Disclaimer: I don't not own him Sam I am, sob I only own the books choked sob but I still think that I am not just a fool as I sit here and wish

Plot: The story starts in the summer before Harry's sixth year. After his godfathers death Harry sunk into a depressed state and became a cutter.

Warnings: This fic is rated PG-13 for Violence, Language, and Love. Its not that bad but I might change the rating later.

Pairings: I'm not telling it wouldn't be as fun if I did. (That means she doesn't know)

Author(s): That would be me (Ashe in background: I edited!!!) OK!!! Ashe helped a little. (Ashe in background: I do believe your exact words where "type as I dictate")

Chapter 4

Falling Again

Harry watched as the other boys slowly fell asleep. He had long since given up on the idea that sleep would find him this night. Quietly, as not to wake Ron or the others, Harry slipped out of bed and exited the dormitory.

Once he reached the commons Harry picked out a large comfy chair near the fire place. Sitting there and staring into the fire that was kept burning all night, Harry could help the images that came to him. Images of Sirius's head in that very fire. Soon those were followed by others. The first time they really had met. The last time any one would see Sirius.

When Harry could no longer take the grief that flooded through him he left the commons, heading up toward the astronomy tower.

Harry let the wind blow his hair in his eyes, not bothering to remove it as it become harder to see. He did care he was dangerously close to the edge. In fact, he felt welcoming to death. He would get to see Sirius again; he would never have to go back to the Dursley's, no more sympathetic looks from some of the teachers.

Harry climbed up on the ledge and looked over at the ground. What bliss it would be to feel the wind in his hair as he let himself fall over the ledge. They say you never hear the bullet that hits you, so he shouldn't feel the impact of the ground right. Harry closed his eyes and was about to push off when a hand clasped his shoulder.

Sake crushed to herself as she look up at the astronomy tower from the ground. Just where was Rei? She was supposed to up on lookout for crying out load. With a huff she entered the building and stomped up the stairs.

Today was not going well. First she had some little hormone driven boy in her first hour had made a comment about her outfit. She normally wouldn't have taken offense to it, but the outfit she had on was of the same style her mother had worn when she was alive.

Not only did she disliked teaching because she was never good with children, she had to get up when the sun rose to do it. Sake normally was a late sleeper. If fact she preferred to work during the night and be outside. She was a air and electric elementalist, being indoors meant she was cut off from an unending source of them. That was why she was outside doing surveillance after every other teacher had turned in for the night.

Sure she would regret it in the morning but as soon as she got a bit of fresh air and some food, she would be back to her normally disgruntled self. When she reached the door to the tower she paused momentarily to listen. Someone was out there and by the way they where moving it wasn't Rei.

Rei would have been smart enough to know not to practically clamp around on a watch. Well at least Sake hoped she was smart enough, though she wasn't sure if that hope had any change of surviving. Quietly Sake opened the door to the tower a crack and peered though. A young boy stood staring out over the ledge.

Upon closer inspection Sake saw that it was the young Potter boy. Emotions were not clear on his face, but as she watched him climb onto the ledge, it was obvious what he wanted to do. Quickly she walked over to them, leaving the door open and bit and grabbed a hold of his shoulder.

Harry turned becoming face to face with one of the new defense against the dark arts teachers. He remembered hearing Hermione saying her name but her couldn't quiet remember it, Sabe was it? No, Dumbledore had said it too, Sakura? That had to be it.

"Mr. Potter," She said in a soft voice, though it held command, as she stepped up to sit with him on the ledge. "Do you really want to jump?" she ask. Harry was astounded that she knew what he was thinking than again, he was sitting on the ledge of a castle hundreds of feet in the air looking down.

Harry sighed and sat down. "No I don't" The teacher, of who's name he still wasn't sure, smiled. This was the first time he had gotten to see her up close, she had long hair of a sapphire blue color. She was also slightly taller than Miss Rei. Her eyes were amethyst color. Also like Miss Rei she didn't look much over the age of 18 to 19. "Ummmm." Harry stuttered, "this probably sounds really bad, but what is your name again?"

The teacher smiled as if she had been expecting it, "Well Mr. Potter, I believe it is time we were properly introduced, I am Miss Sakura Moon, but please call me Miss Sake, in fact since no one else is around to hear you, say call me Sake." She extended her hand, which he now noticed had a white elbow length glove on it.

Harry took the hand with a little hesitation. "Are you alone up here Mr. Potter?" Harry didn't exactly know what to expect out of this teacher, she had just told him to call her by her first name without the use of a proper title in front, but out of everything she could have asked this was certainly on the bottom of the list.

"Y...yes I am." She just turned her head and sighed, mumbling something that sounded like 'sisters'. She then turned her gaze out to the grounds, her eyes never pausing as she surveyed them.

"Mr. Potter, I am going to tell you something in confidence and I am trusting that you will not repeat it, am I correct in assuming this?" Harry nodded. "I was once in you shoes, Harry; I spent almost two years thinking about my own death. You see Harry, my parents died when I was extremely young in a fire that also destroyed our house. Me and my sister barely made it out in time. In fact it wasn't until later that we realized our parents had not gotten out."

Harry quirked his head to the side, Sake gave the impression that she was in total control of her life. Now he finds out she had gone through something similar to what was happening with him? "Sake, if I might ask you, why didn't you?"

The teacher smiled at him "I thought you might ask that, what stopped me, was my family. I realized how disappointed my mother and father would have been with me if I chickened out of life like that. My sister would have been so devastated, losing her parents and then her younger sister. I mean looking at us, it hard to see with all the fighting, but there is love there. Now Mr. Potter, it is extremely late, and you have classes tomorrow, so why don't you get to bed. Now I have to go over to the other side of the tower now and when I come back, I am going to assume I am now crazy, because you are a figment of my imagination, Right?" Harry smiled and nodded.

Harry walked back toward the Commons being as quiet as possible. As he got closer to the painting of the fat lady he started to hear voices. "I CANT LET YOU GO!" a familiar male voice said "God damn it can you see I love you" Harry peered around the corner to find to people standing at the end of the hall. The tall man pulled the shorter woman into a deep kiss. It took Harry a moment to realize who the people were. He couldn't, no he wouldn't believe it, the two people were none other then, Miss Rei and Professor Snape!

Shaking the disturbing feeling and deciding to take the longer root to get to the commons, Harry left the two teachers hoping beyond hope that the images would go away to the very far corners of his mind never to resurface again. One thing was for sure, he would be able to look at Miss Rei or Professor Snape for a while to come.

ACK! Okay, there's the next chapter! Gomen! Gomen! Gomen! Gomen! (Sorry! Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!) You probably want an explanation for why it took so long huh? Well I'll give it to you plain and simple. First off before you review, because I know you are going to, let me say NO REVIEW, GOOD OR BAD, SHALL BE DIRECTED TOWARD MY TABBY CAT! In case you haven't figured it out yet, I am not the author of this fic. This her the wonderful and beautiful Ashe (or as I am called Black Cat because of my tendency to take to the shadows.) Any who Tabby Cat (Child of Taboo) asked me to write this chapter for two reason: one Sake is my character and two she knew I could do a better job with it okay there are three this way I can't kill her if something is wrong with Sake. (pronounced like Sah-Kay the Japanese wine).

This reason it took so long to get this chapter up, is because I have been swamped with work (no thanks to Tabby). With that said ON WITH THE PREVIEW! (I normally don't do a/ns this long for future reference.)

Preview: Rei looked around as the steam she had just created slowly disappeared. She had realized on a second to late her mistake in creating the dense mist the now covered the field. Noticing that her opponent was not in the place she had last seen them, Rei's eyes turned to the sky scanning for signs of her the said missing opponent was. Petals of the cherry blossom tree from her native land started to fall around her from above. Reacting at the last second Rei dived to the side in time to see... do you think I would tell you who she was fighting??? Stay tuned to find out! .

Please Review! Black Cat