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Am I Forsaken?
Continuation Three
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I had come to know that being the living dead wasn't the worse thing in the world I rather liked the way Atemu held me close to him, whispering to me that I can take the very blood from his body whenever I wished.
'I am at your mercy... I am yours to tame...' He would tell me.
I felt a sense of security with him yet I felt as if I didn't. I feel torn between safety and fear; this made so sense to me.
---Something just isn't right / I can feel it inside
---The truth isn't far behind me / You can't deny
---When I turn the lights out / When I close my eyes
--- Reality overcomes me / I'm living a lie
I had not been my mother in for two nights now, those nights I had spent with Atemu. I wanted to see my mother but he told me that if we see our family alive and well... we may end up devouring them. This made me feel somewhat alone and too myself.
---When I'm alone I feel so much better
--- When I'm around you I don't feel
I even sometimes wondered if I wasn't meant to be with as much as I wanted to. I felt deprive of normality. But with him it didn't exactly feel right, something I felt when I was thinking of drinking from him.
---Together / It doesn't feel right at all
---Together / Together we built a wall
---Together / Holding hands will fall
---Holding hands will fall
I knew I had to understand my own feelings soon for I needed to keep my mind clear. If I didn't, I would feel uncomfortable with myself as well as Atemu. I wanted to let my heart, or what was left of it, to choose.
---This has gone on so long / I realize that I need
---Something good to reply on / Something for me
I suddenly felt Atemu's presence in the room. This room was the room he and I shared. It was an underground cavern. We would both sleep here during the day but with my feelings would that be the case?
---When I'm alone I feel so much better
--- When I'm around you I don't feel
He could feel my conflict in emotions. He could feel everything and he always seemed to know my heart yet, I was afraid.
"Why would you be?" Atemu asked aloud, just reading my mind.
---Together / It doesn't feel right at all
---Together / Together we built a wall
---Together / Holding hands will fall
---Holding hands will fall
"You are really afraid of me?" He asked almost purring.
I turned fully around on the bed we had slept in while the sun was up in the sky, I had been with him. I remember feeling his body against mine. I remember how I felt safe, yet I was still afraid.
---My heart is broken / I'm lying here
---My thoughts are choking / On you my dear
---On you my dear / On you my dear...
"My dearest Tokuhana...You are afraid of me yet you are safe with me..." Atemu said laughing a little.
He started to walk toward me coming closer. I started to feel safe with him once more as my fear melted away. I had now realized that when I wasn't near Atemu I felt scared but it was not of him... It was of being left all alone to my death. My thoughts melt completely away as I was pulled into his warm arms...
[Okay, I know... Twas a very STRANGE chapter but deal with it. And to all of you out there who even remotely care there is more so be scared for I, the evil priestess Kiyama, will await your reviews. If there are any...]
Am I Forsaken?
Continuation Three
.
.
I had come to know that being the living dead wasn't the worse thing in the world I rather liked the way Atemu held me close to him, whispering to me that I can take the very blood from his body whenever I wished.
'I am at your mercy... I am yours to tame...' He would tell me.
I felt a sense of security with him yet I felt as if I didn't. I feel torn between safety and fear; this made so sense to me.
---Something just isn't right / I can feel it inside
---The truth isn't far behind me / You can't deny
---When I turn the lights out / When I close my eyes
--- Reality overcomes me / I'm living a lie
I had not been my mother in for two nights now, those nights I had spent with Atemu. I wanted to see my mother but he told me that if we see our family alive and well... we may end up devouring them. This made me feel somewhat alone and too myself.
---When I'm alone I feel so much better
--- When I'm around you I don't feel
I even sometimes wondered if I wasn't meant to be with as much as I wanted to. I felt deprive of normality. But with him it didn't exactly feel right, something I felt when I was thinking of drinking from him.
---Together / It doesn't feel right at all
---Together / Together we built a wall
---Together / Holding hands will fall
---Holding hands will fall
I knew I had to understand my own feelings soon for I needed to keep my mind clear. If I didn't, I would feel uncomfortable with myself as well as Atemu. I wanted to let my heart, or what was left of it, to choose.
---This has gone on so long / I realize that I need
---Something good to reply on / Something for me
I suddenly felt Atemu's presence in the room. This room was the room he and I shared. It was an underground cavern. We would both sleep here during the day but with my feelings would that be the case?
---When I'm alone I feel so much better
--- When I'm around you I don't feel
He could feel my conflict in emotions. He could feel everything and he always seemed to know my heart yet, I was afraid.
"Why would you be?" Atemu asked aloud, just reading my mind.
---Together / It doesn't feel right at all
---Together / Together we built a wall
---Together / Holding hands will fall
---Holding hands will fall
"You are really afraid of me?" He asked almost purring.
I turned fully around on the bed we had slept in while the sun was up in the sky, I had been with him. I remember feeling his body against mine. I remember how I felt safe, yet I was still afraid.
---My heart is broken / I'm lying here
---My thoughts are choking / On you my dear
---On you my dear / On you my dear...
"My dearest Tokuhana...You are afraid of me yet you are safe with me..." Atemu said laughing a little.
He started to walk toward me coming closer. I started to feel safe with him once more as my fear melted away. I had now realized that when I wasn't near Atemu I felt scared but it was not of him... It was of being left all alone to my death. My thoughts melt completely away as I was pulled into his warm arms...
[Okay, I know... Twas a very STRANGE chapter but deal with it. And to all of you out there who even remotely care there is more so be scared for I, the evil priestess Kiyama, will await your reviews. If there are any...]