Blind
Disclaimer- Uuuuummmmmmmmm. Don't know. Let's just say that…..Inu Yasha's my guy so back off! He he. Jk. But seriously, I don't own Inu Yasha, cause if I did, I wouldn't have to spend all my money buying all the dvd's.
Warning- Song Chap. The song is Faint by Linkin Park. I don't own them, or the song. But I must say, the guy that raps, he cuuuutte! =P
*_* Promise *_*
Inu Yasha jumped from tree to tree. Not really knowing where he was taking the group. His mind was empty of all thoughts but one. Kagome. What had happened to her, for her to change so? Never had she been so eager to find a shard. Had she gotten sick of their nagging? Did she just want to finish the quest and go home forever? He growled silently. Women were confusing.
Sango followed in behind Kagome. She was tired. They all were. They had been traveling since the night before, and not once had they stopped since then. By now, it was mid afternoon! But she dare not suggest stopping. Her friend had a knew determination. Why? Who knew.
Sango reached out a hand, and placed it on Kagome's shoulder. "Kagome can we stop? We're all tired. We've had nothing to eat."
Kagome stopped, and turned around. Everyone stopped and looked at her. She sighed. "But there's a shard…."
Miroku cut her off. "Lady Kagome. I think Inu Yasha is having an ill influence on you."
Inu Yasha growled. "Shut up Monk. You better watch you tongue. Or you might not have on to watch."
Miroku swallowed. 'Inu Yasha is having an ill influence on you.' Miroku's words ran through her head. 'You don't know how much.' She thought. But despite her yearning for the quest to be over, she had decided. "Very well. We shall rest by the nearby stream over there."
Inu Yasha's brows furrowed. He smelt no stream. But as they walked, they had come across a stream. Just like Kagome had said. But unlike what she said, it was not nearby. They walked for an hour before reaching it.
Shippou licked his lips as Kagome boiled the ramen, and dug into her pack for some chocolate cake. Kagome let out a fustrated sigh.
Shippou looked up. "What's wrong Kagome."
"I left the cake back at the stream."
Inu Yasha snorted. "Stupid girl. How the hell could you forget it? A demon probably got to it already."
Kagome's eyes narrowed. But she didn't say anything. Instead, she got up, picked up her bow and arrows, and headed back towards the stream.
"Oi!" Inu Yasha called after her. "Where you going wench?!"
"What do you care." Kagome muttered.
Sango exchanged a worried look with Miroku. He nodded, and she left to go after Kagome. The sound of Inu Yasha's colourful language and mumblings of fucking mood swings slowly faded into the distance.
"Kagome?" Sango called softly.
"Yeah?" came a muffled reply.
Sango swallowed. Kagome sat alone on the river side. Her head was held in her hands. Small tears slowly making their way down her cheeks.
"Kagome, what's wrong?"
"Nothing Sango. It's just, the cake's not here, and I feel like such a loser for forgetting it." She sniffed.
Sango raised an eyebrow, then snorted. "Kagome." She said firmly. "We've known each other for a whole year. You're basically my sister. What makes you think that I don't know when you're lying?"
Kagome sighed. Sango was right. "Look Sango, I don't want to talk about it right now okay? Maybe later though."
Sango bit her bottom lip. "Alright." Hurt, and confused, Sango turned to leave.
"H-hey Sango?" Kagome's meak voice called after her.
"Y-yeah?"
"Thanks for caring." Kagome sniffed.
Sango smirked. "No problem."
*_~ Inu Yasaha ~_*
It was very quiet. Shippou had curled up in Kagome's sleeping bag after the beating he got from Inu Yasha. Sango and Kagome still weren't back. Course, it had only been five minutes but like, he was Inu Yasha. Very impatient.
A sigh was heard from below. "Why do you this to her?"
Inu Yasha growled. "What do you mean Monk?"
Miroku swallowed. Why must his friend be so stubborn? "You know what I mean Inu Yasha. Why do hurt Lady Kagome so?"
"Feh." Was his response.
Miroku's eyes narrowed. "Inu Yasha! She cares for you. Why must you real her in, and then just push her away, and go off with that dead bitch?"
Inu Yasha growled loudly. Almost barking at Miroku. What he did was none of his business. "She deserves it." Though he said and thought it, his heart told him differently.
"Why? What has she done that you must torture her so?"
"She's just another burden. She can hardly even shoot an arrow, let alone is as pretty as Kik…."
"There you go again Inu Yasha! Always comparing her with Kikyou. When will you see that they are two different people? Kagome…."
"SHUT UP!! Just mind your own business."
Miroku stared at Inu Yasha awhile longer, before turning, and sitting on the ground near the fire. Why? Why did he do this to Kagome. If Inu Yasha wasn't careful, Kagome might just return to the well, and leave them all forever. 'But you can't make Inu Yasha love her.' His conscious reminded him. And as much as he hated to say it, the voice was right.
~_* Kagome *_~
~I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact that everybody can see
these scars~
Kagome lay still in her bed. She had returned thirty minutes ago. Every one was in bed. She had heard the whole conversation. Luckily Sango wasn't with her at the time, or she would've blown up. Sango had gone to gather some berries for breakfast next day. Returning minutes after Kagome supposedly did. Inu Yasha would probably blame her for the talk that he got from Miroku. It wasn't her fault that every one could read her like a book. It wasn't her fault that they knew how she felt about Inu Yasha and *gag* Kikyou *gag*.
~I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real~
She tried. She really did. She tried to live up to his expectations. She tried to get him to like her. If not like a lover, then at least like a friend. But no. She would never 'shoot like Kikyou.' She would never 'be as pretty as Kikyou'. No. She'd never be as good as Kikyou. Inu Yasha would never see her as more than just another burden that broke the jewel.
'When?' she thought silently. Holding back tears, for she knew that he would be able to smell the salt, and that would just make the situation worse. 'When, Inu Yasha, will I be worthy of you friendship? Can't you see that you're tearing me apart?' She bit her bottom lip to keep from letting out a whimper.
~So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got~
Every damn time that she thought she had his friendship, he would turn, and walk away. Just walk away from her, Miroku, Sango, and Shippou. Why did he think that he had to be alone? Well, he wasn't totally alone right? 'Because he has Kikyou.' She thought solemly.
But every time. Every time he needed her, she was there. 'Why do I keep coming back to you Inu Yasha? What do you have that Kouga, or Hojo doesn't? Why must I love you?' but she knew the answer. Because he was all she had. He would be all she ever had. Ironic. The one thing she loved, and wanted the most, she couldn't have. A lover.
She heard a soft pat, and knew that once again, Inu Yasha had left to see Kikyou.
~ [Chorus]
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)~
Sighing softly, Kagome got up, and sat down underneath the tree in wich Inu Yasha, well, in wich Inu Yasha was supposed to be sleeping in. She closed her eyes. Love. She was in love. It was the best feeling in the world at first. Yet, Kikyou came, and every thing fell apart.
When ever she apologized, it was just a 'feh', but now, it was a 'You should be you worthless wench.' It hurt. He may not see it, but it hurt. More than she let on. And she knew, that she let on a lot.
~I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
Sense~
He had changed her. And Kagome knew that her friends saw her change almost imeadiatly. Or at least, Sango saw her change. They were like sisters. How could she not? The once confident, sure of herself Kagome was gone, only to be replaced by some unsure girl. Never knowing what to do.
She tried to the right thing, but she always made a mistake. Ones that preceeded a screaming lecture from Inu Yasha. But he was blind. He couldn't see that she was trying to help. Kagome couldn't really blame him though. Sometimes, her help came in the oddest ways. Even she didn't understand how she came up with them some times.
~I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out~
She tried to be his friend, but no. He just couldn't see it. And if he did, he would never admit to it. Countless times she had tried to confess her feelings. But Inu Yasha just walked away with some lame excuse.
~So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got~
And every time, she watched him walk away. Promising herself to stop him next time. But she kept stalling, and in less than a second, Kikyou was there to take her place. Right beside Inu Yasha. Soon the whore would start traveling with them. That would be the day.
~ (I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)~
'I promised myself that I would change. But I didn't. I promised to be cold, but I wasn't. I broke down at the river side. But this time I wont. I wont back down.' Kagome picked up a sharp rock, and using the edge, she slit her finger. And taking her finger she smeared the dripping blood on the trunk of the tree. This tree was her witness. And if she didn't keep her promise, she would return home, and never come back. She was going to change. Inu crew, meet the new Kagome.
_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*
Wow. Pretty long chap? Well, okay the lyrics took up some room, but, like yeah. The story doesn't have much action yet, but it will. Later. Maybe. Don't expect me to update soon though, because I have two other stories going, one really sucky one, but since my style has improved, I will continue it, and one short one, but it will get longer. Not only that, but school is just piling on top of me. I just started grade seven, and the homework load is huge. Sorry to all my readers. But thanks to the following reviewers.
Paso Lover
Lady Sarah
Silvergriffen
Chikenmastah
Mitchie
Saria
Inu Yasha 80
P.S. Thanks to Inu Yasha 80 who added me to thier fav authors list!~_* I luv you! THANK YOU!!!!=P
Disclaimer- Uuuuummmmmmmmm. Don't know. Let's just say that…..Inu Yasha's my guy so back off! He he. Jk. But seriously, I don't own Inu Yasha, cause if I did, I wouldn't have to spend all my money buying all the dvd's.
Warning- Song Chap. The song is Faint by Linkin Park. I don't own them, or the song. But I must say, the guy that raps, he cuuuutte! =P
*_* Promise *_*
Inu Yasha jumped from tree to tree. Not really knowing where he was taking the group. His mind was empty of all thoughts but one. Kagome. What had happened to her, for her to change so? Never had she been so eager to find a shard. Had she gotten sick of their nagging? Did she just want to finish the quest and go home forever? He growled silently. Women were confusing.
Sango followed in behind Kagome. She was tired. They all were. They had been traveling since the night before, and not once had they stopped since then. By now, it was mid afternoon! But she dare not suggest stopping. Her friend had a knew determination. Why? Who knew.
Sango reached out a hand, and placed it on Kagome's shoulder. "Kagome can we stop? We're all tired. We've had nothing to eat."
Kagome stopped, and turned around. Everyone stopped and looked at her. She sighed. "But there's a shard…."
Miroku cut her off. "Lady Kagome. I think Inu Yasha is having an ill influence on you."
Inu Yasha growled. "Shut up Monk. You better watch you tongue. Or you might not have on to watch."
Miroku swallowed. 'Inu Yasha is having an ill influence on you.' Miroku's words ran through her head. 'You don't know how much.' She thought. But despite her yearning for the quest to be over, she had decided. "Very well. We shall rest by the nearby stream over there."
Inu Yasha's brows furrowed. He smelt no stream. But as they walked, they had come across a stream. Just like Kagome had said. But unlike what she said, it was not nearby. They walked for an hour before reaching it.
Shippou licked his lips as Kagome boiled the ramen, and dug into her pack for some chocolate cake. Kagome let out a fustrated sigh.
Shippou looked up. "What's wrong Kagome."
"I left the cake back at the stream."
Inu Yasha snorted. "Stupid girl. How the hell could you forget it? A demon probably got to it already."
Kagome's eyes narrowed. But she didn't say anything. Instead, she got up, picked up her bow and arrows, and headed back towards the stream.
"Oi!" Inu Yasha called after her. "Where you going wench?!"
"What do you care." Kagome muttered.
Sango exchanged a worried look with Miroku. He nodded, and she left to go after Kagome. The sound of Inu Yasha's colourful language and mumblings of fucking mood swings slowly faded into the distance.
"Kagome?" Sango called softly.
"Yeah?" came a muffled reply.
Sango swallowed. Kagome sat alone on the river side. Her head was held in her hands. Small tears slowly making their way down her cheeks.
"Kagome, what's wrong?"
"Nothing Sango. It's just, the cake's not here, and I feel like such a loser for forgetting it." She sniffed.
Sango raised an eyebrow, then snorted. "Kagome." She said firmly. "We've known each other for a whole year. You're basically my sister. What makes you think that I don't know when you're lying?"
Kagome sighed. Sango was right. "Look Sango, I don't want to talk about it right now okay? Maybe later though."
Sango bit her bottom lip. "Alright." Hurt, and confused, Sango turned to leave.
"H-hey Sango?" Kagome's meak voice called after her.
"Y-yeah?"
"Thanks for caring." Kagome sniffed.
Sango smirked. "No problem."
*_~ Inu Yasaha ~_*
It was very quiet. Shippou had curled up in Kagome's sleeping bag after the beating he got from Inu Yasha. Sango and Kagome still weren't back. Course, it had only been five minutes but like, he was Inu Yasha. Very impatient.
A sigh was heard from below. "Why do you this to her?"
Inu Yasha growled. "What do you mean Monk?"
Miroku swallowed. Why must his friend be so stubborn? "You know what I mean Inu Yasha. Why do hurt Lady Kagome so?"
"Feh." Was his response.
Miroku's eyes narrowed. "Inu Yasha! She cares for you. Why must you real her in, and then just push her away, and go off with that dead bitch?"
Inu Yasha growled loudly. Almost barking at Miroku. What he did was none of his business. "She deserves it." Though he said and thought it, his heart told him differently.
"Why? What has she done that you must torture her so?"
"She's just another burden. She can hardly even shoot an arrow, let alone is as pretty as Kik…."
"There you go again Inu Yasha! Always comparing her with Kikyou. When will you see that they are two different people? Kagome…."
"SHUT UP!! Just mind your own business."
Miroku stared at Inu Yasha awhile longer, before turning, and sitting on the ground near the fire. Why? Why did he do this to Kagome. If Inu Yasha wasn't careful, Kagome might just return to the well, and leave them all forever. 'But you can't make Inu Yasha love her.' His conscious reminded him. And as much as he hated to say it, the voice was right.
~_* Kagome *_~
~I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact that everybody can see
these scars~
Kagome lay still in her bed. She had returned thirty minutes ago. Every one was in bed. She had heard the whole conversation. Luckily Sango wasn't with her at the time, or she would've blown up. Sango had gone to gather some berries for breakfast next day. Returning minutes after Kagome supposedly did. Inu Yasha would probably blame her for the talk that he got from Miroku. It wasn't her fault that every one could read her like a book. It wasn't her fault that they knew how she felt about Inu Yasha and *gag* Kikyou *gag*.
~I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real~
She tried. She really did. She tried to live up to his expectations. She tried to get him to like her. If not like a lover, then at least like a friend. But no. She would never 'shoot like Kikyou.' She would never 'be as pretty as Kikyou'. No. She'd never be as good as Kikyou. Inu Yasha would never see her as more than just another burden that broke the jewel.
'When?' she thought silently. Holding back tears, for she knew that he would be able to smell the salt, and that would just make the situation worse. 'When, Inu Yasha, will I be worthy of you friendship? Can't you see that you're tearing me apart?' She bit her bottom lip to keep from letting out a whimper.
~So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got~
Every damn time that she thought she had his friendship, he would turn, and walk away. Just walk away from her, Miroku, Sango, and Shippou. Why did he think that he had to be alone? Well, he wasn't totally alone right? 'Because he has Kikyou.' She thought solemly.
But every time. Every time he needed her, she was there. 'Why do I keep coming back to you Inu Yasha? What do you have that Kouga, or Hojo doesn't? Why must I love you?' but she knew the answer. Because he was all she had. He would be all she ever had. Ironic. The one thing she loved, and wanted the most, she couldn't have. A lover.
She heard a soft pat, and knew that once again, Inu Yasha had left to see Kikyou.
~ [Chorus]
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)~
Sighing softly, Kagome got up, and sat down underneath the tree in wich Inu Yasha, well, in wich Inu Yasha was supposed to be sleeping in. She closed her eyes. Love. She was in love. It was the best feeling in the world at first. Yet, Kikyou came, and every thing fell apart.
When ever she apologized, it was just a 'feh', but now, it was a 'You should be you worthless wench.' It hurt. He may not see it, but it hurt. More than she let on. And she knew, that she let on a lot.
~I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
Sense~
He had changed her. And Kagome knew that her friends saw her change almost imeadiatly. Or at least, Sango saw her change. They were like sisters. How could she not? The once confident, sure of herself Kagome was gone, only to be replaced by some unsure girl. Never knowing what to do.
She tried to the right thing, but she always made a mistake. Ones that preceeded a screaming lecture from Inu Yasha. But he was blind. He couldn't see that she was trying to help. Kagome couldn't really blame him though. Sometimes, her help came in the oddest ways. Even she didn't understand how she came up with them some times.
~I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out~
She tried to be his friend, but no. He just couldn't see it. And if he did, he would never admit to it. Countless times she had tried to confess her feelings. But Inu Yasha just walked away with some lame excuse.
~So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got~
And every time, she watched him walk away. Promising herself to stop him next time. But she kept stalling, and in less than a second, Kikyou was there to take her place. Right beside Inu Yasha. Soon the whore would start traveling with them. That would be the day.
~ (I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)~
'I promised myself that I would change. But I didn't. I promised to be cold, but I wasn't. I broke down at the river side. But this time I wont. I wont back down.' Kagome picked up a sharp rock, and using the edge, she slit her finger. And taking her finger she smeared the dripping blood on the trunk of the tree. This tree was her witness. And if she didn't keep her promise, she would return home, and never come back. She was going to change. Inu crew, meet the new Kagome.
_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*
Wow. Pretty long chap? Well, okay the lyrics took up some room, but, like yeah. The story doesn't have much action yet, but it will. Later. Maybe. Don't expect me to update soon though, because I have two other stories going, one really sucky one, but since my style has improved, I will continue it, and one short one, but it will get longer. Not only that, but school is just piling on top of me. I just started grade seven, and the homework load is huge. Sorry to all my readers. But thanks to the following reviewers.
Paso Lover
Lady Sarah
Silvergriffen
Chikenmastah
Mitchie
Saria
Inu Yasha 80
P.S. Thanks to Inu Yasha 80 who added me to thier fav authors list!~_* I luv you! THANK YOU!!!!=P