she she didn't needed a devil anymore... She'd receive an angel."
Peorth stayed silent, knowing that whatever answer she gave, it wouldn't be good.
"I don't know why she chose her goddess side, though... I thought she was happy." She stated sadly.
Peorth's thoughts unconsciously were brought back of the scene she saw in Mara's dream where they were sixteen and she blushed. "You have to talk with her. You have so much to sort out..."
"So much, huh? What did she tell you?" The demon asked curiously.
"..er...." Peorth smiled.
"What happened outside?" Keiichi interrupted as he came in followed by Belldandy and Megumi. "There's a huge hole in the side of the shrine and most of the plants are burnt!"
Mara and Peorth looked at each other and smiled sheepishly.
"Oh no.... what did you do?" He brought a hand to his face.
"They had a fight." Skuld said as she entered too.
"A fight?" Belldandy asked.
"A fight...." Keiichi sighed.
"A fight!" Megumi's eyes widened, thinking back of the scene of chaos and destruction outside.
"Oh, but we're ok, now!" Peorth put an arm around Mara's shoulders.
Mara growled and the goddess released her immediately. Keiichi sighed again.
"We brought pizza for supper." Belldandy pointed at the boxes he was carring, changing the subject completely.
"And ice cream for dessert." Megumi grinned as she held up a grocery bag.
Skuld's features brightened. "OH YEAH!!!"
Belldandy held up her bag too. "We also rented a movie."
Keiichi smiled. "Could someone get Urd?" He said as he deposed the boxes on the table
Peorth immediately got up. "I'll go."
****
They were now all seated and eating silently. The atmosphere was awckward and tense between Urd, Mara and Peorth, Belldany could feel it. "We rented 'Casper'." She smiled in an atempt to start a conversation.
"What's that?" Peorth asked.
"Keiichi said it was about a ghost that was good." Belldandy turned to her beloved.
"Isn't that a little childish?" Skuld added.
Everyone observed him. "Well... I liked it." He said.
"It's cute." Megumi agreed and everyone resumed eating.
Mara finished first and got up. "Urd, we need to talk."
Urd looked hopefuly at Peorth who nodded. "Ok." She got up too and they both exited.
As soon as they were out, Peorth smiled a huge smile and turned to Keiichi. "So, why don't you tell me about that movie?"
****
Mara calmly sat on Urd's bed and the goddess was pacing around in front of her. "Please stop that." The demon asked. Urd took a deep breath and stopped, turning to her friend. Mara got up. "I want to ask just one thing."
Urd nodded.
Mara clenshed her trembeling hands into fists and dove her eyes in Urd's. "Why did you leave me alone?"
****
To be continued...
[So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got]
~Faint~ (Linkin Park)
[these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have me
all of me]
~My Immortal~ (Evanescence)