Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans, nor do I own any associated intellectual property.
Review Responses:
Ravenn03: I tend to base it on the show in order to allow a bit of authenticity. However, I don't plan on quoting more episodes or anything, that was a one time bit. Terra doesn't have a decent backstory in the animated series, so I had to use the bit provided. Regardless, as the story progresses, it gets darker than the show and stops feeling like an episode anyway. Glad you like the fic, however.
Jakked-Up: I've been updating at least daily! Heh. I'll aim for two today, just for fun.
Moonfirefire: Glad you like it.
SoraOathKeeper: Glad you liked Raven's little ploy. If I continue writing fics, I'll probably end up paying for six months' service or something.
Snowy: Glad you liked it. Here's another.
A/N: The review responses are based on the reviews that have arrived in my email, at the point in time that the next chapter is finished. I apologize for weird effects, like Ravenn03's chapter three review being answered in chapter 5.
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A Woman Scorned
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"Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." - The Mourning Bride, William Congreve.
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Beastboy couldn't sleep. He looked at the clock. 1 AM. He looked back up at the cieling, thoughts of Raven's behavior still running through his head. Despite the fact that Robin hadn't done anything sexual to her, he still felt betrayed. Raven had already found someone else to confide in, and it had only been one day.
"What ARE we right now?" Beastboy asked the darkness, talking about himself and Raven. "Are we still boyfriend and girlfriend? Are we even friends?" Beastboy sighed. His mouth tasted dry. He sat up and hopped down from his loft, stretching a little. He then stepped out of his door and walked dazedly through the hallway, his mind still running over his relationship with Raven.
Well, she at least hasn't killed me, which is surprising. She said she still loves me. But then she lied about Robin. Not only that, but she knows about Terra. UGH this makes no sense!
Beastboy put his internal monologue aside as he opened the door into the dark common room. He walked across the room to the kitchen. Grabbing a glass from the cupboard, he began filling it with cold tap water, hoping that a drink might help him sleep. He looked up as he heard the hiss of the door opening, seeing Raven walking towards him.
She didn't talk as she walked across the floor. Still silent, she reached up and got a small teacup, and began to prepare her tea. Beastboy felt uncomfortable standing so close to her, after all the weird things that had happened recently. He had to break the silence.
"So.. uh... what are you doing up?"
Raven's voice was still calm and monotone, no emotion at all. "I was reading. I came to get some tea."
Beastboy gulped his water quickly, feeling the refreshing cold flow into him. "I just couldn't sleep. You know, everything that's been going on."
Raven looked at him, her eyes cold and dead as usual. "I feel so bad for you." Her voice was thick with sarcasm.
"Hey, c'mon Raven. This really sucks. I hate what I did, but I can't stop dating Terra."
Beastboy felt like Raven's eyes were burning through him. She simply stared coldly at him for a few moments. "I could help you stop dating her."
Beastboy narrowed his eyes. "What do you mean by that?"
A few seconds passed. She turned away, and began walking towards the door. "Nevermind."
Beastboy jumped the counter and grabbed her shoulder. "Hey! Don't just walk off! We were talking!"
Beastboy's hand grew black, then moved seemingly by itself off of her shoulder. She turned towards him, her eyes angry. "Don't touch me, Beastboy."
The green hero was angry as well. "Don't order me around! I know you are pissed, but I still love you, and you still love me! You can't deny it!"
Raven's eyes flashed with anger, but then her face softened. She looked away suddenly. "Stop this."
Beastboy felt himself calm down. Her face... it had looked so... sad. "Hey... look... I'm sorry. You know it's true though." Beastboy decided to risk touching her again, and reached out, pulling her shoulder slightly, to turn her towards him. Her face was still hidden under the hood of her cloak, and her head was downcast.
"C'mon Raven, look at me." Beastboy put his hand under her chin, and tilted her head upwards. He gasped as he saw her tears glistening on her cheeks. Raven reached up and pulled her hood back, exposing her face, as two more tears silently ran down her face.
Beastboy felt the old feelings for her surging again inside him, and he held her close to him, embracing her. She wasn't sobbing, she was just letting the tears run down her face. As he held her, he felt her arms move, as she put them around his neck, burying her face in his shoulder.
A few moments passed, as they stood there embracing in the common room. Her familiar scent flowed through him, and he smiled, remembering how much he loved to be with her. They hadn't embraced like this in weeks. They hadn't kissed for nearly two months. Beastboy could feel that Raven was calming, taking the warmth and security of his embrace as solace.
Suddenly, she pulled her face from his shoulder and looked at him, her face still full of sadness, none of the previous anger lingered there. Her tears had dried, but she still looked ready to cry. Her violet eyes closed slowly. Beastboy remembered that it was a signal that she was ready for a kiss. He leaned in, pressing his lips to hers, and feeling her arms tighten around him.
Beastboy was surprised as she pressed back, the kiss continuing beyond the normal near pecks that she allowed him. He felt her body pressing against him as she continued kissing him, momentary breaks making the pressure seem all the more intimate. He felt her tongue run along his lips, nervously. He opened his lips slightly, adjusting the angle of the kiss as well, their tongues touching and dancing together. This was only the second time she had ever kissed him deeply.
He heard a whimper come from her, as her body shivvered slightly at the sensation of the kiss. He felt like she was melting into him, and he into her. Everything was so perfect and serene as he held her close, all his sensation focused in his mouth as their tongues moved against each other. Slowly, her lips closed, as she pulled her face away from his. He felt empty, the long kiss broken. Her eyes glistened.
He recognized that look. Terra's eyes had looked like that, when she was thanking him at the foot of Titans Tower, after their date. It was love, the glistening, happy look in Raven and Terra's eyes was love.
Raven lay her head on Beastboy's shoulder. They simply held eachother close, as the seconds ticked by on the clock. Beastboy could hardly think. The look in her eyes still haunted him, and he felt more like a curr now than ever. What he had done hadn't sunk in until now, as he held Raven, his first love.
Raven pulled away slightly, and Beastboy allowed her out of his grasp. She wasn't looking at him, instead staring down at the floor. A heavy silence fell on the room, as the two teens both thought about what had just happened.
"I... I'm sorry, Beastboy. I know that you didn't need that right now."
Beastboy shook his head. "Raven, come on. It was exactly what I needed. You reminded me of what we had. I didn't realize... what I was giving up."
Raven didn't raise her head. "Beastboy, I understand why you want to go to Terra." Raven's voice was unsteady and nervous. Beastboy was afraid of what she was going to say. "I... I can't hold you back from finding happiness."
Beastboy shook his head. "Hey, come on..."
Raven continued, ignoring him. "So... I release you. Be with her. I will... I will do as I always do. I'll fight my own demons, alone."
Beastboy took a tentative step forward. "Raven, you can't..."
"There is nothing else I can do, Beastboy. You couldn't choose. I chose for you. Good...Goodbye, Beastboy." Raven turned quickly, tear droplets falling through the air. She walked out of the room, and Beastboy could only stand there, stunned, as she left.
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The next day approached slowly for Beastboy. He had returned to his room, knowing that nothing he said could change Raven's mind, not immediately anyway. However, he wasn't able to sleep at all, his mind haunted by her words.
"Goodbye, Beastboy." The words still burned in his mind. He'd lost her. He had known that she would be angry at his date with Terra, but he'd never expected this. His heart felt cold and lifeless. There was an aching in his chest that he felt would never go away, and his stomach seemed to be grinding itself to powder.
"Stupid! Stupid stupid stupid!" Beastboy berated himself to the air. How could he have done this? He was a good person! He wasn't the kind of guy to cheat on a girl!
But he had. The inescapable fact was that he'd done it, and there was no way to deny it. Terra hadn't done anything wrong. She had only been following her heart. Beastboy latched on to something there. What did his heart want? Had he been following it's wishes when he went out with Terra? It seemed like he had been. He'd been very happy, holding Terra, and kissing her. Being loved openly, happily, and exhubrantly had made him very content, very happy.
He'd lost Raven, but it wasn't the end of the world. Beastboy looked at the clock. It was about that time, time to go to the kitchen and make breakfast for the team. He got up, did his quick calisthenics, and left his room. The morning routine was still the same, even if he hadn't slept.
He walked down the hallway, cheerfully whistling. He'd lost Raven as a girlfriend, but he could possibly keep her as a friend. Surely she couldn't be so cold as to deny him that. He walked into the common room, and over to the kitchen, getting a few pounds of tofu out of the refridgerator. He never got tired of the stuff.
He cooked it, happily moving about as the frying pan sizzled. For some reason, cheerfulness was all he could feel, after realizing that Terra could probably make him happier than Raven could anyway. He'd made the right choice, or at least Raven had. As long as he could date Terra, and still be friends with Raven, he'd be happy.
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It wasn't long before the customary breakfast crew arrived. A nearly normal day was starting. Cyborg complained about the tofu, even to the point of fixing himself some real eggs to eat. Robin ate the eggs without complaint, and Starfire happily complimented Beastboy on the food, as she seasoned her eggs with chives and paprika. Everyone tried to ignore Starfire's weird tastes in food. Terra, the only unusual bit of the morning, was hugging Beastboy constantly, smiling and laughing as the casual conversation drifted over the breakfast table.
Breakfast was over, and everyone was helping to put away the dishes. Starfire suddenly looked around with concern. "Friends, Raven has not come out of her room for tea. Perhaps you know a reason?"
Robin and Beastboy exchanged glances, but no one noticed. Robin spoke up. "I'll go check on her. I'm sure she's fine though."
Starfire smiled. Robin was a good friend, and she was honored that she was allowed to live with him and the others in the tower. She watched him leave, distracted from the normal chores. She blushed as she heard Terra giggling.
"Starfire! You're dripping orange juice! Pay attention to the dishes, not to Robin!"
Starfire giggled, righting the cup that had fallen over.
Robin stopped in front of Raven's door, and knocked. He wasn't nervous about speaking with her, but he didn't like disturbing her either. Robin heard some rustling in the room, and then the door opened, and Raven stood before him once more. Her hair was unkempt, her costume was wrinkled, her cloak was missing, and her eyes were red.
"Uh, Sorry to wake you. We were worried when you didnt' come out for tea. You ok?"
Raven nodded slowly, stepping back and signaling for Robin to enter. He stepped inside the room, and looked around. Everything was the same as usual, no differences. Raven crossed the room and lay back down on her bed. She sighed heavily, obviously still tired.
"You didn't answer me. Are you ok, Raven?"
Raven patted the bed near her. Robin walked over and sat down, uncertain what she was planning. She looked up at him from where she was laying on her back.
"I need to apologize to you. It was wrong for me to decieve Beastboy like that."
Robin nodded. "It's ok. He felt back for attacking me after it was all explained."
Raven sighed. "The problem is, I didn't do it. HE did. Trigon. My Father."
Robin listened to her. He didn't want to think about her dark side.
"He took control of me. He used me to insinuate that you and I had... that we had made love." Raven looked irritated at having to say it aloud.
"What are you going to do? You can't have his influence control you like that."
Raven closed her eyes. "I'm not sure. Just tell everyone that I requested to be left alone today. I don't want to talk to anyone."
Robin nodded, trying to think of some way to comfort her. "I'll make sure no one bothers you. You just make sure that he doesn't come to the surface and bother anyone else."
Raven used her powers to open the door, and Robin got the hint. He stopped in the doorway. "Just remember, we are here if you need us. We'll stay out of your way today, but I'm always available. Just keep it in mind."
Raven nodded, and Robin left her room. He listened at the door for a moment. He only heard two words.
"Goodbye, Beastboy."
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A/N: No, she's not going to kill herself or anything. She's just trying to convince herself that he's gone from her life. Anyway, here's update one for the day. I'll try to get another up by midnight. Raven's bottled emotions are surfacing, and she can't help but let them out. Next update, Terra and Raven meet, despite Robin's warning. Look forwad to it later tonight. See you then!
Review Responses:
Ravenn03: I tend to base it on the show in order to allow a bit of authenticity. However, I don't plan on quoting more episodes or anything, that was a one time bit. Terra doesn't have a decent backstory in the animated series, so I had to use the bit provided. Regardless, as the story progresses, it gets darker than the show and stops feeling like an episode anyway. Glad you like the fic, however.
Jakked-Up: I've been updating at least daily! Heh. I'll aim for two today, just for fun.
Moonfirefire: Glad you like it.
SoraOathKeeper: Glad you liked Raven's little ploy. If I continue writing fics, I'll probably end up paying for six months' service or something.
Snowy: Glad you liked it. Here's another.
A/N: The review responses are based on the reviews that have arrived in my email, at the point in time that the next chapter is finished. I apologize for weird effects, like Ravenn03's chapter three review being answered in chapter 5.
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A Woman Scorned
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"Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." - The Mourning Bride, William Congreve.
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Beastboy couldn't sleep. He looked at the clock. 1 AM. He looked back up at the cieling, thoughts of Raven's behavior still running through his head. Despite the fact that Robin hadn't done anything sexual to her, he still felt betrayed. Raven had already found someone else to confide in, and it had only been one day.
"What ARE we right now?" Beastboy asked the darkness, talking about himself and Raven. "Are we still boyfriend and girlfriend? Are we even friends?" Beastboy sighed. His mouth tasted dry. He sat up and hopped down from his loft, stretching a little. He then stepped out of his door and walked dazedly through the hallway, his mind still running over his relationship with Raven.
Well, she at least hasn't killed me, which is surprising. She said she still loves me. But then she lied about Robin. Not only that, but she knows about Terra. UGH this makes no sense!
Beastboy put his internal monologue aside as he opened the door into the dark common room. He walked across the room to the kitchen. Grabbing a glass from the cupboard, he began filling it with cold tap water, hoping that a drink might help him sleep. He looked up as he heard the hiss of the door opening, seeing Raven walking towards him.
She didn't talk as she walked across the floor. Still silent, she reached up and got a small teacup, and began to prepare her tea. Beastboy felt uncomfortable standing so close to her, after all the weird things that had happened recently. He had to break the silence.
"So.. uh... what are you doing up?"
Raven's voice was still calm and monotone, no emotion at all. "I was reading. I came to get some tea."
Beastboy gulped his water quickly, feeling the refreshing cold flow into him. "I just couldn't sleep. You know, everything that's been going on."
Raven looked at him, her eyes cold and dead as usual. "I feel so bad for you." Her voice was thick with sarcasm.
"Hey, c'mon Raven. This really sucks. I hate what I did, but I can't stop dating Terra."
Beastboy felt like Raven's eyes were burning through him. She simply stared coldly at him for a few moments. "I could help you stop dating her."
Beastboy narrowed his eyes. "What do you mean by that?"
A few seconds passed. She turned away, and began walking towards the door. "Nevermind."
Beastboy jumped the counter and grabbed her shoulder. "Hey! Don't just walk off! We were talking!"
Beastboy's hand grew black, then moved seemingly by itself off of her shoulder. She turned towards him, her eyes angry. "Don't touch me, Beastboy."
The green hero was angry as well. "Don't order me around! I know you are pissed, but I still love you, and you still love me! You can't deny it!"
Raven's eyes flashed with anger, but then her face softened. She looked away suddenly. "Stop this."
Beastboy felt himself calm down. Her face... it had looked so... sad. "Hey... look... I'm sorry. You know it's true though." Beastboy decided to risk touching her again, and reached out, pulling her shoulder slightly, to turn her towards him. Her face was still hidden under the hood of her cloak, and her head was downcast.
"C'mon Raven, look at me." Beastboy put his hand under her chin, and tilted her head upwards. He gasped as he saw her tears glistening on her cheeks. Raven reached up and pulled her hood back, exposing her face, as two more tears silently ran down her face.
Beastboy felt the old feelings for her surging again inside him, and he held her close to him, embracing her. She wasn't sobbing, she was just letting the tears run down her face. As he held her, he felt her arms move, as she put them around his neck, burying her face in his shoulder.
A few moments passed, as they stood there embracing in the common room. Her familiar scent flowed through him, and he smiled, remembering how much he loved to be with her. They hadn't embraced like this in weeks. They hadn't kissed for nearly two months. Beastboy could feel that Raven was calming, taking the warmth and security of his embrace as solace.
Suddenly, she pulled her face from his shoulder and looked at him, her face still full of sadness, none of the previous anger lingered there. Her tears had dried, but she still looked ready to cry. Her violet eyes closed slowly. Beastboy remembered that it was a signal that she was ready for a kiss. He leaned in, pressing his lips to hers, and feeling her arms tighten around him.
Beastboy was surprised as she pressed back, the kiss continuing beyond the normal near pecks that she allowed him. He felt her body pressing against him as she continued kissing him, momentary breaks making the pressure seem all the more intimate. He felt her tongue run along his lips, nervously. He opened his lips slightly, adjusting the angle of the kiss as well, their tongues touching and dancing together. This was only the second time she had ever kissed him deeply.
He heard a whimper come from her, as her body shivvered slightly at the sensation of the kiss. He felt like she was melting into him, and he into her. Everything was so perfect and serene as he held her close, all his sensation focused in his mouth as their tongues moved against each other. Slowly, her lips closed, as she pulled her face away from his. He felt empty, the long kiss broken. Her eyes glistened.
He recognized that look. Terra's eyes had looked like that, when she was thanking him at the foot of Titans Tower, after their date. It was love, the glistening, happy look in Raven and Terra's eyes was love.
Raven lay her head on Beastboy's shoulder. They simply held eachother close, as the seconds ticked by on the clock. Beastboy could hardly think. The look in her eyes still haunted him, and he felt more like a curr now than ever. What he had done hadn't sunk in until now, as he held Raven, his first love.
Raven pulled away slightly, and Beastboy allowed her out of his grasp. She wasn't looking at him, instead staring down at the floor. A heavy silence fell on the room, as the two teens both thought about what had just happened.
"I... I'm sorry, Beastboy. I know that you didn't need that right now."
Beastboy shook his head. "Raven, come on. It was exactly what I needed. You reminded me of what we had. I didn't realize... what I was giving up."
Raven didn't raise her head. "Beastboy, I understand why you want to go to Terra." Raven's voice was unsteady and nervous. Beastboy was afraid of what she was going to say. "I... I can't hold you back from finding happiness."
Beastboy shook his head. "Hey, come on..."
Raven continued, ignoring him. "So... I release you. Be with her. I will... I will do as I always do. I'll fight my own demons, alone."
Beastboy took a tentative step forward. "Raven, you can't..."
"There is nothing else I can do, Beastboy. You couldn't choose. I chose for you. Good...Goodbye, Beastboy." Raven turned quickly, tear droplets falling through the air. She walked out of the room, and Beastboy could only stand there, stunned, as she left.
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The next day approached slowly for Beastboy. He had returned to his room, knowing that nothing he said could change Raven's mind, not immediately anyway. However, he wasn't able to sleep at all, his mind haunted by her words.
"Goodbye, Beastboy." The words still burned in his mind. He'd lost her. He had known that she would be angry at his date with Terra, but he'd never expected this. His heart felt cold and lifeless. There was an aching in his chest that he felt would never go away, and his stomach seemed to be grinding itself to powder.
"Stupid! Stupid stupid stupid!" Beastboy berated himself to the air. How could he have done this? He was a good person! He wasn't the kind of guy to cheat on a girl!
But he had. The inescapable fact was that he'd done it, and there was no way to deny it. Terra hadn't done anything wrong. She had only been following her heart. Beastboy latched on to something there. What did his heart want? Had he been following it's wishes when he went out with Terra? It seemed like he had been. He'd been very happy, holding Terra, and kissing her. Being loved openly, happily, and exhubrantly had made him very content, very happy.
He'd lost Raven, but it wasn't the end of the world. Beastboy looked at the clock. It was about that time, time to go to the kitchen and make breakfast for the team. He got up, did his quick calisthenics, and left his room. The morning routine was still the same, even if he hadn't slept.
He walked down the hallway, cheerfully whistling. He'd lost Raven as a girlfriend, but he could possibly keep her as a friend. Surely she couldn't be so cold as to deny him that. He walked into the common room, and over to the kitchen, getting a few pounds of tofu out of the refridgerator. He never got tired of the stuff.
He cooked it, happily moving about as the frying pan sizzled. For some reason, cheerfulness was all he could feel, after realizing that Terra could probably make him happier than Raven could anyway. He'd made the right choice, or at least Raven had. As long as he could date Terra, and still be friends with Raven, he'd be happy.
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It wasn't long before the customary breakfast crew arrived. A nearly normal day was starting. Cyborg complained about the tofu, even to the point of fixing himself some real eggs to eat. Robin ate the eggs without complaint, and Starfire happily complimented Beastboy on the food, as she seasoned her eggs with chives and paprika. Everyone tried to ignore Starfire's weird tastes in food. Terra, the only unusual bit of the morning, was hugging Beastboy constantly, smiling and laughing as the casual conversation drifted over the breakfast table.
Breakfast was over, and everyone was helping to put away the dishes. Starfire suddenly looked around with concern. "Friends, Raven has not come out of her room for tea. Perhaps you know a reason?"
Robin and Beastboy exchanged glances, but no one noticed. Robin spoke up. "I'll go check on her. I'm sure she's fine though."
Starfire smiled. Robin was a good friend, and she was honored that she was allowed to live with him and the others in the tower. She watched him leave, distracted from the normal chores. She blushed as she heard Terra giggling.
"Starfire! You're dripping orange juice! Pay attention to the dishes, not to Robin!"
Starfire giggled, righting the cup that had fallen over.
Robin stopped in front of Raven's door, and knocked. He wasn't nervous about speaking with her, but he didn't like disturbing her either. Robin heard some rustling in the room, and then the door opened, and Raven stood before him once more. Her hair was unkempt, her costume was wrinkled, her cloak was missing, and her eyes were red.
"Uh, Sorry to wake you. We were worried when you didnt' come out for tea. You ok?"
Raven nodded slowly, stepping back and signaling for Robin to enter. He stepped inside the room, and looked around. Everything was the same as usual, no differences. Raven crossed the room and lay back down on her bed. She sighed heavily, obviously still tired.
"You didn't answer me. Are you ok, Raven?"
Raven patted the bed near her. Robin walked over and sat down, uncertain what she was planning. She looked up at him from where she was laying on her back.
"I need to apologize to you. It was wrong for me to decieve Beastboy like that."
Robin nodded. "It's ok. He felt back for attacking me after it was all explained."
Raven sighed. "The problem is, I didn't do it. HE did. Trigon. My Father."
Robin listened to her. He didn't want to think about her dark side.
"He took control of me. He used me to insinuate that you and I had... that we had made love." Raven looked irritated at having to say it aloud.
"What are you going to do? You can't have his influence control you like that."
Raven closed her eyes. "I'm not sure. Just tell everyone that I requested to be left alone today. I don't want to talk to anyone."
Robin nodded, trying to think of some way to comfort her. "I'll make sure no one bothers you. You just make sure that he doesn't come to the surface and bother anyone else."
Raven used her powers to open the door, and Robin got the hint. He stopped in the doorway. "Just remember, we are here if you need us. We'll stay out of your way today, but I'm always available. Just keep it in mind."
Raven nodded, and Robin left her room. He listened at the door for a moment. He only heard two words.
"Goodbye, Beastboy."
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A/N: No, she's not going to kill herself or anything. She's just trying to convince herself that he's gone from her life. Anyway, here's update one for the day. I'll try to get another up by midnight. Raven's bottled emotions are surfacing, and she can't help but let them out. Next update, Terra and Raven meet, despite Robin's warning. Look forwad to it later tonight. See you then!