The night mares came and went. Just like the following days. Paige was in a daze. She heard people talking, but she didn't really hear them. She saw people walking, but she didn't really see them. She did try to focus though because the lives of others were less scary than her own. Thinking about other things kept her from digging deep inside of herself. A place she never wanted to see. A dark place. She did such a good job of tricking her friends that she was tricking herself. She believed she was happy. She believed she didn't care. She believed she was over what happened, whatever it happened to be. She believed she could deal. She believed nothing happened. But deep down inside she knew the truth. She knew she was letting Dean rip her apart. He did once physically, now she was letting him do it emotionally every minute of every day.
She hadn't spoken to Spinner for a few days. She was scared to. What could she possibly say to him? She was just a slut in his eyes anyways and he was right in thinking that. That made Paige think a lot and it brought back a flood of memories. One she remembered particulary. It was the Ice Breaker dance in seventh grade. Paige had been asked by many guys to go already. She remembered overhearing Terri talking to Ash. She was complaining that she didn't have a date and that no one would ever like her or want to date her. Paige walked up to her and said, "Aww, Terri, sweetie, you're probably right. But hey I can always lend you a date if you want. They always seem to flock around me." She walked off laughing. Terri was left feeling even more aggravated and ashamed.
Paige flashed back to the present. "I've always been a slutty bitch," she thought. Paige knew guys wanted her. She knew she could get what she wanted, but she never wanted it to end up with this. Just then the phone rang. Paige used a bout of energy to get up and answer it.
"Hello? Michalchuck Residence. Paige here."
"Hey Paige. It's Ash. What's going on?"
"Nothing much, yourself?"
"Well I was just planning on having a little party, or something. Well, I don't know what it's going to turn into, but a band's going to be here. A band better than Craig's. Haha. You in?" Paige thought about it. Not going would be unPaige like. Going would be more work for her, but it might just be what she needed to get herself back together.
"Of course! So are we trying to make Craigey boy jealous?" she said.
"Hmm... you're a smart girl Paige. They're a new band. They're older. They're hotter. They're going to be here soon! Ah.. Paige I got to go get ready! Be here soon!"
Yes, this is what I need, thought Paige. She realized the sweats look was starting to draw attention to herself so she walked to her closet and tried to decide what to wear. She settled on a pink sheer shirt and a white mini skirt. She added the final touch with glittery eyeshadow and lots of eye liner. Perfect, she thought. Paige started the quick walk to Ash's house. She was going to finally fool everyone for good. She was going to have fun. Nothing could stop her.
"Paige, looking fabulous as always.." Ash said.
"Why, thanks. I do try to do my best," Paige said with a wink. In the background the band was playing. Ash was right. They were better than Craig and Spinner. That thought reminded Paige of Spinner. There was no way he wasn't going to be there. She made a firm decsion to act cool tonight. Don't let him realize anything. Don't act like you've missed him and thought about him. Afterall, nothing was going to stop her from having fun.
Paige noticed one of the band members looking her way quite a bit. She didn't mind. Or so she told herself. In reality, her subconscious was thinking "Ugh, don't look at me like that. I'm not what you think. I can't give you what you want." But that didn't matter. She slapped on a smile and kept on dancing.
"Innocent Bystanders are going to take a little break folks. Don't go anywhere. We'll be right back." came a voice from the band's direction. Paige realized it was the guy who was looking at her talking. Hmm.. a break she thought. She watched as the guy walked outside. A few minutes later he came back carrying bottles. Ash noticed and went up to talk to him. She definetly wasn't going to get mixed up with alcohol or drugs at this party.
"It's just for the band." he reassured her.
Paige watched as this guy slowly walked over to her. Don't run away. It'll be obvious. Just keep cool, she thought to herself.
"Hey. You're a great dancer!"
"Umm.. well thanks. Paige Michalchuck."
"Dave.. lead guitar and vocals."
"Ooh.. very impressive."
"I know it is. Hey, do you want a drink?" Thoughts raced through Paige's mind. She heard Dean's voice asking her "Hey, do you want a drink." Shut up she told herself. This isn't Dean. This is Dave. Dean. Dave. Dean. Dave. Dean. Dave. Different!
"Sure."
She hadn't spoken to Spinner for a few days. She was scared to. What could she possibly say to him? She was just a slut in his eyes anyways and he was right in thinking that. That made Paige think a lot and it brought back a flood of memories. One she remembered particulary. It was the Ice Breaker dance in seventh grade. Paige had been asked by many guys to go already. She remembered overhearing Terri talking to Ash. She was complaining that she didn't have a date and that no one would ever like her or want to date her. Paige walked up to her and said, "Aww, Terri, sweetie, you're probably right. But hey I can always lend you a date if you want. They always seem to flock around me." She walked off laughing. Terri was left feeling even more aggravated and ashamed.
Paige flashed back to the present. "I've always been a slutty bitch," she thought. Paige knew guys wanted her. She knew she could get what she wanted, but she never wanted it to end up with this. Just then the phone rang. Paige used a bout of energy to get up and answer it.
"Hello? Michalchuck Residence. Paige here."
"Hey Paige. It's Ash. What's going on?"
"Nothing much, yourself?"
"Well I was just planning on having a little party, or something. Well, I don't know what it's going to turn into, but a band's going to be here. A band better than Craig's. Haha. You in?" Paige thought about it. Not going would be unPaige like. Going would be more work for her, but it might just be what she needed to get herself back together.
"Of course! So are we trying to make Craigey boy jealous?" she said.
"Hmm... you're a smart girl Paige. They're a new band. They're older. They're hotter. They're going to be here soon! Ah.. Paige I got to go get ready! Be here soon!"
Yes, this is what I need, thought Paige. She realized the sweats look was starting to draw attention to herself so she walked to her closet and tried to decide what to wear. She settled on a pink sheer shirt and a white mini skirt. She added the final touch with glittery eyeshadow and lots of eye liner. Perfect, she thought. Paige started the quick walk to Ash's house. She was going to finally fool everyone for good. She was going to have fun. Nothing could stop her.
"Paige, looking fabulous as always.." Ash said.
"Why, thanks. I do try to do my best," Paige said with a wink. In the background the band was playing. Ash was right. They were better than Craig and Spinner. That thought reminded Paige of Spinner. There was no way he wasn't going to be there. She made a firm decsion to act cool tonight. Don't let him realize anything. Don't act like you've missed him and thought about him. Afterall, nothing was going to stop her from having fun.
Paige noticed one of the band members looking her way quite a bit. She didn't mind. Or so she told herself. In reality, her subconscious was thinking "Ugh, don't look at me like that. I'm not what you think. I can't give you what you want." But that didn't matter. She slapped on a smile and kept on dancing.
"Innocent Bystanders are going to take a little break folks. Don't go anywhere. We'll be right back." came a voice from the band's direction. Paige realized it was the guy who was looking at her talking. Hmm.. a break she thought. She watched as the guy walked outside. A few minutes later he came back carrying bottles. Ash noticed and went up to talk to him. She definetly wasn't going to get mixed up with alcohol or drugs at this party.
"It's just for the band." he reassured her.
Paige watched as this guy slowly walked over to her. Don't run away. It'll be obvious. Just keep cool, she thought to herself.
"Hey. You're a great dancer!"
"Umm.. well thanks. Paige Michalchuck."
"Dave.. lead guitar and vocals."
"Ooh.. very impressive."
"I know it is. Hey, do you want a drink?" Thoughts raced through Paige's mind. She heard Dean's voice asking her "Hey, do you want a drink." Shut up she told herself. This isn't Dean. This is Dave. Dean. Dave. Dean. Dave. Dean. Dave. Different!
"Sure."