Ryan misses Playstation.
Arturo has an Xbox with a ton of football games, and even a hockey game. But there's no Gran Turismo. No Grand Theft Auto. No ninjas. When Arturo's friends ask him if he wants to play, he remembers Luke and his gay dad, and suppresses a small grin and says 'no thanks.' They don't play in their pajamas, anyway, and they're out of cereal.
He misses getting killed by Sandy's ninjas. He misses laughing at Summer trying to steal a car, pretending not to notice the glint in her eyes when she asked him for help, since he's the resident expert in all things related to auto theft and all. He misses walking into the house on Saturday mornings and seeing two bowls set out on the island, cereal poured, Seth leafing through a comic and waiting patiently.
He misses sitting in the floor of the living room next to Seth, their backs against the couch. He misses Seth's incessant babbling and ineffective taunts. He misses the surprised look in Seth's eyes every time he loses. He misses the way their hands would touch briefly when they both reached for the popcorn or the Captain Crunch at the same time. He misses the way Seth would flail his arms wildly after a particularly difficult victory. He misses the way Seth's thigh would rest against his, their knees touching, and neither of them would move away, and when they did, Ryan's ears were still tinged with red.
He tries to play Madden 2004, but the analog controls are in the wrong place, and he hates the fucking football games anyway, so he's just staring at the controller in his hand, trying not to remember how Seth looked when he asked if he wanted to play that first morning in Newport.
He wonders why neither of them ever moved their legs. He wonders if Seth noticed the heat, the way Ryan's muscles tensed and relaxed every time Seth moved away, then back again.
He's sitting in the backyard again, smoking. He's wondering where they would be on that Pancake Tour if he hadn't hidden in the model home. He wonders how far they would've gotten if he had let Seth come with him, if they'd be in Austin together, instead of Chino and some undetermined place on the ocean.
He wonders why it's taken this long to realize that Seth was willing to leave everything just to be with him after only knowing him for a weekend. He wonders why it's taken this long to figure out why it was so hard to leave Seth after only knowing him for a year, when he left Chino without a thought.