Title: Everything You Thought You Knew
Author: Sara and Lizzie
Disclaimer: Meg is God. We borrowed it, don't sue.
Rating: Pg-13, with a possible change.
Summary: Several years after Jesse disappeared, Suze is living in San Francisco, finally leading the normal life she dreamed of when she was a teenager. Until she returns to Carmel for a Fourth of July weekend that changes her life again.
Author's Note: Another short one. We suck, we know. And we solemnly swear to update at the very least once a week.
"It's always you in my big dreams." –Something Corporate
Impossible. Alex had been hanging around for two days, and it was impossible. I left the house for a variety of stupid, ridiculous reasons. Anything to see Jesse.
Pathetic. I felt like I was 16 years old again. If only. I was in my car coming back from another secret tryst with Jesse, and I was spiraling out of control.
Lost. Time was standing still, yet flying by at warp speed. I was screaming and silent, crying and laughing, between Heaven and Hell.
You might say it was a Catch 22. You could say I was between a rock and a hard place, but I wasn't. I knew what I should do. Marry Alex. I also knew what I had to do, be with Jesse. My head and my heart were having a showdown, not caring how much of my soul they tore away.
Impossible. I was so frustrates with the whole thing that I took it out on Jesse. He bears the brunt of my confusion, because, oh yea, I can't exactly complain to Alex. So I used him as my emotional punching bag again. Only he got tired of it. So kissed me to shut me up. And that to...
Pathetic. I'm 25 years old. It should take more than a little rough sex to make me get lost in someone. But it's Jesse.
Lost. There's no way for me to escape these thoughts. I grab my cell phone and call Paul. I know he's in San Francisco, and should be in Carmel in the next few days anyway.
"Hello?"
"Paul? It's me. I need help."
"We're on our way."
Impossible. Despite Paul's logic, I keep defying him, and refusing to listen, and round and round we go. It's impossible to get off this cycle. Finally, he's had enough. He storms out of the sitting room of the massive house that his grandfather still inhabits.
Pathetic. Kaelyn and I are now sitting here, looking at each other. She meets my eye.
"I understand your problem Suze."
"No offense, Kaelyn, but I really don't think you can."
"Suze. Before Paul and I got married...." She trails off.
I raised an eyebrow. "Yea?" For a long time, she's silent.
"He really loved you, you know. And he loved you first."
"I know."
"I just, I know what it's like to wonder if you really are what the person you love says you are to them. And if Alex isn't..."
"Yea."
"All I know is that there is someone for everyone. The quality of life depends on whether or not you pick the right someone. And for you...."
Lost? Not so much.
"It's always been Jesse."
Author: Sara and Lizzie
Disclaimer: Meg is God. We borrowed it, don't sue.
Rating: Pg-13, with a possible change.
Summary: Several years after Jesse disappeared, Suze is living in San Francisco, finally leading the normal life she dreamed of when she was a teenager. Until she returns to Carmel for a Fourth of July weekend that changes her life again.
Author's Note: Another short one. We suck, we know. And we solemnly swear to update at the very least once a week.
"It's always you in my big dreams." –Something Corporate
Impossible. Alex had been hanging around for two days, and it was impossible. I left the house for a variety of stupid, ridiculous reasons. Anything to see Jesse.
Pathetic. I felt like I was 16 years old again. If only. I was in my car coming back from another secret tryst with Jesse, and I was spiraling out of control.
Lost. Time was standing still, yet flying by at warp speed. I was screaming and silent, crying and laughing, between Heaven and Hell.
You might say it was a Catch 22. You could say I was between a rock and a hard place, but I wasn't. I knew what I should do. Marry Alex. I also knew what I had to do, be with Jesse. My head and my heart were having a showdown, not caring how much of my soul they tore away.
Impossible. I was so frustrates with the whole thing that I took it out on Jesse. He bears the brunt of my confusion, because, oh yea, I can't exactly complain to Alex. So I used him as my emotional punching bag again. Only he got tired of it. So kissed me to shut me up. And that to...
Pathetic. I'm 25 years old. It should take more than a little rough sex to make me get lost in someone. But it's Jesse.
Lost. There's no way for me to escape these thoughts. I grab my cell phone and call Paul. I know he's in San Francisco, and should be in Carmel in the next few days anyway.
"Hello?"
"Paul? It's me. I need help."
"We're on our way."
Impossible. Despite Paul's logic, I keep defying him, and refusing to listen, and round and round we go. It's impossible to get off this cycle. Finally, he's had enough. He storms out of the sitting room of the massive house that his grandfather still inhabits.
Pathetic. Kaelyn and I are now sitting here, looking at each other. She meets my eye.
"I understand your problem Suze."
"No offense, Kaelyn, but I really don't think you can."
"Suze. Before Paul and I got married...." She trails off.
I raised an eyebrow. "Yea?" For a long time, she's silent.
"He really loved you, you know. And he loved you first."
"I know."
"I just, I know what it's like to wonder if you really are what the person you love says you are to them. And if Alex isn't..."
"Yea."
"All I know is that there is someone for everyone. The quality of life depends on whether or not you pick the right someone. And for you...."
Lost? Not so much.
"It's always been Jesse."