"Paige, get over here," Hazel demanded.
"What Haze?"
"Look, I know something happened this weekend."
"Nothing happened this weekend!"
"You're not the same Paige!! You're actually totally off base. There's a look in your eyes. You look like you're ashamed, or scared, or I don't know what! Spinner noticed it to! Don't run away from us Paige!"
"Yeah, you're crazy. Ha. Ha. Hey I have to run. I'll talk to you later." Paige giggled and left Hazel standing there very frustrated. Many thoughts flowed through her Paige's mind. "I've got to step it up, they're catching on." "What's the harm of Hazel knowing?" "It's no big deal. So, you've slept with a guy. It happens all the time. Even if you didn't want to, it's your fault. He was only giving you what you wanted Paige." "Why can't I just deal?" Paige layed herself down on her bed and turned on the radio. She hoped to use the radio as an escape. Tuning to her favorite station she couldn't believe what she heard....
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb
without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up
Wake me up inside
I can't wake up
Wake me up inside
Save me
call my name and save me from the dark
Wake me up
bid my blood to run
I can't wake up
before I come undone
Save me
save me from the nothing I've become"
"No!" Paige screamed at the inantimate object. No one could tell anything from her eyes. No one knew anything! She was not numb! Her spirit wasn't somewhere cold! It didn't need to be found! She was awake! She didn't need Hazel or anyone to wake her up inside! She didn't need saved! She was sure of it! She kept telling herself over and over again until she sobbed herself to sleep.
Paige was walking down a street. She thought she heard footsteps, but kept telling herself it was only her imagination. Paige knew she was lost. She had no idea where she was or where she was going. She just kept walking. Suddenly, she stopped, but the footsteps behind her didn't. She knew it was not her imagination anymore. All of a sudden hands covered her eyes.
"Guess who....Spirit." Paige knew it was Dean as soon as he touched her.
"Whaa.. What do you want from me?" Paige asked Dean, afraid of his response.
"A second date perhaps..." Dean said as he moved his hands down to Paige's waist. Paige turned around to face him.
"I don't ever want to see you, ever, ever again Dean."
"Look, Spirit.. what's your dilemma?"
"You.. you.. you raped me Dean!!!"
"No, Spirit. You're wrong. I gave you what you wanted. I told you what you wanted to hear. We had fun. I think we should do it again, real soon...." The words "again real soon, again real soon, again real soon" racketed Paige's brain as she woke from her night mare.
"What Haze?"
"Look, I know something happened this weekend."
"Nothing happened this weekend!"
"You're not the same Paige!! You're actually totally off base. There's a look in your eyes. You look like you're ashamed, or scared, or I don't know what! Spinner noticed it to! Don't run away from us Paige!"
"Yeah, you're crazy. Ha. Ha. Hey I have to run. I'll talk to you later." Paige giggled and left Hazel standing there very frustrated. Many thoughts flowed through her Paige's mind. "I've got to step it up, they're catching on." "What's the harm of Hazel knowing?" "It's no big deal. So, you've slept with a guy. It happens all the time. Even if you didn't want to, it's your fault. He was only giving you what you wanted Paige." "Why can't I just deal?" Paige layed herself down on her bed and turned on the radio. She hoped to use the radio as an escape. Tuning to her favorite station she couldn't believe what she heard....
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb
without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up
Wake me up inside
I can't wake up
Wake me up inside
Save me
call my name and save me from the dark
Wake me up
bid my blood to run
I can't wake up
before I come undone
Save me
save me from the nothing I've become"
"No!" Paige screamed at the inantimate object. No one could tell anything from her eyes. No one knew anything! She was not numb! Her spirit wasn't somewhere cold! It didn't need to be found! She was awake! She didn't need Hazel or anyone to wake her up inside! She didn't need saved! She was sure of it! She kept telling herself over and over again until she sobbed herself to sleep.
Paige was walking down a street. She thought she heard footsteps, but kept telling herself it was only her imagination. Paige knew she was lost. She had no idea where she was or where she was going. She just kept walking. Suddenly, she stopped, but the footsteps behind her didn't. She knew it was not her imagination anymore. All of a sudden hands covered her eyes.
"Guess who....Spirit." Paige knew it was Dean as soon as he touched her.
"Whaa.. What do you want from me?" Paige asked Dean, afraid of his response.
"A second date perhaps..." Dean said as he moved his hands down to Paige's waist. Paige turned around to face him.
"I don't ever want to see you, ever, ever again Dean."
"Look, Spirit.. what's your dilemma?"
"You.. you.. you raped me Dean!!!"
"No, Spirit. You're wrong. I gave you what you wanted. I told you what you wanted to hear. We had fun. I think we should do it again, real soon...." The words "again real soon, again real soon, again real soon" racketed Paige's brain as she woke from her night mare.