THE REASON
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
I know I'm not perfect. Nowhere near, actually. I know my past haunts me, and your haunts you. And we try as hard as we can not to become angry with the world. But I have always been. And I'm sorry. There have been so many times that I have hurt you in the past. And I wish I hadn't. I wish that I could take it all back. I'm so sorry.
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
I don't know everything about what we have. I'm still finding it all out. So many things I have done to you that I regret. I didn't mean it. My anger got the best of me. Angry at the world. That is how I strive not to be. But I became it anyway. However, you changed everything. You're the only one who has ever bothered to look behind my exterior to find the soul inside.
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know...
All these hard times I have put you through. I'm putting it all behind me. I'm leaving. And there's nothing you can do to stop me. But I want you to know what you mean to me. I just don't want to remember anything. I feel hatred towards myself now, and I need to leave. I don't think I am going to come back. Just don't forget me.
I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
I promise I will be better in the future. Not like you would be there to see it. Just that...I thought you might like to know. I used to be a cold-blooded killer with nothing inside. But you changed all of that. You made me realize that there is more to life than anger and pain.
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
That's right. You are my reason. My reason for not striving as a killer. My reason for loving you. You are the reason that I am changing from what I used to be.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
I'm leaving because every time I look at you, I remember everything I've ever done to you that hurt you. I feel guilty and undeserving. You are so forgiving. And I don't deserve to be forgiven. Or cared about. People remember me as a terrible demon. That's what I am. And you don't see it. That's why I am leaving. To escape the feeling I get when I look in your eyes.
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
If I could go back and do it all again, I would. Your eyes are still scarred every time I look into them. Your wounds are still open. Yet you pay no attention to them. And every time you collapse into my arms it makes me remember all the more. I shouldn't have done it.
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
When you cry I want to be the one who cradles you and strokes your hair and tells you everything will be fine. When you are in pain I want to be the one who you can come to for healing. And when anything hard ever comes your way I want to be the one who you come running to and break down in my arms. So I want you to know this.
I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
I'm not going to be how I used to be anymore. I'm going to be someone different. I'm going to be someone better. I give you my word.
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
You are it. You are the only one that loved me enough to have the courage to try. You are why I am beginning my life again.
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
You are the only one who knew this side of me existed. Deep down. I didn't even know. But when it showed through, you were so happy. When you put your arms around me, I realized you were all I needed.
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
I'll miss you.
Love, Hiei
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
I know I'm not perfect. Nowhere near, actually. I know my past haunts me, and your haunts you. And we try as hard as we can not to become angry with the world. But I have always been. And I'm sorry. There have been so many times that I have hurt you in the past. And I wish I hadn't. I wish that I could take it all back. I'm so sorry.
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
I don't know everything about what we have. I'm still finding it all out. So many things I have done to you that I regret. I didn't mean it. My anger got the best of me. Angry at the world. That is how I strive not to be. But I became it anyway. However, you changed everything. You're the only one who has ever bothered to look behind my exterior to find the soul inside.
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know...
All these hard times I have put you through. I'm putting it all behind me. I'm leaving. And there's nothing you can do to stop me. But I want you to know what you mean to me. I just don't want to remember anything. I feel hatred towards myself now, and I need to leave. I don't think I am going to come back. Just don't forget me.
I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
I promise I will be better in the future. Not like you would be there to see it. Just that...I thought you might like to know. I used to be a cold-blooded killer with nothing inside. But you changed all of that. You made me realize that there is more to life than anger and pain.
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
That's right. You are my reason. My reason for not striving as a killer. My reason for loving you. You are the reason that I am changing from what I used to be.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
I'm leaving because every time I look at you, I remember everything I've ever done to you that hurt you. I feel guilty and undeserving. You are so forgiving. And I don't deserve to be forgiven. Or cared about. People remember me as a terrible demon. That's what I am. And you don't see it. That's why I am leaving. To escape the feeling I get when I look in your eyes.
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
If I could go back and do it all again, I would. Your eyes are still scarred every time I look into them. Your wounds are still open. Yet you pay no attention to them. And every time you collapse into my arms it makes me remember all the more. I shouldn't have done it.
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
When you cry I want to be the one who cradles you and strokes your hair and tells you everything will be fine. When you are in pain I want to be the one who you can come to for healing. And when anything hard ever comes your way I want to be the one who you come running to and break down in my arms. So I want you to know this.
I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
I'm not going to be how I used to be anymore. I'm going to be someone different. I'm going to be someone better. I give you my word.
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
You are it. You are the only one that loved me enough to have the courage to try. You are why I am beginning my life again.
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
You are the only one who knew this side of me existed. Deep down. I didn't even know. But when it showed through, you were so happy. When you put your arms around me, I realized you were all I needed.
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
I'll miss you.
Love, Hiei