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The kids were screaming and running around in the backyard as I knocked on the front door I had no idea what I was going to say to Patrick. What do you say to a kid who thinks you're the wicked witch?
Britney answered the door, I saw Patrick standing in the hallway but when he saw me he ran away. "Was that him?" Torrie asked. "Yeah, Britney how is he?" I asked stepping inside.
"Truthfully he won't let me pick up the pieces of the video I've tried a dozen times but he won't let me go near them. I'm just worried one of the babies is going to find a piece and choke." Britney said. "Who's this?" Britney asked pointing to Torrie.
"Oh Britney this Torrie Wilson from the WWE Torrie this is my friend Britney." I said. "Nice to meet you." Torrie said. "Yeah." Britney said.
"Listen Brit I'm going back with Torrie but I had to talk to Patrick first." I said. "Why don't you show Torrie around?" "Sure why not." Britney said. Something was up with Britney but I'd deal with that later.
I watched as Torrie followed Britney outside. I walked down the hallway and saw Patrick sitting by the broken video. He looked up and stood up he was about to run away but I stopped him. "Patrick." I said grabbing his arm. "Go away meanie!" he screamed pulling away from me.
I watched as he ran away from me and ran outside to Britney. What have I done he use to hate Britney. Now he hated me. I walked outside, I saw Patrick behind Britney and then I saw Torrie playing with a few kids in the sand box. I walked over to Torrie.
"We can go now." I said to her waving hello to some of the kids. They didn't wave back. "Ok bye guys." Torrie said brushing off the sand.
We both walked over to Britney, she looked pissed. "Torrie, can I speak to Britney alone for a minute." I asked. "Sure I'll be at the car. Just remember we got a flight to catch." She said going back to the car.
I pulled Britney inside and into the office. "Ok spill what the hell is wrong with you?" I said closing the door behind us. "Nothing." Britney said. "Oh don't give me that you have been acting weird since I got here. Now tell me what the problem is." I said. "You are the problem! First you come here all upset this morning and you say that you wish you'd never gone now you've changed your mind and you're going back there with that little tramp Torrie. Patrick will hate you forever if you don't stay and at least try and sort it out with him. In the matter of 3 days you've changed you always used to put these kids first what happened to you wanted them to have a great life even if it was in a children's home, you broke Patrick's tape you broke his heart. Faith you really need to think if this is really what you want to do. It never seemed that important to you before, why do you have to find out about your dad now." Britney said.
I couldn't believe it. "Britney, it has always been my number one priority to find out about my Dad. I still want these kids to have a great life but I have to do what I have to do. If you were in my shoes you'd do exactly the same thing." I said. I walked out to car got in and drove away Britney waved goodbye but I didn't wave back, why is it lately I feel like I'm losing everyone that ever loved me.
I was once again standing in front of the arena; it had been a long flight I kept thinking of how Patrick had called me a meanie and how Britney said I had changed. Had I really changed?
My thoughts were interrupted by someone picking me up and squeezing the life out of me. "I can't breath!" I said. "John put me down right now!" John put me down on the ground I straightened out my skirt then hugged him back. "I know you got to talk to your dad but after come see me ok?" he said "Of course I will." I said walking inside. As I walked I could hear Torrie singing Faith and John sitting in a tree.
I ignored it I had bigger things on my mind right now. I followed Torrie and John into the back, John told me where to find him we said goodbye and Torrie and I continued to walk around the arena. We came to Marks dressing room; I gave Torrie a quick hug and knocked on the door.
Mark opened the door; he didn't say anything just held open the door for me I walked in and sat down. "I'm glad you came back.' He said sitting down next to me. "Yeah well Torries a good persuader, so why did you dump me off at some children's home and never want to see me again?" I wasn't going to hold back this time I wanted answers and I wanted the truth.
"Faith, I told them that I wanted contact between me and you to be cut because I didn't want to have to face up to what I did. But you found me and it's no good running away from things forever so I guess I should come right out and say that I made a decision when I held you in my arms I saw two roads one was that I'd marry Clare and be a father, the other was that I'd sign my contract for the WWE and become a professional wrestler. I took the second choice, I told Clare I would get here a drink, I never came back. I don't know if Clare had planned on killing herself whether I stayed or not but when I got that phone call I was back at the beginning again the first road had come back again another chance to become a father but I turned it down." Mark said, I guess I wasn't the only one that wasn't going to hold back.
I just sat there taking it all in, he had chosen career over family life. "Did you think of me?" I asked I waited for his answer; I knew he was trying to decide whether to make something up or just to tell me the truth. "At first I did, I wondered if you were safe and ok but." He stopped. "But after awhile you decided that I would be fine and that you should concentrate on your career." I said, without realising I'd said it but I didn't aplogise for saying it. "No, that's not it at all." He yelled.
I was shocked he sure could yell. I waited for him to say something, when he didn't I did. "Mark it's no big deal you know. I mean it's not like I thought of you of every second of every day." I said quickly brushing my hand across my eyes to wipe away the tears.
"Faith, it seems that you already know the answers to all your questions so why do you bother asking them?" he yelled again. "If you would let me answer then maybe you would get the facts."
"Fine go ahead answer the question but usually people don't wait 10 minutes for every answer!" I yelled back at him.
"At first I did think about you, but then it wasn't as often sometimes when I'd see a few of the guys hanging out with there kids when they where in there hometowns then yeah sure I thought that could easily be me having fun with my kid but Faith I didn't regret leaving you." Mark said.
Once again I felt the pain as he told me he didn't regret leaving me. Wait a second! "You said didn't." I said standing up now. "What?" He said "You said you didn't regret leaving me, that's past tense does that mean that you changed your mind." I said getting excited. "Faith I still have no idea what you're going on about."
"If you still felt the same you would have said I don't regret leaving you but you said didn't." I said I watched as Mark stood up. "Faith, I meant don't." he reached out to touch my arm.
"Don't!" I screamed. "I know your lying. If you really meant it then why'd you want me to come back here! Mark just tell me you regret leaving me! Fine you didn't think about me I can deal with that and you may have given me up so you could come here and become a wrestler but don't say that you don't regret leaving me because I can see it in your eyes you do!" I yelled at him tears streaming my face.
He was about to say something when there was a knock at the door. "Who the hell is it?" Mark yelled out. I watched as the door opened and a guy stuck his head in. "Um, sorry to interrupt but um Stephanie wants to see you sir." The guy said nervously he stumbled over every word he said.
"Tell her I'll be there in 2 seconds." Mark said. The guys head disappeared and the door closed. Mark turned back to face me. "Faith can we talk about this later." He asked me. "Sure why not." I said walking out of the room.
I knew the truth now all I had to do was get him to say it out loud.
The kids were screaming and running around in the backyard as I knocked on the front door I had no idea what I was going to say to Patrick. What do you say to a kid who thinks you're the wicked witch?
Britney answered the door, I saw Patrick standing in the hallway but when he saw me he ran away. "Was that him?" Torrie asked. "Yeah, Britney how is he?" I asked stepping inside.
"Truthfully he won't let me pick up the pieces of the video I've tried a dozen times but he won't let me go near them. I'm just worried one of the babies is going to find a piece and choke." Britney said. "Who's this?" Britney asked pointing to Torrie.
"Oh Britney this Torrie Wilson from the WWE Torrie this is my friend Britney." I said. "Nice to meet you." Torrie said. "Yeah." Britney said.
"Listen Brit I'm going back with Torrie but I had to talk to Patrick first." I said. "Why don't you show Torrie around?" "Sure why not." Britney said. Something was up with Britney but I'd deal with that later.
I watched as Torrie followed Britney outside. I walked down the hallway and saw Patrick sitting by the broken video. He looked up and stood up he was about to run away but I stopped him. "Patrick." I said grabbing his arm. "Go away meanie!" he screamed pulling away from me.
I watched as he ran away from me and ran outside to Britney. What have I done he use to hate Britney. Now he hated me. I walked outside, I saw Patrick behind Britney and then I saw Torrie playing with a few kids in the sand box. I walked over to Torrie.
"We can go now." I said to her waving hello to some of the kids. They didn't wave back. "Ok bye guys." Torrie said brushing off the sand.
We both walked over to Britney, she looked pissed. "Torrie, can I speak to Britney alone for a minute." I asked. "Sure I'll be at the car. Just remember we got a flight to catch." She said going back to the car.
I pulled Britney inside and into the office. "Ok spill what the hell is wrong with you?" I said closing the door behind us. "Nothing." Britney said. "Oh don't give me that you have been acting weird since I got here. Now tell me what the problem is." I said. "You are the problem! First you come here all upset this morning and you say that you wish you'd never gone now you've changed your mind and you're going back there with that little tramp Torrie. Patrick will hate you forever if you don't stay and at least try and sort it out with him. In the matter of 3 days you've changed you always used to put these kids first what happened to you wanted them to have a great life even if it was in a children's home, you broke Patrick's tape you broke his heart. Faith you really need to think if this is really what you want to do. It never seemed that important to you before, why do you have to find out about your dad now." Britney said.
I couldn't believe it. "Britney, it has always been my number one priority to find out about my Dad. I still want these kids to have a great life but I have to do what I have to do. If you were in my shoes you'd do exactly the same thing." I said. I walked out to car got in and drove away Britney waved goodbye but I didn't wave back, why is it lately I feel like I'm losing everyone that ever loved me.
I was once again standing in front of the arena; it had been a long flight I kept thinking of how Patrick had called me a meanie and how Britney said I had changed. Had I really changed?
My thoughts were interrupted by someone picking me up and squeezing the life out of me. "I can't breath!" I said. "John put me down right now!" John put me down on the ground I straightened out my skirt then hugged him back. "I know you got to talk to your dad but after come see me ok?" he said "Of course I will." I said walking inside. As I walked I could hear Torrie singing Faith and John sitting in a tree.
I ignored it I had bigger things on my mind right now. I followed Torrie and John into the back, John told me where to find him we said goodbye and Torrie and I continued to walk around the arena. We came to Marks dressing room; I gave Torrie a quick hug and knocked on the door.
Mark opened the door; he didn't say anything just held open the door for me I walked in and sat down. "I'm glad you came back.' He said sitting down next to me. "Yeah well Torries a good persuader, so why did you dump me off at some children's home and never want to see me again?" I wasn't going to hold back this time I wanted answers and I wanted the truth.
"Faith, I told them that I wanted contact between me and you to be cut because I didn't want to have to face up to what I did. But you found me and it's no good running away from things forever so I guess I should come right out and say that I made a decision when I held you in my arms I saw two roads one was that I'd marry Clare and be a father, the other was that I'd sign my contract for the WWE and become a professional wrestler. I took the second choice, I told Clare I would get here a drink, I never came back. I don't know if Clare had planned on killing herself whether I stayed or not but when I got that phone call I was back at the beginning again the first road had come back again another chance to become a father but I turned it down." Mark said, I guess I wasn't the only one that wasn't going to hold back.
I just sat there taking it all in, he had chosen career over family life. "Did you think of me?" I asked I waited for his answer; I knew he was trying to decide whether to make something up or just to tell me the truth. "At first I did, I wondered if you were safe and ok but." He stopped. "But after awhile you decided that I would be fine and that you should concentrate on your career." I said, without realising I'd said it but I didn't aplogise for saying it. "No, that's not it at all." He yelled.
I was shocked he sure could yell. I waited for him to say something, when he didn't I did. "Mark it's no big deal you know. I mean it's not like I thought of you of every second of every day." I said quickly brushing my hand across my eyes to wipe away the tears.
"Faith, it seems that you already know the answers to all your questions so why do you bother asking them?" he yelled again. "If you would let me answer then maybe you would get the facts."
"Fine go ahead answer the question but usually people don't wait 10 minutes for every answer!" I yelled back at him.
"At first I did think about you, but then it wasn't as often sometimes when I'd see a few of the guys hanging out with there kids when they where in there hometowns then yeah sure I thought that could easily be me having fun with my kid but Faith I didn't regret leaving you." Mark said.
Once again I felt the pain as he told me he didn't regret leaving me. Wait a second! "You said didn't." I said standing up now. "What?" He said "You said you didn't regret leaving me, that's past tense does that mean that you changed your mind." I said getting excited. "Faith I still have no idea what you're going on about."
"If you still felt the same you would have said I don't regret leaving you but you said didn't." I said I watched as Mark stood up. "Faith, I meant don't." he reached out to touch my arm.
"Don't!" I screamed. "I know your lying. If you really meant it then why'd you want me to come back here! Mark just tell me you regret leaving me! Fine you didn't think about me I can deal with that and you may have given me up so you could come here and become a wrestler but don't say that you don't regret leaving me because I can see it in your eyes you do!" I yelled at him tears streaming my face.
He was about to say something when there was a knock at the door. "Who the hell is it?" Mark yelled out. I watched as the door opened and a guy stuck his head in. "Um, sorry to interrupt but um Stephanie wants to see you sir." The guy said nervously he stumbled over every word he said.
"Tell her I'll be there in 2 seconds." Mark said. The guys head disappeared and the door closed. Mark turned back to face me. "Faith can we talk about this later." He asked me. "Sure why not." I said walking out of the room.
I knew the truth now all I had to do was get him to say it out loud.