Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with pirates of the Caribbean.
A/N howdy! My arms not quite better yet... still hurts but I got the idea for this chapter and it was annoying me so I went to write it. Took me 3 days but here it is!! Anyway... I might not update for another week or so... depends on how my arm is! Yeah so this chapter hasn't much to do with the main plot but I thought you should find out why Ana is so against her pregnancy. Enjoy...
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It took Jack a few minuets to realize what Ana Maria had meant by not keeping it. She meant she wasn't going to have it at all. Jack ran after her, she hadn't got very far, so he easily caught up with her.
"What do you mean."
"What?"
"You're not going to keep it. What do you mean by that. Why don't you want our child?" Jacks voice had traces of hurt in it. Ana Maria found she couldn't answer that question for fear he would find something out and leave her because of it. "Ana?" his voice was soft and calm, his eyes held a worried and upset look and Ana found tears coming to her own.
Jack brought his hand up to Ana's cheek and stroked it. Then with his other hand he brought her close to him and held her there for a few minuets. Afterwards he took her hand and led her to their cabin hoping to get some answers in there as no one else would be around to listen to the conversation – not that anyone was on deck anyway.
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"Why wont you tell me?" Ana looked at the hurt in his eyes. For once he was letting her see his feelings and she couldn't tell him what he wanted to know.
"I, I cant tell you Jack. There are things you don't know about me, things I don't want to remember let alone re-live..." She clasped her hand over her mouth knowing she had said too much.
"Ana there are things you don't know about me as well and – wait did you just say re-live?" Ana looked away from him, willing the tears forming in her eyes to go away. Jack took his index finger and curled it under Ana's chin and lifted it up so she had to look at him. "Ana 'ave you been pregnant before?" tears started to run down her cheeks and Jack gently brushed them away. "Please tell me."
"It's a long story... we don't have the time for it now. Maybe later when all this has gone away and-" Jack cut her off.
"We're making the time now. Ana forget everything that's going on outside of this cabin and tell me... please. I want to know." Ana nodded knowing she had no way out but to tell him.
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Ana sat down on the bed Jack beside her. She turned so that she was facing him and he did the same. Once again Jack took her hands into his own just like he had done the last time they shared some of their painful pasts with each other.
"When were you pregnant?"
"I was 14. Just ran away." Jacks eyes went wide.
"It wasn't S..." Ana shook her head.
"No it wasn't him. It was another man. Some one he'd brought in so that he could..." Ana's bottom lip started to tremble and Jack squeezed her hand. "So that he could watch. After that he never touched me like that again. Told me I was dirty." Jack tried not to scoff at that last remark. Her dirty?!? It was him that needed a good wash!
"Its ok take ye time." More tears ran down Ana's cheeks but this time she didn't bother to wipe them away as they would only be replaced with fresh ones anyway.
"I was 4 months gone when I ran away. That was another reason but no one knew about it but me. I had started to wear baggy clothes to cover it but... I just couldn't cope knowing he knew my secret and could say any day and I would get..." Ana cut herself off as her whole body raked with sobs. Jack took her into his arms and rocked her until she had calmed down.
"You ok?" She nodded. "Do you want to carry on? If ye don't it can wait..."
"No Jack I've started now I have to get it over with. And I'm sure you'd go mad wondering what happened next." Ana pause and a frown worked its way onto her forehead. "Well madder anyway." Jack laughed and a smile found its self on her lips, but didn't stay there very long as she began her painful story again.
"So by the time I got to what ever the place that I ran away to was I was 5 gone. It had taken me a month to get there. I found myself wondering the streets until this lady found me huddled in a doorway." Ana smiled at the memory. "She asked me if I wanted to go with her, she said she'd give me a bed and some food. She was a kind lady."
"Was?"
"Still is if she's still alive. I found myself spilling everything to her, expecting her to kick me out, but instead she took me in her arms and rocked me to sleep while I cried telling me everything would be ok."
"But it wasn't?" Tears found Ana's cheeks once again.
"No. Her husband had a bad temper when he was drunk. One night she was sick in bed with something and he was out of his mind. And... he beat me up. Which hand in hand went with labour."
"How many months were you?"
"6" Jack closed his eyes knowing exactly what was to come next.
"I gave birth to a baby boy. He took his first breath with his last. He wasn't alive more then a few minuets. Jack I cant have that happening again. I can't lose another baby. I cant..." once again her body raked with sobs and Jack took her in his arms just like the old women had to her when she was just 14 years of age huddled in a room with a dim fire.
"It wont happen again. I wont let it."
"I can't take the chance."
"But getting rid of it is the same as losing it to early birth."
"Do you hate me Jack?" Jack was taken back.
"No. Ana why would I?" She shrugged.
"I'll keep it IF I can finish my plan first. Then we'll..."
"No you're not using it as a bargaining tool. Ana if you really don't want it then don't have it. But don't use it against me."
"I'm sorry. Jack I'm too tired to think about it now. Ok?" Jack looked at her face and immediately backed down on their argument.
"Ok. Come on." Both pirates laid together, Ana fell asleep almost straight away but Jack lay awake thinking over what he had just been told... and wondering why Ana felt he would hate her for it.
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A/N please review!!! :-) ill update as soon as I can I promise!!! Luv Suzy xxx
Cal: thanks for the get well thingy. Made me smile!! :-)
A/N howdy! My arms not quite better yet... still hurts but I got the idea for this chapter and it was annoying me so I went to write it. Took me 3 days but here it is!! Anyway... I might not update for another week or so... depends on how my arm is! Yeah so this chapter hasn't much to do with the main plot but I thought you should find out why Ana is so against her pregnancy. Enjoy...
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It took Jack a few minuets to realize what Ana Maria had meant by not keeping it. She meant she wasn't going to have it at all. Jack ran after her, she hadn't got very far, so he easily caught up with her.
"What do you mean."
"What?"
"You're not going to keep it. What do you mean by that. Why don't you want our child?" Jacks voice had traces of hurt in it. Ana Maria found she couldn't answer that question for fear he would find something out and leave her because of it. "Ana?" his voice was soft and calm, his eyes held a worried and upset look and Ana found tears coming to her own.
Jack brought his hand up to Ana's cheek and stroked it. Then with his other hand he brought her close to him and held her there for a few minuets. Afterwards he took her hand and led her to their cabin hoping to get some answers in there as no one else would be around to listen to the conversation – not that anyone was on deck anyway.
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"Why wont you tell me?" Ana looked at the hurt in his eyes. For once he was letting her see his feelings and she couldn't tell him what he wanted to know.
"I, I cant tell you Jack. There are things you don't know about me, things I don't want to remember let alone re-live..." She clasped her hand over her mouth knowing she had said too much.
"Ana there are things you don't know about me as well and – wait did you just say re-live?" Ana looked away from him, willing the tears forming in her eyes to go away. Jack took his index finger and curled it under Ana's chin and lifted it up so she had to look at him. "Ana 'ave you been pregnant before?" tears started to run down her cheeks and Jack gently brushed them away. "Please tell me."
"It's a long story... we don't have the time for it now. Maybe later when all this has gone away and-" Jack cut her off.
"We're making the time now. Ana forget everything that's going on outside of this cabin and tell me... please. I want to know." Ana nodded knowing she had no way out but to tell him.
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Ana sat down on the bed Jack beside her. She turned so that she was facing him and he did the same. Once again Jack took her hands into his own just like he had done the last time they shared some of their painful pasts with each other.
"When were you pregnant?"
"I was 14. Just ran away." Jacks eyes went wide.
"It wasn't S..." Ana shook her head.
"No it wasn't him. It was another man. Some one he'd brought in so that he could..." Ana's bottom lip started to tremble and Jack squeezed her hand. "So that he could watch. After that he never touched me like that again. Told me I was dirty." Jack tried not to scoff at that last remark. Her dirty?!? It was him that needed a good wash!
"Its ok take ye time." More tears ran down Ana's cheeks but this time she didn't bother to wipe them away as they would only be replaced with fresh ones anyway.
"I was 4 months gone when I ran away. That was another reason but no one knew about it but me. I had started to wear baggy clothes to cover it but... I just couldn't cope knowing he knew my secret and could say any day and I would get..." Ana cut herself off as her whole body raked with sobs. Jack took her into his arms and rocked her until she had calmed down.
"You ok?" She nodded. "Do you want to carry on? If ye don't it can wait..."
"No Jack I've started now I have to get it over with. And I'm sure you'd go mad wondering what happened next." Ana pause and a frown worked its way onto her forehead. "Well madder anyway." Jack laughed and a smile found its self on her lips, but didn't stay there very long as she began her painful story again.
"So by the time I got to what ever the place that I ran away to was I was 5 gone. It had taken me a month to get there. I found myself wondering the streets until this lady found me huddled in a doorway." Ana smiled at the memory. "She asked me if I wanted to go with her, she said she'd give me a bed and some food. She was a kind lady."
"Was?"
"Still is if she's still alive. I found myself spilling everything to her, expecting her to kick me out, but instead she took me in her arms and rocked me to sleep while I cried telling me everything would be ok."
"But it wasn't?" Tears found Ana's cheeks once again.
"No. Her husband had a bad temper when he was drunk. One night she was sick in bed with something and he was out of his mind. And... he beat me up. Which hand in hand went with labour."
"How many months were you?"
"6" Jack closed his eyes knowing exactly what was to come next.
"I gave birth to a baby boy. He took his first breath with his last. He wasn't alive more then a few minuets. Jack I cant have that happening again. I can't lose another baby. I cant..." once again her body raked with sobs and Jack took her in his arms just like the old women had to her when she was just 14 years of age huddled in a room with a dim fire.
"It wont happen again. I wont let it."
"I can't take the chance."
"But getting rid of it is the same as losing it to early birth."
"Do you hate me Jack?" Jack was taken back.
"No. Ana why would I?" She shrugged.
"I'll keep it IF I can finish my plan first. Then we'll..."
"No you're not using it as a bargaining tool. Ana if you really don't want it then don't have it. But don't use it against me."
"I'm sorry. Jack I'm too tired to think about it now. Ok?" Jack looked at her face and immediately backed down on their argument.
"Ok. Come on." Both pirates laid together, Ana fell asleep almost straight away but Jack lay awake thinking over what he had just been told... and wondering why Ana felt he would hate her for it.
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A/N please review!!! :-) ill update as soon as I can I promise!!! Luv Suzy xxx
Cal: thanks for the get well thingy. Made me smile!! :-)