Ok, then. Chapter 3. This is the reason I have to change this rating to
"R". I don't know if I need to, but just to be safe.
Also, sense the tater tots have gone bad.and I know that when reading angst you need lots of sweets to make you feel better, I have set out an entire table of goodies, like doughnuts and ice cream and all that good stuff over there *points right* and a mountain of tissue boxes over there *points left*
I would like to thank everyone who reviewed and give a shout-out to Hiso- chan ^.^
Oh, and another flashback warning.
Enjoy.
::Disclaimer:: I do now own Dragon Knights.and I figured out the song is Gekai merry-go-round.not Gankai. .But I still don't own Psycho le Cemu..*sniffle*
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Chapter 3: Breakdown
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The pain inside him now was unbearable, and the only way they could escape was threw the disguise of the shallow sobs that now tore from his throat. The pillow that his head was buried so deep within muffled them only slightly. He had no resistance now, knowing that it was futile to hide his emotions. His body racked with every breath, his voice cracking as he said those words over and over again.
"Why," he whispered, "Oh dear god, why?" It felt as if his heart had been torn out and salt had been poured into the gaping wound. He felt his stomach turn every time he played the images over and over in his head. Ruwalk pinning Kai-stern against the wall, kissing him gently, Kai-stern lovingly kissing back.but why? He had known!
He lifted himself up from the pillow slightly and bought his fist down hard on the mattress beneath him. His breath became ridged, as he remembered that day not so long ago.
***
The day was slightly overcast, the wind more forceful then usual. Not the light breeze would ruffle your hair playfully as you passed the gardens outside, but strong enough to have tossed the papers Alfeegi was holding across the yard.
"Damn!" he growled, immediately chasing after the runaway parchment. But every time he got close enough to touch them, another blast of air pushed it just a little farther from his grasp. It was like it was playing with him, being teasing but innocent at the same time. 'Like Rath,' he thought, glaring at another paper that had avoided being captured. 'If it wasn't for Rath stopping me in the hallway begging for ANOTHER new sword I would already be at the meeting and not in this state of disorder now, would I?' "Damn him."
He finally narrowed it down to one last piece. Looking out of the corner of his eye, he saw it flutter past the cherry tree near the right wing castle entrance. He smiled almost demonically, and dashed off towards it, to only plow face first into the yellow dragon officer.
"Holy crap!" Alfeegi heard him exclaim as they both went toppling over each other. In one jumbled heap, he tried to push the other man off while, at the same time, trying to conceal a blush and look for the last paper.
"Off," he cried. "OFF!" His comrade did as he exclaimed, but all too late, the paper had fluttered too close to the cherry tree and had been speared by one of its branches. A small defeated wine came from his throat, leaving Ruwalk to look very confused.
"What, what is it?" He asked, then noticing Alfeegi looking at the tree with large, wanting eyes. When his friend did not respond, he walked right next to him and looked up. "What are you looking at?"
The white dragon officer shook his head and looked at the ground. "That was the report of the expenses of Kai-stern's next trip," he said, almost in tears. "All I wanted to do was get to the meeting on time, was that too much to ask?"
"Maybe," Ruwalk said, "But at least you can be late with your paper."
"Hm?" Alfeegi turned towards him, only to see him already halfway up the tree. "Ruwalk, what are you doing?"
"Getting your paper."
"But.but." He couldn't find a good excuse for him being so worked up. He was only getting his paper. 'Maybe it's the fact that he's thinking about you.' He thought.
The yellow dragon officer nimbly climbed the branches, grasping the paper with his right hand before jumping down; he gave the parchment back to Alfeegi with a sheepish grin. "Sorry," he said.
"What?" The secretary then looked down at the paper, which was now torn in two. He sighed and stuffed it into his pocket. "It was better up there."
Ruwalk laughed in an embarrassed manner, putting his hand behind his head. "Yah, sorry about that." He smiled charmingly then, putting his arm down.
"Well," he said. "I'll see you at the meeting." And at that, be swiftly made his way across the rest of the yard, not noticing that the friend he left was watching his every step.
Alfeegi sighed a bit, finally being able to regain his composure after that incident. He straightened out his outfit, and tried to get the grass stain off of his pants. As he looked down, he noticed a small, black cloth near his foot. Picking it up, he noticed that it was one of Ruwalk's gloves. He smiled a bit, holding the glove close to his chest. He closed his eyes for a second then, as to try and absorb the moment of just being able to hold what was once part of him, when he heard the cough.
Whirling around, he found himself face to face with the amused face of Kai-stern. He couldn't help but feel the heat rise in his face. "I saw that," the blue dragon officer snickered.
"Saw what?" Alfeegi snapped, stuffing the glove in his pocket with the paper.
Kat-stern smiled broadly, "Don't worry, Alfeegi. I've known for a while."
"Known what? What is there to know?"
"That you like Ruwalk of course. Anyone with half a brain and bad eyesight can see that." At this, Alfeegi inhaled deeply and turned towards the castle entrance.
"Well, what if I do? Is there anything wrong with that? Go on, have a good laugh, tell him, I don't care." There was a moment of silence and for one, god forsaken second, he was scared to death that Kai-stern would go running off and actually tell Ruwalk how he felt. But he didn't. He felt a hand fall onto his shoulder.
"Don't worry Alfeegi. I won't tell. I actually think it's cute." He smiled again. "Let's go to that meeting, shall we?"
***
His tears of sadness turned hot and angry at that memory. 'How could he?' he thought 'He knew I liked Kai-stern, he was the one who encouraged me to tell him tonight in the first place!' He growled deeply, punching his bed frame. I jolt of pain shot down to his wrist on the impact. Shrugging it off he fell back into his original position into the pillow.
He lay there fir what seemed like hours, the sobs had been long gone, and now the tears ran silently down his cheeks. He had turned onto his side, facing the wall, which was blurry with tears. His eyes were raw and they stung when he rubbed them, but the pain within hurt more. He didn't know how much time had passed when there was a soft knocking on his door. Alfeegi ignored it, hoping that the person would just go away and leave him to wallow in his own self-pity. But after a few minutes of the light tapping, he heard his door creep open.
"Alfeegi?" He heard his name called. A wave of relief washed over his as the noticed the voice had belonged to Thatz and not one of his fellow officers, but he remained still none the less. "Alfeegi?" he called again. "The Lord wanted me to tell you that dinner was ready." He still received no answer. "I mean, if you're not hungry I'll eat it for you, but.umm." He could tell the Knight was becoming increasingly more uncomfortable talking to the still dragon officer. "I suppose your sleeping." he finally said. "I'll tell the Lord-''
"That's alright." Alfeegi said quickly. He could hear Thatz jump at the response. "I'll be down in a moment."
"All.alright." Thatz practically squeaked. He closed the door behind him as he left the room.
After the other had left, Alfeegi swiftly maneuvered his way to the door. His hand paused at the knob, wondering if he should just stay in his room. 'But I did tell Thatz that I was coming and he'll probably tell the Lord. The last thing I want his for the Lord to think that something's wrong.' He sighed deeply, and opened the door in front of him.
The dragon officer didn't even notice that he was close to the dining room before he opened the large oak doors to see most of the dragon clan in front of him. It was almost abnormal for that many members to be actually siting down at the same time. Rath, Thatz and Rune usually ate together, maybe accompanied by the Lord or Lady. But it was almost unheard of for all of them, minus Theathus, to be there all at once. And what was worse was that the only open seat was between Thatz and Kai-stern.
The secretary calmly and quietly took his seat, avoiding all eye contact. He silently took a piece of bread and began to butter it, and piled some more food onto the plate. It wasn't that he was hungry, actually, he thought that if he ate one bite he would vomit; he just wanted to make sure no one was suspicious. He was already praying that no one would notice his eyes, but, of course, someone always did.
"My god Alfeegi, you look horrible!" The Dragon Queen exclaimed. The dragon officer twitched, and for the first time, wished that a demon would charge into the room and bite the woman's head off. "Are you sick? You look so tierd."
"I'm fine." He said in a voice of false indignancy, but did not return the woman's gaze. All he did was forcefully shove a piece of potato into his mouth. This made his stomach quiver and it took all of his will power to keep it down.
"Are you sure? If you're sick I have some medicine that could help-''
"I am fine, milady." He said, a tad harsher then he had expected. Even without looking he could tell that some of the men were looking at his a little strangely. The Alfeegi they knew would never have even dreamt of taking that tone with the dragon queen.
"Oh, alright then."
"I know what's wrong with him," Kai-stern said. This made the secretary whirl around to face him, his mouth slighting open. He wouldn't dare. "I think what Alfeegi needs is to get laid."
This caused giggles from most of the officers. "I second that," Rath said.
"Shut up, the lot of you." Alfeegi snarled. "How dare you even bring up that subject," 'Not after what just happened.' The rage within him began to surface as the images again came to mind. Ruwalk, Kai-stern, Kai-stern knew and yet he still. and he had thought of him as a friend! And then he brings up subjects like this?! How dare he. He stuffed another potato into his mouth. "Imbecile."
Kai-stern grimaced a bit. "Jesus, Alfeegi, I was just trying to help."
The white dragon officer stopped dead. His hands began to shake slightly and his eyes were closed tightly. "Just.trying.to help?" He repeated, and before he knew what had happened, he grabbed the knife off of his plate and lunged towards Kai-stern.
There were sounds of breaking china and screams of anger and fear. The tablecloth had been torn away throwing the contents onto the ground. Mashed potatoes and beef stew spilled everywhere. By the time everyone had realized what happened, the room starred at the scene before them.
Rath had leapt from his seat, forcing the white dragon officer back by grabbing his around the waist. Thetheus, who had appeared during the commotion, held his from under the arms. The secretary flailed violently, his legs thrashing in the air. Obscure obscenities poured from his mouth as he looked towards the foreign affairs officer on the ground, Ruwalk at his side.
"You piece of shit!" He yelled. "You goddamn son of a whore! Asshole! Help me? Help me?! What kind of ass do you take me for?! Come here you fucking piss ant!" He flailed even harder. " I'll kick your mangy ass! I'll kill you! I'll kill you!"
"That's enough!" The lord yelled. "Tetheus, please take him to his room, I'll be there in a moment!"
"Yes sir," he said, maneuvering the still swearing man out of the room.
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Alfeegi was thrown hard against the floor. He grunted on impact and tried to stand up, but was forced down again by the security official. "I don't know what that was about." He said, just a little too calmly. "But you stay here. I need to go and fetch the Lord." He hurried out of the door, laving the secretary by himself.
Alfeegi was breathing so hard it was like he had just been running. He stayed on his hands and knees on the ground, sweat just touching his brow. His eyes remained closed, for the fear that he would open them and those goddamn tears would start up again. He stayed there for a while, reviewing what he had just done.
'Damn, why did they have to get in the way? Can't they mind their own business? They don't know what's going on and it should stay like that!' His fists grew tighter at every moment. 'Damn that fucking bastard. As soon as that door opens again I'll kill him.I'll kill him and.and.'
'And what? What will you do? Kill him? That's a laugh. You don't have the balls to kill a man.'
'Shut up! Shut up!' he grabbed his head. 'I'll kill him! He betrayed me and he deserves to die!'
'And what will happen after you kill him, hm? What will you do? Take what you think belongs to you? Take Ruwalk? Do you really think that he, that anyone would really care about you if you killed him?'
This comment made his open his eyes slightly, now looking down on the floor. His breath transforming into sobs again.
'Do you really think they care about you now?'
"Shut up!" he yelled. "Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!"
'What do you want to do, Alfeegi? Really, think about it? What do you want to do?'
"I want, I want." he trailed off, letting his emotions take the best of him. "I want to die."
'Then why don't you?' He looked down into his right hand, where he noticed he still firmly grasped the knife from the dinner table. He noticed how it sparkled in the moonlight. How it seemed to call out to him. The silver radiance of the light began to dull his pain and promised to take it away.
'Here I am,' it whispered, 'I will end it all for you.'
"Yes," Alfeegi gulped, letting out an exhale of relief, "Please, end my pain." And then the silver was tainted with crimson.
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The Lord half walked half ran down the hallway. His midnight blue cape flowed behind his like the sea itself. His eyes darting around the hallways looking for the door to Alfeegi's room. Tetheus walked next to him, listening as the Lord began to talk to himself.
"What the Hell was that all about? Alfeegi just leaped and tried to kill Kai-stern. Kai-stern! If I thought he was going to kill anyone I would have bet in Rath." He chucked angrily and shook his head. "I'm going to get to the bottom of this. It's preposterous! What in the Hell was he thinking?!"
"I'm sure that I don't know sir." Tetheus replied calmly. "But I suggest that you ask Alfeegi as soon as we get there."
"I was planning on it. Now where is that blasted-oh here it is." He stopped suddenly at one of the elm doors. He practically ripped the door off of its hinges as he opened it with such force. "Alfeegi! I want to know right now what-'' But he was forced to cut off by the image before him.
The blood seemed to come from everywhere. It spread across the floor, staining the once white carpet a sickeningly dark, almost demonic red. The source of the flood was on the floor next to his bed. His hands in his lap, his head tilted to the side, his eyed slightly open.
"Alfeegi." The Lord said, stunned and not wanting to believe what was happening was what he thought. "Alfeegi!" He ran to the secretary's side, grabbing his shoulders and shaking him. "Alfeegi! What happened?!"
"Go.away." he replied in a wining drone. "Away.Go away!" He tried to push the Lord away from his, but ended up falling into his chest.
"What, your bleeding." He picked up the man's limp arms and almost gagged at the long, deep gashes in his wrists. The blood pumped slowly and oozed almost hypnotically down his pale arms and onto the floor. "Oh, god, tell me you didn't do this."
"Go away!" He yelled gain, now struggling to get away from the blonde's grasp. "Get away from me! Leave me be! Let me die!"
The lord just held him tighter, trying to stop his struggling. "Stop it! You'll hurt yourself!" He looked back towards the head of security. "Quick! Go fetch a doctor!"
"Sir." He responded and ran out of the room.
"Leave me alone! Why won't I die? Why won't you let me die?!" He was almost shouting now, and the lord was sure that attention would be drawn soon, but he still tried his best to calm the other man.
"Shh.please Alfeegi, be still." He reached down and began to wipe away his tears. "It's alright. You're going to be okay." At these words, Alfeegi struggled even more.
"You dumb bastard! You bitch! Leave me alone! Alone! Just let me die! Just let me die!" He began to flail and claw the dragon lord harshly, but he still didn't move. "Leave me the fuck alone! Let me die! LET ME DIE!" With every time he said the word, it seemed that he became weaker, until he pressed himself against the lord, half-unconscious, just whimpering the words until he didn't say anything.
"Alfeegi?" The lord asked earnestly. "Alfeegi?!" `"My.lord?" He asked back, snuggling closer to him. The Lord gave a sigh of relief, glad that the secretary wasn't dead, yet. He wiped the thought from his mind and began to pet the other man's head.
"Yes, Alfeegi?"
"What happened? Why am I.so cold?"
The lord felt tears come to his own eyes as he watched Alfeegi curl up against him. "it's alright. You're going to be alright."
"Cold," he said again. "Tired." As he slowly shut his eyes, he felt himself being lifted up, and then.nothing.
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Well. That's it. *sniffles* It was really hard to right. I kept stopping and changing stuff so it sounded better. I still think it came out crappy. But if it made one person cry I did my job.
Buffet is open.*as it's mobbed by fangirls* ^^;;
Please review. Weird couples appear in the next chappie.
Sooooo.what did you think? I'll have the buffet open again if you reply! *Steals a piece of chocolate cheesecake for herself* MMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....
Also, sense the tater tots have gone bad.and I know that when reading angst you need lots of sweets to make you feel better, I have set out an entire table of goodies, like doughnuts and ice cream and all that good stuff over there *points right* and a mountain of tissue boxes over there *points left*
I would like to thank everyone who reviewed and give a shout-out to Hiso- chan ^.^
Oh, and another flashback warning.
Enjoy.
::Disclaimer:: I do now own Dragon Knights.and I figured out the song is Gekai merry-go-round.not Gankai. .But I still don't own Psycho le Cemu..*sniffle*
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Chapter 3: Breakdown
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The pain inside him now was unbearable, and the only way they could escape was threw the disguise of the shallow sobs that now tore from his throat. The pillow that his head was buried so deep within muffled them only slightly. He had no resistance now, knowing that it was futile to hide his emotions. His body racked with every breath, his voice cracking as he said those words over and over again.
"Why," he whispered, "Oh dear god, why?" It felt as if his heart had been torn out and salt had been poured into the gaping wound. He felt his stomach turn every time he played the images over and over in his head. Ruwalk pinning Kai-stern against the wall, kissing him gently, Kai-stern lovingly kissing back.but why? He had known!
He lifted himself up from the pillow slightly and bought his fist down hard on the mattress beneath him. His breath became ridged, as he remembered that day not so long ago.
***
The day was slightly overcast, the wind more forceful then usual. Not the light breeze would ruffle your hair playfully as you passed the gardens outside, but strong enough to have tossed the papers Alfeegi was holding across the yard.
"Damn!" he growled, immediately chasing after the runaway parchment. But every time he got close enough to touch them, another blast of air pushed it just a little farther from his grasp. It was like it was playing with him, being teasing but innocent at the same time. 'Like Rath,' he thought, glaring at another paper that had avoided being captured. 'If it wasn't for Rath stopping me in the hallway begging for ANOTHER new sword I would already be at the meeting and not in this state of disorder now, would I?' "Damn him."
He finally narrowed it down to one last piece. Looking out of the corner of his eye, he saw it flutter past the cherry tree near the right wing castle entrance. He smiled almost demonically, and dashed off towards it, to only plow face first into the yellow dragon officer.
"Holy crap!" Alfeegi heard him exclaim as they both went toppling over each other. In one jumbled heap, he tried to push the other man off while, at the same time, trying to conceal a blush and look for the last paper.
"Off," he cried. "OFF!" His comrade did as he exclaimed, but all too late, the paper had fluttered too close to the cherry tree and had been speared by one of its branches. A small defeated wine came from his throat, leaving Ruwalk to look very confused.
"What, what is it?" He asked, then noticing Alfeegi looking at the tree with large, wanting eyes. When his friend did not respond, he walked right next to him and looked up. "What are you looking at?"
The white dragon officer shook his head and looked at the ground. "That was the report of the expenses of Kai-stern's next trip," he said, almost in tears. "All I wanted to do was get to the meeting on time, was that too much to ask?"
"Maybe," Ruwalk said, "But at least you can be late with your paper."
"Hm?" Alfeegi turned towards him, only to see him already halfway up the tree. "Ruwalk, what are you doing?"
"Getting your paper."
"But.but." He couldn't find a good excuse for him being so worked up. He was only getting his paper. 'Maybe it's the fact that he's thinking about you.' He thought.
The yellow dragon officer nimbly climbed the branches, grasping the paper with his right hand before jumping down; he gave the parchment back to Alfeegi with a sheepish grin. "Sorry," he said.
"What?" The secretary then looked down at the paper, which was now torn in two. He sighed and stuffed it into his pocket. "It was better up there."
Ruwalk laughed in an embarrassed manner, putting his hand behind his head. "Yah, sorry about that." He smiled charmingly then, putting his arm down.
"Well," he said. "I'll see you at the meeting." And at that, be swiftly made his way across the rest of the yard, not noticing that the friend he left was watching his every step.
Alfeegi sighed a bit, finally being able to regain his composure after that incident. He straightened out his outfit, and tried to get the grass stain off of his pants. As he looked down, he noticed a small, black cloth near his foot. Picking it up, he noticed that it was one of Ruwalk's gloves. He smiled a bit, holding the glove close to his chest. He closed his eyes for a second then, as to try and absorb the moment of just being able to hold what was once part of him, when he heard the cough.
Whirling around, he found himself face to face with the amused face of Kai-stern. He couldn't help but feel the heat rise in his face. "I saw that," the blue dragon officer snickered.
"Saw what?" Alfeegi snapped, stuffing the glove in his pocket with the paper.
Kat-stern smiled broadly, "Don't worry, Alfeegi. I've known for a while."
"Known what? What is there to know?"
"That you like Ruwalk of course. Anyone with half a brain and bad eyesight can see that." At this, Alfeegi inhaled deeply and turned towards the castle entrance.
"Well, what if I do? Is there anything wrong with that? Go on, have a good laugh, tell him, I don't care." There was a moment of silence and for one, god forsaken second, he was scared to death that Kai-stern would go running off and actually tell Ruwalk how he felt. But he didn't. He felt a hand fall onto his shoulder.
"Don't worry Alfeegi. I won't tell. I actually think it's cute." He smiled again. "Let's go to that meeting, shall we?"
***
His tears of sadness turned hot and angry at that memory. 'How could he?' he thought 'He knew I liked Kai-stern, he was the one who encouraged me to tell him tonight in the first place!' He growled deeply, punching his bed frame. I jolt of pain shot down to his wrist on the impact. Shrugging it off he fell back into his original position into the pillow.
He lay there fir what seemed like hours, the sobs had been long gone, and now the tears ran silently down his cheeks. He had turned onto his side, facing the wall, which was blurry with tears. His eyes were raw and they stung when he rubbed them, but the pain within hurt more. He didn't know how much time had passed when there was a soft knocking on his door. Alfeegi ignored it, hoping that the person would just go away and leave him to wallow in his own self-pity. But after a few minutes of the light tapping, he heard his door creep open.
"Alfeegi?" He heard his name called. A wave of relief washed over his as the noticed the voice had belonged to Thatz and not one of his fellow officers, but he remained still none the less. "Alfeegi?" he called again. "The Lord wanted me to tell you that dinner was ready." He still received no answer. "I mean, if you're not hungry I'll eat it for you, but.umm." He could tell the Knight was becoming increasingly more uncomfortable talking to the still dragon officer. "I suppose your sleeping." he finally said. "I'll tell the Lord-''
"That's alright." Alfeegi said quickly. He could hear Thatz jump at the response. "I'll be down in a moment."
"All.alright." Thatz practically squeaked. He closed the door behind him as he left the room.
After the other had left, Alfeegi swiftly maneuvered his way to the door. His hand paused at the knob, wondering if he should just stay in his room. 'But I did tell Thatz that I was coming and he'll probably tell the Lord. The last thing I want his for the Lord to think that something's wrong.' He sighed deeply, and opened the door in front of him.
The dragon officer didn't even notice that he was close to the dining room before he opened the large oak doors to see most of the dragon clan in front of him. It was almost abnormal for that many members to be actually siting down at the same time. Rath, Thatz and Rune usually ate together, maybe accompanied by the Lord or Lady. But it was almost unheard of for all of them, minus Theathus, to be there all at once. And what was worse was that the only open seat was between Thatz and Kai-stern.
The secretary calmly and quietly took his seat, avoiding all eye contact. He silently took a piece of bread and began to butter it, and piled some more food onto the plate. It wasn't that he was hungry, actually, he thought that if he ate one bite he would vomit; he just wanted to make sure no one was suspicious. He was already praying that no one would notice his eyes, but, of course, someone always did.
"My god Alfeegi, you look horrible!" The Dragon Queen exclaimed. The dragon officer twitched, and for the first time, wished that a demon would charge into the room and bite the woman's head off. "Are you sick? You look so tierd."
"I'm fine." He said in a voice of false indignancy, but did not return the woman's gaze. All he did was forcefully shove a piece of potato into his mouth. This made his stomach quiver and it took all of his will power to keep it down.
"Are you sure? If you're sick I have some medicine that could help-''
"I am fine, milady." He said, a tad harsher then he had expected. Even without looking he could tell that some of the men were looking at his a little strangely. The Alfeegi they knew would never have even dreamt of taking that tone with the dragon queen.
"Oh, alright then."
"I know what's wrong with him," Kai-stern said. This made the secretary whirl around to face him, his mouth slighting open. He wouldn't dare. "I think what Alfeegi needs is to get laid."
This caused giggles from most of the officers. "I second that," Rath said.
"Shut up, the lot of you." Alfeegi snarled. "How dare you even bring up that subject," 'Not after what just happened.' The rage within him began to surface as the images again came to mind. Ruwalk, Kai-stern, Kai-stern knew and yet he still. and he had thought of him as a friend! And then he brings up subjects like this?! How dare he. He stuffed another potato into his mouth. "Imbecile."
Kai-stern grimaced a bit. "Jesus, Alfeegi, I was just trying to help."
The white dragon officer stopped dead. His hands began to shake slightly and his eyes were closed tightly. "Just.trying.to help?" He repeated, and before he knew what had happened, he grabbed the knife off of his plate and lunged towards Kai-stern.
There were sounds of breaking china and screams of anger and fear. The tablecloth had been torn away throwing the contents onto the ground. Mashed potatoes and beef stew spilled everywhere. By the time everyone had realized what happened, the room starred at the scene before them.
Rath had leapt from his seat, forcing the white dragon officer back by grabbing his around the waist. Thetheus, who had appeared during the commotion, held his from under the arms. The secretary flailed violently, his legs thrashing in the air. Obscure obscenities poured from his mouth as he looked towards the foreign affairs officer on the ground, Ruwalk at his side.
"You piece of shit!" He yelled. "You goddamn son of a whore! Asshole! Help me? Help me?! What kind of ass do you take me for?! Come here you fucking piss ant!" He flailed even harder. " I'll kick your mangy ass! I'll kill you! I'll kill you!"
"That's enough!" The lord yelled. "Tetheus, please take him to his room, I'll be there in a moment!"
"Yes sir," he said, maneuvering the still swearing man out of the room.
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Alfeegi was thrown hard against the floor. He grunted on impact and tried to stand up, but was forced down again by the security official. "I don't know what that was about." He said, just a little too calmly. "But you stay here. I need to go and fetch the Lord." He hurried out of the door, laving the secretary by himself.
Alfeegi was breathing so hard it was like he had just been running. He stayed on his hands and knees on the ground, sweat just touching his brow. His eyes remained closed, for the fear that he would open them and those goddamn tears would start up again. He stayed there for a while, reviewing what he had just done.
'Damn, why did they have to get in the way? Can't they mind their own business? They don't know what's going on and it should stay like that!' His fists grew tighter at every moment. 'Damn that fucking bastard. As soon as that door opens again I'll kill him.I'll kill him and.and.'
'And what? What will you do? Kill him? That's a laugh. You don't have the balls to kill a man.'
'Shut up! Shut up!' he grabbed his head. 'I'll kill him! He betrayed me and he deserves to die!'
'And what will happen after you kill him, hm? What will you do? Take what you think belongs to you? Take Ruwalk? Do you really think that he, that anyone would really care about you if you killed him?'
This comment made his open his eyes slightly, now looking down on the floor. His breath transforming into sobs again.
'Do you really think they care about you now?'
"Shut up!" he yelled. "Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!"
'What do you want to do, Alfeegi? Really, think about it? What do you want to do?'
"I want, I want." he trailed off, letting his emotions take the best of him. "I want to die."
'Then why don't you?' He looked down into his right hand, where he noticed he still firmly grasped the knife from the dinner table. He noticed how it sparkled in the moonlight. How it seemed to call out to him. The silver radiance of the light began to dull his pain and promised to take it away.
'Here I am,' it whispered, 'I will end it all for you.'
"Yes," Alfeegi gulped, letting out an exhale of relief, "Please, end my pain." And then the silver was tainted with crimson.
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The Lord half walked half ran down the hallway. His midnight blue cape flowed behind his like the sea itself. His eyes darting around the hallways looking for the door to Alfeegi's room. Tetheus walked next to him, listening as the Lord began to talk to himself.
"What the Hell was that all about? Alfeegi just leaped and tried to kill Kai-stern. Kai-stern! If I thought he was going to kill anyone I would have bet in Rath." He chucked angrily and shook his head. "I'm going to get to the bottom of this. It's preposterous! What in the Hell was he thinking?!"
"I'm sure that I don't know sir." Tetheus replied calmly. "But I suggest that you ask Alfeegi as soon as we get there."
"I was planning on it. Now where is that blasted-oh here it is." He stopped suddenly at one of the elm doors. He practically ripped the door off of its hinges as he opened it with such force. "Alfeegi! I want to know right now what-'' But he was forced to cut off by the image before him.
The blood seemed to come from everywhere. It spread across the floor, staining the once white carpet a sickeningly dark, almost demonic red. The source of the flood was on the floor next to his bed. His hands in his lap, his head tilted to the side, his eyed slightly open.
"Alfeegi." The Lord said, stunned and not wanting to believe what was happening was what he thought. "Alfeegi!" He ran to the secretary's side, grabbing his shoulders and shaking him. "Alfeegi! What happened?!"
"Go.away." he replied in a wining drone. "Away.Go away!" He tried to push the Lord away from his, but ended up falling into his chest.
"What, your bleeding." He picked up the man's limp arms and almost gagged at the long, deep gashes in his wrists. The blood pumped slowly and oozed almost hypnotically down his pale arms and onto the floor. "Oh, god, tell me you didn't do this."
"Go away!" He yelled gain, now struggling to get away from the blonde's grasp. "Get away from me! Leave me be! Let me die!"
The lord just held him tighter, trying to stop his struggling. "Stop it! You'll hurt yourself!" He looked back towards the head of security. "Quick! Go fetch a doctor!"
"Sir." He responded and ran out of the room.
"Leave me alone! Why won't I die? Why won't you let me die?!" He was almost shouting now, and the lord was sure that attention would be drawn soon, but he still tried his best to calm the other man.
"Shh.please Alfeegi, be still." He reached down and began to wipe away his tears. "It's alright. You're going to be okay." At these words, Alfeegi struggled even more.
"You dumb bastard! You bitch! Leave me alone! Alone! Just let me die! Just let me die!" He began to flail and claw the dragon lord harshly, but he still didn't move. "Leave me the fuck alone! Let me die! LET ME DIE!" With every time he said the word, it seemed that he became weaker, until he pressed himself against the lord, half-unconscious, just whimpering the words until he didn't say anything.
"Alfeegi?" The lord asked earnestly. "Alfeegi?!" `"My.lord?" He asked back, snuggling closer to him. The Lord gave a sigh of relief, glad that the secretary wasn't dead, yet. He wiped the thought from his mind and began to pet the other man's head.
"Yes, Alfeegi?"
"What happened? Why am I.so cold?"
The lord felt tears come to his own eyes as he watched Alfeegi curl up against him. "it's alright. You're going to be alright."
"Cold," he said again. "Tired." As he slowly shut his eyes, he felt himself being lifted up, and then.nothing.
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Well. That's it. *sniffles* It was really hard to right. I kept stopping and changing stuff so it sounded better. I still think it came out crappy. But if it made one person cry I did my job.
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